ok, i wanna make an amendment to an earlier post abt having superficial frens. they dun include those in a03b, k? hahah, i've been bugged by kad, so im changing my statement.

maybe i shouldnt have agreed to help my sister out with the makeup for this theatre production nxt wk, cos i have a few events nxt wk, namely choir concert and fran's party. i hope i can attend the party, i guess it wud be a gd time to catch up with old frens, and i guess its time for some fun before promos. hmm, toking abt promos, i seirously have never gotten back on track ever since after CTs. and tht is not positive. it doesnt help that pw sucks big time, and there's a new lit bk coming up which we have to read, so many overdue time mags to read, and so so so many things to do.

today is truly a blessing!! i met eve (whom i havent seen since mar) and jas and weishyuan (since mar too) in town after i went back to rg to see my beloved juniors!! the musical is qt gd and surely funny! i realise how much creative capacity we were given back then. ok, partly cos im not in a performing cca now. well, but i rmb those days when i was bored like them sitting there, waiting for instructions, wishing that things will end soon... oh well. u nv noe what u got till it's gone. but i think i miss choral music the most.
oh then just now, steph rang me to chat. oh man!! thnks so much for calling preethi!!it makes me feel so much better and it jus brings back memories of gd old 401 days.... we both agreed tht rgs was the best place ever and 401 was the most memorable thing ever. well, maybe im not alone abt the having few close frens in jc, and even then, are they jus superficial frens?

seem to have lost zhao ...dunno wat happened to her, but well, shall write to her soon niwae. time to catch up with old frens.

ok, i've been asked by kad to blog abt him cos its his bday. fine! happy bday kad, and u better be ncie to me from now on cos of all the privileges u enjoyed today frm me tolerating everything today!!! and u owe me my one yr's supply of godiva's chocolate!!!

i've been qt tired these few days, frm sleeping late and frm a bit of stress lah..hahah, cos work is building up and ive totally lost my studying momentum and im so scared abt my promos.... but nevertheless, there's always time for fun and play. i prob maxed my allowance this month ....argh!!

was listening to "I'll Hear Your Voice" and am missing squigs ALL OVER AGAIN. i cant even rmb my part for the song! maybe MAYBE, if squigs ever reunite to SING again, we really should hear our voices again! *breaks down*

school was qt fun today.
1) NO AFTERNOON PE!!! those pe slots after 3om were cancelled..i wonder why, but i dun really care!!

2)we threw jingheng's pencil box out of the window (onto the corridor) during PW. it was pretty darn funny! yiwei and i luffed till our stomachs ached. The funny thing was how the ppl gave us weird looks when the pencil box ended up i front of them!!

3)went out to j8 after sch and rach, chris and i betted on yiwei and dared her to do funny stuff at mac's. and she chose frm a range of acts, including, walking past a table and jus taking a fry frm someone's tray. hahah, the perfect chance came when a grp of lower sec ri boys walked in, with a bottle of root beer and rabbit swts (dun ask me why they have it). so we dared her to go and tell the boys "can i have some (root beer) and some sweets too?" HILARIOUS!!! omg...hahah, amazingly the boys let her take the drinks without much resistance but they said the swts were not meant for her.. hahahah. we cldnt stop luffing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

haha, after lessons we went to lib to study actually..how hardwking rite?? then we went to thai express for soft shell crab!! after deciding that it is very nice when grace ate it the last time. but the body was bitter and only the legs were nice and crispy. how disappointing..

haha, suddenly rmbed an incident. me zul and rach were walking behind this couple whom we know, then zul went AHEM very loudly and squeeezed thru them..hahah! hilraious!!!

wow, this is my 169th post, ever since i started blogging...hmm.

