GRACE. ALL THE THINGS I DO FOR U.

first, i decided to go for movie as well, so i cabbed down to town. AND after i reached cine, i had to walk back to lido to meet my DEAREST GRACE. when i went up the escalotor, u ppl went down. when i came down, u ppl went up.. GRACE ALL THE THINGS I DO FOR U!! and i get this!!! hahahahahhahahhaha

well, charlie and the chocolate factory was not bad! the oompa loompas were simply amusing. but, i think the story's a bit dark and morbid for a kid's story. but oh well, johnyy depp's really psychotic, but he acts well! hahah. not too bad i wld say.

sch's starting tmr. wat a pain in the neck

i think singapore can break a world record of having the most no. of people wearing red at the same time same place.

it's amazing how this patriotism works its way into our lives unconsciously! 99.999999% of the ppl at the padang actually bothered to wear red! i'm so proud of ourselves! the parade is really not tht great. plus the formations would have looked nicer from an aerial view, which means we might as well watch from home. HOWEVER. the aero-manouvres were unbeatable k!!! i think the coolest things were the airplane stunts and the fireworks! beats anything else! and enthu me actually waved the flag or tapped the tambourine as we were instructed to! hmm, a perfect case of successful NE. but, im seriously proud to be a Singaporean! well, the boring parts were jus the guards-of-honour and the uniformed grp stuff, and the song items. i think the national day songs are deproving. i can only rmb up to quan xin quan yi (by steph sun) which was..2 yrs back? nth can beat the gd old we are singapore or stand up for s'pore.

there were this 2 cute little girls sitting behind me and my sis, and they were so cute!!! they sang the national anthem SO loudly!! and they screamed when the fireworks came out. the younger told her dad that she was scared, and the dad said that if they were scared they can scream, so they screamed. SO CUTE!!!



encore'05. adrenalinerush.applause.spotlights.music.action. rgchoir, you're the best thing that happened to me. -- tht is xiumin, my jr's msn nick. SO TRUE.
somehow, i miss the feeling of being in a performing cca. jazz club! wait for me!!

my life is such a bore i seriously can die of boredom. plus the recent saga...hmm, i feel tht i need more things to happen in my life! doesnt help when ppl are abosorbed in their own world. and i feel like im back to a sqr one, feeling lonely again, doing things that i need to do but i dun really want to do.

maybe such a life is the gateway to the fun life? i dunno!! someone tell me. rescue my life from the grasps of boredom

i jus cant find that energy that i had during the jun hols to bring myself to do work. not to mention that my brain is alrdy saturated with info. im so worried for my CTs but my mind's not following my heart. and its doesnt help that PW SUCKS BIG TIME. i rmb the tarot cards reading told me to concentrate on my goal. but i jus cant find the energy to! help!

going for NDP tmr. but somehow, when u get to this age, the anticipation is gone. even though it has been yrs since the last NDP i attended, im jus not that interested in NDP alrdy. tho i do agree that the atmosphere makes one very patriotic. haha! well well, maybe it will change my mind? hahah

no it's not me!! it's someone arnd me!! hahah, and it STILL feels weird. kad, i wud rather u continue scotty-doesnt-know-ing rather than the _____ song HAHHA!! pls leave me alone!!!!

cleo!

wy, me and jas

naf!

jas, me bel, cleo, xinyi, eve, karen, taiwan girl christina, fy

jus got back frm fran's party. hmm, qt different frm what i thot it to be. it was like a wedding dinner..haha, like some tables, and a buffet dinner. then the ambience wasnt tht gd lah..ahha, i thot it wud be a stand arnd and interact thing. but oh well, then they started playing funny games...like "honey i love u will u smile for me pls" game. which was rather boring..so some of us made an escapade to the toilet. then there was a disco thing...and some ppl didnt dance lah, so it was kinda sad too...then ppl left for clubbing and what nots, and i guess it ended earlier than expected. oh well. but it was a great time to gather with the 401 darlings!

yesterday's concert ENCORE 05 was a BLAST!!! choir u really rocked the squiggles' socks!! we were commenting on how a lot of sec3s opened up , and realised tht sec 2 is a problematic yr and how all of them became so enthu. we were also wondering if we had been a bad comp and scared them or sth. cos...we rmbed...expelling ppl who weren't up to standard + attitude problem and also! cos ms loo didnt like them AND we didnt too. we were really mean! hahahah sharon mindy and i were luffing at the though of how we gave ppl different nicknames and how we were always in cahoots to do bad stuff...
I MISS SQUIGS!!oh , the musical WAS GREAT!!! the costumes and everythign, WONDERFUL! the plot and script and choreo all done by themselves was SUPERB! beats having a choreographer!! but the choral singing could be improved on!! i liked besame mucho!! so nice. oh and they shud stop gesturing too much with their hands cos it shud only be done during pracs..doesnt look too gd on stage

oh well...had a grt time catching up with the squigs and juniors. haiz. it felt grt to be able to sing the sch song again, and i think i ve nv cheered so happily b4. hmm, vei and i agree that, in rj, its a very professional relationship with frens but in rg its a family! plus choir is a very family-like cca and its jus feels so diff when u get to jc and things change..and thts y sometimes i feel i dun belong

hey..i posted the prev post b4 miao went thru this frost poem today with the same meaning.

