i am THIS sad!!! i missed my Madam Butterfly tix (by sg lyric opera) jus becos i was contemplating whether i shud go for this or Rj dance nite (which unfortunately ran out!!) ARGH!!!! now the cheapest tix is like 68?? tell me who will sponsor me huh ? huh!!?? so never ever hesitate ok? DONT!

haha, emotional part over. well well...thinking back, this yr had a no. of failed ventures. council, music lessons, interact BOD, photog, piano ensemb...qt sad abt interact BOD...but oh well, i guess i jus dunno enough ppl to garner enuf votes. SPIC today was alrite..it is surely a BIG LOAD of me and yvonne's heart. sigh..the other schools' response was really....really...really...bad...that it became an intra club thing..which is gd! i know much more ppl now =)
it's really tiring to plan events..and i've spent the last few days staring at the comp, profusely emailing grp leaders, station masters, and forgetting to attach the files...



what am i good at?
this is as qn i've been thinking abt for qt sometime esp recently. music? no. studies? no. sports? no.art? no. craft?......maybe...

i really think that im not gd in any particular thing! i see so many ppl who excel in so many disciplines...or some who really are elite in a certain discipline tho they are not as gd in others...but still....

so, this is the end of ennaux. not among the nauxians, but as a grp. actually it died out quite some time ago...when there were only a few PRs like weishyuan, kaihong, zer, shuting. and after we transferred k'cove to the seminar rm after O2, it was basically surviving because of the 2nd intakers. and sadly, the SRs have been locked, and yeah, that's the end of ennaux i guess. been qt dependent on the nauxians, because i hadnt really wandered away to find frens in the morn in the canteen, but now there's no more kcove gathering, gotta find a class bench so that we can have some company in the morn.

i'm in a dilemma! shud i continue my music lessons? continue: cos i have alrdy done abt half a yr of dip and it's quite a waste to give up now!, don't continue: cos i dun intend to do it professionally and it will be waste of money if 1) i fail the exam (reg fee is sky high!!) 2) gotta redo again, waste lesson fees. im quite contented jus playing stuff i like and not playing songs because i HAVE to...yeah *shrugs*

there're 3 yes 3 !!!! birds slping on my hse tree today! there used to be one small one, abt 4-5 cm in diameter, but last wk, one that's abt 8 cm in diameter came along, and now it has brought its family!! it's really shocking to have 3!! birds in a go. click the link to find out which breed it is
http://www.naturia.per.sg/buloh/birds/Pycnonotus_goiavier.htm

today was fun! horoscope said its time for librans to have some fun niwae :) rachel brought her cam so we made glenn, weijie and jingheng do the "1-5 act cute series" video. hilarious!!!!!!!!! after school, we dropped by rachel's s'pore hse cos she wanted to collect her stuff to bring back to her m'sia home. and we did a lot of crap in her rm...uploaded the crap pics that we took in school and edited this monster boy boy pic..oh forgot to mention that we 'rescued' a blue advertisement cow!!! it was lying flat on the grass cos someone took the stick away...then we propped it up agnst a tree and took pics again...ahahahha

haha, in our sch, there's a pink cow (in LT1, says ms chen), and red cow and a blue cow! hilarious!!!!!! after doing crappy stuff in rachel's rm we went j8 to eat and took neoprints :) , yah, and walk arnd.

guess u can tell i had a gd day today!

Interact speech yest was weird..i dun like to make speeches!!! :x hope i can get BOD though. yeah..so far, SPIC's picking up, so i'm not that stressed alrdy. hmm, yeah. tmr's PE will be floorball!! rmb the days in rg where we all rush to the ball and anyhow hit even the ball had like rolled away.. hahah

glenn started singing...or rather screeching during geog lect today! the 'lonely' song..the front part is like some electronically edited type, so it's like some helium sound..hahah, then glenn tried to hit the high note! and obviously everyone looked at him lah...hahahahahhhhh so entertaining. i love mr a's GP and civics, cos we either 1) watch videos / movies (eg seinfeld) or 2) released early 3) free time 4) go canteen for ppls' bdays. so fun!

i'm damn stressed now!!! i have to prepare a 2 min speech for 'campaigning' for interact BOD. and i have absolutely nth to say! not experienced in making such speeches :x!!! argharghargh
damn stressed now and it totally doesnt help that my mum thinks i'm attitud-ing..i'm jus damn stressed HERE!!!!



vocal exploits was wonderful!! RI choir had improved qt a bit! tht explains their gold with honours. made me miss choir all over again! i can understand how they feel before the show, how they feel on the stage, how they feel trying to sing each song with perfection, the excitement running arnd backstage and the flowers and hugs after it all...i miss choir!!! the non-chorale squigs were all nostalgic. after the concert, was hanging arnd with iris waiting for her dad to come. and we were discussing all the 'scandals' hahaha. made wonderful discoveries on couples and all..hahah...2.5 'scandals'- we concluded-



*back to stressed mode*

1. Noone is tagging my board except rachel
2. Time is running out for interact SPIC
3. Lotsa work, little time...
4. Havent watched naruto for ages
5. No time for fave hobbies/ pastimes like craft..and reading...sighz


a. Interact nominee :) interview tmr



there u go, a more succinct way to summarise my week.

