us and the giraffes!!

this really cute thing but i cant rmb the name

camels!! looking funny when they chew becos of their jaw that looks dislocated

ok, things have cleared up lots, and i feel gd now, even though i just watched the final episode of stairway to heaven. the back part is really damn touching and i cried like mad. looking fwd to tmr! hope all goes well and the weather's fine.

was jus watching amazing race, its so funny when the last team wore all the clothes they could on themselves cos their possessions were confiscated. sch was qt bo liao today. ahah, i think the highlight of the day was throwing arnd lulu's oranges and g posing this damn ah pek pose, reading his HOD. HILARIOUS.

im so bored! BISHI BASHI PLS!! I WANT PS TOO!!!

some stuff happened over this week, drastic stuff. and all i can say is, what a sad loss of affinity. but im ok, its doesnt really stick in my mind anymore. and i'm someone who holds on to the past, clinging on to those memories very tightly, and i guess its sometimes a bit hard to accept that ppl and things change and deviate frm the memories that i cling on so tightly to. but i guess, in life, different ppl deal with things differently and ppl have different outlooks. to u: i'll be perfectly fine with u in sch, so no need to avoid me or anth.

thanks to scotty for his surprise!! :) and thanks to y for being the accomplice. nxt time be more sneaky pls! ahhaha. hmm, bond's 3rd album...hmm, i dunno, its not as impressive as the prev. 2. maybe cos they include lots of very popular songs like canon in d and hungarian rhapsody..and it jus doesnt sound special/unique...and in fact, i think this album is not very bond-ish. but oh well! bond's albums are the only ones that i will buy real ones for! ahha, i cant exactly rmb how i came to like them so much...

little things always birng abt surprises!! i took part in NOISE SINGAPORE some time back, and it was jus for fun. its this art/design competition thing, for many categories. and mine was one of...6 or 7 chosen for the fashion/accessories section!! heehee!! i submitted 2 entries, one for fashion one for accessories and the latter won. was invited to this opening ceremony at rouge club but it was the 2nd day of promos..:( but im jus glad that this small little participation actually brought many surprises for me! now, they want ppl to vote for their fave works. the top 20 artists will get to go for some designers' forum? sth like that. so please vote for me!! thnks!

go to www.noisesingapore.com. scroll down to "sort by" and go to "fashion and accessories" and on the top left corner, there will be a few small thumbnails. click the one on the extreme right and u will see my work! vote me pls! i noe the caption's kinda corny but :)

today's pw dry run was bleagh. i cant stand pw anymore and on 8th nov, i shall say gd riddance! wanted to go to the zoo but it rained so we wandered arnd singapore on a bus..ahhah, not really lah, only to choa chu kang area, and eventually took mrt to our entertainment centre. HAHAHAHA. had fun playing PS!! i havent played for 2 yrs i think..ever since my neighbour moved. and BISHIBASHI AND sth RANCHER HOP ABOUT ITS DAMN FUNNY!!!!! omg!!!! yw and i luffed like mad and we kept pushing each other arnd..hahaha, ok, maybe i pushed her more! ahhahahaha. and when we play those car racing games our body will move with the car too..ahahha, hilarious. had a grt time today!!!

what hurts me most is that how things change, ppl change, and maybe i myself too, changed.

i noe u're hurt, but i am not much better off than you. i jus prefer to hide it and swallow it down.

if that's ur way of getting back at me, u've succeeded. u win.

i hate pw. and i think my grp shouldnt have chosen this topic..and i came up with this topic for PI. and i hate it now. it's abt recycling and its sth that's not NEW at all and every moment we come up with an idea, NEA comes up with or reinforces sth they alrdy have, which makes our project unoriginal. AND our presentation isnt even done, when the dry run is on tue, and THE WORST. is that, i jus found out that we had put a wrong diagram on the written report. and its qt a bad mistake cos it totally left out one of the items and the percentages dun even add up.

im damn stressed now and have a tendency to shout at ppl now.

went jogging jus now. my my...my stamina dropped like SO much and i could barely run 4 rounds. not even 400m each. that shows that fitness needs to be maintained man!

was jus packing some of my drawers. my drawers have the most interesting and randomest assortment of stuff in them. i have lots of notebks, random craft stuff, cross stitch cloth and thread, sewing kit, unused christmas cards, lots of henna (PLEASE GET FRM ME IF U NEED FOR RACIAL HARMONY OR DEEPAVALI). oh, and this notebk that i started which i will write in every 16 yrs of my life..haha, kinda like recording the events in my life and my thots at each phase. and i keep lots of letters that people write to me (angel/mortals, seniors, friends). all these will go to another big blue box in another rm at the end of every yr. that box has xmas cards and letters and every sort of memorabilia u can think of. and i kinda renew the stuff in that box every yr.
i also have this "pri sch box" which has some of the stuff frm pri sch - like that phony velcro prefect tie, a graduation class photo which i look hilarious in, my report bk and this pc of paper on which everyone signed.
oh, besides, i also have a habit of keeping plastic/paper bags that are nice or jus handy. i always believe that things will come to a gd use one day (and they do!) so my drawer has a collection of plastic/paper bags of all shapes and sizes. also have this stack of postcards which i dun use anymore.
and in another rm, i have this secret hide out for some stuff..*shhh* hahah, i have lots of fabric left frm choir last yr (being the costume i/c) really really lots of them. in all colours and materials. like a mini spotlight. so if u happen to need any fabric, i am the one u're looking for.
and i've still got much more things to go. but that shall be cleaned up another day!

well, i do have a lot of stuff, but they're all well hidden and stuffed away somewhere, so all in all, it still looks fairly tidy!

i think iw as conked out for most of today. whenever i got on a bus, i slept for the WHOLE journey, till i reach my destination. must be the pile up of the lack of slp frm past few days. met eve in the evening and talked abt sch life, sch things and ppl, and how things have changed frm the past, etc. always nice to catch up with old frens!

oh well, time to slp! im planning to wake up early to go jogging tmr! woohoo! healthy lifestyle man!

today's trip to sch was qt a waste of time. i wud rather they let us stay late yest then go to sch for some insignificant stuff. the econs s paper talk wasnt that helpful either.

am currently reading catcher in the rye. accg to r, sich angsty writing was a brkthru at that time (40s/50s) it's qt pleasant to read. simple words and sentences, not mind boggling ones like heart of darkness (which after reading u still dun get the meaning). i dun have too gd a feeling abt HOD for nxt yr, cos i really dun understd it!!

am also currently practising to reduce my reliance twds the net cos i have qt plenty of other stuff to do, besides whiling time away on the net doin useless stuff. mtg eve later and hope to catch up with her. miss her chatter and cheerfulness :)

today was qt a pleasant day! and im rather pleased with my results :)

went out to town with p and y and we spent helluva long time at gramophone (scotts picnic food centre, right at the back) it has a wide wide range of music and movies and i got this 2nd hand jazz lounge cd for 6. pretty nice, very relaxing. i like the song 'the girl frm Ipanem' (p's recommendation!)

sch is soooo dreadful now. why cant they have "play sessions" as post promo activities!!

another 4 more boring sch days and pw and pw and pw and pw and pw

so, i've grown older!

well, i guess jc life has put me into a thinking-intensive position. im always made to reflect on certain things etc. and i've been put thru several tests which have made me realise who/ what are the most impt in my life.
my bday resolutions are to be more mild tempered, more patient. and more..but i cant rmb..

yest was helluva fun time!!!!! and the movie part was really hilarious!!! haha, rach asked me what do i usually do at home. and i said bum arnd. cos seriously, there's nth much to do after exams, except, eat, slp, watch tv, surf net, read, cross stitch, making jewellery. there u go, my typical day.

im dreading sch tmr!!! i hate mondays!!!