today was qt fun lah! went to help my sis with make up for a musical called Pagoda Street, which runs frm tmr to sat. the lead actress is Rosalind Pho, qt pretty in real life! The esplanade backstage wasnt as impressive as i thot it would be. I think NUS UCC's is way better..hahah! and more spacious changing rms. (i especially love the waiting area behind the curtains, jus bordering the stage!!) yeah. but i was qt extra lah, cos obviously i dunno anth abt stage makeup, so i jus stodd there like an idiot, well managed to blush some cheeks. but tht's all! ahahah, oh, there were some RJ ppl invovled in the production, and i knew a couple of them..hahah. the backstage of the different theatres is connected i think. or a few of them. so we walked past the dim sum dollies' changing rms. oh and i saw tan kheng hua. haha, so i went down today purely for the fun of it.

looking fwd to concert on fri and party on sat!

i don't believe in a totally happy life. a life without sadness is artificial. i guess i am a person who has rather pessimistic thoughts and may even have a tendency towards..depression? but i believe in the optimistic things in life, believing in the simple joys of life, just simply enjoying the gift of life and our sheer existence. the world can never make everyone happy.



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it's scary what men are doing to ourselves. pollution, destroying environment, cruelty to nature, animals. what will the world be like in future? will it be like...minority report? how long will the world last?

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random passing thots. niwae, cleo is leaving on the 21st Aug, in the evening, all who noes cleo, pls do try to make it free tht evening (a Sunday) so that we can send her off!!

sch was alrite today, kinda dreary, esp during maths lect. it was intolerable!! i was feeling sooo tired and hungry. hmm, well, tennis was fun, sth to brighten up the day. i havent played tennis in ages, but it's fun cos we get to laugh at one another too..hahah.
hmm, so grace somehow became my "les partner" mind u im not les..hahaha.and a certain eviler was plotting some evil plot agnst grace by getting her drunk and then.... its too evil!

haiz..tagbd is down for several days and my right ear is losing its hearing power. haiz

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

how...my collapse free trial expired! so sad! hahah, i was playing happily..hahah, but i open and closed the windows a few time. DANG didnt noe tht counts. hahah, the thing is they dun allow anymore d/l on the same comp! hahaha

ok, i wanna make an amendment to an earlier post abt having superficial frens. they dun include those in a03b, k? hahah, i've been bugged by kad, so im changing my statement.

maybe i shouldnt have agreed to help my sister out with the makeup for this theatre production nxt wk, cos i have a few events nxt wk, namely choir concert and fran's party. i hope i can attend the party, i guess it wud be a gd time to catch up with old frens, and i guess its time for some fun before promos. hmm, toking abt promos, i seirously have never gotten back on track ever since after CTs. and tht is not positive. it doesnt help that pw sucks big time, and there's a new lit bk coming up which we have to read, so many overdue time mags to read, and so so so many things to do.

today is truly a blessing!! i met eve (whom i havent seen since mar) and jas and weishyuan (since mar too) in town after i went back to rg to see my beloved juniors!! the musical is qt gd and surely funny! i realise how much creative capacity we were given back then. ok, partly cos im not in a performing cca now. well, but i rmb those days when i was bored like them sitting there, waiting for instructions, wishing that things will end soon... oh well. u nv noe what u got till it's gone. but i think i miss choral music the most.
oh then just now, steph rang me to chat. oh man!! thnks so much for calling preethi!!it makes me feel so much better and it jus brings back memories of gd old 401 days.... we both agreed tht rgs was the best place ever and 401 was the most memorable thing ever. well, maybe im not alone abt the having few close frens in jc, and even then, are they jus superficial frens?

seem to have lost zhao ...dunno wat happened to her, but well, shall write to her soon niwae. time to catch up with old frens.

ok, i've been asked by kad to blog abt him cos its his bday. fine! happy bday kad, and u better be ncie to me from now on cos of all the privileges u enjoyed today frm me tolerating everything today!!! and u owe me my one yr's supply of godiva's chocolate!!!

i've been qt tired these few days, frm sleeping late and frm a bit of stress lah..hahah, cos work is building up and ive totally lost my studying momentum and im so scared abt my promos.... but nevertheless, there's always time for fun and play. i prob maxed my allowance this month ....argh!!

was listening to "I'll Hear Your Voice" and am missing squigs ALL OVER AGAIN. i cant even rmb my part for the song! maybe MAYBE, if squigs ever reunite to SING again, we really should hear our voices again! *breaks down*

school was qt fun today.
1) NO AFTERNOON PE!!! those pe slots after 3om were cancelled..i wonder why, but i dun really care!!

2)we threw jingheng's pencil box out of the window (onto the corridor) during PW. it was pretty darn funny! yiwei and i luffed till our stomachs ached. The funny thing was how the ppl gave us weird looks when the pencil box ended up i front of them!!

3)went out to j8 after sch and rach, chris and i betted on yiwei and dared her to do funny stuff at mac's. and she chose frm a range of acts, including, walking past a table and jus taking a fry frm someone's tray. hahah, the perfect chance came when a grp of lower sec ri boys walked in, with a bottle of root beer and rabbit swts (dun ask me why they have it). so we dared her to go and tell the boys "can i have some (root beer) and some sweets too?" HILARIOUS!!! omg...hahah, amazingly the boys let her take the drinks without much resistance but they said the swts were not meant for her.. hahahah. we cldnt stop luffing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

haha, after lessons we went to lib to study actually..how hardwking rite?? then we went to thai express for soft shell crab!! after deciding that it is very nice when grace ate it the last time. but the body was bitter and only the legs were nice and crispy. how disappointing..

haha, suddenly rmbed an incident. me zul and rach were walking behind this couple whom we know, then zul went AHEM very loudly and squeeezed thru them..hahah! hilraious!!!

