today is qt a slack day in sch, witho no GP and no geog lect.

hmm, some ppl said some stuff tht hurt a little. not intentional i know, but it just did...but it set me thinking as well. abt who i am and what i want. do i want approval frm myself? frm my parents? my siblings? my friends? or am i someone who's jus simply living for myself?

i am grateful to be born into my family, a wonderful family (tho sometimes i think it is a little dysfunctional, our relationship with our relatives, and the silence and lack of communication bet me and my parents at times...), privileged and leading a comfortable life. But living in this family comes with loads of considerations and obligations. my sisters are ace students and there are things expected from me, academically. and I, being someone who understands the need to be elite ( in this elitist world) is inclined to conform to these expectations, not wanting to disappoint my parents or get into trouble with them. but i want to do so much more!! i want to have fun, i want to do all tht i've dreamt of doing. im qt a half-half person. half half in faith, in studies, in passion, in having and being fun. WHO AM I??? REALLY??

seriously i would rather be a person complete in one aspect than be myself, half half at everything and not complete at anything at all. that is a very pessimistic view of myself, but i think its true. im just hoping that sth gd will happen to me and i will not have to be so weighed down by considerations expectation obilgations and really be carefree, and do what i want.


tht sounds so out of reach

whoo..sch was alrite today. but having to go back for lit 2 hrs after the other lessons is just such a spoiler...and its not as if lit is sth so looked forward to. but mm was in qt a gd mood today. had a new tcher for PC and i guess he is equally nice as the prev one....yeah, and he actually he said he doesnt ppl not going for his lessons. hahah.
oh well, so yiwei, jy, chris, grace, rach and i went to j8 in an attempt to use up our 2 hrs quickly. i had $2 nuggets!! yum yummmm..hahhaha!! then we got back rather early, so we went to the lib and i borrowed les miserables. i rmbed i tried to read it once but failed. so i got the abridged version, hopefully, lighter too. :)

sch was tolerable.
grace and i had to wander arnd in the morn cos lt 2 was locked.
lit lect was fine, but she jus keeps repeating her pt.
i was pretty happy with the day, and qt slack at the start of PW. THEN that FRIGGING O.A had to be so duper nasty. HEELLOOO...we handed up our GPP to her and she didnt receive. AND HEEELLOOOO... i emailed her ages ago and she "didnt receive" i mean yah, of cos she wun lie abt not receiving but u shud hear the tone she was speaking in "u despicable typical students, trying to push the blame to technology, to email, the www and anyhooo". it was as if it was OUR fault she didnt receive. HELLOOOOOOO!!!! i am duper angry with her lah, cos NO, she hadnt returned us the GPP as she claimed she did. GRRRR


jus had to let some steam off.

the rest of the day was fine. went out to PS with tv, cat and grace and shopped a bit. and we ate mark's and spencer's dutch shortcake! 50cents for a piece of heaven baby! AND i have a new item on my bday wish list! i saw this roxy brown bag with some flower motifs. and i hinted to grace openly! ahahahah. yes, so tht goes rite to my wish list!!
PE was jus a slideshow on Olympics and its past & present. and it is indeed a very significant PE lesson cos it was zul and wj's FIRST EVER pe lesson..qt amusing...

qt stressed now actually. PW PW PW PW PW. and qing's not replying me abt the choir concert tiX tix tix tix. AND my hp bill is gonna shooooootttt like mad this month. AND AND AND my CTs are heading towards the deep ocean. AND AND AND AND AND im sleep deprived.

it's back to sch tmr....SIGHZ
chris and grace came over to my place for lunch and earrings making, qt fun! and we webcam-ed lulu..she's really damn funny! then chris had to meet up with her frens, so grace and i went on a date..hahhaha! we watched war of the worlds. hmm, i think its not bad lah! if u are not the type to be skeptical abt how fake and unrealistic the machines are. but i guess it makes us reflect if we're taking our existence on earth too much for granted. hmm...im rather freaked out by supernatural stuff, including these...yeah, so grace and i came out rather paranoid-ish..hahha, when we hear loud noises we will like...link it to those we hear in the movie..hahah. hmm, the part when the tentacle eye stretched into the basement...was qt scary lah. yep...and some parts were qt unrealistic as they always seem to be very super lucky. i mean they can afford to put in a few extras who manage to escape to safety also riiteee...

ok time to slp...oh i hate tuesdays in school!!!! argh..hope PE tmr is endurable...hope we do sth fun! like netball! tennis!

i cut my hair!! qt happy with it! it's much much much shorter..i think my previous ponytail was at least 5 times longer than now. but it's a refreshing change! and its nice to feel the breeze in your hair! haha, long heavy hair cant give that effect. shall be shocking many ppl in sch on tue..hahah
i lvoe life now! so carefree, can do anth i want without getting nagged at. hmm...im looking forward to...2 events. hurhur..shall not say it here :) hmm, cant wait to see my choir juniors!! (LISA!!! XIUMIN!! GEET!! JACQ!!) hahah, sorry a bit biased..but really these are my fave jrs. hmm, like my previous post...i really miss choir sometimes....aww :'(

CTs didnt end on a very positive note....my PC paper kinda sucked..but oh well, time to play to our hearts' content! walked orchard rd up and down in search of grt bargains...hahah, and affected grace and chris to make earrings too..they're coming to my hse on monday for an earring making session!

niwae, if u're interested in haute couture, pls go to www.dior.com and click fashion - women - channels- live and check out their ready to wear fall/ winter, AND check out their evening wear... GORGEOUS!!!! and their denim series is soooooooo niiiiicccceeeeeee

am listening to "i'll hear your voice" and am MISSING SQUIGS!!!!!!!! and im losing this whole choir thingyy.....and squigs oh squigs...how i miss our time together! we're really slack huh..hahah, we dun even care abt preparing the alumni item like we wanted last time...qt sad, and also cos we're really busy lah, and separated :( i think we should prepare a comeback and sing our "i'll hear your voice again"

yay, CTs are almost over..tmr is Lit paper 8, which is unseen, so there's nth to study actually... IM SO SAD abt my maths!! im sure i cud have done better, but its jus the there and then situation ya noe.....oh weellll....overall i have very bad vibes abt CTs, and GOSH!! i need help in finding back my motivation and self discipline!!!!!!!!!! and i must have less distractions (tht's hard) ...

oh oh oh!! grace jus told me that she and rachel splurged at the zara sale!! arrghhh!! here i come!! zara and mango sales are apparently qt lovely! hahah

i noe..i am not supposed to be here rite now...but i will get back to geog in a while.

first, complain abt econs. the DRQ is really hard. totally diff frm wat u see in TYS lah.....sighz..i calculated that i prob will jus pass only. but i guess im prepared to not do well for overall CTs. haiz...really wonder why studying seems to be such a breeze for some ppl...i wanna study overseas leh..but i dunno..there's jus sth wrong with the way i study i suppose..

second, m'sia!!! my cute lil cousin is finally talking more, but we think that his tongue's too short, so his pronunciation kinda warped. and next, shopping was helluva grt time!! much more productive than shopping in Sg, always comforting to noe ure spending in RM! u noe my msn nick? haha, im serious. my sis and i both concluded that our shopping (digging thru piles) at the mango sale was crazy..hahahh!!!

as you can tell, i was qt bored in the afternoon, so went to do a lot of quizzes...those 2 are qt accurate lah..hahha. hmm, they've got nice picturesssss!!!

about an hr ago, i jus realised how little time i have to study econs, cos i'll be going msia frm fri-sun = no time for last min. chionging of econs. so, i finished revising a few topics. *phew* proud of myself man!! i cant believe sch's starting...budden, looking at the terrible life of' wanna play cannot play, mus study' mode of this hols....i think going to sch also seems more fun. hmm...i have no comments abt my CTs..i think everybody xin li you shu abt how they will fare for it lah...and i know mine too....SIGH...

Your element is Water. You have a calm aura around
you and are in tune with the world around. You
observe it but rarely interfere. Because of
your shy and timid nature you will not have so
many friends in your life. But then again,
large crowds aren't your thing anyway. You are
comfortable on your own and are reserved to
others who you don't know or know very little
of. You know everyone out there does not want
to be your friend, and knowing that is good.
However, people who don't know you that well
thinks that you are cold and distant since you
don't want to talk to them. Although you mean
no harm, you can't always be perfectly
understood in the world. No one can. Life in
general are you quite serene with even if there
are some things you don't like. Your love-life
is not so full of boys/girls, but if you
flirted more with the ones you were interested
in I'm sure something would happen. The hobbies
you choose are calmer ones, you are no party
girl that likes to drink and make-out with
three or more guys/girls in one night. Reading
a book or swimming is more your thing. Rate and
message!


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The Goddess of Ice and Hope. You are a creative
wonder. Always calm and collected, you hold the
awe of many people and you are exceptionally
logical. You are an inspirational beauty.


