had a career talk in the morn, and it just sets me into that melancholic mood. its such a damn hassle to do all the apps for schs and scholarships, that sometimes i will wonder, why put myself through all this torture? but if i dun try one day i might regret. GOSH. i've said a thousand times before how im really torn right through the center when it comes to THE future. if only everyone could have what they wanted.

its scary. CT2 is coming. ok, i've lotsa things to do after A's!!
-sewing lessons!
-dance lessons
-baking with my mum
-get a job!!!
-major cleaning up
-travelling!
-learn to drive! (omg! it feels so surreal!)
-learn the violin! (if i've the financial support)
-shop! (this is a constant lah. it happens anytime, anyday, anywhere)
-join rotaract

it'd be nice to take a gap yr to jus complete everything i wanna do. and after that yr i'd have learnt how to do so many stuff and will probably be a much more satisfied and wholesome person. ah well..not very practical to my parents i guess, taking a gap yr.

shall add on to that list the moment i think of more things i wanna do