You Are the Peacemaker

9 You are emotionally stable and willing to find common ground with others. Your friends and family often look to you to be the mediator when there is conflict. You are easy going and accepting. You take things as they come. Avoding conflict at all costs, you're content when things are calm.

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yay, shopping spree started today, with my mum. yay, bought *counts* a new shirt, a nice nice windbreaker frm baleno, a pair of ankle socks for sch nxt yr (muahah), an eye massager hahahha (supposedly can help eyesight..improves blood circulation and all), my mum got a nice dress, a shirt. yup :) and pens for my sis

got my prom stuff :)...it's gd to have sises and mum of ur size cos can just take all the things u need frm them, so i've got the shoes, and the bag *no worries* i not stressed or kan chiong abt it at all leh..hahahhah

yay *excited* shopping is SOOO fun :) :) :)but i carry the bags until my hand pain *aww* hahahha...yay, and i trimmed my eyebrows free...hahah, got lobang..muahahah

it's kinda surreal yeah? yes, i slacked thru the nite frm 7 to 11, watched "how to lose a guy in ten days" on scv...yes, eve tore up her entry proof...yes, i am playing and blogging guilt-free, but i still dun believe that we have BEEN through, DONE it!!!! this feeling wont sink in....until i start my shopping sprees, and playing big-time!!!!!

yeah, currently, TOP on my agenda, to slack and slack till i get kinda bored, then SPRING CLEAN!!!!!!!! and shop and revamp my wardrobe..go shopping with my mama, such a guai kia...muahahah

haha, currently playing on neopets, to make my pet a rich one!!! then it can have lotsa food to eat...yar, my pet very simple one, no investment or auctions or fighting, jus play and eat, play and eat...hahahah

i cant stand it anymore...she thinks she's so philosophical about everything...EVERYTHING



but i dun think so


who cares...i've mastered the art of ignoring, ignoring, ignoring

i am soooooooooo sick of studying..physics...to be specific...*argharghargh* cant wait for hmm...5 days more and farewell physics!! it will be my greatest joy to personally see all physics wkshts get loaded onto the garang guni's lorry!!! everybody mus recycle ok? i feel so guilty for using SOOOO many pcs of folscap to practise amaths...and all the papers we get..that i prob wun finish all.

yay geog was gd..they always recycle mcq qns one lor....i spotted 3 repeats and a few similar ones. like sherilyn said, they probably have a memory valve or sth liddat, and when they run out of qns, they will jus dig out and reuse.hope paper 2 is gd!! my life depends on it.

i kinda shudder at the thot of getting back our results...quite far away lar, but still......wat if sth goes wrong...O_o....so scared. so mus enjoy life this few months. it's so weird...like O's had been our life's goal for the past yr and now it's like 3/4 over....it's like a part of ur life is over...like, a milestone...hahah. sumtimes i cant believe that we have got THIS far.

it's amazing how a MOMENT. a SECOND can change your life. like, during the exams, any wrong choice or a careless slip can affect everything else. isnt it scary to think that what u are doing NOW, might decide sth in the future?

have u ever been caught in the middle before? between 2 ppl, 2 ppl with conflicting ideas?

ask me.



i really hate to be the middle person. caught in that position between my sis-es, my mum and my sis.




a lot of things that i have no idea how to put in words.



my mum, too much pent up feelings brought abt by things that happened long time ago.
my sis, too rebellious.

not to say that anyone has perfect character eg me, bad temper.



i really have no idea about all these EQ stuff. all these person to person relationships, how do u juggle them? how do make sure that u say things to suit every single individual and make everyone happy? make it a win-win situation.


it is indeed really hard to be a human being. if there was a next life...i think i will choose not to be one. a bird? perhaps.

sometimes, it's better not to know something that you were not supposed to know. makes you see things in such a cynical light, the act put on by the subject simply irks you becos you know the truth behind that facade.

it angers me to know that out of this few thousand chinese words we have to learn, only 10 will come out in the exams. chinese would have been much more fun to learn if not for the exams actually. jus think of our last few chi lessons...shouting the answers to the ppl at the bd to write and fight for the CHoCOlate!! hahahahhahahah....wy and her super fast hands (leading to bad handwriting)

looking fwd to the new lease on life 23 days from now. please release me.
and drming of life then already. i will not be home most of the time...hahah...seen enuf of my books and my study rm. cant wait to sell chunks of wkshts and past yr papers (eg Mr chang's papers WITHOUT ans!! grr) to the garang guni. sure my mum will be so prd of me. and by then, my table (which seems as if a crazy wind had swept over it) can finally see the light. literally.