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finally i've been able to get back all my songs frm my sis' laptop...the netwk was problematic when she was overseas. can u imagine living one yr withour ur dearest playlist??? but sadly, i cant find the very exotic songs tht cant be found easily on the net....SIGH....AND AND!! do u rmb the nice DBS ad, the wedding and all, with the nice song "life is beautiful" and amazingly, windows media player identified the song frm this album by Tony Bennett. for those ppl who know what im blabbering abt, pls do check that guy out....it took me so long to find tht song!!

well well, but im not someone who has to survive by music lah. my radio is nv on...so...yeah

im so grateful to xiumin for letting me bleargh out all my thots on my frenships and jc life..which is kinda pessimistic. hmm, had a funny dream last nite...sth like i was shopping in topshop/ mango..cant rmb, then they were extremely over-staffed tht day, and when i was on my way to the fitting rm, i saw this big grp of staff wearing white top and black bottom, and i saw xinyi and steph!! haha, its really weird~~~ haha, then they had some sale for tht speciifc time sth liddat, so a lot of ppl flooded in....qt a weird drm..

sometimes, life is happier if we are not held down by considerations. i guess i am someone who is very concerned abt consequences and how ppl or things will react if i do sth. but i realised frm ppl arnd me, that, really, sometimes life is much better if there werent so much to care abt.

haiz.......it's so weird to have my sister back at home again. it's like familiar..cos she's been arnd for the past 16 yrs, yet unfamiliar, cos i'm so used to life without her ( and so very used to and enjoy! the solitude). well well, gd thing is, she brought home nice clothes, shoes, stuff, belgian choc!!!!!. but also her old bad habits..hahah. well, i guess she misses the freedom she enjoys there as well.

was cleo's bday yest, so we had a dinner party for her. and actually it was just her ac frens, so the rg frens were the 'surprise'. qt little ppl turn up frm the rg side...but well, gd enough to immerse in the much missed 401-atmosphere. everyone misses 401 and rg soooo soooo soooo sooo badly~ haha, steph, karen and xinyi's much missed craziness..and there was talk abt having a beach (or is it bitch!) party (pts to steph and steph alone!!) for the 401 ppl!!!

Your IQ Is 115

Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Exceptional Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional Your General Knowledge is Exceptional

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test


hahahahaha! im flattered!

haha, i did a lot of the blogthings tht i found on steph's blogs. the bday date one is really qt true!!! :S haahah. had interact bbq today, well, i mus frankly say that....i dun have much close frens in interact, and most frenships...acquaintanceship are extremely shallow. tht's also why i wanted to go down today, to know more ppl ya noe. i really feel qt left out cos the ppl im close to are 1) not there today 2) have their own grp of closer frens
and i seriously feel tht i dun belong when there were times tht i had to jus walk abt, or try to occupy myself with rich's mum's babysit-ees...so cute!! well, yeah. these days i am really pushed into the state of thinking abt my friendships, past and present..which is qt pessimistic. present ones are qt alrite, but tht's becos of a common environment- sch, stuff and ppl. but once tht changes, things are diff! i have a perfect eg. for tht, but im not saying names :( haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Your Expression Number is 6

You have an outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. You are helpful and inclined to comfort those in need. You have many artistic and creative talents, but you only use them to better others. You are loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much kindness and generosity. Openness and honesty are apparent in your approach to all relationships. Sometimes, you can be too demanding of yourself. At times, you tend to sacrifice yourself for the welfare of others. At other times, you have trouble distinguishing between helping and interfering.

What's Your Expression Number?

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen Or lend a shoulder to cry on You're there through thick and thin Many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

Your Birthdate: October 17

Your birth on the 17th day of the month suggests that you are very lucky financially, because this date indicates a solid business sense. Although you are probably very honest and ethical, this birthday enables you to be shrewd and successful in the world of business and commercial enterprise. You have excellent organizational, managerial, and administrative capabilities enabling you to handle large projects and significant amounts of money with relative ease. You are ambitious and highly goal-oriented, although you may be better at starting projects than you are at finishing them. A sensitivity in your nature, often repressed below the surface of awareness, makes it hard to give or receive affection.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

( the last 2 paragraphs are so SUPER DUPER TRUE!!!!!!!!!)

i think im drifting from old friends. its sad to know that you are still clinging on to memories when u see that others have moved on. and i jus keep qning myself, who really, are those true friends (cos there seem to be none..except one..) and i cant help but think abt what will happen to my friends now.

just watched 'eternal sunshine' on scv...yeah, its nice. its a very special movie, as in the techniques, the way the story is told, in a very weird chronology. but yeah. the title comes from a quote by Alexander Pope:

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;

it's abt innocence, which i do greatly miss. wouldnt it be nice (cadbury!) if we were back to innocent childhood days? no worries~

haiz, trying to get down to serious studying today..yep. on tue, we had an interact day camp for children frm whispering hearts day care centre. oh gdness!! how noisy can they get!! and i bet all interacters have hailed lynn to be the mother of interact, while rich is the father!! just look at how they handle those kids!!! making them enthu (well, it's ncie to hear them cheering so loudly! it's been long since we've heard or done sth like tht) , and making them obey instructions. i take my hats off to them! weren't we relieved when they all were finally packed off in a bus! and someone said "well, at least i learnt sth. i'll never open a childcare centre!!!!" hahahah

yest was my mum's bday. had econs lesson in the morning in a freezing seminar rm..till abt 1 pm..yeah, then came home to watch a movie on HBO, and then went out with my mum to meet my sis and dad for her bday dinner. ate A LOT! had buffet at hotel inter-continental (bugis) and...well, just ate a lot. but it was qt yummy!

niwae, spking of HBO, those of u who have it at home, pls do watch 'the last samurai' its niiiccceee...and there's 'eternal sunshine on the spotless mind' too! how gd can cable tv get!


oh yeah, rachel and i made a pact to create nice long wish lists for our bday, and also a bday bash plan! hahah . here goes my wish list
-Bond's first CD (Born) or Third (Classified)
-Phantom of the Opera music score..perhaps? ahhah
(a violiN!! haha, qt impossible )

haizm was attempting maths 'extra qns'. not as easy as it seems. makes me feel that my maths is still stuck at sec 4 :x after watching this vcd that my dad bought frm china, abt this performance of a dance troupe (made up of deaf/ mute ppl) called "qian shou guan yin" (thousand hands of guanyin) and how they managed to learn the dance, and even perform at the closing ceremony of Athens'04 even tho they cant hear the music. feeling the urge to pick up sign language.

argh, looking at stacks of notes is not helping..they are a constant nag at the back of my head "u've gotta study me! exams are coming" AND! i think my PW's kinda dead and *poof* gone. argh argh argh. hope tmr's class outings will lift my spirits a little

yest's class outing was qt fun :) everyone was hyper and high..in holiday mood. then we went nydc to eat, haha, lulu and yw exploited allan, their walking atm! ahahah qt hilarious.

today morn, there was no CV, so we spent time henna-ing ourselves (and jh!) and were qt hyper again. i think its the pre holiday mood, everybody's happy and high!! and at the end of the day, for GP lesson, there was this ppl from...what's the org? yeah, they were promoting thsir service of helping ppl understand the rights and wrongs in doing things, and how to achieve dreams and stuff. as u can see from my msn nick 人生不是一个可以预算的方程式. the way the ppl put things seems to me that they think that life (everyone's) fall into place nicely like there was a formula. but no! they say, they can help and guide u thru with their experiences and all, and everyone has their own pattern of doing things and they will help u explore how to achieve ur drms with tht.

for me, it is not a very relevant case...cos i have a dream to pursue and will surely welcome anth that comes my way and can help me! but for this one.....they sound a bit too confident. they wanna teach u abt the rights and wrongs of things (studies, business, work, relationships) and avoid u frm making mistakes. but its so so so so wrong. esp for relationships. everyone we come into contact with is different, each and everyone needing different tactics and communication skill to get across, and its so wrong to think that there's a formula for tht. i understd what i have mentioned above (cos i've experienced that) and i think that, one really has to explore the boundaries to everyone u're in contact with to really noe how far u can go, what u can/ cannot say to tht person.

life can never be a predictable formula

HAIZZZZZ....i cant believe that there's still mm's lesson later!!! argh. lee is sick, so tht means we have a 2 hr brk. and i wanna hammer doggie, cos he can officially go home. :( argh.......hope she faints later during a class b4 us, so we can go off....argh. cant believe that we are gonna have such a problematic tcher for the rest of 2 yrs. (well, it's actually 1/4 of our JC life gone!!)

jus watched bond on tv..they nv fail to spark my desire to pick up violin or any of the string instruments- equally beautiful.

today is such an unproductive day. plus my mum pulled me out to meet up with her fren, and they spent like 3/4 of the time looking at pots...which didnt exactly interest me. and she was contemplating for really long, which size of the pot she shud buy. and i told her rite from the start to buy that size (which she eventually did) but she took so long...sigh, housewives' woes.

sigh, i actually realised how long i havent been in town when i saw so much changes!! the food stalls in far east, the cafe outside scotts, the esprit inside scotts, argh! for the first time in 2 yrs i actually sat down in the coffeebean i used to work at (for work experience) it was really fun! but now, all the ppl have changed...it's qt sad sometimes to realise that things are changing so quickly when u're still holding on to ur memories.

