results were disappointing..expected better but hope all will be well after moderation. i have put up a big sign saying RJC on my noticebd. it's a motivation (it works!), it's a goal. had a rj talk in sch today, the principal was over 2m tall!!!! but somehow, despite all these talks by jcs(and the very apparent rivalry among hc and rj...i mean VERY VERY apparent)my determination to go rj has never been wavered. once a rafflesian, always one! it's a pact between eve and i.

moderation results coming out nxt wk. high high probability that they will moderate amaths, to my relief, and hope they do so for the sciences. i must mug frm now on, so i shall not blog for a REALLY REALLY LONG time...haha, even blogs hibernate.

have been calling my sises online..it's so fun! this program called skype. if u have a mike, u can jus tok over the internet free! even conferences (meaning more than 1 person). hopefully my mum can learn how to on the comp herself (though it's quite tough -- she has difficulties controlling the mousie!). well, she's a housewife, quite a relaxing life actually..haha, since all her kids are grown. but of cos no sane, educated woman of singapore nowadays will give up her 20 years of education, striving for the best instituition, the best results, in hope for the best career just like that. not me at least *shrugs* actually, that's the crux of our population prob...no matter how much incentive u offer, there's still this problem with no resolutions.

The Waste Land

In this decayed hole among the mountains
In the faint moonlight, the grass is singing
Over the tumbled graves, about the chapel
It has no windows, and the door swings,
Dry bones can harm no one.
Only a cock stood on the rooftree
Co co rico, co co rico
In a flash of lightning. Then a damp gust
Bringing rain

Ganga was sunken, and the limp leaves
Waited for rain, while the black clouds
Gathered far distant, over Himavant.
The jungle crouched, humped in silence.
Then spoke the thunder

~T. S. Eliot


savour the words of this poem....
nature will triumph over mankind

yay!!! most of the ppl are rejoicing now, cos prelims are over!!! so weird rite? it was such a BIG thing, but now it's over so quickly.

my sis left last night...miss her...we are practically everything in the world...partners in crime, sis, frens,enemies, loggerheads. we know each other like we know ourselves...currently i'm at home with only my mum.

niwae, watched dodgeball on wed..such a crap show, but well, laughed it all off after 2 wks of torment. i cant imagine picking up momentum to study again. shudnt haf gone to sch today, cos it was quite waste time, esp cos the TJ peeps nv come on schedule, so we had some exam malpractice and HC talk. i'm still set on RJ. i'm a rafflesian!! IF i can make it. but hor, if i cant get into RJ or HC,
slacked the past few days away, life's wonderful, time passed so quickly....for now.
looking fwd to my blog layout tht's in the making, thnks to eve!!

trying to take a breather after 4 days strt of torment.
i swear i wrote the longest zuo wen and gong han in this 2 yrs yesterday! i was so proud of myself. inspiration jus kept flowing. i was so hungry after that that my carnivourous instincts emerged...just ask felly. i tried to bite her innocent hand *beams*

and today sucked. amaths sucked. I nearly cried looking at the qns for the first time. i was just stuck. for a moment i thought God gave up on me or something, and i was praying so hard, 'God dun abandon me'. Perhaps He's too busy, everybody in the hall must have been praying. but i was so proud of myself! i could do the vector-relative velocity qn *beams*

then had geog, which was quite gd! but my hand ached so much after tht. and i came home and slept. my first afternoon nap in how long... i feel as if the exams are almost finished. but the bombers are coming next wk, together, phy and chem and amaths p2. i so love it. but at least they are kind enuf to give us a wkend. geog p1 is tmr, such brainless arrangement, make us go back for like one hr...but b4 that got bio...haha. but seriously, they shudnt haf put geog and amaths together. THEY SHOULD TRY IT FOR THEMSELVES. does it please them to impose such pain on us? we are jus young innocent 16 yr old minds.

btw, read my prev entry too..if u hafnt :)

these days and especially the previous wk, life has been B-O-R-I-N-G boring.trapped at home, limited tv watching, work and work and work. if some one were to write an account of a typical day in the life of a 16 yr old singaporean, it will be

wake up
breakfast
work
lunch
work
dinner
work
sleep

life would haf been worse if not for my handphone game, honeyball!! i'm addicted! ha, sometimes, i tou lan, read TGIS, which is less laborous, and use it as an excuse to slack, but oh well, it's work too! oh btw, lit was so lucky for me!!! i jus finished reading tht part of the bk for the passaged based *beams* emaths today was not bad, easier than i thot it wud be, but i made 2 careless mistakes...>.< careless mistakes are worse than anything else...

was looking at my uniform, and i was thinking, i will miss it so much..u noe, there's this sense of belonging. had lotsa wandering thots during this period of boredom. like, i always wonder if i'm too selfish, always thinking abt myself, the things i want to do, the kind of life i want to lead, I, I, I . but, life's like that, it's either, u do what u want to do, lead your life, or u live up to other's expectations and live they way they want u to live. *shrugs* life's full of ambiguity..

yay, haf gone past 3.5 subjects! hope all goes well for chi compo tmr. it's the 1st time this yr i haf worked so hard on my zao ju.. yay, there's Lavender (the chi movie) on SCV the second day after prelims!!! gonna watch my takeshi *beams* and relax a bit. ha, eve, marilyn and i were toking abt missing the first 3 mths of JC if we end up in CJ or Meridien with our prelim marks....haha,then we can go work or travel! , but i dun think my dad will allow..duh.

oh wellz, gd luck to all!

eve is definitely grieving over the end of olympics man...me and my sis were discussing abt rhythmic gym and how they make things look incredibly easy, doing splits (which exceed 180 degrees) and bending their bodies like nobody's business..

studying is madness...i told my sis dun be shocked if i get a bit cranky or too high..studying too much here. time's running out..haha, make u stressed...okie, tata

i'm damn high today...must be the haw flakes..i ate like 4 tubes today.

watched this damn nice show called "Lassie" with my mum, abt a collie sheepdog..so touching. ha, eve and many ppl are grieving over the end of the olympics..so fast..haiz, and i missed my synchronised swimming!!

my dad's gonna get a new comp!! hallelujah!! chem pract was not bad! but ppl haf very different results for titration but i believe in myself!! then jessie taught me a bit of french during quarantine time. therefore, my msn nick noir et blanc...sounds so cool rite..haha
so lazy to blog more..tata