wow, this is my 169th post, ever since i started blogging...hmm.
i have been relatively efficient today! accomplishing more than the past 2 wks. i've gotten back my lit paper, got a C for the whole sub. an A for robert frost (AMAZING RITE!!!), C for shakespeare, and E for pratical criticism. hmm, things look bright for frost..but i agree that it is not that hard to identify the theme and all, its all the writing. do you know how much i wished that AO chi is a core A level subject?? i will surely take A chi instd of lit. FOR SURE! i feel much more comfortable with chi and im sure it has a brighter future than my lit.. :(
oh well, my accomplishments for today-- econs essay part a) and maths remedial wksht. hey, provided that i came home at 4 + and slacked qt a bit, this is qt a feat. hahahha!
today in sch...hmm. mm took over gp so we had our last block off! woohoo~~ the happiest day ever. and amazingly mm is in a pretty gd mood today...hmmm
my song of the moment is sooo The Way You Look Tonight. Not long ago, it was Smooth Operator..hahah
Sunday, July 24, 2005
i forgot to mention my thots abt the movie 8 women. hmm, grace and i both concluded that french women are very beautiful. not necessarily pretty, but they just exude a type of elegance. plus the nuances of their language...its just wonderful! and most of the time, they are just picture perfect, a black gown, a fur stole, curls, red lips, pearls, glass of wine in one hand, pipe in the other, deep intense eyes.
hmm, my pace of work can never be recovered ever since the CT's ended. i jus find myself being so extremely inefficient everyday, accomplishing so little everyday. and now, the wkends are voer AGAIN!!! why so fast!! why cant there be wkends that are 4 days long?
*to kad, yes, ur 4am wake up calls are GREATLY APPRECIATED! ahahahha!!!
hmm, my pace of work can never be recovered ever since the CT's ended. i jus find myself being so extremely inefficient everyday, accomplishing so little everyday. and now, the wkends are voer AGAIN!!! why so fast!! why cant there be wkends that are 4 days long?
*to kad, yes, ur 4am wake up calls are GREATLY APPRECIATED! ahahahha!!!
Saturday, July 23, 2005
went to collect my yrbk yest and wanted to go visit choir! but they had an ext conductor, so i didnt wanna disturb. how i miss hearing choral music!!!!!! its been ages since i;ve come into contact with choral music and singing classically :'( i miss it sooooo much.
then went to town and met up with grace, walked arnd a bit and then met my mum and sis.
today, had interact installation, reached there at 10 to help blow balloons and do a bit of decor...haiz, was bored stiff. i think majority of the interactors dun give a damn abt installation ...hahah, tho its meant to be sth very impt etc...its jus so different frm say....choir farewel party and handover. the size is comparable, but not that spirit and bond among one another.
nwiae, college day was in the morn, then jazz club was playing at the reception. was so nice!! inspires me to try for jazz nxt yr. hmm...
then went to town and met up with grace, walked arnd a bit and then met my mum and sis.
today, had interact installation, reached there at 10 to help blow balloons and do a bit of decor...haiz, was bored stiff. i think majority of the interactors dun give a damn abt installation ...hahah, tho its meant to be sth very impt etc...its jus so different frm say....choir farewel party and handover. the size is comparable, but not that spirit and bond among one another.
nwiae, college day was in the morn, then jazz club was playing at the reception. was so nice!! inspires me to try for jazz nxt yr. hmm...
Thursday, July 21, 2005
photos galore!! coming up real soon, of rachila harmony day. well, i guess today was really qt fun and we won the best dressed thing cos ali asked our whole class to wear, so oh well, even tho we embarassed ourselves..having to go onstage, but its qt fun! but i think rhd in rg is MUCH better! the atmosphere is so much better.
hmm, so today was qt relaxed and lessons passed REALLY fast! hahah, and we watched a french movie for GP, called 8 women. its a very special plot, but with some issues of homosexuality and incest...HMM...oh well, today was fun!
hmm, so today was qt relaxed and lessons passed REALLY fast! hahah, and we watched a french movie for GP, called 8 women. its a very special plot, but with some issues of homosexuality and incest...HMM...oh well, today was fun!