hmm, so much hmwk to do over the wkend!!!

there are a few things this wk that make me happy :)
1) 2.4km run. hard work paid off, got an A *beams*
2) Maths quiz. i paid attention in class!!!
3) swimming

yeah. i feel very nostalgic and happy when some old friends reunite on friendster. tht is the most meaningful purpose of friendster, besides keeping in touch with more current friends. joyce..(what's her surname? :X) frm p4 found me...and wow, made me realise how long it's been and really glad she still rmbs me. i rmb that her chi name was huili. cos we had 2 joyce-s and 2 huili-s in class. This yr, i've also reunited with grace ng!!!! my best friend in p4!!! cute little girl, didnt change much, and indirectly found her back from grace tan. oh and pearl, my really really really ancient fren!!! knew her since p1, she lived in the same block as me (level 17!) and we took the same sch bus). and i hope to find my MOST ANCIENT BEST FRIEND. Yee Wan Lee. why do i say most ancient? i've known her since k1!!!! all the way to pri sch. and i still rmb incidents from kindergarten: every friday, we get to play at the playgrnd outside our pap, so we have to bringour water bottles. she didnt bring hers tht day and i offered to share mine but tcher said cannot...so she had to stay indoors. and in p2 or p3 i think, we secretly bought some soft drink...7 up? and shared it, then my mum saw and scolded me and said how unhygenic that was...hahahahah

i rmb a song by elva hsiao, that translates to be, 'life is circle, friends part and reunite'. indeed, indeed.

haha, actually JC is the time when lots of pri sch frens reunite...esp nanyang pri i think...going to JC is like reuniting with more than half of yr pri sch ppl!!!

Your Japanese Name Is...

Hoshiko Konjo

What's your Japanese Name?

today felt quite slack, bos lit tcher was not here, so we went to eat instd..and the lessons were relatively light, so time went by quite quickly. then during pe, our class had alrdy finished the 5 items while our partner class had not, so we were left alone to do our own stuff and we went gymming again! so fun! treadmill-ed and did some other stuff lah..haha, half serious, half playing
then slacked around in sch for a while b4 i went to town to meet rachel after she collected her cert. firstly we went topshop to see her legendary $108 bag...it's too big for me...so haha, didnt really like it, but she likes it..so oh well. then we went sasa on a perfume spraying frenzy!!! i have a big fetish for scents!!! then we jus smelt many stuff and when we think that we've tried too much (sas salesgirls keep following ppl arnd onez) , we jus sprayed our fave on ourselves (d&g light blue and gucci envy me) b4 we left..haha, so cheapskate rite? but hahah, damn fun.
THEN, we went to pig out at taka, she ate tako pachi, i ate her old addiction- pop-doh..alrite lah..hahah, maybe cos i dun really have a thing for doughnuts. and after we paced up and down, we made the final decision-- to buy venezia *YUM YUM* haha, so we shared a 2 scoop- a more economical decision. we had this...sth tht starts with G (hazelnut choc) and mint w choc...YUM! hahahha. we went forever 21 to look arnd and were amazed that their accessories were qt cheap!! like 7-9 bux! quite surprising
then finally amazing grace arrived so we went to PS and ate lah. took lotsa stupid photos. sadly, the "class outing" had only 5 ppl from our class + cat's bf....sighz...sad-ed. yeah, quite beat now...so gonna slp!

rained all afternoon today, so had 5 items for pft instd. not that bad after all! i would consider that as a breeze-thru. im amazed by my own sbj and ipu!! hahahah...now i jus have to run a b for 2.4 which is within expectation to get a gold! hmmmppph. not bad not bad! but i pulled a muscle during shuttle run :x

the frost 'assignment' was qt alrite...starting to see a lot of parallels and common themes among his poems BUT i got to carried away doing those parallel stuff that i forgor abt the rhyme scheme, rhyme scheme, RHYME SCHEME!!! argh..and it was the simplest of all times.the aabbccdd type argharghagr.

sth is playing a trick on me! i wasnt able to make it for dance nite..(after buying the tix stupidly) so i asked arnd to sell it. and now tht somebody needs it, i can actually go alrdy...ARGH..my dance nite....sigh...going for piano ensemb instd lah..their line up of songs quite gd

i think im quite a classic case of 'xiao shi liao liao da wei bi jia'. i guess i wasnt too bad in my studies when i was young....but sth happened along the way..and now i see ppl who might not have been as "bright" doing better than me..i feel stupid....why didnt i work hard enuf..tht kinda thing

i totally agree with rachel abt the no-life thing. i think im qt a no-lifer. i wish life was more interesting..like what i have in my mind for my future life........... i think i can be quite a loner....if u really really really know me well...u can tell that my life is only made up of a small grp of ppl, revolved arnd a few activities. and i depend on these heavily to make up what i deem as a life and what i feel i belong to. like my personality test...i really feel the need to belong to sth..and i guess now, i can only feel belonged to that grp of frens in class...yeah. outside that? nothing

Your #1 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you are very loyal. A good listener, you excel at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

Your #2 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

What's Your Personality Type?



different from the one we did in school last yr --ESTJ. but the S and J (sensing [vs intuitive], judgmental[vs perceptive]) stays. well, u tell me which one u think i suit most =)

reading "girl with a pearl earring" now...
rachel and i were talking abt job-hopping arnd the world! yes! someone who shares my sentiments! even though it may not be very practical, it is still my ultimate dream..on ah rachel?? hahah. yeah, and we have rather similar aspirations and situations...hmm...birthday twin indeed.

quite stressed out this wkend..and felt qt down in certain junctures. siiiiiiggghhhhzzzz. doesnt help that there are so many projects at hand and homewk and quizzes......

ever wondered why i named my site 'tranquility- the heart's angel' ?

angels. not seen, not heard. i think that tranquility is a hidden, transparent state of mind that everyone experiences and deep down inside of us, we feel this sense of peace, but we seldom take note of it or realise its existence. therefore, tranquility is our heart's angel -- residing in our hearts, yet not seen, not heard

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------quite tired today...went gymming with thiviya, grace, cat...and did treadmill. fun! i must say that running on treadmill is indeed nicer than running in the open/ on the tracks..how i wish that 2.4 run is on the treadmill!! (not hot 4pm suN!!) well, jas came back! so after PE, toked for a while with jas and felly. and hoho! a heavy downpour after days of humidity (check out grace's humidity indicator man!!) but i got caught in that heavy rain and got my back wet..in an attempt to protect my bag and its contents

if u havent realised, i am incorrigibly addicted to the net! i dun think i can not use the net for one day...even though the stuff i do are always the same (check blog, class blog, friendster, hotmail, occcasionally neopets) and they are not exactly essential...i still have to use the net...it's as if i need to feel a sense of assurance..i want to know if someone emailed me. i want to know if anyone tagged me, i want to know if anyone responded to the class blog entry...it's so weird. it's as if my life is wholly constituted by these stuff and there are not many other things that can preoccupy me.

there was qt a lot of hmwk for the wkend..but it went on qt well..kinda boring tho, nothing much happened this wkend except the mothers' day dinner for my grandma. yummy food!!!! cant wait for class outing to be confirmed!! miss the days when we went out for class dinner/ outing (which ends up being dinner anyway) nearly every wkend

sometimes i wonder if i should have quitted all my other ccas...cos now, i feel rather.....~floaty~ in that sense...having only one cca...no feeling of rootedness...somehow

SPIC yest was qt fun...but sadly, one home FORGOT to come..so we only had like abt 10 ppl...yeah. so after the games stalls were abandoned (which was pretty quick) the game stall masters hopped to the food stalls! yummy chwee kuay, chee cheong fan, popiah, etc. had lotsa fun rolling popiah. and the jap food ppl ran out of seaweed so they koped the popiah skin to make sushi...aww...didnt get to try. so yeah, it was all in all very fun!
but after everyone siam-ed, the comm had to stay back and do some post-mortem stuff, and suba, von n i just couldnt bear to throw away all the leftover food, which were in perfect condition..so we pigged out on leftovers, like tuna spread with crackers, and chee cheong fan, and pineapple (from the rojak stall).
enjoyed it, despite the disappointing turnout. had henna done on my hand too *beams*

i am THIS sad!!! i missed my Madam Butterfly tix (by sg lyric opera) jus becos i was contemplating whether i shud go for this or Rj dance nite (which unfortunately ran out!!) ARGH!!!! now the cheapest tix is like 68?? tell me who will sponsor me huh ? huh!!?? so never ever hesitate ok? DONT!

haha, emotional part over. well well...thinking back, this yr had a no. of failed ventures. council, music lessons, interact BOD, photog, piano ensemb...qt sad abt interact BOD...but oh well, i guess i jus dunno enough ppl to garner enuf votes. SPIC today was alrite..it is surely a BIG LOAD of me and yvonne's heart. sigh..the other schools' response was really....really...really...bad...that it became an intra club thing..which is gd! i know much more ppl now =)
it's really tiring to plan events..and i've spent the last few days staring at the comp, profusely emailing grp leaders, station masters, and forgetting to attach the files...