OMG......da chang jin ended today!!!!! im gonna get withdrawal symptoms!!!!! haizz.....

im happy with my geog! heehee. ok, yw and i really got p addicted to jewellery making!! hahahah, it's the official BOB hobby now!! and arab st is our official secret hangout hahahhahah.

my dad was checking out google earth jus now. its DARN COOL!! we cud actually locate our hse and very very clearly summore! sch's really slack now..not tht im complaining! no sch today, nxt thurs and fri, and nxt nxt tue and thurs. BUT BUT BUT. i really hate pw.

my picture's screwed! argh...arab st is qt a nice place! but mostly just fabric shops (good if u want to tailor make sth) and a no. of bead shops. THEY ARE WONDERFUL. they sell big big big big packs at wholesale prices though not a lot of variety, but gd enough! its always refreshing to walk arnd new places instd of the usu place (town) . so i guess we'll be going there again!

NO WAY. sch DOES NOT START TMR.

5 days of fun is just NOT ENOUGH!!!! (well, taking into consideration that 2 were weather data gathering)

niwae, thnks to rach yw and p for getting me my bead box and filling it up with beads :) :) :) looking at the beads alone make me happy! HEEHEE

pw sucks big time. that's a fact, not an opinion.

today's geog was ok..passed pretty quickly. oh..i was doing cross stitch while grace was reading her harry potter while we were gathering weather data. BUT my stitching needle disappeared mysteriously!!! then we went to holland v, this time with rach anf grace too..but the dun seem to like it as much as yw n i did. haha..there are so many pet shops there!! but so sad the kittens we saw were gone!!!!! :(

having cool outing with yw and p tmr..hahaha! must enjoy our last day of fun to the MAX! i dun want sch to start!!!!!

went to sch for a geog briefing on howt o use the weather data logging equipment so that we can use it for tmr's fieldwork of analysing the weather data arnd bishan. (yeah, thts what geoggers do...hahah) not particularly interested but oh well...

HAHAH, yw and i managed to affect p and rach to start making jewellery too!!! hahah, they are our disciples now! it's a really nice hobby :)

hmm..i've nth much to say actually.

learning pt of today: the more u sleep the more tired u get.

oh, niwae, if u havent known, aedes mozzies have white stripes and are extremely evil. kill them.

i just got bitten by a freaking aedes mozzie. 4 bites! and i took revenge by killing it. hope im strong enough not to fall sick. and i sprayed lots and lots of mozzie mortein arnd the rm.

HOLLAND V IS MY NEW LOVE!!!

yw brought me to holland v to check out the bead shop, shall tok abt it later. holland v rocks man! the shopping centre had really exotic stuff, not those stuff that u see all arnd town! nice accessories and handcrafted items, and there was this lim's art and living-furniture and lifestyle shop. and yw and i kept thinking abt how we will put so much effort into decorating our own hse nxt time....ahh....

so we spent and hr plus at the shopping centre, then went to the bead shop, which was qt a big disappointment. i was really expecting to see very nice stuff lotsa cool crystals and beads. but no. the stuff there were very plastic looking and cant even compare to the faux crystals i get frm where i usu buy my stuff at far east.

well, besides the disappointment, the rest of holland v was nice! and the starbucks there was kinda cool, very cosy feeling. went to taka to meet rach and ate. there was this fashion show going on in taka, but hmm, cant compare to the haute couture ones during SFF. not telling u when or what SFF is, if u havent known. if u are interested in haute couture, u shud look out for stuff like this urself, jus like i did :)

OH..i must mention! we passed by this pet shop in the holland v shopping centre. they had baby parrots that were DARN cute!!!!! they were so small, and too cute to be real! there was this blu and greyish-white one, SO CUTE! and a pair of yellow/ green ones, with bright red beaks. their eyes are so round they look fake DAMN CUTE. then, there was also 3 kittens!!!! i only like kittens..i dun like cats, some look evil, and they're very cold. the kittens were like furballs! and one was playing with this tinsel pompom. SO CUTE!!!! and there was this sikly terrier pup. awww...and there were abt 5 baby rabbits too! and some guinea pigs. AH! i want to live in the pet shop!!!!

oh well, living a brainless life has nv been better!

don't u think im such a genius? hahah, i think im being mroe and more tech savvy jus by learning how to change blog templates. but i still need some help from pros on how to remove the 'getty images' from that pic, or teach me how to post pictures that are in my c drive files (where to find the picture location?)

ahh...ok. so now i've been employed to help my sis revamp her blog. and gotta do scotty's too. hmm, i dun really like the scrollbar thing for the links. but this is the best i can do! so ta! enjoy my new template! will change the pic once in a while, esp when i start my photog streak!

yaaaahooooohooooooo

hahah, even though the papers are over, i dun feel that IMMENSE joy or relief, just feel happy that i can finally start cancelling off tasks from that to-do-list. hoohoO! it's tv time frm 7-9, now...hahha, cos there are 2 shows on scv that are nice, one is my fave, the other is another palace-concubines' fight for status show..which is not bad...

yeah, and i will start clearing away the mounds of wksht stacked up on my table. am adding testis for ppl on frenster now! sth that i hardly do...hahah...and and!! i have so many bks to read, so many earrings to make, and perhaps start some photog streak....when my cam comes back.


well, the paper ended damn early...at 8.50 am and obviously no shops were open then. hail coffeebean for being the only place to hang out at that time. so we had brkfast, and we spent qt a lot of time at kino, looking at my wonderful fashion illustration books. but it was only abt 12. so we went to far east and walked arnd (my shoes! heehee) and eventually met up with yw to chill at big o. hahh, there was this toy shop opp it, and they sell those really cute mini house stuff! aww...like little sets of kitchen furniture, sofa, dining table, and also mini sets of clothes and shoes! then we went to invest 1 buck in a capsule keychain. i got the pooh heffalump one! so cute! then we whiled more time away at borders b4 we headed home. soo...there's gonna be no mental processing involved in my life frm now till sch reopens. ta~

KILL ME KILL ME NOW.

i just found out tht i made a stupid mistake in my paper, a qn which i knew specifically how to do, and was even happy when i saw it thinking that, hey i can do that alrdy!

WHY OH WHY

if i ever miss a certain grade by that certain points, im not gonna forgive myself man...

U FRAUD!!!!! scotty chua!!! infiltrate my blog! hahah, but i saw this coming so oh well!

i make this statement once again. da chang jin is damn nice.

ok, the exams are nearly over, but still needa study for econs mcq, the saving grace. i shall not do a sub by sub analysis of possible outcomes. ahh...am alrdy in holiday mood. woohoo! yay, have gd stuff to do w rach tmr!!

some philoshopical thots (when u see this, u noe its the true blue doo doo, NOT THE FRAUD)
how many ppl have walked in and out of your life? and when u look back at some point in time and relish those memories that make u smile? ppl come and go, but they do leave a fragment of themselves in our hearts.

i think my classmate is sooooooo cuteeeeeee. his name is sCoooTTTyy

ok.. after the lit paper today things will start to get more intense. seriously, studying arts subs (exc. econs) are actually more therapeutic and bearable, then econs and maths. lit...i personally think it's q therapeutic lah. doesnt work your brain or strain your eyes tht much. hope my lit will turn out ok this time round. i love geog, im a tru blue geoger. i feel so happy studying geog...hahaha

my sister isl eaving in abt 7 hrs from now :( well, once again, i've gotten used to her being arnd. i think with her...its a love-hate relationship, but recently its been more love lah..haha

the thought of having to study more and more in the future totally puts me off. i wanna do sth fun, sth i like. the noise singapore launch would have been tmr..but i cant go :( :( :(

hahah! go read roland's blog..the "assuming song" is hilarious!!

hmm, well, today started off with me waking upearly!! like 7am!! haha, cos i wanted my dad to fetch me to sch, so i did a timed maths paper in the lib. i know that it's really much more efficient to wake up early, get a nice cuppa, and that will last me thru the day. but sorry...bed beckons! i will nv ever sacrifice my slp k!! except once in a while. spent abt 3 hrs at econs lesson and went for lunch and home.

