i'm tired of trying and hoping. and i feel like i'm losing two at once. what was may not mean that much to you but it does to me. i feel like i dun need to be there. it doesnt matter even if i am. you may not think much abt it, you may not understand. it doesnt matter what you say cos you jus cant understand and actions speak louder than words.now i feel like i should just devote my energy to work, at least i can get something tangible something more fruitful out of it. what a tragic way to see things, but im losing it