my temper is real real bad. u would probably have experienced it if u had ever pissed me off before. sorry....i really cant control it at times. impatience? or jus pure short-temper...both

that's bad.

my poor keybd had been banged on twice today for (the comp) pissing me off totally. sometimes i dun understand my own bouts of anger and i totally regret after that. maybe i should go for some anger management class?

i will probably be taking tmr's chem pract with nostalgia, knowing it will probably be the last chem pract i will be doing in my life. i hope tmr's lock up will be endurable - disadvantage of being the first batch, but the good thing is, we get clean pipettes and burettes!

everyday i do my work with the knowledge that Os is coming. SOON. it still feels like something surreal somewhere in my consciousness. soon, it will be over. soon we will get our results back. time passes more quickly than ever before! sometimes i can hardly distinguish what happened yesterday and the day before. and i cant wait for it to be over. i suppose when it is over, all of us will feel a sense of 'loss'. it's been our motivation for the past year, perhaps 2 yrs. suddenly we will be so free we will feel weird to not be doing anything. school has trained us, in a way, into workaholics!

yesterday was our official last day in rgs and in 401. this probably has not sunk in anyone's mind yet, as are any parting occasions. our class has been wonderful! all thanks to very fun and hyped up ppl in our class + thanks to karen's boisterous laughter and steph's narcissism that always lightens up our classrm. shall we all meet one day,perhaps 10 yrs later, and all of us very different in our on way, there will be this chapter of our lives in rgs 401 that we all share. and perhaps, wanying may one day, really end up being the first to be married with 2 kids in ten yrs time, or esther earning her first million by 30, or anything at all, our memories remain and that we will keep forever in our hearts.

this week had been rather significant. our last chinese lesson in our whole lives, my last physics lesson (tht's a joy!). our last chem lesson with mrs tan!! she's a great tcher...i felt i had learnt so much more this yr! last lit lesson with ms leow, our dearest, comical ms leow..sighz

as for our class, there will be no more mass toilet-going sessions and terrorizing 315's class terrapin (charmaine). *sobs* it feels weird..it's jus too fast. summore our class ppl are going to various jcs...sighz. gd times end too soon.oh, i am so gonna miss the last row ppl..wanying! haha, hanna and i had a great time sitting beside her, luffing at her funny jokes and blurness. hope to see her arnd in sch next time!

bond's concert is today!!! arghh..no money to go.

7 days to chem pract
8 days to RJC open hse
17 days to Os

seems like i have been offending ppl a little too much...removed all those content. peace is good. not exactly in the best of moods these days

it is a painful dream. but it is possible. we can achieve it.

results were disappointing..expected better but hope all will be well after moderation. i have put up a big sign saying RJC on my noticebd. it's a motivation (it works!), it's a goal. had a rj talk in sch today, the principal was over 2m tall!!!! but somehow, despite all these talks by jcs(and the very apparent rivalry among hc and rj...i mean VERY VERY apparent)my determination to go rj has never been wavered. once a rafflesian, always one! it's a pact between eve and i.

moderation results coming out nxt wk. high high probability that they will moderate amaths, to my relief, and hope they do so for the sciences. i must mug frm now on, so i shall not blog for a REALLY REALLY LONG time...haha, even blogs hibernate.

have been calling my sises online..it's so fun! this program called skype. if u have a mike, u can jus tok over the internet free! even conferences (meaning more than 1 person). hopefully my mum can learn how to on the comp herself (though it's quite tough -- she has difficulties controlling the mousie!). well, she's a housewife, quite a relaxing life actually..haha, since all her kids are grown. but of cos no sane, educated woman of singapore nowadays will give up her 20 years of education, striving for the best instituition, the best results, in hope for the best career just like that. not me at least *shrugs* actually, that's the crux of our population prob...no matter how much incentive u offer, there's still this problem with no resolutions.

