im not someone who jus blindly accepts sth given to me- a right thing to do, the right way to go, the path with a bright future. yes i know i needa do that to get my dough and watever i'd want, but i jus cant do sth that i dun like. that makes it doubly hard for me.
you cant survive on passion.
u cant survive without money.

u cant waste ur life away.

today was a pretty packed day. ended sch at 12, and went to the shiseido thing with rach (free make up sample man!) and wishing that sch lessons were as interesting/lighthearted as that make up talk, then had interact duty from 2-4, which i qt enjoy cos interacters are nice, then had geog s, which passed really quickly, then went to j8 with melo to grab some presents for ppl, and then met jo. happy bday! didnt really spend much time with jo and ppl cos of dramafeste.

ah well, sch still sucks. lots of things to accomplish over the wkend. and common test's hot at our heels. damn.

interact induction camp was SWELL! i havent had post-something-blues ever since choir concerts, but i find myself thinking about the camp after it. the j1s were swell! so on! so sporting!! station games were ok, dragged on a little too much, so we had to cancel talentime. i think the highlight was NIGHT WALK. so fun k!! but my station with ee jean at the chat rms werent too scary, we figured , cos there were 2 or 3 scares along that stretch, and we were making noises, that were obviously artificial, so we abandoned our station, and joined the walk with the j1s! it was so fun too!!! by that time i wasnt really spooked, cos walking arnd places in the dark got me used to it, so i found myself smiling most of the time cos i know wat's coming up and i know who's behind that scare. an applause to lynn!!! our ever so dramatic sadako!! so engrossed in her acting. she was so great k! and everyone else lah, like huibin, who had to crawl on her knees to grab ppl's legs. hahah, it was so fun. niwae, some parts of the school were really dark!! like the classrms from 4th floor up were so so so dark, except for the staircases at the far far ends. so creepy.

by the time the j1s went to slp, it was abt 2am alrdy. so, the poor j2s, stinky and sweaty since the afternoon had no time to bathe cos we had to set up the night walk, so we had to bath in the wee hours of the morning. haha, some played mahjong and bridge thru the night..hmm, morning. then we woke up at abt 6, and watched the BEAUTIFUL sunrise. there's this extension behind the classrm B44. so we sat there for prob half an hr, jus watching the clouds move and the colours change.



nice eh? the morning was pretty fun too! we had a game called the paradox. like we ask for the biggest guy frm each grp and make them do some marie france bodyline ad, or we ask the geekist guys to do a rap. i have a picture, but i need to picasa it first! (there's a pic of guanghao doing his sin sin cos sin , sth sth, cosec cot, sth sth rap, but i shall not post it. there's a sadako pic too, but i think lynn might kill me! haha)


im glad i went for the camp! made some frens with both j2s and j1s. :) happy

went to dinner with my parents jus now at some viet cuisine restaurant in holland v. hmm, pretty interesting! its supposed to be healthy. and i guess it is! there was vermicelli with tons of veg like lettuce and carrot and cabbage and raw towkay. its prob veggie hell for carnivores but veggie heaven for herbivores ( lulu!) but there was grilled chicken too. qt nice lah, interesting thing to try. my mum made my dad brkfast with all things heart shaped like sandwiches and fruits ahahha, and my dad bought a card for my mum and he tried to hide it in his briefcase, and giving my mum sideway glances to make sure she didnt see. hahah, i think my parents are pretty adorable in this sense.

yay, im so proud of the windmills i gave out! gives satisfaction to see so many spinning when there's wind :) and it was fun to make too lah. dun squash ur windmills k!!

sigh. im suddenly feeling the burden of growing up. decisions, commitments, decisions. now im beginning to appreciate why adults say that being a student is the best. no need to care abt the things going around the world, no need to make major, life-changing decisions, no need to think so deeply about why, what, how. the thought of growing up and working...really makes me dread growing up. and by working, i foresee some sad deskjob life, which is not me at all. i will try with ALL THE CELLS AND BLOOD AND CHI in my body to find a nice interesting job.

meanwhile, school is boring as ever. i think sec sch was the best. the besto!!!

finally a productive weekend!! so proud of myself. but there's still more to go! niwae, janice's blog is so frigging funny!!!!! janice, u have such entertaining talents. stop bullying feli can!! hahaha. sch starts again tmr. i cant differentiate between the different days and week, they are jus lumped together in my brain under one sub topic of SCHOOL. BORING SCHOOL. and very soon, it will be A's and zoom - graduation. i dread the nearing of that day.

