results were disappointing..expected better but hope all will be well after moderation. i have put up a big sign saying RJC on my noticebd. it's a motivation (it works!), it's a goal. had a rj talk in sch today, the principal was over 2m tall!!!! but somehow, despite all these talks by jcs(and the very apparent rivalry among hc and rj...i mean VERY VERY apparent)my determination to go rj has never been wavered. once a rafflesian, always one! it's a pact between eve and i.

moderation results coming out nxt wk. high high probability that they will moderate amaths, to my relief, and hope they do so for the sciences. i must mug frm now on, so i shall not blog for a REALLY REALLY LONG time...haha, even blogs hibernate.

have been calling my sises online..it's so fun! this program called skype. if u have a mike, u can jus tok over the internet free! even conferences (meaning more than 1 person). hopefully my mum can learn how to on the comp herself (though it's quite tough -- she has difficulties controlling the mousie!). well, she's a housewife, quite a relaxing life actually..haha, since all her kids are grown. but of cos no sane, educated woman of singapore nowadays will give up her 20 years of education, striving for the best instituition, the best results, in hope for the best career just like that. not me at least *shrugs* actually, that's the crux of our population prob...no matter how much incentive u offer, there's still this problem with no resolutions.

The Waste Land

In this decayed hole among the mountains
In the faint moonlight, the grass is singing
Over the tumbled graves, about the chapel
It has no windows, and the door swings,
Dry bones can harm no one.
Only a cock stood on the rooftree
Co co rico, co co rico
In a flash of lightning. Then a damp gust
Bringing rain

Ganga was sunken, and the limp leaves
Waited for rain, while the black clouds
Gathered far distant, over Himavant.
The jungle crouched, humped in silence.
Then spoke the thunder

~T. S. Eliot


savour the words of this poem....
nature will triumph over mankind

yay!!! most of the ppl are rejoicing now, cos prelims are over!!! so weird rite? it was such a BIG thing, but now it's over so quickly.

my sis left last night...miss her...we are practically everything in the world...partners in crime, sis, frens,enemies, loggerheads. we know each other like we know ourselves...currently i'm at home with only my mum.

niwae, watched dodgeball on wed..such a crap show, but well, laughed it all off after 2 wks of torment. i cant imagine picking up momentum to study again. shudnt haf gone to sch today, cos it was quite waste time, esp cos the TJ peeps nv come on schedule, so we had some exam malpractice and HC talk. i'm still set on RJ. i'm a rafflesian!! IF i can make it. but hor, if i cant get into RJ or HC,
slacked the past few days away, life's wonderful, time passed so quickly....for now.
looking fwd to my blog layout tht's in the making, thnks to eve!!

trying to take a breather after 4 days strt of torment.
i swear i wrote the longest zuo wen and gong han in this 2 yrs yesterday! i was so proud of myself. inspiration jus kept flowing. i was so hungry after that that my carnivourous instincts emerged...just ask felly. i tried to bite her innocent hand *beams*

and today sucked. amaths sucked. I nearly cried looking at the qns for the first time. i was just stuck. for a moment i thought God gave up on me or something, and i was praying so hard, 'God dun abandon me'. Perhaps He's too busy, everybody in the hall must have been praying. but i was so proud of myself! i could do the vector-relative velocity qn *beams*

then had geog, which was quite gd! but my hand ached so much after tht. and i came home and slept. my first afternoon nap in how long... i feel as if the exams are almost finished. but the bombers are coming next wk, together, phy and chem and amaths p2. i so love it. but at least they are kind enuf to give us a wkend. geog p1 is tmr, such brainless arrangement, make us go back for like one hr...but b4 that got bio...haha. but seriously, they shudnt haf put geog and amaths together. THEY SHOULD TRY IT FOR THEMSELVES. does it please them to impose such pain on us? we are jus young innocent 16 yr old minds.

btw, read my prev entry too..if u hafnt :)

these days and especially the previous wk, life has been B-O-R-I-N-G boring.trapped at home, limited tv watching, work and work and work. if some one were to write an account of a typical day in the life of a 16 yr old singaporean, it will be

wake up
breakfast
work
lunch
work
dinner
work
sleep

life would haf been worse if not for my handphone game, honeyball!! i'm addicted! ha, sometimes, i tou lan, read TGIS, which is less laborous, and use it as an excuse to slack, but oh well, it's work too! oh btw, lit was so lucky for me!!! i jus finished reading tht part of the bk for the passaged based *beams* emaths today was not bad, easier than i thot it wud be, but i made 2 careless mistakes...>.< careless mistakes are worse than anything else...