wow, this is my 169th post, ever since i started blogging...hmm.

i have been relatively efficient today! accomplishing more than the past 2 wks. i've gotten back my lit paper, got a C for the whole sub. an A for robert frost (AMAZING RITE!!!), C for shakespeare, and E for pratical criticism. hmm, things look bright for frost..but i agree that it is not that hard to identify the theme and all, its all the writing. do you know how much i wished that AO chi is a core A level subject?? i will surely take A chi instd of lit. FOR SURE! i feel much more comfortable with chi and im sure it has a brighter future than my lit.. :(

oh well, my accomplishments for today-- econs essay part a) and maths remedial wksht. hey, provided that i came home at 4 + and slacked qt a bit, this is qt a feat. hahahha!

today in sch...hmm. mm took over gp so we had our last block off! woohoo~~ the happiest day ever. and amazingly mm is in a pretty gd mood today...hmmm

my song of the moment is sooo The Way You Look Tonight. Not long ago, it was Smooth Operator..hahah

i forgot to mention my thots abt the movie 8 women. hmm, grace and i both concluded that french women are very beautiful. not necessarily pretty, but they just exude a type of elegance. plus the nuances of their language...its just wonderful! and most of the time, they are just picture perfect, a black gown, a fur stole, curls, red lips, pearls, glass of wine in one hand, pipe in the other, deep intense eyes.

hmm, my pace of work can never be recovered ever since the CT's ended. i jus find myself being so extremely inefficient everyday, accomplishing so little everyday. and now, the wkends are voer AGAIN!!! why so fast!! why cant there be wkends that are 4 days long?

*to kad, yes, ur 4am wake up calls are GREATLY APPRECIATED! ahahahha!!!

went to collect my yrbk yest and wanted to go visit choir! but they had an ext conductor, so i didnt wanna disturb. how i miss hearing choral music!!!!!! its been ages since i;ve come into contact with choral music and singing classically :'( i miss it sooooo much.
then went to town and met up with grace, walked arnd a bit and then met my mum and sis.

today, had interact installation, reached there at 10 to help blow balloons and do a bit of decor...haiz, was bored stiff. i think majority of the interactors dun give a damn abt installation ...hahah, tho its meant to be sth very impt etc...its jus so different frm say....choir farewel party and handover. the size is comparable, but not that spirit and bond among one another.

nwiae, college day was in the morn, then jazz club was playing at the reception. was so nice!! inspires me to try for jazz nxt yr. hmm...

with mr ali in his china man costume, complete with a fan

class!

look wat evilers weijie and grace are doing to me!! :(

tada! costume change! this nice pink sari looks suspiciously like what i wore last yr...jus tht it was green...hmmm

me in tv's punjabi suit

weijie, me, grace, chris and rachel

photos galore!! coming up real soon, of rachila harmony day. well, i guess today was really qt fun and we won the best dressed thing cos ali asked our whole class to wear, so oh well, even tho we embarassed ourselves..having to go onstage, but its qt fun! but i think rhd in rg is MUCH better! the atmosphere is so much better.
hmm, so today was qt relaxed and lessons passed REALLY fast! hahah, and we watched a french movie for GP, called 8 women. its a very special plot, but with some issues of homosexuality and incest...HMM...oh well, today was fun!

i dun like this....argh.....sth is disturbing me and its not a solvable problem in the foresee-able future... :(

ah, well otherwise today was qt alrite. went out with grace to walk arnd and had NSW eng after tht. not very positive. my vocab and english terminology sucks big time. i seriously dunno all the preposition, nouns, pronouns, yada yada and half of the time i was guessing for the vocab qns. would rather have gone for badminton actually....

my hair has grown out so quickly! in jus 2 / 3 wks time. when it grows to a certain length, it starts to lose shape. hmm..

today has been a gd day! hahaha, well, the sch was flooded, and the amphi was almost turning into a lake. at the climax, the water was coming in in ripples and we attempted to create an isolated island of dry floor amidst the water. qt funny! i've nv ever seen a sch flood that badly. besides, there was also those potholes bobbing and spurting water and the steps frm the parade sq that formed a wonderful waterfall. time to think abt the sch's drainage!

went for vege talk after that. it was rather compelling! grace and i are affected to start a semi vege diet. there were 3 aspects-health, ethics and economics. health, well, we all noe that meat contains toxins and etc etc. then ethics. this was the most..compelling part. we watched a video on the slaughtering of the animals. VERY SAD. anyone who felt indifferent to that video is not human. for example, cows (even diary cows) are abused and used till they are old and dry and then they are hung upside down, their throats slit, and the blood left to flow till they die. this is cos if the blood remains in the body, the meat will turn bad. it is damn sad and gross. so well....since im not a big fan of meat...i guess i can maintain a fairly vegetarian diet. but i cant take it out of my life totally. hmm, and the economics part - 3 kilos of grain is used to feed 1 kilo of chicken , etc etc and it is very inefficient, esp if the grain and wheats etc can be used to feed many hungry ppl (forgot the figs) with a vege diet. so if we maintain a vege diet, even for a short period, we cut down the consumption of meat and we can save lives and prevent deaths from starvation!

