i finally remembered what i wanted to blog about. the new JAMES BOND. i saw the casino royale trailer and i cant believe they got that guy to be bond lah! i mean i think there's no lack of better looking actors around (ok after googling i found some nicer pics of him) but still, i think he lacks that bond factor. both rachel and i think that pierce brosnan is still the best bond. you know bond should be like suave, and very cool while doing all the stunts but i think the new bond lacks it leh...hahah

man..i jus realised that this chinese show i'm watching has some lesbian thingamajig...and up till where i watched i thought it's just sisterly love. check it out here gu lian hua

phew. i finally completed my ucas and it shud be on its way to ali. haha, i have procrastinated for damn long alrdy. everytime i do such serious matters i will always be very scared and want to double triple quadruple check. that's why i took so long ahha. man, i wonder what life has in store for me...everytime i see ppl doing US apps and packing their envelopes, looking very pro, i will be damn envious but aiyah, for the fuss-free me, ucas will do ahha. don't you wonder what you'll be doing next yr? i mean all these choices and decisions are gonna decide your future. and i just hope life has a surprise ( a nice one!) for me.

these days at the library have been boring but fun at times. like how rachel is high on seemingly nothing today and our paper aeroplanes with grace and her "bf's" face on it (they're pilots!) and our numerous teh peng breaks in the canteen. sigh...i want it over and done with!!! but it'd feel a little awkward to know that sth you've been preparing for so long is soon to be over. but who cares. im alrdy looking fwd to the post A's spree and frantic prom dress hunting!!! (onlyhave abt 8 days to do that!!!) it's like we've been talking abt it for so long and finally it's really really near.

yest, rachel (my bday matey!) celebrated our bday at my hse with some of the class. my dad and i even put up balloons like it was a 3 yr old's party ahha! it was quite a new feeling for me cos i had never really had a bday party before and i don't really enjoy crowds that well, because of awkward silences and moments. well, besides the fact that they were bored of my hse cos i have no games, no vcds, NOTHING to do at my hse, it went pretty well. i liked the fortune telling part (though its proven inaccurate!) and the hilight of the day must be project L (inside joke!) and rachel's expression was PRICELESS.
anyway, lots of pics!

grace likes her door gift

oh, don't you just love rachel when she's looking like a fool.

grace likes her second doorgift, a la bi xiao xing nailclipper

my mum's homemade smiley face bday cake adorned with m&ms and half a strawberry for a nose
grace likes my bday cake ahah.

the 2 gluttons of the day rachel and eunice (the pseudo a03b-ian)

HAAHAH eunice's expression is the BEST!





i like this photo ahahahha

flashing their million dollar sunkist smiles!


the cake's really cute! (though wax started dropping over...)


my pretty present. thank you!

rachel wearing her cancer patient hat. ahha, but she likes it alot cos it's some manga character's hat.

everyone

had a great time! and man, now im legal to drive, booze, buy booze, buy ciggies..hahahah! ok soon lah, 2 more days. you know rachel, we should sth dangerous or havoc on tuesday!

it was open hse today and man, i can still rmb every thing i did at the 04 open hse! man, times passes so quickly that i feel so old at times. today at the library had some silly moments when we were exchanging invitations and tmr is going to be swell i hope! expect pictures!

more pictures!


wah! grace's close to 180 degree taekwando kick! HAHA when will this 2 stop fighting!




view from the lockers

thsoe who went for the lantern festival celeb. man. wish i was there!

