my sister isl eaving in abt 7 hrs from now :( well, once again, i've gotten used to her being arnd. i think with her...its a love-hate relationship, but recently its been more love lah..haha

the thought of having to study more and more in the future totally puts me off. i wanna do sth fun, sth i like. the noise singapore launch would have been tmr..but i cant go :( :( :(

hahah! go read roland's blog..the "assuming song" is hilarious!!

hmm, well, today started off with me waking upearly!! like 7am!! haha, cos i wanted my dad to fetch me to sch, so i did a timed maths paper in the lib. i know that it's really much more efficient to wake up early, get a nice cuppa, and that will last me thru the day. but sorry...bed beckons! i will nv ever sacrifice my slp k!! except once in a while. spent abt 3 hrs at econs lesson and went for lunch and home.

AND i was on the same bus as the 156 paedo!! (yes it WAS bus 156) he is REALLY FULLTIME PSYCHO. i wonder wat's his other part time job... ok, so he was on the bus, and there were RI boys arnd, walking to j8, at the traffic lights, and he will crane his neck or lean forward to stare at those poor little boys(the way u scrutinise someone to see if hes someone noe), invading them with his sick and perverse mind.

*shudders*

because scotty chua is too lazy to get his own blogger acct, he's now using my acct. SO in any case his hand shud feel itchy and wanna blog STH FUNNY on MY blog...hmm, i guess u all can tell lah har. hahahha! but e ren xian gao zhuang, i alrdy posted on his blog..hahaha! ok, shall advertise his blog for him

www.orhkaybye.blogspot.com
(his link is under 'scotty' at the sidebar
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the footnote is still "posted by zhi xin" he shall be my split personality for now till we find sth mutually agreeable to put ( like kadcmd.HAHHAHA!!)

went ice skating with my sis yest and fell on my butt abt 5 times. i think i fell on my tailbone..still hurts a bit. her fren is a coach there! so she helped us a bit. i slacked off the whole of yest, watching 2 hrs of korean drama at nite after coming home frm ice skating and dinner.
yw mms-edme today to show me this very nice pair of earrings she made. i cant wait for exmas to be over! so much to do! so much fun! and the peak of my studying cycle is over...hai

after experiencing 9..close to 10 months of jc life, i've decided to sum it up in a few of my own ideas and thoughts abt it.

jc. a intermediate stage where we are exposed to the real world. little shelter, nobody there to push you to do work. self discipline, self preservation is needed. there are so many things happening arnd u, so many things u need to do, that sometimes its hard to find time to just be yourself, keeping the core of yourself intact.
as for friendships, i've come to a whole new level of understding about friendships this yr. it is not sth that can last forever. honestly, i dun believe in a 'friends forever' anymore. i have too many experiences on that. partly also cos i need someone who can share my thoughts and understd me deep down to call a gd friend. i've realised there is a need to constantly make the effort to reach out, to interact with old friends, who have been separated or taken out of your daily lives. i tried that, but it was only a one-off thing. and some experiences abt family love have also made me conclude that, indeed, nothing is more impt than one's family. not even friends. when u realise that the social world arnd u is peeled off, all you have left with you, or that's left supporting u thru, is ur family.

the day didnt start off so well. i had a bad dream...bad to the extent that i actually cried when i woke up... then was almost late if the bus had been slightly later.

lessons were alrite, breezed past with me not eating anth at all! hahah, so proud of myself. the MOST entertaining of all, the pinnacle of excitement, was when we carried out our well-planned ploy on some delusional girl. yes. sadly very delusional. i think i had the grtest laugh in ages! oh and uncle peanut, if you're reading this, mai ah ni beng ay sai bo?!?! *zips back to civilised tone*

ah well, spent some time at j8 and rach and yw and ooh, had a wonderful evening watching da chang jin. woohoo! damn nice!! but sth dangerous is gonna happen. oh well, feeling rather accomplished now! finally figured out my mkt str! and yeah, hopefully all goes well for printing pw tmr!

the life of a sad singaporean teenage student

wake up at 6
go school until 5
wait 2 hours for a non existent pe lesson
go home
study
dinner
a wee bit of tv
study
study
study
PW
sleep

can u believe it? my life is damn sad! hahah, the excitement of the day is actually playing along with these damn delusional girl. hahah, but it's really qt fun.
DIE PROMOS! DIE!!
(17 days to liberation)


i miss those days when i was the first to know, the first one you confide in

yay!! im so happy!! as rachel noes, i've been on a hello panda craze and today my dream came true. my family went to og orchard and they have this whole big section of nice jap and korean snacks. YUM! SOOOOO i grabbed a HUGE box of hello panda(with 10 indiv packs)! (chocolate of course!!) and im so happy with it now!!

ah well..sch's starting AGAIN. how dreadful. managed to plough thru mkt str and half of wages. i have an ominous feeling abt my econs though..hopefully maths and geog will turn out alrite.

yw rachel and i were discussing abt ways to earn money, i prob can do some writing for mags? if possible, and giving tuition (to like pri sch kids...easier..haha) and perhaps short term piano lessons. my bank acct balance is sad..really.

went for a buffet lunch at hotel phoenix with my sis's bf's family. the durian mousse cake was so yummy!!!! and the prata curry was gd too :)

today was relatively productive. finally ploughed thru mkt structure and sorted out my thots. and also pop geog. phew. a few more days to go. it's so near, yet still seems so far away (when u think abt all the grt things u wanna do after promos) i really cant wait anymore!!!

listening to : debussy's clair de lune

hmm, sometimes, i jus feel that little tinge of regret for not continuing in music. wonder how i would have turned out if i did. but, seriously lah, my music isnt that grt...but i think it was in sec 2 or 3, that i started to appreciate classical music. i feel that it is the earliest and purest form of music, and the wonders of it! ancient ppl with so much imagination to create such wonderful pieces.
i feel that this yr had been so hectic, time flying past so quickly that i didnt really have the time to indulge in the aesthetics, as much as i used to. i hardly sketched this yr, hardly went for any concerts, listening to new songs, etc. hai

back to studying. cant believe its a yr gone soon...and 1/2 of jc life too.