was looking at my uniform, and i was thinking, i will miss it so much..u noe, there's this sense of belonging. had lotsa wandering thots during this period of boredom. like, i always wonder if i'm too selfish, always thinking abt myself, the things i want to do, the kind of life i want to lead, I, I, I . but, life's like that, it's either, u do what u want to do, lead your life, or u live up to other's expectations and live they way they want u to live. *shrugs* life's full of ambiguity..

yay, haf gone past 3.5 subjects! hope all goes well for chi compo tmr. it's the 1st time this yr i haf worked so hard on my zao ju.. yay, there's Lavender (the chi movie) on SCV the second day after prelims!!! gonna watch my takeshi *beams* and relax a bit. ha, eve, marilyn and i were toking abt missing the first 3 mths of JC if we end up in CJ or Meridien with our prelim marks....haha,then we can go work or travel! , but i dun think my dad will allow..duh.

oh wellz, gd luck to all!

eve is definitely grieving over the end of olympics man...me and my sis were discussing abt rhythmic gym and how they make things look incredibly easy, doing splits (which exceed 180 degrees) and bending their bodies like nobody's business..

studying is madness...i told my sis dun be shocked if i get a bit cranky or too high..studying too much here. time's running out..haha, make u stressed...okie, tata

i'm damn high today...must be the haw flakes..i ate like 4 tubes today.

watched this damn nice show called "Lassie" with my mum, abt a collie sheepdog..so touching. ha, eve and many ppl are grieving over the end of the olympics..so fast..haiz, and i missed my synchronised swimming!!

my dad's gonna get a new comp!! hallelujah!! chem pract was not bad! but ppl haf very different results for titration but i believe in myself!! then jessie taught me a bit of french during quarantine time. therefore, my msn nick noir et blanc...sounds so cool rite..haha
so lazy to blog more..tata

tchers' day concert was damn funny...they really went all out to entertain us ( i like the mr Law and order..so lame)! but i feel bad cos i didnt get any tchers anything...went back to ph and well, stoned for quite some time b4 everyone came...and miraculously, our long lost roland returned!!! first time in 4 yrs. and he cudnt recognise any of us....and he walked past us, and lcy and i were like staring at each other with the "is that him" look. an ri guy is unmissable among the sea of tchs'. candy came back too, and she cudnt rmb my name as well..tsk tsk *wags finger*

yay...mindy has got some 203 ppl to share the skirt 4 my bday pressie..thnks everyone :) though my bday's still quite some time away. i love the skirt..it's such a pretty thing!
beautiful!! we have english (our fave paper..note the sarcasm) on thurs...i bet our class is so excited abt it man...

i've been quite slack this past wk...come online v often...so i shall stay away frm the comp for 4 days...okie? if u see me online b4 saturday, chase me off!!! i have ultra short attn spans lah.

was watching this taiwan program and there was Bond!! so happy!! *beams* i will try to save $ and get their new album. Bond's albums are the only albums that i truly have the urge to buy originals..sorry to the anti-piracy peeps out there

i think i'm quite screwed for lit..i hafnt finished reading it a 2nd time...jus cant get thru it...and hmm...apparently not prepared for it..*how oh how* but i cant depend on comined hums lah...my writing sux

was watching news jus now and ha, now jiawei has got fans asking for autographs...so funny..she mus have felt weird. and susilo's surprise is so not a surprise lah, even we could see what was coming

physics pract is ambiguous. the outcome always is...i mean, i dunno what to expect frm it...*shrugs*

got kept in drama t for like 3+ hrs, and mindy and i were deciding if we shud eat mac's or kfc...cos naughty her wanted to use her ezlink card for mac's to save $..so we played 3x10 sets of scissors paper stone and i won 2...muahahah, but we went lido in the end..poor her, cant find the size of the shirt she wants. but we saw this really nice skirt in isetan, and we will get it *beams* i'm alrdy thinking of shopping. i foresee 2 wks fully booked with shopping sessions with fellow shopaholics eve, mindy, etc..hahha
all u need is $, all u need is $ (rings a bell? all u need is love..haha)

slack today manz...CANNOT..mus chiong tmr. i hope all goes well for chem pract. i wonder wat's up 4 tchers day celeb...*shrugs* our last in rg so mus go *beams*