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
i dun like this....argh.....sth is disturbing me and its not a solvable problem in the foresee-able future... :(
ah, well otherwise today was qt alrite. went out with grace to walk arnd and had NSW eng after tht. not very positive. my vocab and english terminology sucks big time. i seriously dunno all the preposition, nouns, pronouns, yada yada and half of the time i was guessing for the vocab qns. would rather have gone for badminton actually....
my hair has grown out so quickly! in jus 2 / 3 wks time. when it grows to a certain length, it starts to lose shape. hmm..
ah, well otherwise today was qt alrite. went out with grace to walk arnd and had NSW eng after tht. not very positive. my vocab and english terminology sucks big time. i seriously dunno all the preposition, nouns, pronouns, yada yada and half of the time i was guessing for the vocab qns. would rather have gone for badminton actually....
my hair has grown out so quickly! in jus 2 / 3 wks time. when it grows to a certain length, it starts to lose shape. hmm..
Monday, July 18, 2005
today has been a gd day! hahaha, well, the sch was flooded, and the amphi was almost turning into a lake. at the climax, the water was coming in in ripples and we attempted to create an isolated island of dry floor amidst the water. qt funny! i've nv ever seen a sch flood that badly. besides, there was also those potholes bobbing and spurting water and the steps frm the parade sq that formed a wonderful waterfall. time to think abt the sch's drainage!
went for vege talk after that. it was rather compelling! grace and i are affected to start a semi vege diet. there were 3 aspects-health, ethics and economics. health, well, we all noe that meat contains toxins and etc etc. then ethics. this was the most..compelling part. we watched a video on the slaughtering of the animals. VERY SAD. anyone who felt indifferent to that video is not human. for example, cows (even diary cows) are abused and used till they are old and dry and then they are hung upside down, their throats slit, and the blood left to flow till they die. this is cos if the blood remains in the body, the meat will turn bad. it is damn sad and gross. so well....since im not a big fan of meat...i guess i can maintain a fairly vegetarian diet. but i cant take it out of my life totally. hmm, and the economics part - 3 kilos of grain is used to feed 1 kilo of chicken , etc etc and it is very inefficient, esp if the grain and wheats etc can be used to feed many hungry ppl (forgot the figs) with a vege diet. so if we maintain a vege diet, even for a short period, we cut down the consumption of meat and we can save lives and prevent deaths from starvation!
photos make blogs interesting. i think my blog is qt a bore..hmm...but i have no nice pics..oh well
went for vege talk after that. it was rather compelling! grace and i are affected to start a semi vege diet. there were 3 aspects-health, ethics and economics. health, well, we all noe that meat contains toxins and etc etc. then ethics. this was the most..compelling part. we watched a video on the slaughtering of the animals. VERY SAD. anyone who felt indifferent to that video is not human. for example, cows (even diary cows) are abused and used till they are old and dry and then they are hung upside down, their throats slit, and the blood left to flow till they die. this is cos if the blood remains in the body, the meat will turn bad. it is damn sad and gross. so well....since im not a big fan of meat...i guess i can maintain a fairly vegetarian diet. but i cant take it out of my life totally. hmm, and the economics part - 3 kilos of grain is used to feed 1 kilo of chicken , etc etc and it is very inefficient, esp if the grain and wheats etc can be used to feed many hungry ppl (forgot the figs) with a vege diet. so if we maintain a vege diet, even for a short period, we cut down the consumption of meat and we can save lives and prevent deaths from starvation!