i have been relatively efficient today! accomplishing more than the past 2 wks. i've gotten back my lit paper, got a C for the whole sub. an A for robert frost (AMAZING RITE!!!), C for shakespeare, and E for pratical criticism. hmm, things look bright for frost..but i agree that it is not that hard to identify the theme and all, its all the writing. do you know how much i wished that AO chi is a core A level subject?? i will surely take A chi instd of lit. FOR SURE! i feel much more comfortable with chi and im sure it has a brighter future than my lit.. :(

oh well, my accomplishments for today-- econs essay part a) and maths remedial wksht. hey, provided that i came home at 4 + and slacked qt a bit, this is qt a feat. hahahha!

today in sch...hmm. mm took over gp so we had our last block off! woohoo~~ the happiest day ever. and amazingly mm is in a pretty gd mood today...hmmm

my song of the moment is sooo The Way You Look Tonight. Not long ago, it was Smooth Operator..hahah

i forgot to mention my thots abt the movie 8 women. hmm, grace and i both concluded that french women are very beautiful. not necessarily pretty, but they just exude a type of elegance. plus the nuances of their language...its just wonderful! and most of the time, they are just picture perfect, a black gown, a fur stole, curls, red lips, pearls, glass of wine in one hand, pipe in the other, deep intense eyes.

hmm, my pace of work can never be recovered ever since the CT's ended. i jus find myself being so extremely inefficient everyday, accomplishing so little everyday. and now, the wkends are voer AGAIN!!! why so fast!! why cant there be wkends that are 4 days long?

*to kad, yes, ur 4am wake up calls are GREATLY APPRECIATED! ahahahha!!!

went to collect my yrbk yest and wanted to go visit choir! but they had an ext conductor, so i didnt wanna disturb. how i miss hearing choral music!!!!!! its been ages since i;ve come into contact with choral music and singing classically :'( i miss it sooooo much.
then went to town and met up with grace, walked arnd a bit and then met my mum and sis.

today, had interact installation, reached there at 10 to help blow balloons and do a bit of decor...haiz, was bored stiff. i think majority of the interactors dun give a damn abt installation ...hahah, tho its meant to be sth very impt etc...its jus so different frm say....choir farewel party and handover. the size is comparable, but not that spirit and bond among one another.

nwiae, college day was in the morn, then jazz club was playing at the reception. was so nice!! inspires me to try for jazz nxt yr. hmm...

with mr ali in his china man costume, complete with a fan

class!

look wat evilers weijie and grace are doing to me!! :(

tada! costume change! this nice pink sari looks suspiciously like what i wore last yr...jus tht it was green...hmmm

me in tv's punjabi suit

weijie, me, grace, chris and rachel

photos galore!! coming up real soon, of rachila harmony day. well, i guess today was really qt fun and we won the best dressed thing cos ali asked our whole class to wear, so oh well, even tho we embarassed ourselves..having to go onstage, but its qt fun! but i think rhd in rg is MUCH better! the atmosphere is so much better.
hmm, so today was qt relaxed and lessons passed REALLY fast! hahah, and we watched a french movie for GP, called 8 women. its a very special plot, but with some issues of homosexuality and incest...HMM...oh well, today was fun!

i dun like this....argh.....sth is disturbing me and its not a solvable problem in the foresee-able future... :(

ah, well otherwise today was qt alrite. went out with grace to walk arnd and had NSW eng after tht. not very positive. my vocab and english terminology sucks big time. i seriously dunno all the preposition, nouns, pronouns, yada yada and half of the time i was guessing for the vocab qns. would rather have gone for badminton actually....

my hair has grown out so quickly! in jus 2 / 3 wks time. when it grows to a certain length, it starts to lose shape. hmm..

today has been a gd day! hahaha, well, the sch was flooded, and the amphi was almost turning into a lake. at the climax, the water was coming in in ripples and we attempted to create an isolated island of dry floor amidst the water. qt funny! i've nv ever seen a sch flood that badly. besides, there was also those potholes bobbing and spurting water and the steps frm the parade sq that formed a wonderful waterfall. time to think abt the sch's drainage!