u noe what???? i jus downloaded a song frm shareaza in like 3 secs!!!! it was SOOO fast i just watched on, jaw dropped! and it's an oldie summore, thot there wud be less sources... *in a state of shock*
it took me quite sumtime to process the fact that tmr's physics pract..but seriously, i dunno what to do abt it. other then read thru and mem. formulae, and yah, they cant have pract qns for like dynamics, and WEP rite? so..well, hope all goes well. yes..we're are kept in till 12 +...yay, then mindy and i are going to get sharon's present!! we r so telepathic..i smsed her abt this and she said "u freak! i jus wanted to ask u that!" ha, we hafnt been hanging out much after choir...rmb we used to eat lunch together after every single sat choir prac. she's still funny as usual, and her infectious lameness is un-missable.

okie, gotta catch some good sleep or i will keep yawning tmr..gd luck to all!

everyone seem to have turned off their handphones or sth...they dun reply to my msg..but oh wellz...understood. everyone's on exam mode.
sis gave me 'tuition' yesterday on electronics. aint THAT hard actually...i think it's easier to study ourselves from the textbook than trying to understand all the chim stuff chang said. Prob gonna do this for every single chapt... self study. I am so happy with my chem and emaths rev. our prelims 03 was killer manz...and the Os paper mrs pey let us do was SO much easier. Haiz...not very encouraging...cant believe they are using prelim marks for JC entry. Speech day was quite crap...lotsa waiting. the presentation was THIIIIIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSS long. haha. hao bu rong yi cai deng dao performance. Sec 3s! U guys were quite funny. keep it up! and i love amanda's speech abt battling the Cambridge examiners. *applauds*

and i quote this from PM Lee's National Day Rally:
'We may be small but we have high hopes and big dreams. And so long as we are a little red dot in the middle of South-east Asia, let people know that we are a people who will keep on trying and never say die. And with this spirit, the future is ours to make.'

have i told u how sad i am for jiawei? her match against the squeaky and noisy woman yesterday was SUCH A WASTE!!! she had a great chance of winning the 5th, 6th set...haiz. why oh why?? but she did her best lah..it really did us proud, but still, we were SOOOOO close to making history, and she was so close to earning her 250 000 bucks...
*lets out a loooooong loooooong sigh*
our swimmers were....their records were quite far frm the world one..haha, but well, work harder!!! so, all our athletes balik kampong..train harder for 2008!! Beijing here we come!!! hahah. actually olympics had nv meant so much to me b4, but oh wellz, it will frm now on

sent my big sis off, so now it's me and 2nd sis, still living on fine..haha, but after she leaves as well, i will be real lonely. physics prelim pract is jus 4 days away *shudders at the thot that prelims are so near*

MY PHYSICS IS GONE!!!!! now i am really putting focus on chem as my science for R5..more enjoyable to study...haha, but chang really rushed a lot towards the end, a lot to self study. cant blame him!

susilo rox!! i bet fel agrees. his match against ling dan (can also be ling2 dan4..sorry...hah) was superb...his reaction damn fast, reflexes damn gd!! (felly..he's taken! haha) but then again...nearly all our athletes are imported..but it doesnt matter :)

had last block of tennis yesterday (boohoo!!) and eve kept claiming that she was mrs roddick...*cough cough* eve, i'm so sure!! haha, well...i LOVE tennis!! mus go play after exams. cant believe it's the last week!!!!! everythin's last! not that i will miss eng and physics pract...

my sis is freelancing for the mag teenage and she got to interview lotsa ppl! like Evonne Hsu, Ashlee Simpson!!, Linda...damn cool! and she gets their albums for free..how fun. i told her to tell her colleagues to pass the work to me after Os....and it's good money!! she writes an article for every interview and gets paid 60, 70 per article!! beats giving tuition..like my big sis.

toking abt her, she's leaving this fri, sending her off and very soon i'll be very lonely.. :( ok, vei and i have decided to only focus on 6 subs for prelims...no time to care too much abt my physics.. >.<
ganbatte everyone

[eve] aiyah...quite swt lah...some parts...when he got the flowers for her....hehe...u are so right...takeshi rocks our socks!!