what am i good at?
this is as qn i've been thinking abt for qt sometime esp recently. music? no. studies? no. sports? no.art? no. craft?......maybe...

i really think that im not gd in any particular thing! i see so many ppl who excel in so many disciplines...or some who really are elite in a certain discipline tho they are not as gd in others...but still....

so, this is the end of ennaux. not among the nauxians, but as a grp. actually it died out quite some time ago...when there were only a few PRs like weishyuan, kaihong, zer, shuting. and after we transferred k'cove to the seminar rm after O2, it was basically surviving because of the 2nd intakers. and sadly, the SRs have been locked, and yeah, that's the end of ennaux i guess. been qt dependent on the nauxians, because i hadnt really wandered away to find frens in the morn in the canteen, but now there's no more kcove gathering, gotta find a class bench so that we can have some company in the morn.

i'm in a dilemma! shud i continue my music lessons? continue: cos i have alrdy done abt half a yr of dip and it's quite a waste to give up now!, don't continue: cos i dun intend to do it professionally and it will be waste of money if 1) i fail the exam (reg fee is sky high!!) 2) gotta redo again, waste lesson fees. im quite contented jus playing stuff i like and not playing songs because i HAVE to...yeah *shrugs*

there're 3 yes 3 !!!! birds slping on my hse tree today! there used to be one small one, abt 4-5 cm in diameter, but last wk, one that's abt 8 cm in diameter came along, and now it has brought its family!! it's really shocking to have 3!! birds in a go. click the link to find out which breed it is
http://www.naturia.per.sg/buloh/birds/Pycnonotus_goiavier.htm

today was fun! horoscope said its time for librans to have some fun niwae :) rachel brought her cam so we made glenn, weijie and jingheng do the "1-5 act cute series" video. hilarious!!!!!!!!! after school, we dropped by rachel's s'pore hse cos she wanted to collect her stuff to bring back to her m'sia home. and we did a lot of crap in her rm...uploaded the crap pics that we took in school and edited this monster boy boy pic..oh forgot to mention that we 'rescued' a blue advertisement cow!!! it was lying flat on the grass cos someone took the stick away...then we propped it up agnst a tree and took pics again...ahahahha

haha, in our sch, there's a pink cow (in LT1, says ms chen), and red cow and a blue cow! hilarious!!!!!! after doing crappy stuff in rachel's rm we went j8 to eat and took neoprints :) , yah, and walk arnd.

guess u can tell i had a gd day today!

Interact speech yest was weird..i dun like to make speeches!!! :x hope i can get BOD though. yeah..so far, SPIC's picking up, so i'm not that stressed alrdy. hmm, yeah. tmr's PE will be floorball!! rmb the days in rg where we all rush to the ball and anyhow hit even the ball had like rolled away.. hahah

glenn started singing...or rather screeching during geog lect today! the 'lonely' song..the front part is like some electronically edited type, so it's like some helium sound..hahah, then glenn tried to hit the high note! and obviously everyone looked at him lah...hahahahahhhhh so entertaining. i love mr a's GP and civics, cos we either 1) watch videos / movies (eg seinfeld) or 2) released early 3) free time 4) go canteen for ppls' bdays. so fun!

i'm damn stressed now!!! i have to prepare a 2 min speech for 'campaigning' for interact BOD. and i have absolutely nth to say! not experienced in making such speeches :x!!! argharghargh
damn stressed now and it totally doesnt help that my mum thinks i'm attitud-ing..i'm jus damn stressed HERE!!!!



vocal exploits was wonderful!! RI choir had improved qt a bit! tht explains their gold with honours. made me miss choir all over again! i can understand how they feel before the show, how they feel on the stage, how they feel trying to sing each song with perfection, the excitement running arnd backstage and the flowers and hugs after it all...i miss choir!!! the non-chorale squigs were all nostalgic. after the concert, was hanging arnd with iris waiting for her dad to come. and we were discussing all the 'scandals' hahaha. made wonderful discoveries on couples and all..hahah...2.5 'scandals'- we concluded-



*back to stressed mode*

1. Noone is tagging my board except rachel
2. Time is running out for interact SPIC
3. Lotsa work, little time...
4. Havent watched naruto for ages
5. No time for fave hobbies/ pastimes like craft..and reading...sighz


a. Interact nominee :) interview tmr



there u go, a more succinct way to summarise my week.

today qt fun too..this is gd! sch is fun everyday! hmm, grace chris n i enslaved weijie to carry our files...hahah, then rachel is called grilled chicken foldover and chris is pang sai pang buay chu de ren....LOLOL...cudnt stop luffing...cos tht's the only 'bad' hokkine phrase rachel noes...haha.
then for PE, iris came! we went to the dance studio then the tcher i/c came in...there were this 2 hc guys inside also..then the tcher scolded everyone for like bringing in non-dance ppl and security is a problem..da da. so when she went out to answer a call, iris and I dashed out from the other door...haha yeah...ahhah. excitement of the day

today was qt funny...hahah, rachel lah, do so many retarded stuff..hahah. like the free fall thing in the lift, and her long-gang song (tht grace has in her cam) it goes "i was born in a cardboard box in a longgang south of france"....hahahah, she's damn super amusing! yeah, she's still my slave for...4 more days, 3 tmr.

then had interact, then the rg girls started complaining how unfair the hse system is, cos they only use the ri hse name, like let's say mine's bayley-waddle, they only refer to bayley, so us feminists of rg said that we will not respond to bayley unless they say 'waddle'...hahahah

then went for service at MINDS...i love this girl.so cute! in my pre-sch class...actually ppl prob dun really noe (i didnt noe b4 as well) that MINDS is not just for kids with down syndrome, but also for kids with low IQ or intellectual disability, so many of them look perfectly normal, jus that they have difficulties learning, so yea, be nice to them! dun stigmatize, because we are blessed to be who we are, all they wish for is just a normal life.

noblesse oblige ( because we are blessed, we are obliged to give back to the world)

You scored as Iruka. You’re Iruka, the Ninja Academy teacher. You, my friend, are one of the kindest people there is. Sure, you can lose you temper from time to time – who wouldn’t, teaching those kids – but you have a heart of gold. You work hard and are always there when someone needs you, but you tend to worry a bit too much about those you love. Iruka 75% Neji 56% Naruto 56% Kakashi 56% Shikamaru 56% TenTen 50% Hinata 50% Rock Lee 50% Genma 38% Sasuke 25% Which Naruto ninja are you most like? created with QuizFarm.com

. [Spell your name backwards]: nixihz
2. [Where do you live?]: Singapore.
3. [Describe yourself in 2 words]: friendly, nice?
4. [Who is your worst enemy?]: none
5. [If you could have any animal, what would it be?]: a yorkshire/silky terrier/schnauzer
6. [What is the latest you've ever stayed up]: erm, not sleeping the entire nite till 11 the nxt day
7. [Ever been to Belgium?]: nope
8. [What's your favorite coin?]: ? all money welcome

DESCRIBE YOUR
9. [Wallet]: Black, flap...=)
10. [Hamster]: N.A.
11. [Toothbrush]: white
12. [Jewelry worn daily]: bits and pieces earrings
13. [Pillow cover]: brown checked
14. [Blanket]: brown, with a house,...sth liddat
15. [Coffee cup]: Nescafe red.
16. [Sunglasses]: na
17. [Evil]: ?
18. [Shoes]: some lousy sports shoes, falling apart..haha
19. [Handbag]: dorothy perkins, black, i like
20. [Favorite Shirt]: erm....dunno
21. [Favorite pants]: none in particular
22. [Cologne/Perfume]: fave--gucci envy me and D&G light blue
23. [CD in stereo right now]: WMP playlist..madonna, frozen
24. [Tattoos]: None.
25. [Piercings]: one on each ear
26. [Wearing]: esprit tee, black shorts
27. [Hair]: long, with fringe
28. [Glasses]: aerolite, reddish-brown color, rectangular
29. [In my mouth]: my tongue?
30. [In my head]: brain!
31. [Wishing]: to be a __________ _________ (only close frens will know) hahahah
32. [After this]:pack, sleep
33. [Talking to]: nobody
34. [Eating:] air..hahah
35. [Do you like candles]: Yup
36. [Do you like hot wax]: no...ermm..haha, brings back memories of interact camp...haha
37. [Do you like incense]: no comments
38. [Do you like the taste of blood]: nope...metallic...
39. [Fetishes]: scents, lipglosses
40. [If you could murder anyone and get away with it]: i wun murder
41. [Thing you wish you could be with right now]: money money money that's too superficial...well, nothing in particular
42. [What/Who is next to you]: homewk file
43. [What do you want done with your body when you die]: cremated? hafnt thot abt it
44. [Do you believe in love]: Yes.
45. [Do you believe in soul mates]: Yes.
46. [Do you believe in love at first sight]: not really
47. [Do you believe in Heaven]: Yes.
48. [Do you believe in forgiveness]: Yes.
49. [Do you believe in God/s]: Yes.
50. [Something that you wish people would understand]: My passion for _________ _______ (same as teh wishing one)
51. [Something you wish you could understand better]: how to be more self disciplined
52. [One thing you want to make happen for tomorrow]: great day ahead, everyone's happy

hrmph, our new class is quite alrite...yeah there are guys....like finally....and i'm sure elsie misses us lor...i mean, our class is such a fun bunch...SIGH...but life is definitely totally different without peeps like guni, felly, iris!!!!! soooo sad...i wish we nv had to change class, no JAE, no O's no 2nd intake........*BRR* i wud love to do sth like what grace did, write down my impression of everyone in the class....a bit lazy..ok, nxt entry yeah...

yah, today's council interview was !#*!(#&*(&*(! bad sighz....forget it....i am not too desperate for it too niwae, not like eg melody who's very serious abt it...i guess i am more of a follower in that sense...i am not some "revolutionary", initiating changes here and there, yeah, i guess im more of a receive order and do stuff person....i think? dunnoo.....

