sigh. im suddenly feeling the burden of growing up. decisions, commitments, decisions. now im beginning to appreciate why adults say that being a student is the best. no need to care abt the things going around the world, no need to make major, life-changing decisions, no need to think so deeply about why, what, how. the thought of growing up and working...really makes me dread growing up. and by working, i foresee some sad deskjob life, which is not me at all. i will try with ALL THE CELLS AND BLOOD AND CHI in my body to find a nice interesting job.

meanwhile, school is boring as ever. i think sec sch was the best. the besto!!!

finally a productive weekend!! so proud of myself. but there's still more to go! niwae, janice's blog is so frigging funny!!!!! janice, u have such entertaining talents. stop bullying feli can!! hahaha. sch starts again tmr. i cant differentiate between the different days and week, they are jus lumped together in my brain under one sub topic of SCHOOL. BORING SCHOOL. and very soon, it will be A's and zoom - graduation. i dread the nearing of that day.

niwae, my SATs results are coming out tmr....pretty scared cos i seriously jus bleah-ed thru the last few sections cos i was so freaking tired even after downing one cup of coffee in the morning. its so draining lah. wish me luck :S

i figured i need more discipline cos there's really a lot of work piled up by now. TONS OF READINGS. so, i started my week going for SV on tue. havent been there for really long cos i always cant catch the early bus or it'd be super crowded. so hopefully, i will wake up earlier and go every tue.

lots of work. actually readings!! human geog, phy geog, human geog s, phy geog s, econs (that income determination notes which are totally.. GROSS and the lectures are so DAMN USELESS), econs S. and nv ending maths tutorials!! but somehow i think maths hw are the most enjoyable to do. jus keep doing, apply formula can alrdy.more or less. and this yr's geog's so rushed!! there are so many things that we're expected to resrch ourselves, and i cant really grasp wat's the impt points. hope the tchers do a summary. really glad mr quek is our econs tutor or i think my macro wud DIE. this current lecturer is so...FRUSTRATING!! 1) i dunno wat's he talking abt what keynes wat milton friedman and wat they believe. 2) the basics are not even in! like AS AD etc etc 3) the notes are in such a freaking mess!!! me and eunice complaint so much to mr quek ahhaha.

so, after all that's said, a lot of time will need to be devoted to reading the notes myself AGAIN cos they dun make a single sense to me now. and making geog notes. UGGGHHHH. school is so sian!!! I HATE THURSDAYS!!! its my most most most most dreaded day. its bad enuf to have pe frm 3-4 and ON TOP OF THAT MISERY, econs s from 4-5!! :( the only thing that salvages the late late day is some jokes by the expat tchers. fri wud be perfect if not for the 4hr break. so rach and i bummed arnd and idled in j8 and the lib. and i had a nice nap in the sofa section. ahahha

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry. -yes
You are a person who thinks before acting, intelligent and thorough. -i guess?
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others. -yes!

went to chingay 06 with iris! it was pretty fun! except for the LONG LONG LONG wait. there was a rj /rj dance club troupe! with 3 floats! hahah, how cool is that. pictures! some random shots of the parade, and YES that's jy. ahahha. so iris was busy waving to all her frens! haha, and each troupe had their own coordinators, so the coordinators were rj ppl too. pretty interesting. ahhah.






these are rj dancers!

(sidenote: picasa is SO COOL LAH. my pics were super dark cos my cam's lousy. so i jus click "fill light" and voila! u can actually see the faces in the pics!)

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ok. so after the parade ended at close to 10, iris had to eat cos shehadnt had her dinner, so we went centrepoint, which was behind where we were seating and it was freaking full! so we went over to taka, which is SUPER chingay unfriendly. not a single shop was open AND THERE WAS ONLY ONE FREAKING DOOR OPEN IN THE WHOLE BUILDING. and i meant ONE PANEL of a glass door. does it hurt them a wee bit to open jus the other panel!>?!?!? and the disco thing was jus outside taka, so it was pretty crowded. so we went over to paragon coffeebean.

that's our reflection off the ceiling at coffeebean. haha.

AND AND AND I CONCLUDE THAT NIGHT TAXI DRIVERS ARE EVIL!!!!!! we couldnt get one at abt 11.30 when we were done. cos they were
1) waiting for midnight surcharge
2) waiting for on-calls

DAMN EVIL.

so we had to wait for my dad till nearly 1...yes and so im suffering frm lack of sleep now.

met the 401-ers yest, 12 of us altogether, mostly rj ppl, ahhaha, but its still good cos i hardly get to talk to them much in school. everyone's still the same, gd old gullible felly! bullied by janice! and dearest wanying (has grown smarter!) hahaha. had dinner at nydc and walked arnd. didnt do much, but it was nice to jus be together again.

im listening to phantom of the opera now. as brilliant as ever.

i FINALLY got to swim today. but it still rained, so i swam for a short while. i enjoy swimming cos its so relaxing but u can be comforted that u're working off some of ur cny guilt. school was boring as usual haha, except when rachel stays in the disillusion that she is sayuri in memoirs. yes yes, u want a life of ur own. ahhaha. the movie is nice i must say! but i checked the book's ending - sooo ooo much longer- and ppl are saying that chairman's a paedo. HAHA. true. but still..aww, ken watanabe. ahhaha

Little Wing

Well she’s walking through the clouds
With a circus mind that’s running round
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairy tales
That’s all she ever thinks about
Riding with the wind.

