i cant believe this is my last WEEK non-tertiary education. like the last week of uniforms, classes, student travel fares...it's scary! man, and this yr just FLEW past like that. and most of the time we've spent on books and somehow have become numb to the fact that we're leaving, farewell, sob sob kinda thing. really cant believe this! seems like yesterday when we first met our classes

sigh..how i've enjoyed the past few days of new found freedom...which will soon be taken from us AGAIN. YET AGAIN. and how am i spending this last holiday? lazing around at home, making jewelry, doing things i havent done for ages (like read that pile of time magazines since last yr). and i say this with utmost sincerity- I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO SCH!! :( :( i know its like the last few weeks of sch and i should be treasuring my time with my frens blah blah, but my class? i've probably said this before but somehow friends don't stay with me throughout the years..like how some close friends from secondary drifted even though we're in the same sch. im just glad the 401 girls are still ok and we meet once in a while (like when jasmine comes back). i jus hope that my current friends stay!

man, can you imagine that about less than 2 more months from now we'll ALL BE FREE!!!!!! that's when i must make sure EVERY SINGLE DAY is packed with activities. freedom is too precious to be wasted at home. i wanna travel so badly!! but its qt hard to organise an overseas trip, seeing how my class severely lacks male presence. and i want to leanr a new language, learn sewing, get a job...etc etc CANT WAIT alrdy.

my mum would be so proud of me!!! i just cleaned up my room!! i cleared my stuff, filed them away, stacked them nicely in my cupboard, reduced the clutter throwing away heaps of paper that i've used (im trying to see how large a pile of rough paper i can collect, ahha, my family sells the scrap paper to garang guni. might as well right, got money plus can recycle!). and boy....i still have one more paper. that sucks. and it also sucks that i end 11 days later than ms gan for the A's..it's not cos of s paper lor. even my main papers are later than hers. why oh why.

niwae, after the paper i wasnt jubilant or ecstatic or anything. just numb. ok lor, end alrdy lor. hahha, need time to transit to play mode man ahha. then we watched the movie Banquet. i must say it was pretty disappointing! shall try not to give spoilers (btw it's NC16 and woohoo! the first time i watched a rated movie legally!! the last time was...mystic river in sec 4? oh and that hmm, zombie show which was M18. felt good to be legal baby!)
1) Daniel wu's role was a wuss. whole day want to die want to die only
2) im pretty unsatisfied with the ending. i think zhang ziyi should have lived in guilt and it would end a "evil triumphs over good" kind of note....sounds like one of those lit bks....
3)it is INCESTUOUS. firstly, zhang ziyi was daniel wu's girlfriend before his father the emperor married her, and thus she becomes his stepmother. THEN, the emperor's bro usurped his throne and er...his woman as well, and so, zhang ziyi became her ex husband's brother's wife. THEN, zhou xun's bro seemed to express some...umm...beyond brotherly affections for her. damn incestuous k.

and whoever that reporter was who wrote that zhou xun stole the show was utterly biased agnst zhang ziyi or sth, cos obviously zhang ziyi did. she was evil to the core, as her role is supposed to be..partly. and zhou xun was just this innocent little girl. ahha, but anyway it was a little hmm annoying when the rolling credits showed zhang ziyi's name as "ziyi zhang" like what the....she's chinese still right, and the other names were in the normal arrgment. hmm, dun qt like this americanisation of her.

anyway, nxt moie im gonna catch? miami vice. gong li is hot hot hot. ok i sound les, but seriously man! she's not like...pretty as in sweet kinda pretty, but like..gorgeous kinda hot. like steaming hot. ahhah, her stare is so icy and sharp. haha gong li!

got this in the email. yeah i know, some of you may think it's cliched and all, but i especially liked the parts i bold. i think no matter what religion you are it does apply in some sense. and i admit i'm indeed not a very religious person in this manner.

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation.
Satan went to visit Jesus in the Garden of Eden,
and Satan came all happy and boasting. (Lk 4: 1-12; Job 1: 6-12)

"Yes, Lord, now I have everybody captive,
(well nearly everybody down there).
I set traps, I used the baits of temptation,
I know well what each one of them can't resist.
I nearly caught them all!" (I Pet 5: 8-9; Eph 6: 10-17)

"What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked.
and He was praying to God the Father.