went for vege talk after that. it was rather compelling! grace and i are affected to start a semi vege diet. there were 3 aspects-health, ethics and economics. health, well, we all noe that meat contains toxins and etc etc. then ethics. this was the most..compelling part. we watched a video on the slaughtering of the animals. VERY SAD. anyone who felt indifferent to that video is not human. for example, cows (even diary cows) are abused and used till they are old and dry and then they are hung upside down, their throats slit, and the blood left to flow till they die. this is cos if the blood remains in the body, the meat will turn bad. it is damn sad and gross. so well....since im not a big fan of meat...i guess i can maintain a fairly vegetarian diet. but i cant take it out of my life totally. hmm, and the economics part - 3 kilos of grain is used to feed 1 kilo of chicken , etc etc and it is very inefficient, esp if the grain and wheats etc can be used to feed many hungry ppl (forgot the figs) with a vege diet. so if we maintain a vege diet, even for a short period, we cut down the consumption of meat and we can save lives and prevent deaths from starvation!

photos make blogs interesting. i think my blog is qt a bore..hmm...but i have no nice pics..oh well

there was this random link at the msn messenger page, so i went to click it www2.meegos.com

it's so fun! but u've to pay to download the characters. u can go there and create a character with diff hairstyles, diff accessories, etc. its qt fun! hahah

i attempted to change my frenster pics but sadly, ive realised that my reserve of photos is qt pathetically small... hmm....shall aim to take more pics

my mum is going for a surgery to remove a foreign object in her uterus tmr. i guess it's times like that which really make ppl stop and think about love. parent-child love is invisible, and im not one who expresses such emotions often, so it takes events like this to really think thru it and realise how much love our parents have showered upon us. I can never give back the magnitude of love that my mum shows me. so what i..and we can do is to just show that little appreciation for all the little things that our parents do for us, give them more patience, throw less tantrums. mum, i love you.

argh..damn stressed abt EOM which is due tmr. i hate pw to the bones k....
hmm, service today was alrite, had to sort out some schedule stuff with the principal. so we will be embarking on a project to make use of old flower pots to decorate the school's old flower beds (empty now) so we will be painting them for the many many many sessions to come. i guess its quite fun too! but less interaction with the kids.

my sis is an absolute smarty pants. arghhhhh. studying seems like such a breeze to her!! i dun understand why!!!! so today, the svc grp were freaking out abt how near promos are, and how its gonna decide our fates for THE REST OF OUR LIVES. face it.

promos = S paper = Scholarship= overseas study =EVERYTHING

ZHI XIN IS GONNA MUG FOR HER PROMOS.
tht is it. my goal. so dun say im a mugger or a doot kia or ANTH! cos to achieve my goal, i have to sacrifice things. and i badly badly want to achieve my goal

hmm...got back most of our papers today. im fine with mine...within expectation, but (as always) there's rm for improvement. i hate getting back my maths papers cos there's SURELY sth that u cud have done or done better. tht kinda thing...oh well. everyone!! work hard for promos!!

went to town with grace cat and tv during our 2 hrs brk, and got back to pe late..but the tcher didnt seem to notice..hahah. nth significant today..jus tht our class starts to realise that we're hugely............problematic? i dunno wats the word for it lah..but i do agree. hmm. i think the most impt thing is to keep one's individuality amidst all other influences. can be really hard. but i guess, everyone needs to set out their goals clearly and not be wavered easily ( i cant promise i can do tht...but i do try to..) and things will turn out better :)

if i had the choice and if a career is not just abt money for survival, there would a gazillion things i would love to do. fashion design, jewelry design, costume design, cross stitch, handmaking cards, designing notebks (haha!), candle making, yadayada..the list goes on. as you can see, they are totally unrelated to calculations, theories and all other undesirable stuff (sadly those tht earn you the money). oh how i wish i can do those for all my life. can you imagine wasting your life away in an office? doing things you don't like? i hope you don't hear me complain about dreading to go to work, cos i dun wanna fall into the line where ppl jus do what they have to do. i wanna do what i LOVE TO do.