today qt fun too..this is gd! sch is fun everyday! hmm, grace chris n i enslaved weijie to carry our files...hahah, then rachel is called grilled chicken foldover and chris is pang sai pang buay chu de ren....LOLOL...cudnt stop luffing...cos tht's the only 'bad' hokkine phrase rachel noes...haha.
then for PE, iris came! we went to the dance studio then the tcher i/c came in...there were this 2 hc guys inside also..then the tcher scolded everyone for like bringing in non-dance ppl and security is a problem..da da. so when she went out to answer a call, iris and I dashed out from the other door...haha yeah...ahhah. excitement of the day

today was qt funny...hahah, rachel lah, do so many retarded stuff..hahah. like the free fall thing in the lift, and her long-gang song (tht grace has in her cam) it goes "i was born in a cardboard box in a longgang south of france"....hahahah, she's damn super amusing! yeah, she's still my slave for...4 more days, 3 tmr.

then had interact, then the rg girls started complaining how unfair the hse system is, cos they only use the ri hse name, like let's say mine's bayley-waddle, they only refer to bayley, so us feminists of rg said that we will not respond to bayley unless they say 'waddle'...hahahah

then went for service at MINDS...i love this girl.so cute! in my pre-sch class...actually ppl prob dun really noe (i didnt noe b4 as well) that MINDS is not just for kids with down syndrome, but also for kids with low IQ or intellectual disability, so many of them look perfectly normal, jus that they have difficulties learning, so yea, be nice to them! dun stigmatize, because we are blessed to be who we are, all they wish for is just a normal life.

noblesse oblige ( because we are blessed, we are obliged to give back to the world)

You scored as Iruka. You’re Iruka, the Ninja Academy teacher. You, my friend, are one of the kindest people there is. Sure, you can lose you temper from time to time – who wouldn’t, teaching those kids – but you have a heart of gold. You work hard and are always there when someone needs you, but you tend to worry a bit too much about those you love. Iruka 75% Neji 56% Naruto 56% Kakashi 56% Shikamaru 56% TenTen 50% Hinata 50% Rock Lee 50% Genma 38% Sasuke 25% Which Naruto ninja are you most like? created with QuizFarm.com

. [Spell your name backwards]: nixihz
2. [Where do you live?]: Singapore.
3. [Describe yourself in 2 words]: friendly, nice?
4. [Who is your worst enemy?]: none
5. [If you could have any animal, what would it be?]: a yorkshire/silky terrier/schnauzer
6. [What is the latest you've ever stayed up]: erm, not sleeping the entire nite till 11 the nxt day
7. [Ever been to Belgium?]: nope
8. [What's your favorite coin?]: ? all money welcome

DESCRIBE YOUR
9. [Wallet]: Black, flap...=)
10. [Hamster]: N.A.
11. [Toothbrush]: white
12. [Jewelry worn daily]: bits and pieces earrings
13. [Pillow cover]: brown checked
14. [Blanket]: brown, with a house,...sth liddat
15. [Coffee cup]: Nescafe red.
16. [Sunglasses]: na
17. [Evil]: ?
18. [Shoes]: some lousy sports shoes, falling apart..haha
19. [Handbag]: dorothy perkins, black, i like
20. [Favorite Shirt]: erm....dunno
21. [Favorite pants]: none in particular
22. [Cologne/Perfume]: fave--gucci envy me and D&G light blue
23. [CD in stereo right now]: WMP playlist..madonna, frozen
24. [Tattoos]: None.
25. [Piercings]: one on each ear
26. [Wearing]: esprit tee, black shorts
27. [Hair]: long, with fringe
28. [Glasses]: aerolite, reddish-brown color, rectangular
29. [In my mouth]: my tongue?
30. [In my head]: brain!
31. [Wishing]: to be a __________ _________ (only close frens will know) hahahah
32. [After this]:pack, sleep
33. [Talking to]: nobody
34. [Eating:] air..hahah
35. [Do you like candles]: Yup
36. [Do you like hot wax]: no...ermm..haha, brings back memories of interact camp...haha
37. [Do you like incense]: no comments
38. [Do you like the taste of blood]: nope...metallic...
39. [Fetishes]: scents, lipglosses
40. [If you could murder anyone and get away with it]: i wun murder
41. [Thing you wish you could be with right now]: money money money that's too superficial...well, nothing in particular
42. [What/Who is next to you]: homewk file
43. [What do you want done with your body when you die]: cremated? hafnt thot abt it
44. [Do you believe in love]: Yes.
45. [Do you believe in soul mates]: Yes.
46. [Do you believe in love at first sight]: not really
47. [Do you believe in Heaven]: Yes.
48. [Do you believe in forgiveness]: Yes.
49. [Do you believe in God/s]: Yes.
50. [Something that you wish people would understand]: My passion for _________ _______ (same as teh wishing one)
51. [Something you wish you could understand better]: how to be more self disciplined
52. [One thing you want to make happen for tomorrow]: great day ahead, everyone's happy

hrmph, our new class is quite alrite...yeah there are guys....like finally....and i'm sure elsie misses us lor...i mean, our class is such a fun bunch...SIGH...but life is definitely totally different without peeps like guni, felly, iris!!!!! soooo sad...i wish we nv had to change class, no JAE, no O's no 2nd intake........*BRR* i wud love to do sth like what grace did, write down my impression of everyone in the class....a bit lazy..ok, nxt entry yeah...

yah, today's council interview was !#*!(#&*(&*(! bad sighz....forget it....i am not too desperate for it too niwae, not like eg melody who's very serious abt it...i guess i am more of a follower in that sense...i am not some "revolutionary", initiating changes here and there, yeah, i guess im more of a receive order and do stuff person....i think? dunnoo.....

