my mum showed me this article in the wanpao today abt this little pri sch girl whose mum encouraged her to join some cdc fashion design competition and apparently won sth, and my mum was like saying, so this is what you wanna do is it? and i said yes. and i thought, if only she could be more understanding of my likings and if only my family was one that is more encouraging of being different or being beyond conventional and not one that would have expectations of just settling for the conventional. i mean, sometimes, success or satisfaction doesnt just come from being conventional, following suit, earning a proper living and more or less comfortable. sometimes, there is much more beyond that. like i read on today, where they asked the 77th st founder (elim chew?) about whether passion for one's job is overrated. i agree with her lah, about the pt that if you dont have the passion for sth, gonig to work would just be a chore cos you're merely there to earn a living lor, get by each day like that lor. then what, waste your youth away? but, i also think that words like "follow your dreams" "dream like noone can say no" that kinda things, are bullshit in this world. go tell a 18yr old singapore jc student, who has a beyond conventional dream (ie not doctor, scientist yada yada) that and see if they tell you it;s possible.

i can personally tell you, no it's not possible. partly cos of my family as well. but seriously, when you're at this stage, there's so much at stake and obviously no sane person would give up all that. a less that encouraging family isnt gonna help much too. but somehow i'm over that phase already. i think the stubborness and drive is a sec sch thing that i've kinda gotten over.

there's another phase that i've gotten over but my mum is bringing it up again. braces!!there was a time in sec 3 when i REALLY REALLY wanted to get braces but my mum said no, it's very painful its very troublesome blah blah, and now she sees her fren's daughter having nice teeth she starts talking about it again. and now that im over it, she says its gd and nice and blah blah. and i told her, when i really wanted it you say no! but now she's given me the approval to go ahead if i really want to. so i shall conduct some opinion polls and decide if i want to have them. haha. sigh. sometimes, one should really just consider and ponder over sth less. when in doubt jus buy/get/do it. sometimes acting on an impulse (for harmless things i mean) makes one happier than regretting later on!

having mini fridges in class rocks. first of all, we had whipped cream and strawberries, then we turn on the heating function and have warm melted cheese subways, next, we have khong guan biscuits with carnation milk (which everyone loves now cos i recommended it) and we also have nice cold m&ms which are, by the way, the in-est thing in the cosmetics world. m&ms colouring for lipsticks, how's that!!

the playground near my hse is almost done with renovati0n, but sadly, it'll be one of those rubber mat ones. i miss sand playgrounds!!!!! i guess this one is probably one the last ones around having sand :( yeah, i know its for kid's safety and all that, but kids need to grow up, they need to know what's pain and learn from that right? what's a scratch or two man? so now i cant take the swing and feel the warm sand between my toes, or scribble words with sticks on sand anymore. sigh.

there's so much at hand it gets a bit messy at times and at this point, its not sacrificing this for that because EVERYTHING is freaking impt and you cant afford to not do something. gosh.that's what i totally hate about being a j2 cos you make such crucial decisions amidst the preparation for the big A's.

this 2 weeks are gonna be a whirlwind. i have about a 100 slop retrt and transportatin theories to remember and a thousand other evidence for climotology and also a few million economic theories and their limitations to study PLUS a few gazillion math qns to do. maths is consuming me. i feel like im doing math every single moment. save me.

if i give this 2 yrs an overview, it would seem that they've passed very quickly, but if i look at individual events, it's actually been pretty damn long. like how i thought jasmine came back last yr when it was only new yr! and how i thought i last saw iris last yr when it was only during chingay. and it's really weird to think how our jc journey is ending soon (abt 3 wks left before the sept hols and not much time left after that) and how it's not gonna end in a nice, warm, sob-sob manner like pri sch or sec sch, cos this time we will be seriously mugging our asses off and there's not much time to sob and mope. but i must say that i probably will not feel the nostalgia cos my class is qt fragmented and all, and i won't miss THE class, but just individuals.

well, one thing i'll definitely rmb frm jc is the GEOG CLASSES!! i love geog classes!! they're most of the time fun and funny - with mr lee's samba dance and various entertaining gestures, and not to forget miss law's silly and blur moments ( like how she describes ridges as swiss rolls and how we always manage to irritate her somehow). the science ppl are very fun also lah, so we always have a great time and great laughs during geog. speaking of geog. i jus dreamt of rg miss pang the other day!

finally watched pirates last friday and zhiyi grace and i were having this little debate on whether orlando bloom looks nicer dirty a la will turner or spick and span a la legolas. ahhaha. and i LOVE jack sparrow!! he's really the one worth watching for in the movie. i must say i prefer pirates 1, i think the characters were stronger in their personalities. but anyway, i cant wait for pirates 3 to be out already. ahha! jack sparrow!!!