When I’m sad, she comes to me
With a thousand smiles, she gives to me free
It’s alright she says it’s alright
Take anything you want from me, anything
Anything.

Fly on little wing,
Yeah yeah, yeah, little wing

how do you celebrate ur cny? i dunno, but this yr i dun really feel like its the cny alrdy and partly also cos im not that close to my cousins, so cny its a very routine-y thing. but the food makes up for things of cos. but this yr kinda sucks cos there's tons of hmwk, and obviously im not in the mood to do them. argh. why do we have to grow up! have u ever wondered why u do all these work for? what for? why?

watched memoirs yest. nice nice nice. so nice. i think ancient japanese culture is so intriguing. and i think its so sad that the geisha trade died off, i mean, its a really beautiful art and their every movement is an art. i especially love the ending, ahha, but i think the ending was much sadder in the book. and i think ken watanabe suits the role of Chairman.

ITS A SIGN MAN. hahaha, there's project runway, sharon, and now ashley isham's success story on the papers. its surely a sign. and when i pointed out ashley isham to my mum, she gave that "oh no" expression and she must be thinking, this kid is getting off track, lead her back to the path of light. ah well. seems like i have to do things in the dark then. apply for all necessary things and when its done i shall tell her. more impactful. i know my chances are slim but im taking the chance. and i would really love to convince my mum that fashion is indeed a viable career option (how do you say viable in chinese?), not in singapore obviously. but start somewhere else. fashion is viable because it can never go extinct. why do so many ppl yearn for their gucci chanel lv and raid zara mango and topshop? cos fashion lives. of cos, that would be my ultimate dream. but otherwise, if im to follow the path of light and study something...conventional, i would still hope to find a job related to the fashion industry. ah well, life.

sharon, thnks for coming along to inject that passion into me again. im so blessed to have frens arnd me who appreciate my passion and interest and encourage me along the way. that's really precious.

it's 3 wks into sch and i alrdy feel the heat. i hate thursdays. long and draggy and not a wee bit enjoyable. sitting among science and humans ppl bursting with brain juices on which economist said what aint boosting my self esteem. yes. so thursdays suck. not to mention the huge pile of readings which jus beat arnd the bush and i cant qt get what they are trying to say. and also heaps of assignments.

project runway was..inspiring. debuting at NY Fashion Week is jus so drop jaw. that is what i really wanna do. fashion is my calling man. no matter how much my mum tries to discourage me by saying "eeyer, u have to sew all day and night" (i dun care mama!) and thinking that "if you wanna stike it rich u gotta find a nice 9-5 job" (not true mama!) i really dun care. i dun wanna look back when im old and regret not doing something that i've wanted to

im inclined to believe that my belongings are involved in some conspiracy to escape from me. its my calculator this time!! it must have eloped with my geog notes or SOMETHING. urgh. i hate losing things cos it jus makes me very disorganised

my mum agrees that the school day before any public holiday should be declared a holiday, esp when the public hol is on a tue. such a waste of time.

anyway, i FINALLY saw xiumai! hope to see her arnd often. i miss her blurness. eh, xiumai, be more blur hor! ok, so cny is coming. i am SO SO looking fwd to BAK KWA and WANG WANG! and my mum's choc chip cookies. YUM. oh, angbao too.

was watching project runway. it is darn cool. like NY fashion week. gosh. i'd really love to do up sth like an idea board, but i really hate to cut up my magazines!!!

thanks to my sis' bf, my songs from our old computer is retrieved. such as le regazze!! memories memories. of our seniors, Vocally In Power. Told ya im a memory-of-the-past person

you know your year is not gonna be too good when :

1) you cant get onto the crowded bus on your first day of school and have to cab
2) your alarm clock stopped sometime in the middle of the night and the alarm didnt ring on the second day of school
3) you are attempting your first tutorial and you get stuck several times along the way.

it's pretty frustrating and traumatising

this is so fun! its the car i like!!!

Your Summer Ride is a Mini Cooper

You are all about unique, one of a kind adventures. The only thing predictable about your summer is that it's unpredictable!

What's Your Summer Ride?

Your Power Color Is Red-Orange

At Your Highest: You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth. At Your Lowest: You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked. In Love: You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve. How You're Attractive: You are very affectionate and inspire trust. Your Eternal Question: "Am I Respected?"

What's Your Power Color?

first day of sch was ok.interesting to see the new j1s ( yes yes, i hear that, invasion of the rg girls) and popped in to watch thie orientation stuff. hahaha. we also realised that our jokes frm last year are not very funny anymore, like ppl and things. BUT we spotted little noddy!! the little noddy has the original noddy hairstyle! while the old noddy rebonded his hair. we shud make little noddy not do anything to his hair.

and the worst thing is i STILL cant find my hydro notes. which im pretty sure i brought home b4 the hols.gar.