photos make blogs interesting. i think my blog is qt a bore..hmm...but i have no nice pics..oh well

there was this random link at the msn messenger page, so i went to click it www2.meegos.com

it's so fun! but u've to pay to download the characters. u can go there and create a character with diff hairstyles, diff accessories, etc. its qt fun! hahah

i attempted to change my frenster pics but sadly, ive realised that my reserve of photos is qt pathetically small... hmm....shall aim to take more pics

my mum is going for a surgery to remove a foreign object in her uterus tmr. i guess it's times like that which really make ppl stop and think about love. parent-child love is invisible, and im not one who expresses such emotions often, so it takes events like this to really think thru it and realise how much love our parents have showered upon us. I can never give back the magnitude of love that my mum shows me. so what i..and we can do is to just show that little appreciation for all the little things that our parents do for us, give them more patience, throw less tantrums. mum, i love you.

argh..damn stressed abt EOM which is due tmr. i hate pw to the bones k....
hmm, service today was alrite, had to sort out some schedule stuff with the principal. so we will be embarking on a project to make use of old flower pots to decorate the school's old flower beds (empty now) so we will be painting them for the many many many sessions to come. i guess its quite fun too! but less interaction with the kids.

my sis is an absolute smarty pants. arghhhhh. studying seems like such a breeze to her!! i dun understand why!!!! so today, the svc grp were freaking out abt how near promos are, and how its gonna decide our fates for THE REST OF OUR LIVES. face it.

promos = S paper = Scholarship= overseas study =EVERYTHING

ZHI XIN IS GONNA MUG FOR HER PROMOS.
tht is it. my goal. so dun say im a mugger or a doot kia or ANTH! cos to achieve my goal, i have to sacrifice things. and i badly badly want to achieve my goal

hmm...got back most of our papers today. im fine with mine...within expectation, but (as always) there's rm for improvement. i hate getting back my maths papers cos there's SURELY sth that u cud have done or done better. tht kinda thing...oh well. everyone!! work hard for promos!!

went to town with grace cat and tv during our 2 hrs brk, and got back to pe late..but the tcher didnt seem to notice..hahah. nth significant today..jus tht our class starts to realise that we're hugely............problematic? i dunno wats the word for it lah..but i do agree. hmm. i think the most impt thing is to keep one's individuality amidst all other influences. can be really hard. but i guess, everyone needs to set out their goals clearly and not be wavered easily ( i cant promise i can do tht...but i do try to..) and things will turn out better :)

if i had the choice and if a career is not just abt money for survival, there would a gazillion things i would love to do. fashion design, jewelry design, costume design, cross stitch, handmaking cards, designing notebks (haha!), candle making, yadayada..the list goes on. as you can see, they are totally unrelated to calculations, theories and all other undesirable stuff (sadly those tht earn you the money). oh how i wish i can do those for all my life. can you imagine wasting your life away in an office? doing things you don't like? i hope you don't hear me complain about dreading to go to work, cos i dun wanna fall into the line where ppl jus do what they have to do. i wanna do what i LOVE TO do.

i think i seriously need some artistic indulgence. the one and only concert i've been to this yr is the rj chorale concert...which was like march???? and there was this burst of all the concerts in apr and may, and the times werent too convenient. and...nobody really informed me of other schs one...like the vj tsd one...argh! so the nxt concert im going will be rg choir.

my dad changed his phone to a nokia 7260! finally a camera phone in the hse!! hahah, we took funny pics of ourselves. cant wait for my 2 yr plan to be up so tht i can change to a phone with camera!

had install rehearse yest and the side gates fo rj AND ri were closed. its qt dumb cos sometimes the ri one is open lorr....and i think its not a very practical thing to do cos im sure there's a substantial no. of students who come by the backgate. perhaps they shud allocate opening times in the morn when ppl come for ccas. yeah, so 4 interact ppl were there and we decided to climb over the gate. after celebrating our success, a security guard came to reprimand us and threaten to show the principal the video frm the surveillance camera. then we jus walked for a while (supposedly follow him to see the principal) then he stopped and asked us why we did tht, who's our cca tcher etc etc. and he let us off in the end. we pretty much geussed it cos it was too much trouble. but oh well!!! but yeah lah, its a bad thing to do!

hmm...cant believe wkends pass so quickly. why why why why why? results shud be coming in this wk...so all the best to all.

whoo~ today was a rather nice day! except for sth/ somebody and this thing tht really disturbs me and i cant stop thinking abt it...hmmm

nwiae, PE today was supposed to be the IOC tok thing, which we alrdy had on tue, so our class joined a j2 class to play handball. alrite lah, qt fun. and i did sth damn silly! ahha, the ball was aiming for me and i stupidly dodged it! i must have been out of my mind for that one sec...hahahh!! so amused by myself! hmm, then priya, yiwei, lulu rach and i hung out at the canteen to cheng tng together! hahaha, and wj did this damn funny thing to lulu!!! the rest of us noe and we were luffing like mad, while lulu is still in the dark.................hahahha!!!! ok, so after cheng tng-ing, we spotted my magic fren sinyong (eh, sinyong! everybody claims to be ur best fren know...hahahha!!!!) and he did this super cool trick.

its called 3 card sth. so there are 2 black and 1 red cards. and for the finale, he folded the edge of the red card to let us see where the read card is moving, while he constantly changes the positions of the cards. THEN. LO AND BEHOLD! the red card (which we can see clearly from the folded edge) changed into a black card!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah, priya and yiwei were so traumatised tht they screamed!! hahah... well, it's qt impactful cos u really see it with ur own eyes so clearly....hahah, but oh well, magic is abt illusion and speed, so i guess the speed part really requires lots of practice. jia you sinyong!

today is qt a slack day in sch, witho no GP and no geog lect.

hmm, some ppl said some stuff tht hurt a little. not intentional i know, but it just did...but it set me thinking as well. abt who i am and what i want. do i want approval frm myself? frm my parents? my siblings? my friends? or am i someone who's jus simply living for myself?