photos make blogs interesting. i think my blog is qt a bore..hmm...but i have no nice pics..oh well
Sunday, July 17, 2005
there was this random link at the msn messenger page, so i went to click it www2.meegos.com
it's so fun! but u've to pay to download the characters. u can go there and create a character with diff hairstyles, diff accessories, etc. its qt fun! hahah
i attempted to change my frenster pics but sadly, ive realised that my reserve of photos is qt pathetically small... hmm....shall aim to take more pics
it's so fun! but u've to pay to download the characters. u can go there and create a character with diff hairstyles, diff accessories, etc. its qt fun! hahah
i attempted to change my frenster pics but sadly, ive realised that my reserve of photos is qt pathetically small... hmm....shall aim to take more pics
Friday, July 15, 2005
my mum is going for a surgery to remove a foreign object in her uterus tmr. i guess it's times like that which really make ppl stop and think about love. parent-child love is invisible, and im not one who expresses such emotions often, so it takes events like this to really think thru it and realise how much love our parents have showered upon us. I can never give back the magnitude of love that my mum shows me. so what i..and we can do is to just show that little appreciation for all the little things that our parents do for us, give them more patience, throw less tantrums. mum, i love you.
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
argh..damn stressed abt EOM which is due tmr. i hate pw to the bones k....
hmm, service today was alrite, had to sort out some schedule stuff with the principal. so we will be embarking on a project to make use of old flower pots to decorate the school's old flower beds (empty now) so we will be painting them for the many many many sessions to come. i guess its quite fun too! but less interaction with the kids.
my sis is an absolute smarty pants. arghhhhh. studying seems like such a breeze to her!! i dun understand why!!!! so today, the svc grp were freaking out abt how near promos are, and how its gonna decide our fates for THE REST OF OUR LIVES. face it.
promos = S paper = Scholarship= overseas study =EVERYTHING
ZHI XIN IS GONNA MUG FOR HER PROMOS.
tht is it. my goal. so dun say im a mugger or a doot kia or ANTH! cos to achieve my goal, i have to sacrifice things. and i badly badly want to achieve my goal
hmm, service today was alrite, had to sort out some schedule stuff with the principal. so we will be embarking on a project to make use of old flower pots to decorate the school's old flower beds (empty now) so we will be painting them for the many many many sessions to come. i guess its quite fun too! but less interaction with the kids.
my sis is an absolute smarty pants. arghhhhh. studying seems like such a breeze to her!! i dun understand why!!!! so today, the svc grp were freaking out abt how near promos are, and how its gonna decide our fates for THE REST OF OUR LIVES. face it.
promos = S paper = Scholarship= overseas study =EVERYTHING
ZHI XIN IS GONNA MUG FOR HER PROMOS.
tht is it. my goal. so dun say im a mugger or a doot kia or ANTH! cos to achieve my goal, i have to sacrifice things. and i badly badly want to achieve my goal
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
hmm...got back most of our papers today. im fine with mine...within expectation, but (as always) there's rm for improvement. i hate getting back my maths papers cos there's SURELY sth that u cud have done or done better. tht kinda thing...oh well. everyone!! work hard for promos!!
went to town with grace cat and tv during our 2 hrs brk, and got back to pe late..but the tcher didnt seem to notice..hahah. nth significant today..jus tht our class starts to realise that we're hugely............problematic? i dunno wats the word for it lah..but i do agree. hmm. i think the most impt thing is to keep one's individuality amidst all other influences. can be really hard. but i guess, everyone needs to set out their goals clearly and not be wavered easily ( i cant promise i can do tht...but i do try to..) and things will turn out better :)
went to town with grace cat and tv during our 2 hrs brk, and got back to pe late..but the tcher didnt seem to notice..hahah. nth significant today..jus tht our class starts to realise that we're hugely............problematic? i dunno wats the word for it lah..but i do agree. hmm. i think the most impt thing is to keep one's individuality amidst all other influences. can be really hard. but i guess, everyone needs to set out their goals clearly and not be wavered easily ( i cant promise i can do tht...but i do try to..) and things will turn out better :)
Monday, July 11, 2005
if i had the choice and if a career is not just abt money for survival, there would a gazillion things i would love to do. fashion design, jewelry design, costume design, cross stitch, handmaking cards, designing notebks (haha!), candle making, yadayada..the list goes on. as you can see, they are totally unrelated to calculations, theories and all other undesirable stuff (sadly those tht earn you the money). oh how i wish i can do those for all my life. can you imagine wasting your life away in an office? doing things you don't like? i hope you don't hear me complain about dreading to go to work, cos i dun wanna fall into the line where ppl jus do what they have to do. i wanna do what i LOVE TO do.
