being j2 sucks. i cant emphasize that enough.

integration sucks too.

its the gravity of having to decide for sth that will change ur life, like rach says j2 really marks the switch frm teen to adult. and im so envious of those ppl who have their overseas uni education guaranteed. so they have one less thing to tackle- scholarships. why do i sound so desperate to go overseas? cos im kinda sick of sg, and sometimes when i quarrel with my mum, i jus really think that we should both give each other some space. absence makes the heart fonder, and maybe then we'll appreciate each other better. its jus a desire to escape. some ppl do not know what they want out of life yet, but their path has been laid out before them. i know what i want, but i have to carve out my own path, which is not something that i can guarantee to tahan till then end. i need some divine intervention here.