my mum showed me this article in the wanpao today abt this little pri sch girl whose mum encouraged her to join some cdc fashion design competition and apparently won sth, and my mum was like saying, so this is what you wanna do is it? and i said yes. and i thought, if only she could be more understanding of my likings and if only my family was one that is more encouraging of being different or being beyond conventional and not one that would have expectations of just settling for the conventional. i mean, sometimes, success or satisfaction doesnt just come from being conventional, following suit, earning a proper living and more or less comfortable. sometimes, there is much more beyond that. like i read on today, where they asked the 77th st founder (elim chew?) about whether passion for one's job is overrated. i agree with her lah, about the pt that if you dont have the passion for sth, gonig to work would just be a chore cos you're merely there to earn a living lor, get by each day like that lor. then what, waste your youth away? but, i also think that words like "follow your dreams" "dream like noone can say no" that kinda things, are bullshit in this world. go tell a 18yr old singapore jc student, who has a beyond conventional dream (ie not doctor, scientist yada yada) that and see if they tell you it;s possible.

i can personally tell you, no it's not possible. partly cos of my family as well. but seriously, when you're at this stage, there's so much at stake and obviously no sane person would give up all that. a less that encouraging family isnt gonna help much too. but somehow i'm over that phase already. i think the stubborness and drive is a sec sch thing that i've kinda gotten over.

there's another phase that i've gotten over but my mum is bringing it up again. braces!!there was a time in sec 3 when i REALLY REALLY wanted to get braces but my mum said no, it's very painful its very troublesome blah blah, and now she sees her fren's daughter having nice teeth she starts talking about it again. and now that im over it, she says its gd and nice and blah blah. and i told her, when i really wanted it you say no! but now she's given me the approval to go ahead if i really want to. so i shall conduct some opinion polls and decide if i want to have them. haha. sigh. sometimes, one should really just consider and ponder over sth less. when in doubt jus buy/get/do it. sometimes acting on an impulse (for harmless things i mean) makes one happier than regretting later on!