SIGH..tmr's lit lect no more Elizabeth the movie le....sad-ed. anyone wanna crash lit lect? robert frost totally rocks man...

*sarcasm...hope u can tell!

the past 2 days had been an emotional whirlwind for many ppl. i felt the struggle inside me, the reluctance to open up the reluctance to open my heart to sth i dun wanna accept, the reluctance to open my mouth and force myself to say sth that i cant bring myself to.

i wonder what gd things i've done in my past life to deserve such luck. twice...of the same situation. i got the call at abt 11+? really happy/speechless/grateful/glad (mixed feelings) that i cried...i mean....poor science stream ppl, qt a no. cant make it..prob cos science has a serious shortage of spaces lor....really really sad for iris...wonder what im gonna do without her....=(
hope she does well in ac, or her re-appeal works out, or our petition successful, etc. And shyuan, joyce, rai, eve, fadz, chinyee, all others out there, God bless!

readin amanda's blog reminds me of my theory of the intersection of life...yes the ZX theory =) ahhaha.
humph, 3 months really flew past. it's a really cliched thing to say but it really did. 3 months...can u believe it? how can it be? u seem to be able to rmb those first days of jan, and now it's apr soon. i think much of my current class will split up...i really love my class and OG. the ppl are all nice, (i hate to use this wd) and there are no bitchy ppl...tht's y i hope for our class to stay so much. i think i've said this b4...im a person who...doesnt really like changes that much...especially when i've settled down on sth, i dun like to change it..it's my comfort zone..in that sense.

but who says life stays still? it never does

went sentosa yest, didnt really tan much tho, cos by the time we went, it wasnt as hot. we kayaked!! finally, after missing it for 2 yrs since obs. it's a lifetime skill, i mean, it's a hard to forget skill..which is gd!

hmm, hols are finishing soon...real fast!

i want to live in a condo. there're pools, tennis courts, gym..so fun!

hmm..i miss those hyped up days in choir with crazy mindy..haha, she never fails to entertain me! but i hardly see her arnd in sch nowadays. hmm, occassionally i miss choir too..but oh well. sometimes i wonder how life would have been different if i had done sth differently or made a different decision on things...

today was a gd day :), well, besides civics...well, but all in all good. sam crashed, he looked much happier. gd for him! and, maths was good too. had quite a few laughs with iris..haha. and the Brunei princess came to tour our sch, there were ppl saying that maybe she wants to study here..since she's only 17....
oh, and we found out that 2...maybe 3 guys want to take geog..hahah, then we can finally be free of the reputation of having only one guy...AND, that elsie...sth wrong lor, dunno throw wat tantrum....
then GP was gd, watched 15. and released half an hour early! woo! that's y i say it's a happy day! there's a farewell dinner for jas tmr...sigh, life is all about arriving and departing...(sound like airport terminal...but niwae....)
hmm, last day of the term tmr...it's mar hol! can u believe it? the prev mar hols were nv so soon!! time flies by....

it's amazing how u get to know someone more and more isnt it? it's like...an exfoliating onion...u expose every layer, every facade of yourself to ppl around you, slowly showing the true you. it's amazing isnt it?? just that we nv really realise these things happening

Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

today was soooooooo amusing...*looks at iris* hahahhah. i think he will be very bothered..muahahah.

sighz, results coming out ...i hope its __ hahah =) secret thots

was jo's bday yest, and she scared me my pulling my leg, saying it was her bday that day, when i msged her at nite to tell her to come to kcove...phew....i thot it's real!! hahha, and i stupidly wrote happy 17 on her card...OOPS....hahah

quite a lot of loose ends to tie up for work this wkend. and i think there will be a last gathering for 1A03B, Jan- Feb 2005

everybody feels the jitters. as the speculated DATE draws near.

really love RJ...cant imagine life outside it. it has become my comfort zone. so is felly! she's my comfort zone too. if she changed class, i dunno...cant imagine who i can share my secrets with...till now, hafnt really found a person to truly deeply share my thots.
like eve said...she crashed vj, and she saw steph and xinyi......mentioned sth abt their back view. i miss the good old days! crap and craziness, noise, and childish games, pulling at the door not letting anyone in....shopping at popular,karen and her boisterous luffter. everything..

nothing can replace that ever, it retains its special place in my heart. cant quite say what it is...jus a special connection.

or am i the only one dwelling in the past, unable to get away while others move on?

the interact camp was quite fun! well, today was a bit boring..the talk part but all in all it was gd! the seniors showed us Shutter before the night walk. i must say the night walk is very well planned! but i guess we are all so used to stuff like that, so i wasnt that scared. yeah, then at nite, the fire alarm rang cos of short circuit but i never heard it at all!! i think i'm incredible manz...hahahha.

yeah, my grp had lotsa nice ppl, funny and not bad, quite on for all the stuff. and zi kai and his gay acts...hahaha. i think the skit really ended it off with a bang, esp our grp's one. poor bryan had to xi shen se xiang...hahahha, but he got a best actor award for that! (and nominated for best actress) it's damn fun ...and funny! cant help but keep luffing when i think abt it...and the zi kai and lloyd's luffter...wah.....i think it's prob the best skit ever...provided we came up with it in like abt 10 min or so.

haiz...fond memories man....
results coming out soon...depressing thing of the week..and next week...

but anyway, i am eagerly waiting for felly to be online...on tenterhooks now...we've got lotsa exciting secrets to share......muahahahh

kenneth left on tue, leaving our class with the sole male species, now converted into our dearest Elsie...hahah

well, makes me think about the 'intersection pt of life'. as we grow up, we meet many ppl. but how many continue to be part of ur life? how many of the hundreds of classmates u've had in your life continue to be frens? that's what i call the intersection of life. u meet someone, and it's like a touch and go. your lives lead u on to very different paths. never to meet or hear of each other again.

sigh. had to part with my piano tcher becos we cudnt see eye to eye on some issues. perhaps it was a bit rash. and it didnt end in an exactly amiable way. it's quite sad cos she's been teaching me for ten yrs and i really hate it to end like that.

thank you for your guidance these 10 yrs.

isnt it amazing how a word and a minute could change ur life? (and probably someone else's) a lot of what if-s. i suppose we all grow to a stage where we start to realise the importance of our every decision and we start seeing things differently as we did before. why must we have so many identities? one for school, one for home, one inside everyone of us.

sigh. now, it's abt another decision. what happens to my piano?

i wish we didn't have to make decisions. it hurts.

phantom of the opera was...the epitome of beauty..to me at least! those ppl who said it was not nice prob didnt take note of the music. it was wonderful...the strains of music keeps playing in my head. totally mesmerised!

sigh, i have to drop my piano ensemb cos it clashes with my own piano lessons. i woulf love to stay though..but nvm, i dun think i can handle so many ccas too...
well, this wk, the stress is coming in! more hmwk, reaching home later...less time...sigh

well well, same old stuff happening in sch today...yeah, so during our lunch break, the girls (when was it ever abt the guys..like where are they?) went over to RI canteen, this time to try the legendary chicken rice. and crashed their lib...haha, felly was so excited abt their extensive collection of jeffrey deaver-s.

niwae, i watched pretty woman on..sunday nite. i like richard gere :) actually always lar..hahah. and i also watched the thomas crown affair today...it was such a witty show! i love such witty crime shows(pierce brosnan =]). i've been slacking a lot this wkend...tht's y it passed so quickly! sighz...but i'm sure more works' coming in!

yest was fun. first of all, jo's hse is like shu's...ultra big. i really love the pavilion thingy....so we played dex's mini mahjong. mini as in, the tiles are like the size of ur finger. ahha, then we wash with our fingers too...and he still had mini cards and mini connect 4. then melody started playing piano...truly reflects her name. i can never play by ear...*SAD* best part was when we sabo ryan and shuting..muahahah. i bet shuting add a lot of marks liao. then the guys wanted to throw dex into the pool...wonder if they did after some of us left...hahah

i must declare a state of emergency-- i need to find someone who wants to watch phantom with me b4 it goes out!!