GEOG RM!!! ahahha, look at all the wonderful maps in the background(3D maps mind you! haha)!



entertaining ourselves with helium balloons....

which we plucked off the railing ahhaha



pepper lunch



(geog rm alert!)

geog rocks!

man i'll miss this place


err...70% of my class or 80%? haha (now you witness the severe lack of male presence!)

im SURE that there is a lit bk thief going around. or some locker spirit that steals books. grace lost her m4m and robert frost, rachel lost her robert frost and I the UNLUCKY SOUL. lost 2 BOOKS WITHIN A TERM. i really have no IDEA at all where they've gone! i have even pulled out my drawers to see if they've fell behind, and NO they are NOWHERE TO BE FOUND. but on the other hand, i've no idea who could have broken into my locker, i mean the few of us who borroweach other's lockers sometimes would know one and another's combi but that can only limit the possible ppl down to 3 or 4 who could have taken them home wrongly. or maybe there's a THIEF GOING ARND STEALING LIT BKS COS THEY DUN HAVE THEIR OWN TO STUDY. if you're whoever i know and you're reading this and you see my name YAP ZHI XIN on the first page of the bks WOMAN WARRIOR AND HEART OF DARKNESS and you feel guilty, pls return it. if i really cant findthem and none of my frens have taken them by mistake, im going to the office estate management and request to look at the security videos or sth. it cant be so many lost bks from one row of lockers. I WILL TRACK YOU DOWN WHOEVER YOU ARE. there is a camera facing RIGHT at my locker. beware u thief

I'll Hear Your Voice

And now that we've reached the end,
I think of all that's passed
of how the time that went so fast
and of how I've come to depend
upon the faith I feel inside your guiding hands

Say you'll go with me forever, though I know that you can't
Well I ain't much with words
There's nothin' I could say that you ain't heard
But I promise you that each and every day

I'll hear your voice
In every thought that flows through my mind
I'll see your face
In every cloud that floats through my sky
And when the world is too much
and the hurt's got me down on my knees to pray
I'll hear your voice
and you won't be so far away

Do you remember a moonless night?
With only sound for a view,
funny what an ocean can do
It was then that we knew this was right,
and that the arms we shared we'd share so many nights

Say you'll go with me wherever, even though I know it's just a dream
Though I know it's unknown,
It's something that I gotta do alone
But I swear to you I could never do anything without your soul inside

I'll hear your voice
In every thought that flows through my mind
I'll see your face
In every cloud that floats through my sky
And when the world is too much
and the hurt's got me down on my knees to pray
I'll hear your voice
and you won't be so far away

Someday I'll hold you, and we will be sailin'
and I will never have to say goodbye again
Til then, til that day
I'll hear your voice, and you won't be so far away.

that's the song the squigs performed for our seniors during their prom and that seems jus like yest. thought the lyrics are pretty appropriate for this point in time, now that we've reached the end. it really hasnt sunk in yet but we have reached it. and i cant help but wonder where the days have gone - complaints, complaints but now that it's gone we learn to treasure it.

that day my dad was just explaining to me the story behind the 1812 overture, and that reminded me of my interest in music some yrs ago. and dropping piano will be that eternal regret at the back of my head. and that also reminded me that there's sth else i ought to do post A's, which is going for a concert/performance! i havent done that for REAL long. hmm, that last performance i went was dance night, which seemed really really long ago. and anyway, phantom of the opera is coming to sg!!!! for 07 march! if you wanna go please tell me! hahaha, i hope that i can make it for this singapore run. $50 for students

sigh. 3 more days to the official end of day. it's a mixed feeling i think. will miss geog lessons cos i love the small grp and the interaction with the teachers, and some teachers, friends...somehow this 2 yrs were very transient. i cant say i love my sch, because i think that only comes when you are very attached to ccas, hse or groups which im not obviously (check out my wondrously short cca form) but i will miss its environment as well...im really glad i got to stay and of cos i will miss my favouritest junior aminah! sigh...its hard to put into words, with everything going so fast

Your Deadly Sins

Greed: 40%

Sloth: 40%

Envy: 20%

Gluttony: 0%

Lust: 0%

Pride: 0%

Wrath: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You'll die in a shuttle crash, on your way to your resort on the moon.

How Sinful Are You?

hmm..let's see how i die next time huh. maybe i can hum fly me to the moon along the way. haha

Your Summer Ride is a Beetle Convertible

Fun, funky, and a little bit euro. You love your summers to be full of style and sun!