SIGH..tmr's lit lect no more Elizabeth the movie le....sad-ed. anyone wanna crash lit lect? robert frost totally rocks man...

*sarcasm...hope u can tell!

the past 2 days had been an emotional whirlwind for many ppl. i felt the struggle inside me, the reluctance to open up the reluctance to open my heart to sth i dun wanna accept, the reluctance to open my mouth and force myself to say sth that i cant bring myself to.

i wonder what gd things i've done in my past life to deserve such luck. twice...of the same situation. i got the call at abt 11+? really happy/speechless/grateful/glad (mixed feelings) that i cried...i mean....poor science stream ppl, qt a no. cant make it..prob cos science has a serious shortage of spaces lor....really really sad for iris...wonder what im gonna do without her....=(
hope she does well in ac, or her re-appeal works out, or our petition successful, etc. And shyuan, joyce, rai, eve, fadz, chinyee, all others out there, God bless!

readin amanda's blog reminds me of my theory of the intersection of life...yes the ZX theory =) ahhaha.
humph, 3 months really flew past. it's a really cliched thing to say but it really did. 3 months...can u believe it? how can it be? u seem to be able to rmb those first days of jan, and now it's apr soon. i think much of my current class will split up...i really love my class and OG. the ppl are all nice, (i hate to use this wd) and there are no bitchy ppl...tht's y i hope for our class to stay so much. i think i've said this b4...im a person who...doesnt really like changes that much...especially when i've settled down on sth, i dun like to change it..it's my comfort zone..in that sense.

but who says life stays still? it never does

went sentosa yest, didnt really tan much tho, cos by the time we went, it wasnt as hot. we kayaked!! finally, after missing it for 2 yrs since obs. it's a lifetime skill, i mean, it's a hard to forget skill..which is gd!

hmm, hols are finishing soon...real fast!

i want to live in a condo. there're pools, tennis courts, gym..so fun!

hmm..i miss those hyped up days in choir with crazy mindy..haha, she never fails to entertain me! but i hardly see her arnd in sch nowadays. hmm, occassionally i miss choir too..but oh well. sometimes i wonder how life would have been different if i had done sth differently or made a different decision on things...

today was a gd day :), well, besides civics...well, but all in all good. sam crashed, he looked much happier. gd for him! and, maths was good too. had quite a few laughs with iris..haha. and the Brunei princess came to tour our sch, there were ppl saying that maybe she wants to study here..since she's only 17....
oh, and we found out that 2...maybe 3 guys want to take geog..hahah, then we can finally be free of the reputation of having only one guy...AND, that elsie...sth wrong lor, dunno throw wat tantrum....
then GP was gd, watched 15. and released half an hour early! woo! that's y i say it's a happy day! there's a farewell dinner for jas tmr...sigh, life is all about arriving and departing...(sound like airport terminal...but niwae....)
hmm, last day of the term tmr...it's mar hol! can u believe it? the prev mar hols were nv so soon!! time flies by....

it's amazing how u get to know someone more and more isnt it? it's like...an exfoliating onion...u expose every layer, every facade of yourself to ppl around you, slowly showing the true you. it's amazing isnt it?? just that we nv really realise these things happening

Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

today was soooooooo amusing...*looks at iris* hahahhah. i think he will be very bothered..muahahah.

sighz, results coming out ...i hope its __ hahah =) secret thots

was jo's bday yest, and she scared me my pulling my leg, saying it was her bday that day, when i msged her at nite to tell her to come to kcove...phew....i thot it's real!! hahha, and i stupidly wrote happy 17 on her card...OOPS....hahah

quite a lot of loose ends to tie up for work this wkend. and i think there will be a last gathering for 1A03B, Jan- Feb 2005

everybody feels the jitters. as the speculated DATE draws near.

really love RJ...cant imagine life outside it. it has become my comfort zone. so is felly! she's my comfort zone too. if she changed class, i dunno...cant imagine who i can share my secrets with...till now, hafnt really found a person to truly deeply share my thots.
like eve said...she crashed vj, and she saw steph and xinyi......mentioned sth abt their back view. i miss the good old days! crap and craziness, noise, and childish games, pulling at the door not letting anyone in....shopping at popular,karen and her boisterous luffter. everything..

nothing can replace that ever, it retains its special place in my heart. cant quite say what it is...jus a special connection.

or am i the only one dwelling in the past, unable to get away while others move on?