Sunday, July 10, 2005
i think i seriously need some artistic indulgence. the one and only concert i've been to this yr is the rj chorale concert...which was like march???? and there was this burst of all the concerts in apr and may, and the times werent too convenient. and...nobody really informed me of other schs one...like the vj tsd one...argh! so the nxt concert im going will be rg choir.
my dad changed his phone to a nokia 7260! finally a camera phone in the hse!! hahah, we took funny pics of ourselves. cant wait for my 2 yr plan to be up so tht i can change to a phone with camera!
had install rehearse yest and the side gates fo rj AND ri were closed. its qt dumb cos sometimes the ri one is open lorr....and i think its not a very practical thing to do cos im sure there's a substantial no. of students who come by the backgate. perhaps they shud allocate opening times in the morn when ppl come for ccas. yeah, so 4 interact ppl were there and we decided to climb over the gate. after celebrating our success, a security guard came to reprimand us and threaten to show the principal the video frm the surveillance camera. then we jus walked for a while (supposedly follow him to see the principal) then he stopped and asked us why we did tht, who's our cca tcher etc etc. and he let us off in the end. we pretty much geussed it cos it was too much trouble. but oh well!!! but yeah lah, its a bad thing to do!
hmm...cant believe wkends pass so quickly. why why why why why? results shud be coming in this wk...so all the best to all.
my dad changed his phone to a nokia 7260! finally a camera phone in the hse!! hahah, we took funny pics of ourselves. cant wait for my 2 yr plan to be up so tht i can change to a phone with camera!
had install rehearse yest and the side gates fo rj AND ri were closed. its qt dumb cos sometimes the ri one is open lorr....and i think its not a very practical thing to do cos im sure there's a substantial no. of students who come by the backgate. perhaps they shud allocate opening times in the morn when ppl come for ccas. yeah, so 4 interact ppl were there and we decided to climb over the gate. after celebrating our success, a security guard came to reprimand us and threaten to show the principal the video frm the surveillance camera. then we jus walked for a while (supposedly follow him to see the principal) then he stopped and asked us why we did tht, who's our cca tcher etc etc. and he let us off in the end. we pretty much geussed it cos it was too much trouble. but oh well!!! but yeah lah, its a bad thing to do!
hmm...cant believe wkends pass so quickly. why why why why why? results shud be coming in this wk...so all the best to all.
Friday, July 08, 2005
whoo~ today was a rather nice day! except for sth/ somebody and this thing tht really disturbs me and i cant stop thinking abt it...hmmm
nwiae, PE today was supposed to be the IOC tok thing, which we alrdy had on tue, so our class joined a j2 class to play handball. alrite lah, qt fun. and i did sth damn silly! ahha, the ball was aiming for me and i stupidly dodged it! i must have been out of my mind for that one sec...hahahh!! so amused by myself! hmm, then priya, yiwei, lulu rach and i hung out at the canteen to cheng tng together! hahaha, and wj did this damn funny thing to lulu!!! the rest of us noe and we were luffing like mad, while lulu is still in the dark.................hahahha!!!! ok, so after cheng tng-ing, we spotted my magic fren sinyong (eh, sinyong! everybody claims to be ur best fren know...hahahha!!!!) and he did this super cool trick.
its called 3 card sth. so there are 2 black and 1 red cards. and for the finale, he folded the edge of the red card to let us see where the read card is moving, while he constantly changes the positions of the cards. THEN. LO AND BEHOLD! the red card (which we can see clearly from the folded edge) changed into a black card!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah, priya and yiwei were so traumatised tht they screamed!! hahah... well, it's qt impactful cos u really see it with ur own eyes so clearly....hahah, but oh well, magic is abt illusion and speed, so i guess the speed part really requires lots of practice. jia you sinyong!