my sore throat is quite bad..i woke up today unable to spk properly. haha. went for piano audis today...not that bad! i would deem it the best performance i've had...cos it's a super easy song. budden, my principle is, play a easy song WELL, instead of choosing an impressive piece but flunking it. well...lotsa MEP peeps were there....playing wat beethoven? bartok? chopin? sighz...
i have a kinda phobia..like performance jitters or sth...too used to practising alone.

cca fair was ok...mindy and i were so desperately searching for our bleoved tennis booth. but realised that they had finished recruiting...and there's no club (we're setting up one!). i signed up for interact, drama (doing backstage), photog (out of interest), and geographica! hahah, yes yes, i really love geog...they do some recycling and conservation stuff...but if i get into piano ensemb i'll prob drop it. tht reminds me...our human geog lesson was so funny...cos it was with mr lee...and he was blabbering away abt his theory of why women should marry men 2 yrs younger than them. cos from the average life expectancy, women live about 2 yrs longer than men, therefore shud marry someone 2 yrs junior so that they will die together..and he goes on asking us to go to ri and search for some doot sec 3 guy...hahah, damn funny

tht's abt all for today...hope that my sore throat will fully recover for chi ny goodies...BA GUA!!!!

i was really shocked that singapore won the tiger cup! i didnt even know that it was the finals yest...now u noe, i never read the sports section of the newspapers.

shakespeare's "measure for measure" is really ultra, super, duper dense in language, so good luck to all of us doing that. haiz..makes me feel even more worried about my lit. who noes, i might decided to switch back to hcl if i really cant cope. (much to dad's delight). i could endure most of lessons...i think all of us are resilient to boring lessons alrdy, so i survived geog quite easily, also because i love it :) [i'm a true blue geog-ger!]. but my ny's resolution to study hard niwae, so must start paying attn right from the start and be consistent..lesson learnt.

well well, PE tmr...supposedly all the girls are gonna wear RG uniform..wonder how mr A will react...hahahah
oh, have i mentioned that our library is really cool??? they really should consider having a rooftop cafe there, its got the ambience..hahah. really nice, make a trip down if u can :)

i was really shocked that singapore won the tiger cup! i didnt even know that it was the finals yest...now u noe, i never read the sports section of the newspapers.

shakespeare's "measure for measure" is really ultra, super, duper dense in language, so good luck to all of us doing that. haiz..makes me feel even more worried about my lit. who noes, i might decided to switch back to hcl if i really cant cope. (much to dad's delight). i could endure most of lessons...i think all of us are resilient to boring lessons alrdy, so i survived geog quite easily, also because i love it :) [i'm a true blue geog-ger!]. but my ny's resolution to study hard niwae, so must start paying attn right from the start and be consistent..lesson learnt.

well well, PE tmr...supposedly all the girls are gonna wear RG uniform..wonder wat mr A will react...hahahah

*** journalists out there, drop the taupok issue. it's not attention-grabbing anymore. AND, we have a name. it's insulting to refer to us as the "premier college in the bishan-ang mo kio area". our name's not hideous. come on, just spell it out!***

went to shumin's hse for mahjong session! yay, now i noe how to play liao :) we also played bridge and indian poker!! haha, ryan and i were the suayest, we drank like two n a half bowls of water each. fully hydrated! haha. and shumin's dog...tsk tsk. so fierce!! i played with it a bit..it keeps pouncing on ppl and scratching abt...and it runs like lightning. so i dashed to the toilet to prevent him frm pouncing and scratching again....ahaha..slammed the door quite hard :p..it's my fave breed anyway, silky terrier.

must say my og very on! nxt wk got ice skating session summore..muahahah. sad...nxt wk's schedule is a nightmare....

sch has been slack this wk..but not frm nxt wk onwards. yest after first lect (lit) the girls went to the RI canteen to try the legendary wantun mee..hahah, not too bad :) and we played some card games...but somebody kindly warned us that the discipline master was there, so we escaped to this ulu corner in sch. played for quite some time, then we had a mass handphone no. exchanging session....hhaha. so fun! i think our class can click really well, esp cos it's nearly all girls..haha.

we had OG lunch. the guys wanted to watch seed of chucky but of cos the girls dun..haha, so we went sumplace to hang out, and play a bit, and tease ___ and____ a bit...hahah poor them.. then as more ppl lef,t we started to play this SMS game for truth or dare...it's quite funny lar, but rather embarassing..hahah =) we also gave choir boy some tips...(inside joke inside joke). poor him...hahahah

today, we decided to be studious and headed for the canteen to do our maths tutorial. and suddenly mr A. popped in..hahah, jus for awhile lah. did for quite sometime till we were bored stiff, then we started talking, and shopping in our little bookshop. when we headed for our last lect, we took the lift, and we realised that the lift buttons can be "un-pressed" (like, u can cancel the floor no. that u pressed) and we went like "SO COOL!" (and the one third of the male population in my class rolls eyes)...hahah, so amusing. wanted to try for dance lah, under my mum's strong insistence...but the whole world was going....seriously..nearly the whole rgs population...sighz..but didnt go in the end, had a pact with mindy. and saw ppl auditioning for choir. it's quite amazing to see how ppl can be so passionate abt sth at the start...but seriously, after 4 yrs, u get cynical abt it. and guess what, practices end at 8 or 8.30 pm....WONDERFUL. it's strt away out of my list...or else, my hmwk can be a goner. cant wait for cca fair nxt wk....BRR...i hate this.

cant wait to watch phantom of the opera...anyone anyone?

tell me how many ways to spell fun man. yesterday was a SWELL!!! in the morn we had faction initiation, where we played station games with our class agnst classes of another faculty. my class was quite on lah, our pathetic 20 ppl class with only 3 ....yes 3 guys!!! (can the engine fac class pls donate some guys ?) when we needed to pair up for station games, our class needed to have "lesbian" pairs...so funny. sighz. so i'll prob live the next 2 yrs like life in a girls' sch again.

later on was the donation drive for the tsunami victims. my OG went to ppl's park at chinatown. my partner zhiwei looks damn guai. so we started off with a bang, getting abt 30 - 50 bucks in the first 5 min. thnks to his goody look. was quite touched that so many ppl donated so generously. 10 bucks or 5 bucks at a time. so i decided to donate 3 bucks out of my own allowance. we also made our ogl breakdance in public. so we went back to sch, while testing our new guy andrew on the lame-o mrt game that dexuan my ogl cleverly started.

our legs ached like mad so we decided to chill at the k'cove, and started changing for the orientation nite. our theme was goth, so all of us wore black stuff and powdered our face, put black eyeliner, purple lipstick. and the guys had garbage bag capes. the best of all is, all the guys were so on abt the makeup!! they didnt mind having black nail polish and eyeliner and lipstick.....hahah, so i manicured all of them. and jie mei chee hoe said he will wash them off with turpentine..haha. the guys think that the nail polish will miracuously drop off on its own lor...sighz. then we got to the hall for the pageant...which was ok lar, nothing much, most of the time the ppl scream into the mike and we cant really hear anything, so....

then it was the campfire....jus like the one we had during p5 camp, where the fireball rolled down from the 2nd floor. and we started dancing! haha, i think they shud haf taught us the cute sundance! but niwae, for the batch dance, the guys had this section of floor moves. wah, then they so on u noe! hahahha, kinda like mini-breakdance. then we went back to our pizza..which arrived too late. so since we needed to get out of sch by 945, we went to the busstop to have pizza party! while writing notes from everyone. sighz....i will so miss my og and orientation. really glad to have such an enthu og! love u, ennaux

school was more fun today! i like station games!! esp cos my grp is quite on :) won majority of the games. the game where the guys put "tails" on their pants was the funniest!! haha, we were busy forming formations to protect their butts..hahahhahahhahha. learnt the batch dance too. think it's quite fun! i haf understood the need to enjoy what u are doing to do it well...the essence of 'performance' i guess. u have to enjoy what u are doing to convince the audience that it is fun. therefore, it's no use being un-enthu, cos in the end the ppl looking weird and out ofplace will be them. must mention our enthu dance king, zul. shud see him groove man...hahah. as u can tell, i quite like my grp :) ppl are nice, on, and no cold blanket kinda ppl.
spotted zhang jin arnd today...if ph ppl still rmb who he is. rmb in pri 2, i was finally not the last reg no. in class cos he's behind me. going for amazing race tmr

school was quite fun today...besides the times when we just stoned in the hall or trying to crane our necks and listen to the rules of some sit-in-a-circle game. actually i dun really like the feeling of going over orientation again..the whole thing abt comfort zone? haha, let's tok abt my grp. grace(rg) was the first person i talked to. not like a typical gep lah, u noe, the stereotype abt them being eccentric and all. and shu min...prob see each other arnd b4. and this nice st nick's girl shuting, small and cute :) once again, contrary to popular belief of st nick's girls. she's quite smart! and many more lah, the girls were all ok.
as for the guys....*rubs chin* they all look the same to me..................haha. except for those with impressionable images. haha.. sure feels good to have ppl hold the doors for us :)

also met the good ancient hu6-ers, good old 203-ers and not that old 401-ers (wy and her cute fringe! ). niwae, i kinda dread the thot of going to classes..and this time...LECTURES. how do i survive thru lectures. but, my ny resolution is to mug hard. why? cos i'm SO SICK of the feeling of not knowing things even the day b4 O's. therefore, i will try really hard, to start mugging all the way from j1. i regretted not working harder in s3. therefore, let not history repeat itself.