i think i seriously need some artistic indulgence. the one and only concert i've been to this yr is the rj chorale concert...which was like march???? and there was this burst of all the concerts in apr and may, and the times werent too convenient. and...nobody really informed me of other schs one...like the vj tsd one...argh! so the nxt concert im going will be rg choir.

my dad changed his phone to a nokia 7260! finally a camera phone in the hse!! hahah, we took funny pics of ourselves. cant wait for my 2 yr plan to be up so tht i can change to a phone with camera!

had install rehearse yest and the side gates fo rj AND ri were closed. its qt dumb cos sometimes the ri one is open lorr....and i think its not a very practical thing to do cos im sure there's a substantial no. of students who come by the backgate. perhaps they shud allocate opening times in the morn when ppl come for ccas. yeah, so 4 interact ppl were there and we decided to climb over the gate. after celebrating our success, a security guard came to reprimand us and threaten to show the principal the video frm the surveillance camera. then we jus walked for a while (supposedly follow him to see the principal) then he stopped and asked us why we did tht, who's our cca tcher etc etc. and he let us off in the end. we pretty much geussed it cos it was too much trouble. but oh well!!! but yeah lah, its a bad thing to do!

hmm...cant believe wkends pass so quickly. why why why why why? results shud be coming in this wk...so all the best to all.

whoo~ today was a rather nice day! except for sth/ somebody and this thing tht really disturbs me and i cant stop thinking abt it...hmmm

nwiae, PE today was supposed to be the IOC tok thing, which we alrdy had on tue, so our class joined a j2 class to play handball. alrite lah, qt fun. and i did sth damn silly! ahha, the ball was aiming for me and i stupidly dodged it! i must have been out of my mind for that one sec...hahahh!! so amused by myself! hmm, then priya, yiwei, lulu rach and i hung out at the canteen to cheng tng together! hahaha, and wj did this damn funny thing to lulu!!! the rest of us noe and we were luffing like mad, while lulu is still in the dark.................hahahha!!!! ok, so after cheng tng-ing, we spotted my magic fren sinyong (eh, sinyong! everybody claims to be ur best fren know...hahahha!!!!) and he did this super cool trick.

its called 3 card sth. so there are 2 black and 1 red cards. and for the finale, he folded the edge of the red card to let us see where the read card is moving, while he constantly changes the positions of the cards. THEN. LO AND BEHOLD! the red card (which we can see clearly from the folded edge) changed into a black card!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah, priya and yiwei were so traumatised tht they screamed!! hahah... well, it's qt impactful cos u really see it with ur own eyes so clearly....hahah, but oh well, magic is abt illusion and speed, so i guess the speed part really requires lots of practice. jia you sinyong!

today is qt a slack day in sch, witho no GP and no geog lect.

hmm, some ppl said some stuff tht hurt a little. not intentional i know, but it just did...but it set me thinking as well. abt who i am and what i want. do i want approval frm myself? frm my parents? my siblings? my friends? or am i someone who's jus simply living for myself?

i am grateful to be born into my family, a wonderful family (tho sometimes i think it is a little dysfunctional, our relationship with our relatives, and the silence and lack of communication bet me and my parents at times...), privileged and leading a comfortable life. But living in this family comes with loads of considerations and obligations. my sisters are ace students and there are things expected from me, academically. and I, being someone who understands the need to be elite ( in this elitist world) is inclined to conform to these expectations, not wanting to disappoint my parents or get into trouble with them. but i want to do so much more!! i want to have fun, i want to do all tht i've dreamt of doing. im qt a half-half person. half half in faith, in studies, in passion, in having and being fun. WHO AM I??? REALLY??

seriously i would rather be a person complete in one aspect than be myself, half half at everything and not complete at anything at all. that is a very pessimistic view of myself, but i think its true. im just hoping that sth gd will happen to me and i will not have to be so weighed down by considerations expectation obilgations and really be carefree, and do what i want.