i am grateful to be born into my family, a wonderful family (tho sometimes i think it is a little dysfunctional, our relationship with our relatives, and the silence and lack of communication bet me and my parents at times...), privileged and leading a comfortable life. But living in this family comes with loads of considerations and obligations. my sisters are ace students and there are things expected from me, academically. and I, being someone who understands the need to be elite ( in this elitist world) is inclined to conform to these expectations, not wanting to disappoint my parents or get into trouble with them. but i want to do so much more!! i want to have fun, i want to do all tht i've dreamt of doing. im qt a half-half person. half half in faith, in studies, in passion, in having and being fun. WHO AM I??? REALLY??

seriously i would rather be a person complete in one aspect than be myself, half half at everything and not complete at anything at all. that is a very pessimistic view of myself, but i think its true. im just hoping that sth gd will happen to me and i will not have to be so weighed down by considerations expectation obilgations and really be carefree, and do what i want.


tht sounds so out of reach

whoo..sch was alrite today. but having to go back for lit 2 hrs after the other lessons is just such a spoiler...and its not as if lit is sth so looked forward to. but mm was in qt a gd mood today. had a new tcher for PC and i guess he is equally nice as the prev one....yeah, and he actually he said he doesnt ppl not going for his lessons. hahah.
oh well, so yiwei, jy, chris, grace, rach and i went to j8 in an attempt to use up our 2 hrs quickly. i had $2 nuggets!! yum yummmm..hahhaha!! then we got back rather early, so we went to the lib and i borrowed les miserables. i rmbed i tried to read it once but failed. so i got the abridged version, hopefully, lighter too. :)

sch was tolerable.
grace and i had to wander arnd in the morn cos lt 2 was locked.
lit lect was fine, but she jus keeps repeating her pt.
i was pretty happy with the day, and qt slack at the start of PW. THEN that FRIGGING O.A had to be so duper nasty. HEELLOOO...we handed up our GPP to her and she didnt receive. AND HEEELLOOOO... i emailed her ages ago and she "didnt receive" i mean yah, of cos she wun lie abt not receiving but u shud hear the tone she was speaking in "u despicable typical students, trying to push the blame to technology, to email, the www and anyhooo". it was as if it was OUR fault she didnt receive. HELLOOOOOOO!!!! i am duper angry with her lah, cos NO, she hadnt returned us the GPP as she claimed she did. GRRRR


jus had to let some steam off.

the rest of the day was fine. went out to PS with tv, cat and grace and shopped a bit. and we ate mark's and spencer's dutch shortcake! 50cents for a piece of heaven baby! AND i have a new item on my bday wish list! i saw this roxy brown bag with some flower motifs. and i hinted to grace openly! ahahahah. yes, so tht goes rite to my wish list!!
PE was jus a slideshow on Olympics and its past & present. and it is indeed a very significant PE lesson cos it was zul and wj's FIRST EVER pe lesson..qt amusing...

qt stressed now actually. PW PW PW PW PW. and qing's not replying me abt the choir concert tiX tix tix tix. AND my hp bill is gonna shooooootttt like mad this month. AND AND AND my CTs are heading towards the deep ocean. AND AND AND AND AND im sleep deprived.

it's back to sch tmr....SIGHZ
chris and grace came over to my place for lunch and earrings making, qt fun! and we webcam-ed lulu..she's really damn funny! then chris had to meet up with her frens, so grace and i went on a date..hahhaha! we watched war of the worlds. hmm, i think its not bad lah! if u are not the type to be skeptical abt how fake and unrealistic the machines are. but i guess it makes us reflect if we're taking our existence on earth too much for granted. hmm...im rather freaked out by supernatural stuff, including these...yeah, so grace and i came out rather paranoid-ish..hahha, when we hear loud noises we will like...link it to those we hear in the movie..hahah. hmm, the part when the tentacle eye stretched into the basement...was qt scary lah. yep...and some parts were qt unrealistic as they always seem to be very super lucky. i mean they can afford to put in a few extras who manage to escape to safety also riiteee...

ok time to slp...oh i hate tuesdays in school!!!! argh..hope PE tmr is endurable...hope we do sth fun! like netball! tennis!

i cut my hair!! qt happy with it! it's much much much shorter..i think my previous ponytail was at least 5 times longer than now. but it's a refreshing change! and its nice to feel the breeze in your hair! haha, long heavy hair cant give that effect. shall be shocking many ppl in sch on tue..hahah
i lvoe life now! so carefree, can do anth i want without getting nagged at. hmm...im looking forward to...2 events. hurhur..shall not say it here :) hmm, cant wait to see my choir juniors!! (LISA!!! XIUMIN!! GEET!! JACQ!!) hahah, sorry a bit biased..but really these are my fave jrs. hmm, like my previous post...i really miss choir sometimes....aww :'(

CTs didnt end on a very positive note....my PC paper kinda sucked..but oh well, time to play to our hearts' content! walked orchard rd up and down in search of grt bargains...hahah, and affected grace and chris to make earrings too..they're coming to my hse on monday for an earring making session!