finally i'm back home, after 5 tumultous flights (including cancelled flights and my sis's lost baggage) frm vegas - LA - vancouver - tokyo and home..okie, 4. i believe i can tolerate any other long haul flights after this.

well well, cant believe it's 2005. life has been good to me the past yr. besides little hiccups and undesirable stuff like O's. this yr's events really made me believe that God has His plans for everyone. and i'm more than grateful for them. who would have thought that I could be where i am now?

well, about my holiday. it was a SWELL time. besides the flights and transits and long waits at the airports. Vancouver was pretty, and like my 2nd sis says, a nice place to retire. ppl are frenly, nice weather, nice environment. we weren't with a grp then, so we got to move around ourselves, which i really prefer, becos u feel like u are really experiencing life as a canadian.

nxt was san francisco. it was still sunny when we went there. yummy seafood and mostly sightseeing. not to forget shopping ....hahah. again, all travelling on our own, so we've figured out the public transport system. sure beats taking a tour coach and stopping for 15 min photo stops.
also went on this 17 mile drive thing along the pacific ocean's coast. huge waves...awesome...simply. and as a geog student even the swash and backwash and sedimentary rocks excites me....(ms pang is SO proud of me)

next is LA where we joined the tour grp, where we went to universal studios (i like it!) and disneyland. reliving childhood :) and at disney, it was really "the merriest place on earth" . seeing children getting so happy over the simplest things, believing that mickey really does exist....makes me wonder about the simple joy of life. why do we keep wanting more? why cant we live like children, where all we need is just something to believe in that will make us happy.

went to grand canyon, once again overwhelmed by nature's beauty. (geog geog) well, will post photos sumday.......it's a lot of work

next was Vegas! (dad's eyes light up). overwhelmed by neon lights, but it was cool :) had nice buffet brunch at bellagio, the best hotel there (where ocean's 11 took place) and went around pretty much on our own. went shopping at factory outlet !!! hhaha, i wish there were some in Sg. amd we went to play at Circus Circus hotel and we won a soft toy each :) reliving childhood once again. so then our flights home started...

end of story

this is fun!!!!!!!! i have been deprived of the net for one whole week and finally, a hotel hat has free internet access! in san francisco rite now, not as cold as vancouver. sighz, i really hated the flight from sg to vancouver cos there were 2 transits and LONG LONG waits.

vancouver's fun, and quite cold, but i survived..hahah. gonna have a swell time for the rest of the 2 wks, and it's back to sch once i get home. cant believe this. i'm going to JC!!??!! ahhaha, but i'm loving life now :) kinda forgot some of my maths (looks at sis's notes). hahah, so tata, will try to be back!

yes, all my bags are packed, i'm ready to go (leaving on a jet plane lyrics) :) it's quite exciting! hahah, this trip is the wrapping up of the year, and looking back, i really can't believe that this year had jus flew by! the rushing syllabus and homework, mugging during jun hols, prelims, the big 'O's, prom. now it's all over!

it's weird how time works its ways

went on a triple date...hahah, with marilyn and jasmine.. to a concert. i didnt know it was the students type of concert....but niwae, sad to say, i truly enjoyed only 2 songs out of...25. haha, but anyway, the flying hands and flexi fingers made me feel this ---> . small, like the fullstop.
i seriously dun think i can make it if i were to take the exams nxt yr, unless some miracle happens to my hands, or it wud be as gd as throwing 500 bucks of registration fee into the fire. and i dun think i deserve truly and wholly, my grade 8 cert. yep


yay!! there's a phantom of the opera movie coming out 23rd sept....can only watch when i come back, but i will definitely try to make it! and u noe wat??? steph came online earlier this afternoon..in FLORENCE!!!!!!!!!! argh.....................................italy is so my ultimate ultimate dream destination. she was at rome, moving on to venice. VENICE! argh.......hahaha, and she was saying the guys and girls there were so hot...like duh uh


hope to take some great scenery shots in canada :) looking fwd..it's been like such a big thing of the yr........well, somehow at the back of my head, i still worry abt how my papers are doing in cambridge...ticks? or crosses? and i am darn worried abt my PAE....god bless everyone's PAE

went to bugis today for the 3rd consecutive time...haha, my mum is mad.....haha, no lah. first we went on sun to shop..as normal. then she needed to exchange shoe size, so we went back on mon. then she regretted not buying this really good bargain stuff, so she sent me to get it for her. yay, now i have a new dorothy perkins bag....cos had xmas voucher chen yu gave me, *beams* and i was given this gucci envy me (the scent) sampling paper....it rocks! damn nice!!!! now...like, 8 hrs after i got it, it still smells great :)

then went to orchard lib...to get my dad's san1 guo2 yan3 yi4...haha but i cudnt find...he's on this mission to make me read all the chi stuff...-_-" then i did self shopping!! haha, didnt buy anything but went to try stuff at zara, forever 21, charles and keith ...hehheh...qt fun! and hung out at sasa for a while...but i hate the way their ppl keep staring at u...><

yay, must congratulate janice on getting her hp!! hahah, i think she was the last in our class to get it....me being the last second...hahahah. both same situation one....haha :)

taufik rocks my socks! ahhahha...cant get over it :)

cut my hair after ikea trip with chen yu. well, still can tie but my pony tail's like....20cm shorter and the julie biscuit length..hahah. but i dun really care how short it goes, cos it will grow back anyway...bet it will be longer when i get back to sch again..so *shrugs* no worries =). yep, went ikea with chen yu today and on the bus we saw this senior...whom we recognised and she recognises us too...so she kept smiling at us, giving us the i know u know me, and u know i know u know me look...yep..but thnks for telling us it was the stop, or we wud haf been lost somewhere in queenstown. well, i didnt have anything in particular to buy, esp becos my mum will prob scream at me if i buy some uselessly cute stuff home...yep. so our aspiring hsewife chen yu...not aspiring lah..hahah, bought a laundry basket and some glasses and a rug. we were getting so excited at the thot of decorating our own hses...sometime in the future.(and the really cool dollhse--imagine, painting ur own walls, and putting in "wallpaper") it's really cool, and she likes the farmhse look while i like the zen look, the dark wood and frosted glass combi (yeah baby). and chen yu prob understands the extent of my obsessions with boxes and uselessly cute stuff...but at least i practise self control :)

i really LOVE the sony handycam ad...i like the song, very special and the words

it takes 3 seconds to fall in love, but 3 decades to get along
3 centuries to preserve a tradition, but 3 minutes to embrace another,
3 colours to paint the world, and 3 megapixels to capture it all

nice rite? hmm....



i think we are all really very blessed...my mum always tells me about her days in malaysia, growing up in a kampung, and how they threw stones and their slippers at bunches of rambutans, even green unripe ones, because they have nothing to eat. that's how blessed we are. everyone on my links, everyone of my frens. no matter how bad life can be to u.....how bad can it be compared to someone who faces difficulty just finding food to eat? and what's on our minds now...how we gonna get strt As for 'O's, what sch we are gonna get into, what scholarships are we gonna apply, what jobs do we wanna get in the future. well, that's reality...i mean, what else can u think about in the world now? in sunday's life, there was an interview with this forensic scientist and she said, in our lives, we endeavour in pursuits for this and that certificates, but when we die, we all get the death certificate. tht's really sth to think abt......well, we cant change reality, and how the world works, but perhaps sometimes we can stop to think about what we are doing, and what our actions mean. if everybody thinks this way, the world will become a better place.

i just applied for PAE subject combi for rj...felt scary..all these application stuff...feels like gambling ur life away. i mean seriously, our lives are affected by our every decision at this stage. and my dad asked me to put higher chi for the odd combi option...(what's new)...i was really scared abt putting that. not tht i dun like chi but i seriously doubt i can do it...all the chinese history, etc...competing with prc-s? no way....dun be surprised to see me reading some "zhong1 guo2 li4 shi3 5000 nian2" (china's history--5000 yrs) nxt time...

packing has been gd! i mean, really, i have no use for ALL those junk niwae. i am on one of those song addictions again..previously it was jewel's foolish games (really nice..go listen to it) and now it's anastasia's left outside alone. addiction as in i listen to it over and over again. call me mad.
i have come to realise that i am a person who ..how do u put it...is very nian4 jiu4...no 1. i dun like changes to my lifestyle...as in like, drastic changes. no 2. i really treasure things that bring back memories of the past...tht's why i keep a lot of things...tht ppl may deem as junk..(dun worry i dun live in a pig-sty like place...still neat as ever)..eg, i have a little box for pri sch stuff, going to have one for sec sch stuff...oh well, tht's me :)

prom's over! feels surreal....but yeah, we had a great nite. the dinner itself was no big deal lah, ooh, and naf got miss personality! we went to watch midnite movie! bridget jones 2, my first LEGAL nc 16 movie..muahaha. it was so sweet....the mark darcy was absolutely SWEET! oh...and i watched the chanel no. 5 ad!!! *yay* quite cool lah, like a mini movie. but it's quite irrational to make an ad that costs like...a few millions...........but then again, chanel can easily earn that by selling a few tweed jackets.