AND i was on the same bus as the 156 paedo!! (yes it WAS bus 156) he is REALLY FULLTIME PSYCHO. i wonder wat's his other part time job... ok, so he was on the bus, and there were RI boys arnd, walking to j8, at the traffic lights, and he will crane his neck or lean forward to stare at those poor little boys(the way u scrutinise someone to see if hes someone noe), invading them with his sick and perverse mind.

*shudders*

because scotty chua is too lazy to get his own blogger acct, he's now using my acct. SO in any case his hand shud feel itchy and wanna blog STH FUNNY on MY blog...hmm, i guess u all can tell lah har. hahahha! but e ren xian gao zhuang, i alrdy posted on his blog..hahaha! ok, shall advertise his blog for him

www.orhkaybye.blogspot.com
(his link is under 'scotty' at the sidebar
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the footnote is still "posted by zhi xin" he shall be my split personality for now till we find sth mutually agreeable to put ( like kadcmd.HAHHAHA!!)

went ice skating with my sis yest and fell on my butt abt 5 times. i think i fell on my tailbone..still hurts a bit. her fren is a coach there! so she helped us a bit. i slacked off the whole of yest, watching 2 hrs of korean drama at nite after coming home frm ice skating and dinner.
yw mms-edme today to show me this very nice pair of earrings she made. i cant wait for exmas to be over! so much to do! so much fun! and the peak of my studying cycle is over...hai

after experiencing 9..close to 10 months of jc life, i've decided to sum it up in a few of my own ideas and thoughts abt it.

jc. a intermediate stage where we are exposed to the real world. little shelter, nobody there to push you to do work. self discipline, self preservation is needed. there are so many things happening arnd u, so many things u need to do, that sometimes its hard to find time to just be yourself, keeping the core of yourself intact.
as for friendships, i've come to a whole new level of understding about friendships this yr. it is not sth that can last forever. honestly, i dun believe in a 'friends forever' anymore. i have too many experiences on that. partly also cos i need someone who can share my thoughts and understd me deep down to call a gd friend. i've realised there is a need to constantly make the effort to reach out, to interact with old friends, who have been separated or taken out of your daily lives. i tried that, but it was only a one-off thing. and some experiences abt family love have also made me conclude that, indeed, nothing is more impt than one's family. not even friends. when u realise that the social world arnd u is peeled off, all you have left with you, or that's left supporting u thru, is ur family.

the day didnt start off so well. i had a bad dream...bad to the extent that i actually cried when i woke up... then was almost late if the bus had been slightly later.

lessons were alrite, breezed past with me not eating anth at all! hahah, so proud of myself. the MOST entertaining of all, the pinnacle of excitement, was when we carried out our well-planned ploy on some delusional girl. yes. sadly very delusional. i think i had the grtest laugh in ages! oh and uncle peanut, if you're reading this, mai ah ni beng ay sai bo?!?! *zips back to civilised tone*

ah well, spent some time at j8 and rach and yw and ooh, had a wonderful evening watching da chang jin. woohoo! damn nice!! but sth dangerous is gonna happen. oh well, feeling rather accomplished now! finally figured out my mkt str! and yeah, hopefully all goes well for printing pw tmr!

the life of a sad singaporean teenage student

wake up at 6
go school until 5
wait 2 hours for a non existent pe lesson
go home
study
dinner
a wee bit of tv
study
study
study
PW
sleep

can u believe it? my life is damn sad! hahah, the excitement of the day is actually playing along with these damn delusional girl. hahah, but it's really qt fun.
DIE PROMOS! DIE!!
(17 days to liberation)


i miss those days when i was the first to know, the first one you confide in

yay!! im so happy!! as rachel noes, i've been on a hello panda craze and today my dream came true. my family went to og orchard and they have this whole big section of nice jap and korean snacks. YUM! SOOOOO i grabbed a HUGE box of hello panda(with 10 indiv packs)! (chocolate of course!!) and im so happy with it now!!

ah well..sch's starting AGAIN. how dreadful. managed to plough thru mkt str and half of wages. i have an ominous feeling abt my econs though..hopefully maths and geog will turn out alrite.

yw rachel and i were discussing abt ways to earn money, i prob can do some writing for mags? if possible, and giving tuition (to like pri sch kids...easier..haha) and perhaps short term piano lessons. my bank acct balance is sad..really.

went for a buffet lunch at hotel phoenix with my sis's bf's family. the durian mousse cake was so yummy!!!! and the prata curry was gd too :)

today was relatively productive. finally ploughed thru mkt structure and sorted out my thots. and also pop geog. phew. a few more days to go. it's so near, yet still seems so far away (when u think abt all the grt things u wanna do after promos) i really cant wait anymore!!!

listening to : debussy's clair de lune

hmm, sometimes, i jus feel that little tinge of regret for not continuing in music. wonder how i would have turned out if i did. but, seriously lah, my music isnt that grt...but i think it was in sec 2 or 3, that i started to appreciate classical music. i feel that it is the earliest and purest form of music, and the wonders of it! ancient ppl with so much imagination to create such wonderful pieces.
i feel that this yr had been so hectic, time flying past so quickly that i didnt really have the time to indulge in the aesthetics, as much as i used to. i hardly sketched this yr, hardly went for any concerts, listening to new songs, etc. hai

back to studying. cant believe its a yr gone soon...and 1/2 of jc life too.

"Marlow is a dude who is going Africa to look for a cursed diamond, which, when he wears it, will grant him immortality"

that is rachel's take on "Heart of Darkness" which is not to be trusted. we were trying hard to read online summaries anda few pages of the book for the reading test. and thnks to the link that jy sent me, i was able to not make my paper totally empty.

hmm. spent the 2 hrs break fairly efficiently with grace. i think studying in the classrm is better than in the lib. the lib is too big, too distracting, too cold. yay managed to get my summary for econ geog done, left with a little section. and did section A of my maths tut! woohoo!! hope tht all days to come will be as productive.

there was absolutely not a soul at the pe dept/ pe area except for a trickle of us. sooo...since there was an exam going on in the hall, and there were no tchers and otehr students there, we assumed that there was no pe!

i think that quiz (look below) is rather accurate! hmm...

niwae, went thru econ geog and summed it up in a nice mindmap during tut today. well, im pretty comfortable with it, but seems like i gotta organise my notes (aka redo) according to the pts. im someone who 1) must have colourful notes. my sis's notes are all in pencil. but she's smart, period. 2) i must have the pts stated very clearly, im not those who can fish out pts among a lot of other pts. 3) even tho some ppl may think my note-making aint't effective, i just HAVE to write down the pts, tho it may seem like copying the whole txtbk.

ok let's see. i still have human geog, complex and differentiation, and term 3/4 econs to go. tht's the first round. there shall be another round the wk b4.


my sis had been pestering me to watch herbie: fully loaded with her for the past wk, so i've started calling her herbie. yes, finally she watched it today, and lo and behold! jus found out frm my dad that, herbie IS the name of that model of VW beetle. i thot it was jus tht particular one in the fully loaded movie. haha, pardon my apathy in the car genre.