nwiae, PE today was supposed to be the IOC tok thing, which we alrdy had on tue, so our class joined a j2 class to play handball. alrite lah, qt fun. and i did sth damn silly! ahha, the ball was aiming for me and i stupidly dodged it! i must have been out of my mind for that one sec...hahahh!! so amused by myself! hmm, then priya, yiwei, lulu rach and i hung out at the canteen to cheng tng together! hahaha, and wj did this damn funny thing to lulu!!! the rest of us noe and we were luffing like mad, while lulu is still in the dark.................hahahha!!!! ok, so after cheng tng-ing, we spotted my magic fren sinyong (eh, sinyong! everybody claims to be ur best fren know...hahahha!!!!) and he did this super cool trick.
its called 3 card sth. so there are 2 black and 1 red cards. and for the finale, he folded the edge of the red card to let us see where the read card is moving, while he constantly changes the positions of the cards. THEN. LO AND BEHOLD! the red card (which we can see clearly from the folded edge) changed into a black card!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah, priya and yiwei were so traumatised tht they screamed!! hahah... well, it's qt impactful cos u really see it with ur own eyes so clearly....hahah, but oh well, magic is abt illusion and speed, so i guess the speed part really requires lots of practice. jia you sinyong!
Thursday, July 07, 2005
today is qt a slack day in sch, witho no GP and no geog lect.
hmm, some ppl said some stuff tht hurt a little. not intentional i know, but it just did...but it set me thinking as well. abt who i am and what i want. do i want approval frm myself? frm my parents? my siblings? my friends? or am i someone who's jus simply living for myself?
i am grateful to be born into my family, a wonderful family (tho sometimes i think it is a little dysfunctional, our relationship with our relatives, and the silence and lack of communication bet me and my parents at times...), privileged and leading a comfortable life. But living in this family comes with loads of considerations and obligations. my sisters are ace students and there are things expected from me, academically. and I, being someone who understands the need to be elite ( in this elitist world) is inclined to conform to these expectations, not wanting to disappoint my parents or get into trouble with them. but i want to do so much more!! i want to have fun, i want to do all tht i've dreamt of doing. im qt a half-half person. half half in faith, in studies, in passion, in having and being fun. WHO AM I??? REALLY??
seriously i would rather be a person complete in one aspect than be myself, half half at everything and not complete at anything at all. that is a very pessimistic view of myself, but i think its true. im just hoping that sth gd will happen to me and i will not have to be so weighed down by considerations expectation obilgations and really be carefree, and do what i want.
tht sounds so out of reach
hmm, some ppl said some stuff tht hurt a little. not intentional i know, but it just did...but it set me thinking as well. abt who i am and what i want. do i want approval frm myself? frm my parents? my siblings? my friends? or am i someone who's jus simply living for myself?
i am grateful to be born into my family, a wonderful family (tho sometimes i think it is a little dysfunctional, our relationship with our relatives, and the silence and lack of communication bet me and my parents at times...), privileged and leading a comfortable life. But living in this family comes with loads of considerations and obligations. my sisters are ace students and there are things expected from me, academically. and I, being someone who understands the need to be elite ( in this elitist world) is inclined to conform to these expectations, not wanting to disappoint my parents or get into trouble with them. but i want to do so much more!! i want to have fun, i want to do all tht i've dreamt of doing. im qt a half-half person. half half in faith, in studies, in passion, in having and being fun. WHO AM I??? REALLY??
seriously i would rather be a person complete in one aspect than be myself, half half at everything and not complete at anything at all. that is a very pessimistic view of myself, but i think its true. im just hoping that sth gd will happen to me and i will not have to be so weighed down by considerations expectation obilgations and really be carefree, and do what i want.
tht sounds so out of reach