tht sounds so out of reach

whoo..sch was alrite today. but having to go back for lit 2 hrs after the other lessons is just such a spoiler...and its not as if lit is sth so looked forward to. but mm was in qt a gd mood today. had a new tcher for PC and i guess he is equally nice as the prev one....yeah, and he actually he said he doesnt ppl not going for his lessons. hahah.
oh well, so yiwei, jy, chris, grace, rach and i went to j8 in an attempt to use up our 2 hrs quickly. i had $2 nuggets!! yum yummmm..hahhaha!! then we got back rather early, so we went to the lib and i borrowed les miserables. i rmbed i tried to read it once but failed. so i got the abridged version, hopefully, lighter too. :)

sch was tolerable.
grace and i had to wander arnd in the morn cos lt 2 was locked.
lit lect was fine, but she jus keeps repeating her pt.
i was pretty happy with the day, and qt slack at the start of PW. THEN that FRIGGING O.A had to be so duper nasty. HEELLOOO...we handed up our GPP to her and she didnt receive. AND HEEELLOOOO... i emailed her ages ago and she "didnt receive" i mean yah, of cos she wun lie abt not receiving but u shud hear the tone she was speaking in "u despicable typical students, trying to push the blame to technology, to email, the www and anyhooo". it was as if it was OUR fault she didnt receive. HELLOOOOOOO!!!! i am duper angry with her lah, cos NO, she hadnt returned us the GPP as she claimed she did. GRRRR


jus had to let some steam off.

the rest of the day was fine. went out to PS with tv, cat and grace and shopped a bit. and we ate mark's and spencer's dutch shortcake! 50cents for a piece of heaven baby! AND i have a new item on my bday wish list! i saw this roxy brown bag with some flower motifs. and i hinted to grace openly! ahahahah. yes, so tht goes rite to my wish list!!
PE was jus a slideshow on Olympics and its past & present. and it is indeed a very significant PE lesson cos it was zul and wj's FIRST EVER pe lesson..qt amusing...

qt stressed now actually. PW PW PW PW PW. and qing's not replying me abt the choir concert tiX tix tix tix. AND my hp bill is gonna shooooootttt like mad this month. AND AND AND my CTs are heading towards the deep ocean. AND AND AND AND AND im sleep deprived.

it's back to sch tmr....SIGHZ
chris and grace came over to my place for lunch and earrings making, qt fun! and we webcam-ed lulu..she's really damn funny! then chris had to meet up with her frens, so grace and i went on a date..hahhaha! we watched war of the worlds. hmm, i think its not bad lah! if u are not the type to be skeptical abt how fake and unrealistic the machines are. but i guess it makes us reflect if we're taking our existence on earth too much for granted. hmm...im rather freaked out by supernatural stuff, including these...yeah, so grace and i came out rather paranoid-ish..hahha, when we hear loud noises we will like...link it to those we hear in the movie..hahah. hmm, the part when the tentacle eye stretched into the basement...was qt scary lah. yep...and some parts were qt unrealistic as they always seem to be very super lucky. i mean they can afford to put in a few extras who manage to escape to safety also riiteee...

ok time to slp...oh i hate tuesdays in school!!!! argh..hope PE tmr is endurable...hope we do sth fun! like netball! tennis!

i cut my hair!! qt happy with it! it's much much much shorter..i think my previous ponytail was at least 5 times longer than now. but it's a refreshing change! and its nice to feel the breeze in your hair! haha, long heavy hair cant give that effect. shall be shocking many ppl in sch on tue..hahah
i lvoe life now! so carefree, can do anth i want without getting nagged at. hmm...im looking forward to...2 events. hurhur..shall not say it here :) hmm, cant wait to see my choir juniors!! (LISA!!! XIUMIN!! GEET!! JACQ!!) hahah, sorry a bit biased..but really these are my fave jrs. hmm, like my previous post...i really miss choir sometimes....aww :'(

CTs didnt end on a very positive note....my PC paper kinda sucked..but oh well, time to play to our hearts' content! walked orchard rd up and down in search of grt bargains...hahah, and affected grace and chris to make earrings too..they're coming to my hse on monday for an earring making session!

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