Satan answered "Oh, I am going to have some fun with them!"
I'll make them divorce after they have married
so the foundation of humanity will never be able to be established
"the family" (Mt 19: 4-6; Mal 2: 16)

I will make them hate each other and abuse each other,
make them fall into alcohol and drugs without control. (Rom 13: 12-14)

I will teach them to make weapons and bombs,
so they kill each other


"I am really going to have fun!"


"And when you are tired of playing with them, what will you do?"
Jesus asked. And continued praying

"Oh, I will kill them all and their souls will be mine forever"
"Lord by all respect, it's their decision" (I Jn 3: 8-10)


"How much do you want for all of them?" Jesus asked.

"Oh, you can't want these people. They aren't anything good.
Why do you want them if they neither follow you nor love you?
Many hate you! I have seen many of them spitting on you, cursing you and
even denying you."
"What's more, they love me a lot" (Mt 24: 10-13)
"You don't want these people!!"


"How much?" Jesus asked again


Satan looked at him with a nasty face


"All your tears and all your blood,
all the pain of the entire world, all together" (Is 53: 4-10; I Pet 2: 24)

Jesus said..."DONE"


"and He paid the price" (II Cor 5: 21)


How terrible it is that people don't seek for God,
and then ask themselves why the world is going to hell!


How terrible that we seek the newspaper everyday to read tragedies
and we never seek the Bible

How insensible it is how everybody wants to go to heaven,
thinking they can get there without having to believe,
without loving God above all things,
or doing what the Bible says...the Laws of God.


It is terrible how some people can say "I believe in God"
but still follow Satan (Who as matter of fact, does fear God)
(II Tim 4: 3-4; II Jn 1: 7-11)


Don't you think it's pathetic how they send
each other thousands of jokes by email,
so they spread like plagues.


But when it's about the Lord's messages,
we think about it twice before we share them;
and we leave the mailboxes of our friends without this message


Don't you think it is outrageous that the obscene,
vulgar and crude is allowed freely to pass through the internet
that even many people would desire to get into the screen.


But it is forbidden to speak publicly about Jesus
in the schools, places of work
self-helping groups, etc... (Acts 4: 19-20)


Even after knowing what He did for us.
Because the Romans didn't kill Him. It was our sin.
that we may be forgiven
and know Him in His glory with the Father.

Doesn't it seem incredible to you how somebody can be alight
on Sabbath in the Church,
worshipping and thanking the Lord for His mercy,
for one more day to live etc.


But during the rest of the week he is an invisible Christian! (II Tim 3:
1-5; Rom 10: 9-13)


Does this seem just to you?

Don't let Satan stop you sending this Mail
to all your contacts on the Web,
It doesn't matter if he tells you that many don't believe this


May God bless you always (II Cor 13: 13)

by the end of this prelims, i'd have about written 31 essays (considering a drq as one)!!! oh my gosh. im so proud of myself. and janice is correct! geog paper was a bladder and arm endurance test HAHA. seriously ah, why must they torture to finish essays in such a short time?! 1st, the markers have to suffer from our gross and illegible handwriting (no wonder cambridge takes so long!) 2nd, we don't sound coherent near the back, like geog ah sometimes no time to change to nicely phrased sentences, and adding things here and there makes it really messy. i CANT WAIT for next wk to come oh please come.

i got this in an email, which said that a young girl from new york who has cancer wrote it. no matter whether it's spam or not, it makes so much sense and i find myself nodding to the questions.

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly’s erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short

The music won’t last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?

When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?


When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores
Running through your head? (yes)


You’d better slow down

Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won’t last.

Ever told your child

We’ll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,”Hi” (yes)

You’d better slow down.
Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short.

The music won’t last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

exam times are very unpleasant. i forgo my hobby sleep leisure exercise (feels wobbles) times, my table is like a war zone (even after cleaning up), my nose is itching like mad, im falling sick soon, and my mind is blank. i really dunno whether that's a gd sign. like ct2, my mind is now rather blank and numb. so i really REALLY have no idea if im absorbing all these that im revising. how now brown cow. thank you gregory for that quote from george bernard shaw .
"Some men see things as they are and ask why. Others dream things that never were and ask why not." i won'y forget but for now it's just postponed. now its earning the moolah first and when i've gained financial power I call the shots and do what i want muahahaha

ooh. my horoscope says: stop pretending that this is enough.the stars want you to follolw your passion. what genuinely moves you? what would you do for free? set your sights in that direction.

haha it's a SIGN. what i would do for free? hmm, sth like andrea sachs job (in devil wears prada). just let me go to paris fw (and hobnob with karl lagarfeld and friends. ahha)