niwae, my SATs results are coming out tmr....pretty scared cos i seriously jus bleah-ed thru the last few sections cos i was so freaking tired even after downing one cup of coffee in the morning. its so draining lah. wish me luck :S

i figured i need more discipline cos there's really a lot of work piled up by now. TONS OF READINGS. so, i started my week going for SV on tue. havent been there for really long cos i always cant catch the early bus or it'd be super crowded. so hopefully, i will wake up earlier and go every tue.

lots of work. actually readings!! human geog, phy geog, human geog s, phy geog s, econs (that income determination notes which are totally.. GROSS and the lectures are so DAMN USELESS), econs S. and nv ending maths tutorials!! but somehow i think maths hw are the most enjoyable to do. jus keep doing, apply formula can alrdy.more or less. and this yr's geog's so rushed!! there are so many things that we're expected to resrch ourselves, and i cant really grasp wat's the impt points. hope the tchers do a summary. really glad mr quek is our econs tutor or i think my macro wud DIE. this current lecturer is so...FRUSTRATING!! 1) i dunno wat's he talking abt what keynes wat milton friedman and wat they believe. 2) the basics are not even in! like AS AD etc etc 3) the notes are in such a freaking mess!!! me and eunice complaint so much to mr quek ahhaha.

so, after all that's said, a lot of time will need to be devoted to reading the notes myself AGAIN cos they dun make a single sense to me now. and making geog notes. UGGGHHHH. school is so sian!!! I HATE THURSDAYS!!! its my most most most most dreaded day. its bad enuf to have pe frm 3-4 and ON TOP OF THAT MISERY, econs s from 4-5!! :( the only thing that salvages the late late day is some jokes by the expat tchers. fri wud be perfect if not for the 4hr break. so rach and i bummed arnd and idled in j8 and the lib. and i had a nice nap in the sofa section. ahahha

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry. -yes
You are a person who thinks before acting, intelligent and thorough. -i guess?
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others. -yes!

went to chingay 06 with iris! it was pretty fun! except for the LONG LONG LONG wait. there was a rj /rj dance club troupe! with 3 floats! hahah, how cool is that. pictures! some random shots of the parade, and YES that's jy. ahahha. so iris was busy waving to all her frens! haha, and each troupe had their own coordinators, so the coordinators were rj ppl too. pretty interesting. ahhah.






these are rj dancers!

(sidenote: picasa is SO COOL LAH. my pics were super dark cos my cam's lousy. so i jus click "fill light" and voila! u can actually see the faces in the pics!)

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ok. so after the parade ended at close to 10, iris had to eat cos shehadnt had her dinner, so we went centrepoint, which was behind where we were seating and it was freaking full! so we went over to taka, which is SUPER chingay unfriendly. not a single shop was open AND THERE WAS ONLY ONE FREAKING DOOR OPEN IN THE WHOLE BUILDING. and i meant ONE PANEL of a glass door. does it hurt them a wee bit to open jus the other panel!>?!?!? and the disco thing was jus outside taka, so it was pretty crowded. so we went over to paragon coffeebean.

that's our reflection off the ceiling at coffeebean. haha.

AND AND AND I CONCLUDE THAT NIGHT TAXI DRIVERS ARE EVIL!!!!!! we couldnt get one at abt 11.30 when we were done. cos they were
1) waiting for midnight surcharge
2) waiting for on-calls

DAMN EVIL.

so we had to wait for my dad till nearly 1...yes and so im suffering frm lack of sleep now.

met the 401-ers yest, 12 of us altogether, mostly rj ppl, ahhaha, but its still good cos i hardly get to talk to them much in school. everyone's still the same, gd old gullible felly! bullied by janice! and dearest wanying (has grown smarter!) hahaha. had dinner at nydc and walked arnd. didnt do much, but it was nice to jus be together again.

im listening to phantom of the opera now. as brilliant as ever.

i FINALLY got to swim today. but it still rained, so i swam for a short while. i enjoy swimming cos its so relaxing but u can be comforted that u're working off some of ur cny guilt. school was boring as usual haha, except when rachel stays in the disillusion that she is sayuri in memoirs. yes yes, u want a life of ur own. ahhaha. the movie is nice i must say! but i checked the book's ending - sooo ooo much longer- and ppl are saying that chairman's a paedo. HAHA. true. but still..aww, ken watanabe. ahhaha