You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time
alone but do like other people's company
sometimes. You just need your space. You have a
few priviledged friends who saw past your
colder exterior to find the true you. You can
have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to
admit it) so you could be soft one second then
storming around the next! But over all, you're
a very pleasant person once people take the
time to get to know you. You're a good friend
for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when
it comes to creative things.(If you can't see
the pics, go to my homepage and look near the
bottom and find your result)


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yup, i've created a quiz for myself, so u can go take it if you want to :)

today's hc's MAF. i think its qt a meaningful thing, because even my sisters who are graduates frm several generations ago still go back every yr...i guess tht's the spirit and bond that rj lacks. everybody and everything's so sian. yeah..but oh well.

rachel! im proud of you! i admire your courage and bravery and determination in achieving the feat! hahaha

hmm, have been involved in this entertainment thing, courtesy to scotty. i think we're all qt mean, but oh well...its really really funny. shan't write more.

hmm. studying was gd today, stuck to my to-do-list, and qt productive i must say! but when i was making notes for slopes, i was wondering. who on earth cares about gilbert's hypothesis of soil creep and the Carson and Kirkby model !?!?! hai...too bad i chose geog. mind you, i do love geog, but it really gets kinda boring yeah? but it sure beats physics. hahha, biased opinion.

went to sch today for some pc session with mr ng. well, it was really loooonnnnggg...frm 10.30 to nearly 2pm. he touched on the braoder themes on frost, like boundaries between 2 opposing things and how the poet creates that space of boundary, that fine line between what's in our imagination or in reality.

then i RUSHED home for my da chang jin re-run cos i missed it last night. those of you out there who says da chang jin is an auntie show!!!! MIND YOU!!! it's not!! hahaha. its genuinely nice lah, i think it beats mediacorp dramas. in fact, i havent even watched a single mediacorp drama since...last yr? it jus repeats itself over and over again. more or less. i think the last one i watched was san shi feng yu lu (30 tumultous years) with huang bi ren, that was qt nice...i like those set in the olden days. like he shui shan!!! (Bukit Ho Swee) abt 2 yrs ago, with allan wu..hahah. i rmb when silver frm superstar sang this really duper old song frm some mediacorp drama abt 10 yrs ago, i cud recognise it!! its jus gets worse lah har...over the yrs, ppl run out of ideas.

yeah, so i shud zip back to work now. i will not make today another unproductive day.

woohoo...once again, i've experienced the wonder of retail therapy. feeling contented now :)

my sis is leaving on the 29th..when she first came back. it felt so weird that she's back cos i had been so used to the solitude. but now that i realise what a big part she plays in my life, its hard to part again. but oh well, at least i've experienced it. i hate the way time passes so quickly and we grow up so quickly. growing up brings along with it a lot of problems that we have to face, that we have to go thru and learn from (the hard way). i really miss sec sch days. all the girlish company, the great memories. the fun we had is inexplicable. i wish i can always be 16.



im so bothered...i dun think i did the right thing. i think im over-reacting, i think studying is making me mad.

i think that i think too much, not good. sometimes its better to be happy go lucky, and nth comes in your way, no thoughts on certain issues, take life as it comes. i wish i could do that.

dun u think that sometimes when things stop, activities end, life jus seems so empty.


you used to make me laugh

dun u sometimes wonder how life would have been like if u had made a different choice, or events had taken a different turn? and ppl wouldnt have entered or left your life? sometimes i wonder if i would have been better off in some other way than this. but i miss the ppl that left but i also treasure the ppl that came, though sometimes i feel as if they never happened before and it was jus like before. perhaps i would have been better off some other way. destiny. i believe all this will lead to sth meant for me.

met yw and rach yest for their anna sui makeover! so fun! yw's one was a whole pkg of hair and face with a complimentary photoshoot, while rach's one was lips but she had a free gift which was some whitening trial kit and a complmentary makeover voucher! and they were entitled to sweets and chocolates. haha, i entitled myself to the chocolates too..hahah, it was on a stick, like a lollipop. yum. b4 that we went to some fren's and his dad's blues prac/jam session with his dad's frens at tanglin cc. hmm, it wasnt what we expected it to be so we excused ourselves and went off. oh well.

so. we came to a conclusion that we need cash. rach slps and dreams abt cash.

im so disappointed by the superstar results! i supported kelly! i seriously think that junyang should have been the finalist. yeah, i would be fine with either junyang and kelly or junyang and xinhui. all 3 are fine. but dun u think kelly is really very superstar? her dressing and her style and her funkiness...i think she deserves it. but oh well, i suppose in the end, she wud turn out more successful cos shes prob mroe marketable in places like taiwan, etc etc.

now i understand why shopping is dubbed retail THERAPY. well, shall start with my day first

tchers' day celebs in sch today, but the 4 of us went to say hi to our ct and ran off..hahah! we went j8 for a mac's brkfast. on the way there, we met mm and her husband! my gdness! hahahah, phew she was in a gd mood. then i proceeded to taka coffeebean to wait for steph and xinyi to call. our class is pathetic lah!! everyone's so uninterested abt going back...budden again, the tchers i really wanna se are not there anymore (tan mt went scgs!!!!) yeah, so qt sad lah. so there were only 3 of us. we went to eat lunch after that, and toked abt crappy ppl in our classes/ schools and crappy tchers. then i went home,and i slept on the bus and overshot 2 stops and had to wait very long for the bus on the opp side to get home...gar.

my sis passed her driving test!

then my mum, sis and i went out to shop at far east. far east shoes are imported frm china, cos i saw this pair that was exactly like the one my sis bought when she went there..she bought for 6 sing..yeah. so we bought a nice cool denim bag!! (the longish, rectangular type. i really like bags of this shape) and a nice matt gold woven belt, and my mum got a shirt and a pair of shoes. my family works in a unconventional way. we dun get a fixed amt of allowance monthly, so we dun really buy things using our own allowance. besides, we share all our clothes, so we buy our clothes using our parents' money. gd :)

yeah, so now, im happy, and doing my trifo 2 rem ws. :)

im eliminating the studying of hydro 1 for the promos and will bank on geomor, which fortunately id one of my fave topics in geog.