niwae, if u're interested in haute couture, pls go to www.dior.com and click fashion - women - channels- live and check out their ready to wear fall/ winter, AND check out their evening wear... GORGEOUS!!!! and their denim series is soooooooo niiiiicccceeeeeee

am listening to "i'll hear your voice" and am MISSING SQUIGS!!!!!!!! and im losing this whole choir thingyy.....and squigs oh squigs...how i miss our time together! we're really slack huh..hahah, we dun even care abt preparing the alumni item like we wanted last time...qt sad, and also cos we're really busy lah, and separated :( i think we should prepare a comeback and sing our "i'll hear your voice again"

yay, CTs are almost over..tmr is Lit paper 8, which is unseen, so there's nth to study actually... IM SO SAD abt my maths!! im sure i cud have done better, but its jus the there and then situation ya noe.....oh weellll....overall i have very bad vibes abt CTs, and GOSH!! i need help in finding back my motivation and self discipline!!!!!!!!!! and i must have less distractions (tht's hard) ...

oh oh oh!! grace jus told me that she and rachel splurged at the zara sale!! arrghhh!! here i come!! zara and mango sales are apparently qt lovely! hahah

i noe..i am not supposed to be here rite now...but i will get back to geog in a while.

first, complain abt econs. the DRQ is really hard. totally diff frm wat u see in TYS lah.....sighz..i calculated that i prob will jus pass only. but i guess im prepared to not do well for overall CTs. haiz...really wonder why studying seems to be such a breeze for some ppl...i wanna study overseas leh..but i dunno..there's jus sth wrong with the way i study i suppose..

second, m'sia!!! my cute lil cousin is finally talking more, but we think that his tongue's too short, so his pronunciation kinda warped. and next, shopping was helluva grt time!! much more productive than shopping in Sg, always comforting to noe ure spending in RM! u noe my msn nick? haha, im serious. my sis and i both concluded that our shopping (digging thru piles) at the mango sale was crazy..hahahh!!!

as you can tell, i was qt bored in the afternoon, so went to do a lot of quizzes...those 2 are qt accurate lah..hahha. hmm, they've got nice picturesssss!!!

about an hr ago, i jus realised how little time i have to study econs, cos i'll be going msia frm fri-sun = no time for last min. chionging of econs. so, i finished revising a few topics. *phew* proud of myself man!! i cant believe sch's starting...budden, looking at the terrible life of' wanna play cannot play, mus study' mode of this hols....i think going to sch also seems more fun. hmm...i have no comments abt my CTs..i think everybody xin li you shu abt how they will fare for it lah...and i know mine too....SIGH...

Your element is Water. You have a calm aura around
you and are in tune with the world around. You
observe it but rarely interfere. Because of
your shy and timid nature you will not have so
many friends in your life. But then again,
large crowds aren't your thing anyway. You are
comfortable on your own and are reserved to
others who you don't know or know very little
of. You know everyone out there does not want
to be your friend, and knowing that is good.
However, people who don't know you that well
thinks that you are cold and distant since you
don't want to talk to them. Although you mean
no harm, you can't always be perfectly
understood in the world. No one can. Life in
general are you quite serene with even if there
are some things you don't like. Your love-life
is not so full of boys/girls, but if you
flirted more with the ones you were interested
in I'm sure something would happen. The hobbies
you choose are calmer ones, you are no party
girl that likes to drink and make-out with
three or more guys/girls in one night. Reading
a book or swimming is more your thing. Rate and
message!


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The Goddess of Ice and Hope. You are a creative
wonder. Always calm and collected, you hold the
awe of many people and you are exceptionally
logical. You are an inspirational beauty.


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finally i've been able to get back all my songs frm my sis' laptop...the netwk was problematic when she was overseas. can u imagine living one yr withour ur dearest playlist??? but sadly, i cant find the very exotic songs tht cant be found easily on the net....SIGH....AND AND!! do u rmb the nice DBS ad, the wedding and all, with the nice song "life is beautiful" and amazingly, windows media player identified the song frm this album by Tony Bennett. for those ppl who know what im blabbering abt, pls do check that guy out....it took me so long to find tht song!!

well well, but im not someone who has to survive by music lah. my radio is nv on...so...yeah

im so grateful to xiumin for letting me bleargh out all my thots on my frenships and jc life..which is kinda pessimistic. hmm, had a funny dream last nite...sth like i was shopping in topshop/ mango..cant rmb, then they were extremely over-staffed tht day, and when i was on my way to the fitting rm, i saw this big grp of staff wearing white top and black bottom, and i saw xinyi and steph!! haha, its really weird~~~ haha, then they had some sale for tht speciifc time sth liddat, so a lot of ppl flooded in....qt a weird drm..

sometimes, life is happier if we are not held down by considerations. i guess i am someone who is very concerned abt consequences and how ppl or things will react if i do sth. but i realised frm ppl arnd me, that, really, sometimes life is much better if there werent so much to care abt.

haiz.......it's so weird to have my sister back at home again. it's like familiar..cos she's been arnd for the past 16 yrs, yet unfamiliar, cos i'm so used to life without her ( and so very used to and enjoy! the solitude). well well, gd thing is, she brought home nice clothes, shoes, stuff, belgian choc!!!!!. but also her old bad habits..hahah. well, i guess she misses the freedom she enjoys there as well.

was cleo's bday yest, so we had a dinner party for her. and actually it was just her ac frens, so the rg frens were the 'surprise'. qt little ppl turn up frm the rg side...but well, gd enough to immerse in the much missed 401-atmosphere. everyone misses 401 and rg soooo soooo soooo sooo badly~ haha, steph, karen and xinyi's much missed craziness..and there was talk abt having a beach (or is it bitch!) party (pts to steph and steph alone!!) for the 401 ppl!!!