so sad...bryna left us today *boohoo* well, she's joining Sg American Sch...her notice was really short, so it's very shocking lah. will miss her lots. But gd for her, she's missing the Os. well, sch's ending nxt wk...for the study leave. haiz...so fast!! i'm not ready to leave rgs yet...so last wk, we had our last chem pract lesson...aww...realised i am nv gonna do chem pract (except for exams) ever again...i wun miss physics AT ALL...but i miss chem

today for assembly, we watched a video of an AWESOME performance of a figure-skating comp. in 1984 olympics...and the spker was interesting, so makes us all rooted to the grnd ...once in a blue moon occasions. mindy and i have probably have the most special way of acknowledging each other along the corridors...we glare at each other...yah, tht's our greeting..haha. miss spending time with her and the squigs during choir..so much luffs

speech day's nxt wk, gotta make sure my shoes are squeaky clean :) i'm avoiding physics...escapism..ha, but i really detest it...maybe i shud have dropped it rite? since i'm so sure i will nv touch it again. and the section of my brain that bears the minimal memories of PHYSICS will automatically brainwash itself. so dun ask me anything abt it the day after the exams...it's emptied alrdy

wow...hafnt blogged for a looong time. ha, my story goes back to last fri, after nat'l day celeb. cleo, eve and i went to watch house of flying daggers! well, beautiful scenery, nice moves, SWEET eye candy, (i love the horses!!) and brainless plot..but for the sake of the eye candy..haha. we were all luffing at how unrealistic the last part was (when zhang ziyi died and woke and died and woke then died finally...haha) trying to drag the movie to a full 2 hrs. but takeshi made up for all these flaws haha...then cleo was saying how older men are so hot..eg brad pitt, tom cruise ("he's single" exclaimed cleo), and takeshi ..all in their 40s. *takeshi!!* then we went to take neocard and we bought earrings for marilyn's bday and i got this pair of butterfly ones...ahhhh...to die for manz.. totally in love with them. had a really fun time with the 2 of them. i seldom hang out with cleo, so nv realised she was soo funny! + eve, it makes gd company. well, we didnt win the fashion parade, but cleo looked BEAUTIFUL! she didnt bring her makeup removal, so she went out with them on, and she said "it;s a free cntry!" and she doesnt care abt ppl staring...xiao1 sa3!

went m'sia to visit my relatives on sat...and there was a 4 1/2 hrs jam!!!!!!!!!! how much time is that...it was just that short dist. bet. the s'pore customs to the m'sia customs (that stretch of the bridge at the second link) saw my cute baby cousin!!! she's so quiet but still cute, has that blur look on her face. and i saw my fave cousin too!!! he's spking a lot more, + that twinkle of mischief in his eyes. and we ate SOOO much. it's always lotsa food when we go m'sia.

sighz...O's orals tmr...back to sch *sadz* i'm so unprepared for everything and anything!! if i were to take the exams now....NO WAY. exchanged phone with my sis cos mine has triband and she's going to US..so bye bye phone..but hers is samsung and has LOADs of fun games!! distraction manz.

*i'm proud to be a singaporean* are u?

this is the song the sec 3s used during farewell. beautiful. download it if u can "Our Farewell" by Within Temptation
www.within-temptation.com

Our farewell

In my hands
A legacy of memories
I can hear you say my name
I can almost see your smile
Feel the warmth of your embrace
But there is nothing but silence now
Around the one I loved
Is this our farewell?

Sweet darling you worry too much, my child
See the sadness in your eyes
You are not alone in life
Although you might think that you are

Never thought
This day would come so soon
We had no time to say goodbye
How can the world just carry on?
I feel so lost when you are not by my side
But there's nothing but silence now
Around the one I loved
Is this our farewell?

So sorry your world is tumbling down
I will watch you through these nights
Rest your head and go to sleep
Because my child, this not our farewell.
This is not our farewell.

yeah, u can find a friend to go with u if u want...u can join us too..dun think my fren will mind. niwae, u can email cmf@nkfs.org
 
yay i love pe more and more cos i can at least hit the tennis ball liaoz..haha
i keep hearing the ad on tv with the song "sway" and i think of dearest nichole!!! all the fun times we had and the funny names we called each other...but i lost the old contact list, so i cant contact her...anyone got her email, pls tell me :)
 
i'm still really distracted this week..*pulls hair* i hope to really start focusing!!!!!!!! eve and i say we will go watch hse of flying daggers...that shall be my motivation to work hard for the new wk *takeshi kaneshiro* hahah
we have new deco in our classrm!! we pasted a lot of photos on the wall...reminded me of the cute kids at service learning..tho some were unbearable...haiz..thinking closely, sch's coming to an end really soon...awwww....so gonna miss it....surprise i'll miss sch :) mainly due to the ppl and just the place itself brings back lotsa memories.
 