HAI

trigo 2 has really escaped from me!! how!! i suddenly feel so weighed down and stressed.... so much work, so much to rmb. and when u realise u dunno sth, tht scramble to unravel the truth and be enlightened. why does studying seem like such a breeze to some ppl?

i think im really losing this tchers' day thing. the only tcher i genuinely wish to see again in rg would be mrs tan yh. but she's retired. she was such a motherly figure and she really made me understd chem and even like it! i felt like i had leapt frm 0 all the way up. the other tchers were impt to me and nice too, but those who left deep impressions were mrs tan and my pri sch tchers.

im getting broke again!! i had to draw on my surplus from past leftover allowances. now there's even a deficit..DANG!

rach was inspired by a human geog video that lee showed us, so yw, her and i headed down to j8 foodcourt and had teppanyaki! which i hadnt had in ages since the last time my mum ate the mushroom one (way back when i was still living in teck whye and we went to lot 1 all the time) and had food poisoning. yeah. it was qt nice, a little too spicy but oh well! i like chao da veg (but they're carcinogenic!!)

hmm, today is a totally unproductive day cos i came home abt 8 ( and missed my da chang jin!!) and went to my ah ma's hse. and once i came back i've started using the net.


it's qt tragic how this tchers' day things dies off? i rmb we used to go back to phpps every yr! even tho we jus stone there and nth to do, we were still physically there. then this yr, i bet everyone's gg back to sec sch (tho i dun hear of many 401 ppl who are interested...) and phpps is like, almost gone lah. :(

i think i've changed a bit this year, cos i have somehow decided that sometimes life's better if we care less abt considerations and watever holds u back

watched big fish jus now. it was gd! and i noticed the oompa loompa and the mum who coordinates dressing with her daughter in charlie, in the show. thought the show may seem very fantasical, i think the greater things behind the fantasy is meaningful.

i didnt do much today cos we went for dim sum lunch in the afternoon, then my mum and i went shopping at city link and raffles city. happy with the rewards :)

rach, i guess u're right! oh well...i have u to rely on! and p and y!! hahah. oh well

had s cube tok today..which was alrite lah. i like those saf videos though, qt inspiring and man, ain't their gadgets and gizmos cool! hahha, but NO WAY am i gonna enlist myself for ns. the rest of the tok was too ns based and it really didnt have much to do with the girls...i thot it wud be on national security or wat to do during emergency? i think tht wud be more useful and meaningful. well, but no matter what, im not one of those cynics who jus shrug off all these stuff as crap or sth. cos, im proud to be a singaporean and i think that its an amzing feat for a small nation to achieve so much in 40 yrs.

end of patrotic writings.

there's still about 5 more wks to promos and i have SO MUCH that i wanna do alrdy!! so below is a to do list and a to eat list that rach and i came up with

to do list
clear up my place!!!
compile my photo album
sew (y and i wanna sew our own bags!) and finish grace's cross stitch
read lotr and others
sketch!
plan THE birthday bash..hurhurhuhr

to- eat- at list
pepper lunch
yoshinoya! (our all time fave)
subway (cold cut!)
coca


why subway u ask, cos today theres was this "al fresco" thing in sch (which really wast al fresco at all, but its fun!) where they got subway and andersen's frm denmark ice crm to come down. didnt buy the ice crm but me rach and grace got subs. and they only had tuna while we were craving for our cold cuts...AWWW...hhah, tht's why its on the list.

i'm tired of trying and hoping. and i feel like i'm losing two at once. what was may not mean that much to you but it does to me. i feel like i dun need to be there. it doesnt matter even if i am. you may not think much abt it, you may not understand. it doesnt matter what you say cos you jus cant understand and actions speak louder than words.now i feel like i should just devote my energy to work, at least i can get something tangible something more fruitful out of it. what a tragic way to see things, but im losing it

You Are Reverse Pocky

Your attitude: rebellious and clever Non-conformist, but curiously a trendsetter With you, up is down... and it's a wild ride!

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

what do you think?

niwae had a wonderful time the past 2 days!! more slpovers (after promos) pls!! went swimming at scotty's and now my ear's stuck :( so after having much fun, its time to settle down and work hard for the promos! can't wait to plan me and rach's bday..it's gonna be double the fun since its a double bday!!!

im zoning in and out now - suffering frm major fatigue after last night and swimming this morning. reached home at about 4 and slept frm 5 - 6.30 and am going to slp rite now.. 10.03. sleeping late is baaaddd....messes ur body clock

hohohohohoho!!! exciting day coming up tmr! ive got 2 events back to back. how exciting! hhaha, i cant say anth else but exciting!!! hahahahah

today is a memorable day. hahah, our day of adventure. well, we were initially supposed to have a PW itnerview with the NEA person, but today, they're mtg students abt the plastic bags issue. We've been invited there, so we're techinically excused. So we jumped on tht fact and made use of it and went out. AND! everything was going our way! with mr q not there for econs, there's a grter incentive to leave sch riteaway. so we did, and we had mac's brkfast..which i hadnt had for qt some time. yum. then we went to town and went to slop arnd. at the better toy store, scotty and z actually started playing chess!!! like omg!! hahah, it was this giant sized chess set, qt cute. yeah, and there were so serious k..and the girls (yw, rach,me) started playing foosball. hoho! so fun. then, we went to watch land of the dead, which was m18. long story abt how we managed to get in, cos we had 2 valid ics tho none of us look like any of them. so rach n i went in first, cos the passes were female, and (after our plotting and scheming and coming up with many plans, we found out tht a door cud be opened frm inside the theatre and letting ppl frm outside in!!!!) and we managed to get scotty and zul in. it was qt thrilling! hhahaha, and later on we got g and c in too..hmm, wat delinquency!! ahaha. the movie's kinda crappy lah. i mean...hmm...haha, too lazy to say more.

there are only a few wonderful friends that come along in one's life. i thought i had found my wonderful friend, when things happen and distances me from __ .and sometimes..jus sometimes, i feel like im back to a square one, where somr colour seems to be drained away from my life. and im so glad that there are others arnd me to fill in my life and not make me feel so bad.

on a lighter note, today at the library was an hour well spent!! we had such a grreaaattt time luffing. it was qt empty today, when we went in during one of our 2 brks for mon. then lulu came and z came up with some funny idea of plotting to kill a certain somebody. omg...lulu's luffter is so infectious that yw and i cudnt stop luffing till our stomachs ached. then the old librarian came arnd our area to say, who are the 2 girls luffing so loudly, and we walked arnd to some pillar and pretended to be looking at some bks, then we escaped to the 2nd floor. well, then up there, we planned for yw's bday and we jus kept luffing cos yw makes ppl high! hahah. THEN somebody sneezed and z had to say "Bless YOu!" loudly and i jus cudnt hold it anymore!! hahaha, we were all so amused and high and happy we jus kept luffing. hmm. and isnt it wonderful that along with those luffters, maths qns are being completed! hahahah

went for a free concert - Beautiful Sunday, which is a series of free concerts at the esplanade- with my family. today's was the youth philharmonic winds (aka symphonic band). and i jus rediscovered the beauty of wind instruments. i always had a liking for strings, but oh well, i guess winds are really awesome too. who care abt crappy boybands, angsty lyrics and trashy tunes when ture music lies in all these wonderful instruments, waiting for the masters to create great music out of it?

have i said how grateful i am to have frens arnd me who are artistically-inclined, whether performing or fine arts.

went to sch to discuss pw and after that went to town for a while since rach didnt wanna go home so soon. so we went to visit the 4th level of taka, which is all the craft shops, like the book binders, the better art store (really cute stuff!! and toys for kids) and of cos! we went to art friends. superb!! WAY better than spotlight..hahah, but spotlight has the fabrics. hmm, yes, so we loved everything we saw, stencils, beads, painter's palettes, feathers, GEL WAX!! everything i've been so wanting to get when there was one outlet at bras basah. i got this charcoal pencil thing..makes one feel so pro when drawing with it. and there, i felt so glad that i have ppl like rach and yiwei arnd me to appreciate my passion and interest, and understand why i love craft SO MUCH. yiwei and i agreed that, if life wasnt abt money to keep surviving, we would jus take up some odd job and stay at home doing craft!
if i could ever do tht. i would first buy a sewing machine. i would be cross stitching, sewing pouches/ bags and clothes, making earrings and accessories, drawing and sketching, making little gifts like gel candles.
haha, tht's why i once had the idea of opening a handmade gifts shop, where i cvan transform my interest into cash.

life is never what u want it to be rite? doing what u love beats sitting in an office 24/5 staring at figures and squiggly words. dun waste ur life away

pls pls pls, let me be able to fulfill my wishes and pursue my passion one day

today was qt a high day, cos there was no geog lect, and we went to mac's to eat. and we luffed so much!! abt the freak show, and everything!! jus simply hilarious. oh! i must say, i found my spurt of motivation today!! and i made econs notes tht i had been planning to do since....sat!!? yeah, wonderful!!