Your IQ Is 115

Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Exceptional Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional Your General Knowledge is Exceptional

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test


hahahahaha! im flattered!

haha, i did a lot of the blogthings tht i found on steph's blogs. the bday date one is really qt true!!! :S haahah. had interact bbq today, well, i mus frankly say that....i dun have much close frens in interact, and most frenships...acquaintanceship are extremely shallow. tht's also why i wanted to go down today, to know more ppl ya noe. i really feel qt left out cos the ppl im close to are 1) not there today 2) have their own grp of closer frens
and i seriously feel tht i dun belong when there were times tht i had to jus walk abt, or try to occupy myself with rich's mum's babysit-ees...so cute!! well, yeah. these days i am really pushed into the state of thinking abt my friendships, past and present..which is qt pessimistic. present ones are qt alrite, but tht's becos of a common environment- sch, stuff and ppl. but once tht changes, things are diff! i have a perfect eg. for tht, but im not saying names :( haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Your Expression Number is 6

You have an outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. You are helpful and inclined to comfort those in need. You have many artistic and creative talents, but you only use them to better others. You are loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much kindness and generosity. Openness and honesty are apparent in your approach to all relationships. Sometimes, you can be too demanding of yourself. At times, you tend to sacrifice yourself for the welfare of others. At other times, you have trouble distinguishing between helping and interfering.

What's Your Expression Number?

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen Or lend a shoulder to cry on You're there through thick and thin Many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

Your Birthdate: October 17

Your birth on the 17th day of the month suggests that you are very lucky financially, because this date indicates a solid business sense. Although you are probably very honest and ethical, this birthday enables you to be shrewd and successful in the world of business and commercial enterprise. You have excellent organizational, managerial, and administrative capabilities enabling you to handle large projects and significant amounts of money with relative ease. You are ambitious and highly goal-oriented, although you may be better at starting projects than you are at finishing them. A sensitivity in your nature, often repressed below the surface of awareness, makes it hard to give or receive affection.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

( the last 2 paragraphs are so SUPER DUPER TRUE!!!!!!!!!)

i think im drifting from old friends. its sad to know that you are still clinging on to memories when u see that others have moved on. and i jus keep qning myself, who really, are those true friends (cos there seem to be none..except one..) and i cant help but think abt what will happen to my friends now.

just watched 'eternal sunshine' on scv...yeah, its nice. its a very special movie, as in the techniques, the way the story is told, in a very weird chronology. but yeah. the title comes from a quote by Alexander Pope:

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;

it's abt innocence, which i do greatly miss. wouldnt it be nice (cadbury!) if we were back to innocent childhood days? no worries~

haiz, trying to get down to serious studying today..yep. on tue, we had an interact day camp for children frm whispering hearts day care centre. oh gdness!! how noisy can they get!! and i bet all interacters have hailed lynn to be the mother of interact, while rich is the father!! just look at how they handle those kids!!! making them enthu (well, it's ncie to hear them cheering so loudly! it's been long since we've heard or done sth like tht) , and making them obey instructions. i take my hats off to them! weren't we relieved when they all were finally packed off in a bus! and someone said "well, at least i learnt sth. i'll never open a childcare centre!!!!" hahahah

yest was my mum's bday. had econs lesson in the morning in a freezing seminar rm..till abt 1 pm..yeah, then came home to watch a movie on HBO, and then went out with my mum to meet my sis and dad for her bday dinner. ate A LOT! had buffet at hotel inter-continental (bugis) and...well, just ate a lot. but it was qt yummy!

niwae, spking of HBO, those of u who have it at home, pls do watch 'the last samurai' its niiiccceee...and there's 'eternal sunshine on the spotless mind' too! how gd can cable tv get!


oh yeah, rachel and i made a pact to create nice long wish lists for our bday, and also a bday bash plan! hahah . here goes my wish list
-Bond's first CD (Born) or Third (Classified)
-Phantom of the Opera music score..perhaps? ahhah
(a violiN!! haha, qt impossible )

haizm was attempting maths 'extra qns'. not as easy as it seems. makes me feel that my maths is still stuck at sec 4 :x after watching this vcd that my dad bought frm china, abt this performance of a dance troupe (made up of deaf/ mute ppl) called "qian shou guan yin" (thousand hands of guanyin) and how they managed to learn the dance, and even perform at the closing ceremony of Athens'04 even tho they cant hear the music. feeling the urge to pick up sign language.

argh, looking at stacks of notes is not helping..they are a constant nag at the back of my head "u've gotta study me! exams are coming" AND! i think my PW's kinda dead and *poof* gone. argh argh argh. hope tmr's class outings will lift my spirits a little

yest's class outing was qt fun :) everyone was hyper and high..in holiday mood. then we went nydc to eat, haha, lulu and yw exploited allan, their walking atm! ahahah qt hilarious.

today morn, there was no CV, so we spent time henna-ing ourselves (and jh!) and were qt hyper again. i think its the pre holiday mood, everybody's happy and high!! and at the end of the day, for GP lesson, there was this ppl from...what's the org? yeah, they were promoting thsir service of helping ppl understand the rights and wrongs in doing things, and how to achieve dreams and stuff. as u can see from my msn nick 人生不是一个可以预算的方程式. the way the ppl put things seems to me that they think that life (everyone's) fall into place nicely like there was a formula. but no! they say, they can help and guide u thru with their experiences and all, and everyone has their own pattern of doing things and they will help u explore how to achieve ur drms with tht.