"Marlow is a dude who is going Africa to look for a cursed diamond, which, when he wears it, will grant him immortality"

that is rachel's take on "Heart of Darkness" which is not to be trusted. we were trying hard to read online summaries anda few pages of the book for the reading test. and thnks to the link that jy sent me, i was able to not make my paper totally empty.

hmm. spent the 2 hrs break fairly efficiently with grace. i think studying in the classrm is better than in the lib. the lib is too big, too distracting, too cold. yay managed to get my summary for econ geog done, left with a little section. and did section A of my maths tut! woohoo!! hope tht all days to come will be as productive.

there was absolutely not a soul at the pe dept/ pe area except for a trickle of us. sooo...since there was an exam going on in the hall, and there were no tchers and otehr students there, we assumed that there was no pe!

i think that quiz (look below) is rather accurate! hmm...

niwae, went thru econ geog and summed it up in a nice mindmap during tut today. well, im pretty comfortable with it, but seems like i gotta organise my notes (aka redo) according to the pts. im someone who 1) must have colourful notes. my sis's notes are all in pencil. but she's smart, period. 2) i must have the pts stated very clearly, im not those who can fish out pts among a lot of other pts. 3) even tho some ppl may think my note-making aint't effective, i just HAVE to write down the pts, tho it may seem like copying the whole txtbk.

ok let's see. i still have human geog, complex and differentiation, and term 3/4 econs to go. tht's the first round. there shall be another round the wk b4.


my sis had been pestering me to watch herbie: fully loaded with her for the past wk, so i've started calling her herbie. yes, finally she watched it today, and lo and behold! jus found out frm my dad that, herbie IS the name of that model of VW beetle. i thot it was jus tht particular one in the fully loaded movie. haha, pardon my apathy in the car genre.

You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time
alone but do like other people's company
sometimes. You just need your space. You have a
few priviledged friends who saw past your
colder exterior to find the true you. You can
have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to
admit it) so you could be soft one second then
storming around the next! But over all, you're
a very pleasant person once people take the
time to get to know you. You're a good friend
for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when
it comes to creative things.(If you can't see
the pics, go to my homepage and look near the
bottom and find your result)


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yup, i've created a quiz for myself, so u can go take it if you want to :)

today's hc's MAF. i think its qt a meaningful thing, because even my sisters who are graduates frm several generations ago still go back every yr...i guess tht's the spirit and bond that rj lacks. everybody and everything's so sian. yeah..but oh well.

rachel! im proud of you! i admire your courage and bravery and determination in achieving the feat! hahaha

hmm, have been involved in this entertainment thing, courtesy to scotty. i think we're all qt mean, but oh well...its really really funny. shan't write more.

hmm. studying was gd today, stuck to my to-do-list, and qt productive i must say! but when i was making notes for slopes, i was wondering. who on earth cares about gilbert's hypothesis of soil creep and the Carson and Kirkby model !?!?! hai...too bad i chose geog. mind you, i do love geog, but it really gets kinda boring yeah? but it sure beats physics. hahha, biased opinion.

went to sch today for some pc session with mr ng. well, it was really loooonnnnggg...frm 10.30 to nearly 2pm. he touched on the braoder themes on frost, like boundaries between 2 opposing things and how the poet creates that space of boundary, that fine line between what's in our imagination or in reality.

then i RUSHED home for my da chang jin re-run cos i missed it last night. those of you out there who says da chang jin is an auntie show!!!! MIND YOU!!! it's not!! hahaha. its genuinely nice lah, i think it beats mediacorp dramas. in fact, i havent even watched a single mediacorp drama since...last yr? it jus repeats itself over and over again. more or less. i think the last one i watched was san shi feng yu lu (30 tumultous years) with huang bi ren, that was qt nice...i like those set in the olden days. like he shui shan!!! (Bukit Ho Swee) abt 2 yrs ago, with allan wu..hahah. i rmb when silver frm superstar sang this really duper old song frm some mediacorp drama abt 10 yrs ago, i cud recognise it!! its jus gets worse lah har...over the yrs, ppl run out of ideas.

yeah, so i shud zip back to work now. i will not make today another unproductive day.

woohoo...once again, i've experienced the wonder of retail therapy. feeling contented now :)

my sis is leaving on the 29th..when she first came back. it felt so weird that she's back cos i had been so used to the solitude. but now that i realise what a big part she plays in my life, its hard to part again. but oh well, at least i've experienced it. i hate the way time passes so quickly and we grow up so quickly. growing up brings along with it a lot of problems that we have to face, that we have to go thru and learn from (the hard way). i really miss sec sch days. all the girlish company, the great memories. the fun we had is inexplicable. i wish i can always be 16.



im so bothered...i dun think i did the right thing. i think im over-reacting, i think studying is making me mad.

i think that i think too much, not good. sometimes its better to be happy go lucky, and nth comes in your way, no thoughts on certain issues, take life as it comes. i wish i could do that.

dun u think that sometimes when things stop, activities end, life jus seems so empty.


you used to make me laugh

dun u sometimes wonder how life would have been like if u had made a different choice, or events had taken a different turn? and ppl wouldnt have entered or left your life? sometimes i wonder if i would have been better off in some other way than this. but i miss the ppl that left but i also treasure the ppl that came, though sometimes i feel as if they never happened before and it was jus like before. perhaps i would have been better off some other way. destiny. i believe all this will lead to sth meant for me.