GRACE. ALL THE THINGS I DO FOR U.

first, i decided to go for movie as well, so i cabbed down to town. AND after i reached cine, i had to walk back to lido to meet my DEAREST GRACE. when i went up the escalotor, u ppl went down. when i came down, u ppl went up.. GRACE ALL THE THINGS I DO FOR U!! and i get this!!! hahahahahhahahhaha

well, charlie and the chocolate factory was not bad! the oompa loompas were simply amusing. but, i think the story's a bit dark and morbid for a kid's story. but oh well, johnyy depp's really psychotic, but he acts well! hahah. not too bad i wld say.

sch's starting tmr. wat a pain in the neck

i think singapore can break a world record of having the most no. of people wearing red at the same time same place.

it's amazing how this patriotism works its way into our lives unconsciously! 99.999999% of the ppl at the padang actually bothered to wear red! i'm so proud of ourselves! the parade is really not tht great. plus the formations would have looked nicer from an aerial view, which means we might as well watch from home. HOWEVER. the aero-manouvres were unbeatable k!!! i think the coolest things were the airplane stunts and the fireworks! beats anything else! and enthu me actually waved the flag or tapped the tambourine as we were instructed to! hmm, a perfect case of successful NE. but, im seriously proud to be a Singaporean! well, the boring parts were jus the guards-of-honour and the uniformed grp stuff, and the song items. i think the national day songs are deproving. i can only rmb up to quan xin quan yi (by steph sun) which was..2 yrs back? nth can beat the gd old we are singapore or stand up for s'pore.

there were this 2 cute little girls sitting behind me and my sis, and they were so cute!!! they sang the national anthem SO loudly!! and they screamed when the fireworks came out. the younger told her dad that she was scared, and the dad said that if they were scared they can scream, so they screamed. SO CUTE!!!



encore'05. adrenalinerush.applause.spotlights.music.action. rgchoir, you're the best thing that happened to me. -- tht is xiumin, my jr's msn nick. SO TRUE.
somehow, i miss the feeling of being in a performing cca. jazz club! wait for me!!

my life is such a bore i seriously can die of boredom. plus the recent saga...hmm, i feel tht i need more things to happen in my life! doesnt help when ppl are abosorbed in their own world. and i feel like im back to a sqr one, feeling lonely again, doing things that i need to do but i dun really want to do.

maybe such a life is the gateway to the fun life? i dunno!! someone tell me. rescue my life from the grasps of boredom

i jus cant find that energy that i had during the jun hols to bring myself to do work. not to mention that my brain is alrdy saturated with info. im so worried for my CTs but my mind's not following my heart. and its doesnt help that PW SUCKS BIG TIME. i rmb the tarot cards reading told me to concentrate on my goal. but i jus cant find the energy to! help!

going for NDP tmr. but somehow, when u get to this age, the anticipation is gone. even though it has been yrs since the last NDP i attended, im jus not that interested in NDP alrdy. tho i do agree that the atmosphere makes one very patriotic. haha! well well, maybe it will change my mind? hahah

no it's not me!! it's someone arnd me!! hahah, and it STILL feels weird. kad, i wud rather u continue scotty-doesnt-know-ing rather than the _____ song HAHHA!! pls leave me alone!!!!

cleo!

wy, me and jas

naf!

jas, me bel, cleo, xinyi, eve, karen, taiwan girl christina, fy

jus got back frm fran's party. hmm, qt different frm what i thot it to be. it was like a wedding dinner..haha, like some tables, and a buffet dinner. then the ambience wasnt tht gd lah..ahha, i thot it wud be a stand arnd and interact thing. but oh well, then they started playing funny games...like "honey i love u will u smile for me pls" game. which was rather boring..so some of us made an escapade to the toilet. then there was a disco thing...and some ppl didnt dance lah, so it was kinda sad too...then ppl left for clubbing and what nots, and i guess it ended earlier than expected. oh well. but it was a great time to gather with the 401 darlings!

yesterday's concert ENCORE 05 was a BLAST!!! choir u really rocked the squiggles' socks!! we were commenting on how a lot of sec3s opened up , and realised tht sec 2 is a problematic yr and how all of them became so enthu. we were also wondering if we had been a bad comp and scared them or sth. cos...we rmbed...expelling ppl who weren't up to standard + attitude problem and also! cos ms loo didnt like them AND we didnt too. we were really mean! hahahah sharon mindy and i were luffing at the though of how we gave ppl different nicknames and how we were always in cahoots to do bad stuff...
I MISS SQUIGS!!oh , the musical WAS GREAT!!! the costumes and everythign, WONDERFUL! the plot and script and choreo all done by themselves was SUPERB! beats having a choreographer!! but the choral singing could be improved on!! i liked besame mucho!! so nice. oh and they shud stop gesturing too much with their hands cos it shud only be done during pracs..doesnt look too gd on stage

oh well...had a grt time catching up with the squigs and juniors. haiz. it felt grt to be able to sing the sch song again, and i think i ve nv cheered so happily b4. hmm, vei and i agree that, in rj, its a very professional relationship with frens but in rg its a family! plus choir is a very family-like cca and its jus feels so diff when u get to jc and things change..and thts y sometimes i feel i dun belong

hey..i posted the prev post b4 miao went thru this frost poem today with the same meaning.

today was qt fun lah! went to help my sis with make up for a musical called Pagoda Street, which runs frm tmr to sat. the lead actress is Rosalind Pho, qt pretty in real life! The esplanade backstage wasnt as impressive as i thot it would be. I think NUS UCC's is way better..hahah! and more spacious changing rms. (i especially love the waiting area behind the curtains, jus bordering the stage!!) yeah. but i was qt extra lah, cos obviously i dunno anth abt stage makeup, so i jus stodd there like an idiot, well managed to blush some cheeks. but tht's all! ahahah, oh, there were some RJ ppl invovled in the production, and i knew a couple of them..hahah. the backstage of the different theatres is connected i think. or a few of them. so we walked past the dim sum dollies' changing rms. oh and i saw tan kheng hua. haha, so i went down today purely for the fun of it.

looking fwd to concert on fri and party on sat!

i don't believe in a totally happy life. a life without sadness is artificial. i guess i am a person who has rather pessimistic thoughts and may even have a tendency towards..depression? but i believe in the optimistic things in life, believing in the simple joys of life, just simply enjoying the gift of life and our sheer existence. the world can never make everyone happy.



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it's scary what men are doing to ourselves. pollution, destroying environment, cruelty to nature, animals. what will the world be like in future? will it be like...minority report? how long will the world last?