i was just thinking abt how much i've changed since pri sch...like in a totally different frequency...well, i feel at least. pri sch shapes the fundamentals and basis of ur morals while in sec sch, i think it's the experience and also the absorbent period,....ur mind really takes in a lot. also the decision making stage.
 
taking NE quiz tmr...rmb we were doing in pri sch in the comp lab...oh...ph is almost done..the exterior. painting is almost done...*surge of nostalgia* i miss the old bldg

mindy and i decided to do sth meaningful with our lives, cos her bro's fren died of brain tumour. so we hope to volunteer at the NKF children's fund during dec hols. sighz...the frailty of human life.
 
went for the fashion parade rehears. total waste of my precious time!! arggh..any sane tcher wud noe that we cant afford to spend so much time on unimportant stuff. i'm desperately looking for scrap fabrics but the class ain't giving any response *faints* except a few...and i've got this totally cool new idea *beams*
 
chem pract today involved so much heating!! and the lab wasnt exactly very cool so our sweat was pouring..like eve says "xia yu" (raining)...i love chem pract for the nice colours, like copper(ll)sulphate *beams* woohoo...emaths test on wed...hope i can pull thru the 2 topics...i have been really slack the past wk, so i'm going to concentrate this wk, meaning using very little comp :) *curbing the urge to use the net*

i got stung by a bee yesterday!! it was on my head!! and i thot it was a drop of water, since it was raining. so i swept it off and uit stung me..i went to sch and got the rcy-s to help me...haha, it's fine now *phew*
i'm so gonna miss my sisters when they are gone!! though sometimes i feel that i can have more freedom that way, sometimes i also think i will be real lonely.
well, i read yining's blog and i thot her case was really similar to mine, like my mum thinking that my dream job is one that has no future and is low-paying...but tht's not true! i mean, yeah, things can be risky, but u have to try it first b4 u even give up that thot. however, yining, u MUST have a backup plan, for practical purposes. i dun think parents are so easy to convince!
 
haiz...emaths and chi tests next wk...hope i can do the emaths one properly..there's so much to rmb..*bleagh* i realy pity 404 cos mrs C took them for orals and they got ultra low marks....so sad! glad i got hals. for mine-- he's quite lenient.
tmr got pe again! yay! hope it doesnt rain. oh, i have already planned the things that i will do after my exams
 
1) Shop till i drop
2) Burn all my books and worksheets!! (ha, we thot of having a barbecxue fire from burning bks!)
3) tidy up my place
4) find an internship with law firm or fashion company (exciting!)
5) figure out how to do my own blog template
6)write xmas cards
 
*wow* i really hope i can do all those already....how many more mths to pull thru?!??!??!!?
 
 
32 days to prelims
(to remind everyone to start if u hafnt!!!)
 

i got stung by a bee yesterday!! it was on my head!! and i thot it was a drop of water, since it was raining. so i swept it off and uit stung me..i went to sch and got the rcy-s to help me...haha, it's fine now *phew*
i'm so gonna miss my sisters when they are gone!! though sometimes i feel that i can have more freedom that way, sometimes i also think i will be real lonely.
well, i read yining's blog and i thot her case was really similar to mine, like my mum thinking that my dream job is one that has no future and is low-paying...but tht's not true! i mean, yeah, things can be risky, but u have to try it first b4 u even give up that thot. however, yining, u MUST have a backup plan, for practical purposes. i dun think parents are so easy to convince!
 
haiz...emaths and chi tests next wk...hope i can do the emaths one properly..there's so much to rmb..*bleagh* i realy pity 404 cos mrs C took them for orals and they got ultra low marks....so sad! glad i got hals. for mine-- he's quite lenient.
tmr got pe again! yay! hope it doesnt rain. oh, i have already planned the things that i will do after my exams
 
1) Shop till i drop
2) Burn all my books and worksheets!! (ha, we thot of having a barbecxue fire from burning bks!)
3) tidy up my place
4) find an internship with law firm or fashion company (exciting!)
5) figure out how to do my own blog template
6)write xmas cards
 
*wow* i really hope i can do all those already....how many more mths to pull thru?!??!??!!?
 
 
32 days to prelims
(to remind everyone to start if u hafnt!!!)