What's Your Summer Ride?


this is kinda addictive! ahahhaa

You are a Black Coffee

At your best, you are: low maintenance, friendly, and adaptable At your worst, you are: cheap and angsty You drink coffee when: you can get your hands on it Your caffeine addiction level: high

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

hahah my caffeine addiction hmm..kinda high lah! ahhaha, but definitely WAY better than earlier this yr k. control and restraint ahahha

i cant believe this is my last WEEK non-tertiary education. like the last week of uniforms, classes, student travel fares...it's scary! man, and this yr just FLEW past like that. and most of the time we've spent on books and somehow have become numb to the fact that we're leaving, farewell, sob sob kinda thing. really cant believe this! seems like yesterday when we first met our classes

sigh..how i've enjoyed the past few days of new found freedom...which will soon be taken from us AGAIN. YET AGAIN. and how am i spending this last holiday? lazing around at home, making jewelry, doing things i havent done for ages (like read that pile of time magazines since last yr). and i say this with utmost sincerity- I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO SCH!! :( :( i know its like the last few weeks of sch and i should be treasuring my time with my frens blah blah, but my class? i've probably said this before but somehow friends don't stay with me throughout the years..like how some close friends from secondary drifted even though we're in the same sch. im just glad the 401 girls are still ok and we meet once in a while (like when jasmine comes back). i jus hope that my current friends stay!

man, can you imagine that about less than 2 more months from now we'll ALL BE FREE!!!!!! that's when i must make sure EVERY SINGLE DAY is packed with activities. freedom is too precious to be wasted at home. i wanna travel so badly!! but its qt hard to organise an overseas trip, seeing how my class severely lacks male presence. and i want to leanr a new language, learn sewing, get a job...etc etc CANT WAIT alrdy.

my mum would be so proud of me!!! i just cleaned up my room!! i cleared my stuff, filed them away, stacked them nicely in my cupboard, reduced the clutter throwing away heaps of paper that i've used (im trying to see how large a pile of rough paper i can collect, ahha, my family sells the scrap paper to garang guni. might as well right, got money plus can recycle!). and boy....i still have one more paper. that sucks. and it also sucks that i end 11 days later than ms gan for the A's..it's not cos of s paper lor. even my main papers are later than hers. why oh why.

niwae, after the paper i wasnt jubilant or ecstatic or anything. just numb. ok lor, end alrdy lor. hahha, need time to transit to play mode man ahha. then we watched the movie Banquet. i must say it was pretty disappointing! shall try not to give spoilers (btw it's NC16 and woohoo! the first time i watched a rated movie legally!! the last time was...mystic river in sec 4? oh and that hmm, zombie show which was M18. felt good to be legal baby!)
1) Daniel wu's role was a wuss. whole day want to die want to die only
2) im pretty unsatisfied with the ending. i think zhang ziyi should have lived in guilt and it would end a "evil triumphs over good" kind of note....sounds like one of those lit bks....
3)it is INCESTUOUS. firstly, zhang ziyi was daniel wu's girlfriend before his father the emperor married her, and thus she becomes his stepmother. THEN, the emperor's bro usurped his throne and er...his woman as well, and so, zhang ziyi became her ex husband's brother's wife. THEN, zhou xun's bro seemed to express some...umm...beyond brotherly affections for her. damn incestuous k.

and whoever that reporter was who wrote that zhou xun stole the show was utterly biased agnst zhang ziyi or sth, cos obviously zhang ziyi did. she was evil to the core, as her role is supposed to be..partly. and zhou xun was just this innocent little girl. ahha, but anyway it was a little hmm annoying when the rolling credits showed zhang ziyi's name as "ziyi zhang" like what the....she's chinese still right, and the other names were in the normal arrgment. hmm, dun qt like this americanisation of her.

anyway, nxt moie im gonna catch? miami vice. gong li is hot hot hot. ok i sound les, but seriously man! she's not like...pretty as in sweet kinda pretty, but like..gorgeous kinda hot. like steaming hot. ahhah, her stare is so icy and sharp. haha gong li!

got this in the email. yeah i know, some of you may think it's cliched and all, but i especially liked the parts i bold. i think no matter what religion you are it does apply in some sense. and i admit i'm indeed not a very religious person in this manner.