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random passing thots. niwae, cleo is leaving on the 21st Aug, in the evening, all who noes cleo, pls do try to make it free tht evening (a Sunday) so that we can send her off!!

sch was alrite today, kinda dreary, esp during maths lect. it was intolerable!! i was feeling sooo tired and hungry. hmm, well, tennis was fun, sth to brighten up the day. i havent played tennis in ages, but it's fun cos we get to laugh at one another too..hahah.
hmm, so grace somehow became my "les partner" mind u im not les..hahaha.and a certain eviler was plotting some evil plot agnst grace by getting her drunk and then.... its too evil!

haiz..tagbd is down for several days and my right ear is losing its hearing power. haiz

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

how...my collapse free trial expired! so sad! hahah, i was playing happily..hahah, but i open and closed the windows a few time. DANG didnt noe tht counts. hahah, the thing is they dun allow anymore d/l on the same comp! hahaha

ok, i wanna make an amendment to an earlier post abt having superficial frens. they dun include those in a03b, k? hahah, i've been bugged by kad, so im changing my statement.

maybe i shouldnt have agreed to help my sister out with the makeup for this theatre production nxt wk, cos i have a few events nxt wk, namely choir concert and fran's party. i hope i can attend the party, i guess it wud be a gd time to catch up with old frens, and i guess its time for some fun before promos. hmm, toking abt promos, i seirously have never gotten back on track ever since after CTs. and tht is not positive. it doesnt help that pw sucks big time, and there's a new lit bk coming up which we have to read, so many overdue time mags to read, and so so so many things to do.

today is truly a blessing!! i met eve (whom i havent seen since mar) and jas and weishyuan (since mar too) in town after i went back to rg to see my beloved juniors!! the musical is qt gd and surely funny! i realise how much creative capacity we were given back then. ok, partly cos im not in a performing cca now. well, but i rmb those days when i was bored like them sitting there, waiting for instructions, wishing that things will end soon... oh well. u nv noe what u got till it's gone. but i think i miss choral music the most.
oh then just now, steph rang me to chat. oh man!! thnks so much for calling preethi!!it makes me feel so much better and it jus brings back memories of gd old 401 days.... we both agreed tht rgs was the best place ever and 401 was the most memorable thing ever. well, maybe im not alone abt the having few close frens in jc, and even then, are they jus superficial frens?

seem to have lost zhao ...dunno wat happened to her, but well, shall write to her soon niwae. time to catch up with old frens.

ok, i've been asked by kad to blog abt him cos its his bday. fine! happy bday kad, and u better be ncie to me from now on cos of all the privileges u enjoyed today frm me tolerating everything today!!! and u owe me my one yr's supply of godiva's chocolate!!!

i've been qt tired these few days, frm sleeping late and frm a bit of stress lah..hahah, cos work is building up and ive totally lost my studying momentum and im so scared abt my promos.... but nevertheless, there's always time for fun and play. i prob maxed my allowance this month ....argh!!

was listening to "I'll Hear Your Voice" and am missing squigs ALL OVER AGAIN. i cant even rmb my part for the song! maybe MAYBE, if squigs ever reunite to SING again, we really should hear our voices again! *breaks down*

school was qt fun today.
1) NO AFTERNOON PE!!! those pe slots after 3om were cancelled..i wonder why, but i dun really care!!

2)we threw jingheng's pencil box out of the window (onto the corridor) during PW. it was pretty darn funny! yiwei and i luffed till our stomachs ached. The funny thing was how the ppl gave us weird looks when the pencil box ended up i front of them!!

3)went out to j8 after sch and rach, chris and i betted on yiwei and dared her to do funny stuff at mac's. and she chose frm a range of acts, including, walking past a table and jus taking a fry frm someone's tray. hahah, the perfect chance came when a grp of lower sec ri boys walked in, with a bottle of root beer and rabbit swts (dun ask me why they have it). so we dared her to go and tell the boys "can i have some (root beer) and some sweets too?" HILARIOUS!!! omg...hahah, amazingly the boys let her take the drinks without much resistance but they said the swts were not meant for her.. hahahah. we cldnt stop luffing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

haha, after lessons we went to lib to study actually..how hardwking rite?? then we went to thai express for soft shell crab!! after deciding that it is very nice when grace ate it the last time. but the body was bitter and only the legs were nice and crispy. how disappointing..

haha, suddenly rmbed an incident. me zul and rach were walking behind this couple whom we know, then zul went AHEM very loudly and squeeezed thru them..hahah! hilraious!!!

wow, this is my 169th post, ever since i started blogging...hmm.

i have been relatively efficient today! accomplishing more than the past 2 wks. i've gotten back my lit paper, got a C for the whole sub. an A for robert frost (AMAZING RITE!!!), C for shakespeare, and E for pratical criticism. hmm, things look bright for frost..but i agree that it is not that hard to identify the theme and all, its all the writing. do you know how much i wished that AO chi is a core A level subject?? i will surely take A chi instd of lit. FOR SURE! i feel much more comfortable with chi and im sure it has a brighter future than my lit.. :(

oh well, my accomplishments for today-- econs essay part a) and maths remedial wksht. hey, provided that i came home at 4 + and slacked qt a bit, this is qt a feat. hahahha!

today in sch...hmm. mm took over gp so we had our last block off! woohoo~~ the happiest day ever. and amazingly mm is in a pretty gd mood today...hmmm

my song of the moment is sooo The Way You Look Tonight. Not long ago, it was Smooth Operator..hahah

i forgot to mention my thots abt the movie 8 women. hmm, grace and i both concluded that french women are very beautiful. not necessarily pretty, but they just exude a type of elegance. plus the nuances of their language...its just wonderful! and most of the time, they are just picture perfect, a black gown, a fur stole, curls, red lips, pearls, glass of wine in one hand, pipe in the other, deep intense eyes.

hmm, my pace of work can never be recovered ever since the CT's ended. i jus find myself being so extremely inefficient everyday, accomplishing so little everyday. and now, the wkends are voer AGAIN!!! why so fast!! why cant there be wkends that are 4 days long?

*to kad, yes, ur 4am wake up calls are GREATLY APPRECIATED! ahahahha!!!

went to collect my yrbk yest and wanted to go visit choir! but they had an ext conductor, so i didnt wanna disturb. how i miss hearing choral music!!!!!! its been ages since i;ve come into contact with choral music and singing classically :'( i miss it sooooo much.
then went to town and met up with grace, walked arnd a bit and then met my mum and sis.

today, had interact installation, reached there at 10 to help blow balloons and do a bit of decor...haiz, was bored stiff. i think majority of the interactors dun give a damn abt installation ...hahah, tho its meant to be sth very impt etc...its jus so different frm say....choir farewel party and handover. the size is comparable, but not that spirit and bond among one another.

nwiae, college day was in the morn, then jazz club was playing at the reception. was so nice!! inspires me to try for jazz nxt yr. hmm...

with mr ali in his china man costume, complete with a fan

class!

look wat evilers weijie and grace are doing to me!! :(

tada! costume change! this nice pink sari looks suspiciously like what i wore last yr...jus tht it was green...hmmm

me in tv's punjabi suit

weijie, me, grace, chris and rachel

photos galore!! coming up real soon, of rachila harmony day. well, i guess today was really qt fun and we won the best dressed thing cos ali asked our whole class to wear, so oh well, even tho we embarassed ourselves..having to go onstage, but its qt fun! but i think rhd in rg is MUCH better! the atmosphere is so much better.
hmm, so today was qt relaxed and lessons passed REALLY fast! hahah, and we watched a french movie for GP, called 8 women. its a very special plot, but with some issues of homosexuality and incest...HMM...oh well, today was fun!