then huiling said we look like a grp of delinquents hanging out with makeup and all...(not me!)...hahahah. after the movie, we went walking and visited all the 7-11s, from mandarin to orchard mrt and from shaw back to paragon...then we went back to play cards!! hail bridge!! hahaha, huiling is a gd tcher lor...and a gd player...hmm...can deceive ppl with her seemingly innocent looks...hahahah

yeah, and we decided to start gossiping...hahah, cleo who wanted to slp cudnt resist the temptation to unleash the gossip queen in all females...*muahhah* yeah. and i slept for a non-existent 1/2 an hr. went for complimentary brkfast with steph :) since my dinner was like...pathetic...apparently not much ppl cared abt the dinner..and i missed the prawns *aww*. and one whole cup of coffee had totally zero effect......was somehow tempted to go shopping....but ahah came home to slp of cos!

watching LOTR -fellowship of the ring jus now.....it's still as magnificent, even though it's prob the 5th time i'm watching it. i think the middle earth its a really cool place! to think that tolkien actually imagined it. i think artists of the past are really wonderfully creative. stories, music, any form of art....nothing can be as rich and imaginative as those from the past. jus think--who would ever be able to create another world, another paradise....
aragorn is soooooo.....awesome....like so cool and xiao sa...(but he looks quite bad as viggo...hahah, so old) and i am still very sad abt gandalf falling down with the fire thing...though i know he'll be back... and i soo love pippin!!! he's so funny :)

You Are the Peacemaker

9 You are emotionally stable and willing to find common ground with others. Your friends and family often look to you to be the mediator when there is conflict. You are easy going and accepting. You take things as they come. Avoding conflict at all costs, you're content when things are calm.

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yay, shopping spree started today, with my mum. yay, bought *counts* a new shirt, a nice nice windbreaker frm baleno, a pair of ankle socks for sch nxt yr (muahah), an eye massager hahahha (supposedly can help eyesight..improves blood circulation and all), my mum got a nice dress, a shirt. yup :) and pens for my sis

got my prom stuff :)...it's gd to have sises and mum of ur size cos can just take all the things u need frm them, so i've got the shoes, and the bag *no worries* i not stressed or kan chiong abt it at all leh..hahahhah

yay *excited* shopping is SOOO fun :) :) :)but i carry the bags until my hand pain *aww* hahahha...yay, and i trimmed my eyebrows free...hahah, got lobang..muahahah

it's kinda surreal yeah? yes, i slacked thru the nite frm 7 to 11, watched "how to lose a guy in ten days" on scv...yes, eve tore up her entry proof...yes, i am playing and blogging guilt-free, but i still dun believe that we have BEEN through, DONE it!!!! this feeling wont sink in....until i start my shopping sprees, and playing big-time!!!!!

yeah, currently, TOP on my agenda, to slack and slack till i get kinda bored, then SPRING CLEAN!!!!!!!! and shop and revamp my wardrobe..go shopping with my mama, such a guai kia...muahahah

haha, currently playing on neopets, to make my pet a rich one!!! then it can have lotsa food to eat...yar, my pet very simple one, no investment or auctions or fighting, jus play and eat, play and eat...hahahah

i cant stand it anymore...she thinks she's so philosophical about everything...EVERYTHING



but i dun think so


who cares...i've mastered the art of ignoring, ignoring, ignoring

i am soooooooooo sick of studying..physics...to be specific...*argharghargh* cant wait for hmm...5 days more and farewell physics!! it will be my greatest joy to personally see all physics wkshts get loaded onto the garang guni's lorry!!! everybody mus recycle ok? i feel so guilty for using SOOOO many pcs of folscap to practise amaths...and all the papers we get..that i prob wun finish all.

yay geog was gd..they always recycle mcq qns one lor....i spotted 3 repeats and a few similar ones. like sherilyn said, they probably have a memory valve or sth liddat, and when they run out of qns, they will jus dig out and reuse.hope paper 2 is gd!! my life depends on it.

i kinda shudder at the thot of getting back our results...quite far away lar, but still......wat if sth goes wrong...O_o....so scared. so mus enjoy life this few months. it's so weird...like O's had been our life's goal for the past yr and now it's like 3/4 over....it's like a part of ur life is over...like, a milestone...hahah. sumtimes i cant believe that we have got THIS far.

it's amazing how a MOMENT. a SECOND can change your life. like, during the exams, any wrong choice or a careless slip can affect everything else. isnt it scary to think that what u are doing NOW, might decide sth in the future?

have u ever been caught in the middle before? between 2 ppl, 2 ppl with conflicting ideas?

ask me.



i really hate to be the middle person. caught in that position between my sis-es, my mum and my sis.




a lot of things that i have no idea how to put in words.



my mum, too much pent up feelings brought abt by things that happened long time ago.
my sis, too rebellious.

not to say that anyone has perfect character eg me, bad temper.



i really have no idea about all these EQ stuff. all these person to person relationships, how do u juggle them? how do make sure that u say things to suit every single individual and make everyone happy? make it a win-win situation.


it is indeed really hard to be a human being. if there was a next life...i think i will choose not to be one. a bird? perhaps.

sometimes, it's better not to know something that you were not supposed to know. makes you see things in such a cynical light, the act put on by the subject simply irks you becos you know the truth behind that facade.

it angers me to know that out of this few thousand chinese words we have to learn, only 10 will come out in the exams. chinese would have been much more fun to learn if not for the exams actually. jus think of our last few chi lessons...shouting the answers to the ppl at the bd to write and fight for the CHoCOlate!! hahahahhahahah....wy and her super fast hands (leading to bad handwriting)

looking fwd to the new lease on life 23 days from now. please release me.
and drming of life then already. i will not be home most of the time...hahah...seen enuf of my books and my study rm. cant wait to sell chunks of wkshts and past yr papers (eg Mr chang's papers WITHOUT ans!! grr) to the garang guni. sure my mum will be so prd of me. and by then, my table (which seems as if a crazy wind had swept over it) can finally see the light. literally.

my temper is real real bad. u would probably have experienced it if u had ever pissed me off before. sorry....i really cant control it at times. impatience? or jus pure short-temper...both

that's bad.

my poor keybd had been banged on twice today for (the comp) pissing me off totally. sometimes i dun understand my own bouts of anger and i totally regret after that. maybe i should go for some anger management class?

i will probably be taking tmr's chem pract with nostalgia, knowing it will probably be the last chem pract i will be doing in my life. i hope tmr's lock up will be endurable - disadvantage of being the first batch, but the good thing is, we get clean pipettes and burettes!

everyday i do my work with the knowledge that Os is coming. SOON. it still feels like something surreal somewhere in my consciousness. soon, it will be over. soon we will get our results back. time passes more quickly than ever before! sometimes i can hardly distinguish what happened yesterday and the day before. and i cant wait for it to be over. i suppose when it is over, all of us will feel a sense of 'loss'. it's been our motivation for the past year, perhaps 2 yrs. suddenly we will be so free we will feel weird to not be doing anything. school has trained us, in a way, into workaholics!

yesterday was our official last day in rgs and in 401. this probably has not sunk in anyone's mind yet, as are any parting occasions. our class has been wonderful! all thanks to very fun and hyped up ppl in our class + thanks to karen's boisterous laughter and steph's narcissism that always lightens up our classrm. shall we all meet one day,perhaps 10 yrs later, and all of us very different in our on way, there will be this chapter of our lives in rgs 401 that we all share. and perhaps, wanying may one day, really end up being the first to be married with 2 kids in ten yrs time, or esther earning her first million by 30, or anything at all, our memories remain and that we will keep forever in our hearts.

this week had been rather significant. our last chinese lesson in our whole lives, my last physics lesson (tht's a joy!). our last chem lesson with mrs tan!! she's a great tcher...i felt i had learnt so much more this yr! last lit lesson with ms leow, our dearest, comical ms leow..sighz

as for our class, there will be no more mass toilet-going sessions and terrorizing 315's class terrapin (charmaine). *sobs* it feels weird..it's jus too fast. summore our class ppl are going to various jcs...sighz. gd times end too soon.oh, i am so gonna miss the last row ppl..wanying! haha, hanna and i had a great time sitting beside her, luffing at her funny jokes and blurness. hope to see her arnd in sch next time!

bond's concert is today!!! arghh..no money to go.

7 days to chem pract
8 days to RJC open hse
17 days to Os

seems like i have been offending ppl a little too much...removed all those content. peace is good. not exactly in the best of moods these days

it is a painful dream. but it is possible. we can achieve it.