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation.
Satan went to visit Jesus in the Garden of Eden,
and Satan came all happy and boasting. (Lk 4: 1-12; Job 1: 6-12)

"Yes, Lord, now I have everybody captive,
(well nearly everybody down there).
I set traps, I used the baits of temptation,
I know well what each one of them can't resist.
I nearly caught them all!" (I Pet 5: 8-9; Eph 6: 10-17)

"What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked.
and He was praying to God the Father.

Satan answered "Oh, I am going to have some fun with them!"
I'll make them divorce after they have married
so the foundation of humanity will never be able to be established
"the family" (Mt 19: 4-6; Mal 2: 16)

I will make them hate each other and abuse each other,
make them fall into alcohol and drugs without control. (Rom 13: 12-14)

I will teach them to make weapons and bombs,
so they kill each other


"I am really going to have fun!"


"And when you are tired of playing with them, what will you do?"
Jesus asked. And continued praying

"Oh, I will kill them all and their souls will be mine forever"
"Lord by all respect, it's their decision" (I Jn 3: 8-10)


"How much do you want for all of them?" Jesus asked.

"Oh, you can't want these people. They aren't anything good.
Why do you want them if they neither follow you nor love you?
Many hate you! I have seen many of them spitting on you, cursing you and
even denying you."
"What's more, they love me a lot" (Mt 24: 10-13)
"You don't want these people!!"


"How much?" Jesus asked again


Satan looked at him with a nasty face


"All your tears and all your blood,
all the pain of the entire world, all together" (Is 53: 4-10; I Pet 2: 24)

Jesus said..."DONE"


"and He paid the price" (II Cor 5: 21)


How terrible it is that people don't seek for God,
and then ask themselves why the world is going to hell!


How terrible that we seek the newspaper everyday to read tragedies
and we never seek the Bible

How insensible it is how everybody wants to go to heaven,
thinking they can get there without having to believe,
without loving God above all things,
or doing what the Bible says...the Laws of God.


It is terrible how some people can say "I believe in God"
but still follow Satan (Who as matter of fact, does fear God)
(II Tim 4: 3-4; II Jn 1: 7-11)


Don't you think it's pathetic how they send
each other thousands of jokes by email,
so they spread like plagues.


But when it's about the Lord's messages,
we think about it twice before we share them;
and we leave the mailboxes of our friends without this message


Don't you think it is outrageous that the obscene,
vulgar and crude is allowed freely to pass through the internet
that even many people would desire to get into the screen.


But it is forbidden to speak publicly about Jesus
in the schools, places of work
self-helping groups, etc... (Acts 4: 19-20)


Even after knowing what He did for us.
Because the Romans didn't kill Him. It was our sin.
that we may be forgiven
and know Him in His glory with the Father.

Doesn't it seem incredible to you how somebody can be alight
on Sabbath in the Church,
worshipping and thanking the Lord for His mercy,
for one more day to live etc.


But during the rest of the week he is an invisible Christian! (II Tim 3:
1-5; Rom 10: 9-13)


Does this seem just to you?

Don't let Satan stop you sending this Mail
to all your contacts on the Web,
It doesn't matter if he tells you that many don't believe this


May God bless you always (II Cor 13: 13)

by the end of this prelims, i'd have about written 31 essays (considering a drq as one)!!! oh my gosh. im so proud of myself. and janice is correct! geog paper was a bladder and arm endurance test HAHA. seriously ah, why must they torture to finish essays in such a short time?! 1st, the markers have to suffer from our gross and illegible handwriting (no wonder cambridge takes so long!) 2nd, we don't sound coherent near the back, like geog ah sometimes no time to change to nicely phrased sentences, and adding things here and there makes it really messy. i CANT WAIT for next wk to come oh please come.

i got this in an email, which said that a young girl from new york who has cancer wrote it. no matter whether it's spam or not, it makes so much sense and i find myself nodding to the questions.