i dun like this....argh.....sth is disturbing me and its not a solvable problem in the foresee-able future... :(

ah, well otherwise today was qt alrite. went out with grace to walk arnd and had NSW eng after tht. not very positive. my vocab and english terminology sucks big time. i seriously dunno all the preposition, nouns, pronouns, yada yada and half of the time i was guessing for the vocab qns. would rather have gone for badminton actually....

my hair has grown out so quickly! in jus 2 / 3 wks time. when it grows to a certain length, it starts to lose shape. hmm..

today has been a gd day! hahaha, well, the sch was flooded, and the amphi was almost turning into a lake. at the climax, the water was coming in in ripples and we attempted to create an isolated island of dry floor amidst the water. qt funny! i've nv ever seen a sch flood that badly. besides, there was also those potholes bobbing and spurting water and the steps frm the parade sq that formed a wonderful waterfall. time to think abt the sch's drainage!

went for vege talk after that. it was rather compelling! grace and i are affected to start a semi vege diet. there were 3 aspects-health, ethics and economics. health, well, we all noe that meat contains toxins and etc etc. then ethics. this was the most..compelling part. we watched a video on the slaughtering of the animals. VERY SAD. anyone who felt indifferent to that video is not human. for example, cows (even diary cows) are abused and used till they are old and dry and then they are hung upside down, their throats slit, and the blood left to flow till they die. this is cos if the blood remains in the body, the meat will turn bad. it is damn sad and gross. so well....since im not a big fan of meat...i guess i can maintain a fairly vegetarian diet. but i cant take it out of my life totally. hmm, and the economics part - 3 kilos of grain is used to feed 1 kilo of chicken , etc etc and it is very inefficient, esp if the grain and wheats etc can be used to feed many hungry ppl (forgot the figs) with a vege diet. so if we maintain a vege diet, even for a short period, we cut down the consumption of meat and we can save lives and prevent deaths from starvation!

photos make blogs interesting. i think my blog is qt a bore..hmm...but i have no nice pics..oh well

there was this random link at the msn messenger page, so i went to click it www2.meegos.com

it's so fun! but u've to pay to download the characters. u can go there and create a character with diff hairstyles, diff accessories, etc. its qt fun! hahah

i attempted to change my frenster pics but sadly, ive realised that my reserve of photos is qt pathetically small... hmm....shall aim to take more pics

my mum is going for a surgery to remove a foreign object in her uterus tmr. i guess it's times like that which really make ppl stop and think about love. parent-child love is invisible, and im not one who expresses such emotions often, so it takes events like this to really think thru it and realise how much love our parents have showered upon us. I can never give back the magnitude of love that my mum shows me. so what i..and we can do is to just show that little appreciation for all the little things that our parents do for us, give them more patience, throw less tantrums. mum, i love you.

argh..damn stressed abt EOM which is due tmr. i hate pw to the bones k....
hmm, service today was alrite, had to sort out some schedule stuff with the principal. so we will be embarking on a project to make use of old flower pots to decorate the school's old flower beds (empty now) so we will be painting them for the many many many sessions to come. i guess its quite fun too! but less interaction with the kids.

my sis is an absolute smarty pants. arghhhhh. studying seems like such a breeze to her!! i dun understand why!!!! so today, the svc grp were freaking out abt how near promos are, and how its gonna decide our fates for THE REST OF OUR LIVES. face it.

promos = S paper = Scholarship= overseas study =EVERYTHING

ZHI XIN IS GONNA MUG FOR HER PROMOS.
tht is it. my goal. so dun say im a mugger or a doot kia or ANTH! cos to achieve my goal, i have to sacrifice things. and i badly badly want to achieve my goal

hmm...got back most of our papers today. im fine with mine...within expectation, but (as always) there's rm for improvement. i hate getting back my maths papers cos there's SURELY sth that u cud have done or done better. tht kinda thing...oh well. everyone!! work hard for promos!!

went to town with grace cat and tv during our 2 hrs brk, and got back to pe late..but the tcher didnt seem to notice..hahah. nth significant today..jus tht our class starts to realise that we're hugely............problematic? i dunno wats the word for it lah..but i do agree. hmm. i think the most impt thing is to keep one's individuality amidst all other influences. can be really hard. but i guess, everyone needs to set out their goals clearly and not be wavered easily ( i cant promise i can do tht...but i do try to..) and things will turn out better :)

if i had the choice and if a career is not just abt money for survival, there would a gazillion things i would love to do. fashion design, jewelry design, costume design, cross stitch, handmaking cards, designing notebks (haha!), candle making, yadayada..the list goes on. as you can see, they are totally unrelated to calculations, theories and all other undesirable stuff (sadly those tht earn you the money). oh how i wish i can do those for all my life. can you imagine wasting your life away in an office? doing things you don't like? i hope you don't hear me complain about dreading to go to work, cos i dun wanna fall into the line where ppl jus do what they have to do. i wanna do what i LOVE TO do.

i think i seriously need some artistic indulgence. the one and only concert i've been to this yr is the rj chorale concert...which was like march???? and there was this burst of all the concerts in apr and may, and the times werent too convenient. and...nobody really informed me of other schs one...like the vj tsd one...argh! so the nxt concert im going will be rg choir.

my dad changed his phone to a nokia 7260! finally a camera phone in the hse!! hahah, we took funny pics of ourselves. cant wait for my 2 yr plan to be up so tht i can change to a phone with camera!

had install rehearse yest and the side gates fo rj AND ri were closed. its qt dumb cos sometimes the ri one is open lorr....and i think its not a very practical thing to do cos im sure there's a substantial no. of students who come by the backgate. perhaps they shud allocate opening times in the morn when ppl come for ccas. yeah, so 4 interact ppl were there and we decided to climb over the gate. after celebrating our success, a security guard came to reprimand us and threaten to show the principal the video frm the surveillance camera. then we jus walked for a while (supposedly follow him to see the principal) then he stopped and asked us why we did tht, who's our cca tcher etc etc. and he let us off in the end. we pretty much geussed it cos it was too much trouble. but oh well!!! but yeah lah, its a bad thing to do!

hmm...cant believe wkends pass so quickly. why why why why why? results shud be coming in this wk...so all the best to all.

whoo~ today was a rather nice day! except for sth/ somebody and this thing tht really disturbs me and i cant stop thinking abt it...hmmm

nwiae, PE today was supposed to be the IOC tok thing, which we alrdy had on tue, so our class joined a j2 class to play handball. alrite lah, qt fun. and i did sth damn silly! ahha, the ball was aiming for me and i stupidly dodged it! i must have been out of my mind for that one sec...hahahh!! so amused by myself! hmm, then priya, yiwei, lulu rach and i hung out at the canteen to cheng tng together! hahaha, and wj did this damn funny thing to lulu!!! the rest of us noe and we were luffing like mad, while lulu is still in the dark.................hahahha!!!! ok, so after cheng tng-ing, we spotted my magic fren sinyong (eh, sinyong! everybody claims to be ur best fren know...hahahha!!!!) and he did this super cool trick.

its called 3 card sth. so there are 2 black and 1 red cards. and for the finale, he folded the edge of the red card to let us see where the read card is moving, while he constantly changes the positions of the cards. THEN. LO AND BEHOLD! the red card (which we can see clearly from the folded edge) changed into a black card!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah, priya and yiwei were so traumatised tht they screamed!! hahah... well, it's qt impactful cos u really see it with ur own eyes so clearly....hahah, but oh well, magic is abt illusion and speed, so i guess the speed part really requires lots of practice. jia you sinyong!