The Waste Land

In this decayed hole among the mountains
In the faint moonlight, the grass is singing
Over the tumbled graves, about the chapel
It has no windows, and the door swings,
Dry bones can harm no one.
Only a cock stood on the rooftree
Co co rico, co co rico
In a flash of lightning. Then a damp gust
Bringing rain

Ganga was sunken, and the limp leaves
Waited for rain, while the black clouds
Gathered far distant, over Himavant.
The jungle crouched, humped in silence.
Then spoke the thunder

~T. S. Eliot


savour the words of this poem....
nature will triumph over mankind

yay!!! most of the ppl are rejoicing now, cos prelims are over!!! so weird rite? it was such a BIG thing, but now it's over so quickly.

my sis left last night...miss her...we are practically everything in the world...partners in crime, sis, frens,enemies, loggerheads. we know each other like we know ourselves...currently i'm at home with only my mum.

niwae, watched dodgeball on wed..such a crap show, but well, laughed it all off after 2 wks of torment. i cant imagine picking up momentum to study again. shudnt haf gone to sch today, cos it was quite waste time, esp cos the TJ peeps nv come on schedule, so we had some exam malpractice and HC talk. i'm still set on RJ. i'm a rafflesian!! IF i can make it. but hor, if i cant get into RJ or HC,
slacked the past few days away, life's wonderful, time passed so quickly....for now.
looking fwd to my blog layout tht's in the making, thnks to eve!!

trying to take a breather after 4 days strt of torment.
i swear i wrote the longest zuo wen and gong han in this 2 yrs yesterday! i was so proud of myself. inspiration jus kept flowing. i was so hungry after that that my carnivourous instincts emerged...just ask felly. i tried to bite her innocent hand *beams*

and today sucked. amaths sucked. I nearly cried looking at the qns for the first time. i was just stuck. for a moment i thought God gave up on me or something, and i was praying so hard, 'God dun abandon me'. Perhaps He's too busy, everybody in the hall must have been praying. but i was so proud of myself! i could do the vector-relative velocity qn *beams*

then had geog, which was quite gd! but my hand ached so much after tht. and i came home and slept. my first afternoon nap in how long... i feel as if the exams are almost finished. but the bombers are coming next wk, together, phy and chem and amaths p2. i so love it. but at least they are kind enuf to give us a wkend. geog p1 is tmr, such brainless arrangement, make us go back for like one hr...but b4 that got bio...haha. but seriously, they shudnt haf put geog and amaths together. THEY SHOULD TRY IT FOR THEMSELVES. does it please them to impose such pain on us? we are jus young innocent 16 yr old minds.

btw, read my prev entry too..if u hafnt :)

these days and especially the previous wk, life has been B-O-R-I-N-G boring.trapped at home, limited tv watching, work and work and work. if some one were to write an account of a typical day in the life of a 16 yr old singaporean, it will be

wake up
breakfast
work
lunch
work
dinner
work
sleep

life would haf been worse if not for my handphone game, honeyball!! i'm addicted! ha, sometimes, i tou lan, read TGIS, which is less laborous, and use it as an excuse to slack, but oh well, it's work too! oh btw, lit was so lucky for me!!! i jus finished reading tht part of the bk for the passaged based *beams* emaths today was not bad, easier than i thot it wud be, but i made 2 careless mistakes...>.< careless mistakes are worse than anything else...

was looking at my uniform, and i was thinking, i will miss it so much..u noe, there's this sense of belonging. had lotsa wandering thots during this period of boredom. like, i always wonder if i'm too selfish, always thinking abt myself, the things i want to do, the kind of life i want to lead, I, I, I . but, life's like that, it's either, u do what u want to do, lead your life, or u live up to other's expectations and live they way they want u to live. *shrugs* life's full of ambiguity..

yay, haf gone past 3.5 subjects! hope all goes well for chi compo tmr. it's the 1st time this yr i haf worked so hard on my zao ju.. yay, there's Lavender (the chi movie) on SCV the second day after prelims!!! gonna watch my takeshi *beams* and relax a bit. ha, eve, marilyn and i were toking abt missing the first 3 mths of JC if we end up in CJ or Meridien with our prelim marks....haha,then we can go work or travel! , but i dun think my dad will allow..duh.

oh wellz, gd luck to all!

eve is definitely grieving over the end of olympics man...me and my sis were discussing abt rhythmic gym and how they make things look incredibly easy, doing splits (which exceed 180 degrees) and bending their bodies like nobody's business..

studying is madness...i told my sis dun be shocked if i get a bit cranky or too high..studying too much here. time's running out..haha, make u stressed...okie, tata

i'm damn high today...must be the haw flakes..i ate like 4 tubes today.

watched this damn nice show called "Lassie" with my mum, abt a collie sheepdog..so touching. ha, eve and many ppl are grieving over the end of the olympics..so fast..haiz, and i missed my synchronised swimming!!

my dad's gonna get a new comp!! hallelujah!! chem pract was not bad! but ppl haf very different results for titration but i believe in myself!! then jessie taught me a bit of french during quarantine time. therefore, my msn nick noir et blanc...sounds so cool rite..haha
so lazy to blog more..tata