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly’s erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short

The music won’t last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?

When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?


When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores
Running through your head? (yes)


You’d better slow down

Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won’t last.

Ever told your child

We’ll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,”Hi” (yes)

You’d better slow down.
Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short.

The music won’t last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

exam times are very unpleasant. i forgo my hobby sleep leisure exercise (feels wobbles) times, my table is like a war zone (even after cleaning up), my nose is itching like mad, im falling sick soon, and my mind is blank. i really dunno whether that's a gd sign. like ct2, my mind is now rather blank and numb. so i really REALLY have no idea if im absorbing all these that im revising. how now brown cow. thank you gregory for that quote from george bernard shaw .
"Some men see things as they are and ask why. Others dream things that never were and ask why not." i won'y forget but for now it's just postponed. now its earning the moolah first and when i've gained financial power I call the shots and do what i want muahahaha

ooh. my horoscope says: stop pretending that this is enough.the stars want you to follolw your passion. what genuinely moves you? what would you do for free? set your sights in that direction.

haha it's a SIGN. what i would do for free? hmm, sth like andrea sachs job (in devil wears prada). just let me go to paris fw (and hobnob with karl lagarfeld and friends. ahha)

my mum showed me this article in the wanpao today abt this little pri sch girl whose mum encouraged her to join some cdc fashion design competition and apparently won sth, and my mum was like saying, so this is what you wanna do is it? and i said yes. and i thought, if only she could be more understanding of my likings and if only my family was one that is more encouraging of being different or being beyond conventional and not one that would have expectations of just settling for the conventional. i mean, sometimes, success or satisfaction doesnt just come from being conventional, following suit, earning a proper living and more or less comfortable. sometimes, there is much more beyond that. like i read on today, where they asked the 77th st founder (elim chew?) about whether passion for one's job is overrated. i agree with her lah, about the pt that if you dont have the passion for sth, gonig to work would just be a chore cos you're merely there to earn a living lor, get by each day like that lor. then what, waste your youth away? but, i also think that words like "follow your dreams" "dream like noone can say no" that kinda things, are bullshit in this world. go tell a 18yr old singapore jc student, who has a beyond conventional dream (ie not doctor, scientist yada yada) that and see if they tell you it;s possible.

i can personally tell you, no it's not possible. partly cos of my family as well. but seriously, when you're at this stage, there's so much at stake and obviously no sane person would give up all that. a less that encouraging family isnt gonna help much too. but somehow i'm over that phase already. i think the stubborness and drive is a sec sch thing that i've kinda gotten over.

there's another phase that i've gotten over but my mum is bringing it up again. braces!!there was a time in sec 3 when i REALLY REALLY wanted to get braces but my mum said no, it's very painful its very troublesome blah blah, and now she sees her fren's daughter having nice teeth she starts talking about it again. and now that im over it, she says its gd and nice and blah blah. and i told her, when i really wanted it you say no! but now she's given me the approval to go ahead if i really want to. so i shall conduct some opinion polls and decide if i want to have them. haha. sigh. sometimes, one should really just consider and ponder over sth less. when in doubt jus buy/get/do it. sometimes acting on an impulse (for harmless things i mean) makes one happier than regretting later on!

having mini fridges in class rocks. first of all, we had whipped cream and strawberries, then we turn on the heating function and have warm melted cheese subways, next, we have khong guan biscuits with carnation milk (which everyone loves now cos i recommended it) and we also have nice cold m&ms which are, by the way, the in-est thing in the cosmetics world. m&ms colouring for lipsticks, how's that!!

the playground near my hse is almost done with renovati0n, but sadly, it'll be one of those rubber mat ones. i miss sand playgrounds!!!!! i guess this one is probably one the last ones around having sand :( yeah, i know its for kid's safety and all that, but kids need to grow up, they need to know what's pain and learn from that right? what's a scratch or two man? so now i cant take the swing and feel the warm sand between my toes, or scribble words with sticks on sand anymore. sigh.