for me, it is not a very relevant case...cos i have a dream to pursue and will surely welcome anth that comes my way and can help me! but for this one.....they sound a bit too confident. they wanna teach u abt the rights and wrongs of things (studies, business, work, relationships) and avoid u frm making mistakes. but its so so so so wrong. esp for relationships. everyone we come into contact with is different, each and everyone needing different tactics and communication skill to get across, and its so wrong to think that there's a formula for tht. i understd what i have mentioned above (cos i've experienced that) and i think that, one really has to explore the boundaries to everyone u're in contact with to really noe how far u can go, what u can/ cannot say to tht person.

life can never be a predictable formula

HAIZZZZZ....i cant believe that there's still mm's lesson later!!! argh. lee is sick, so tht means we have a 2 hr brk. and i wanna hammer doggie, cos he can officially go home. :( argh.......hope she faints later during a class b4 us, so we can go off....argh. cant believe that we are gonna have such a problematic tcher for the rest of 2 yrs. (well, it's actually 1/4 of our JC life gone!!)

jus watched bond on tv..they nv fail to spark my desire to pick up violin or any of the string instruments- equally beautiful.

today is such an unproductive day. plus my mum pulled me out to meet up with her fren, and they spent like 3/4 of the time looking at pots...which didnt exactly interest me. and she was contemplating for really long, which size of the pot she shud buy. and i told her rite from the start to buy that size (which she eventually did) but she took so long...sigh, housewives' woes.

sigh, i actually realised how long i havent been in town when i saw so much changes!! the food stalls in far east, the cafe outside scotts, the esprit inside scotts, argh! for the first time in 2 yrs i actually sat down in the coffeebean i used to work at (for work experience) it was really fun! but now, all the ppl have changed...it's qt sad sometimes to realise that things are changing so quickly when u're still holding on to ur memories.

hmm, so much hmwk to do over the wkend!!!

there are a few things this wk that make me happy :)
1) 2.4km run. hard work paid off, got an A *beams*
2) Maths quiz. i paid attention in class!!!
3) swimming

yeah. i feel very nostalgic and happy when some old friends reunite on friendster. tht is the most meaningful purpose of friendster, besides keeping in touch with more current friends. joyce..(what's her surname? :X) frm p4 found me...and wow, made me realise how long it's been and really glad she still rmbs me. i rmb that her chi name was huili. cos we had 2 joyce-s and 2 huili-s in class. This yr, i've also reunited with grace ng!!!! my best friend in p4!!! cute little girl, didnt change much, and indirectly found her back from grace tan. oh and pearl, my really really really ancient fren!!! knew her since p1, she lived in the same block as me (level 17!) and we took the same sch bus). and i hope to find my MOST ANCIENT BEST FRIEND. Yee Wan Lee. why do i say most ancient? i've known her since k1!!!! all the way to pri sch. and i still rmb incidents from kindergarten: every friday, we get to play at the playgrnd outside our pap, so we have to bringour water bottles. she didnt bring hers tht day and i offered to share mine but tcher said cannot...so she had to stay indoors. and in p2 or p3 i think, we secretly bought some soft drink...7 up? and shared it, then my mum saw and scolded me and said how unhygenic that was...hahahahah

i rmb a song by elva hsiao, that translates to be, 'life is circle, friends part and reunite'. indeed, indeed.

haha, actually JC is the time when lots of pri sch frens reunite...esp nanyang pri i think...going to JC is like reuniting with more than half of yr pri sch ppl!!!

Your Japanese Name Is...

Hoshiko Konjo

What's your Japanese Name?

today felt quite slack, bos lit tcher was not here, so we went to eat instd..and the lessons were relatively light, so time went by quite quickly. then during pe, our class had alrdy finished the 5 items while our partner class had not, so we were left alone to do our own stuff and we went gymming again! so fun! treadmill-ed and did some other stuff lah..haha, half serious, half playing
then slacked around in sch for a while b4 i went to town to meet rachel after she collected her cert. firstly we went topshop to see her legendary $108 bag...it's too big for me...so haha, didnt really like it, but she likes it..so oh well. then we went sasa on a perfume spraying frenzy!!! i have a big fetish for scents!!! then we jus smelt many stuff and when we think that we've tried too much (sas salesgirls keep following ppl arnd onez) , we jus sprayed our fave on ourselves (d&g light blue and gucci envy me) b4 we left..haha, so cheapskate rite? but hahah, damn fun.
THEN, we went to pig out at taka, she ate tako pachi, i ate her old addiction- pop-doh..alrite lah..hahah, maybe cos i dun really have a thing for doughnuts. and after we paced up and down, we made the final decision-- to buy venezia *YUM YUM* haha, so we shared a 2 scoop- a more economical decision. we had this...sth tht starts with G (hazelnut choc) and mint w choc...YUM! hahahha. we went forever 21 to look arnd and were amazed that their accessories were qt cheap!! like 7-9 bux! quite surprising
then finally amazing grace arrived so we went to PS and ate lah. took lotsa stupid photos. sadly, the "class outing" had only 5 ppl from our class + cat's bf....sighz...sad-ed. yeah, quite beat now...so gonna slp!

rained all afternoon today, so had 5 items for pft instd. not that bad after all! i would consider that as a breeze-thru. im amazed by my own sbj and ipu!! hahahah...now i jus have to run a b for 2.4 which is within expectation to get a gold! hmmmppph. not bad not bad! but i pulled a muscle during shuttle run :x

the frost 'assignment' was qt alrite...starting to see a lot of parallels and common themes among his poems BUT i got to carried away doing those parallel stuff that i forgor abt the rhyme scheme, rhyme scheme, RHYME SCHEME!!! argh..and it was the simplest of all times.the aabbccdd type argharghagr.

sth is playing a trick on me! i wasnt able to make it for dance nite..(after buying the tix stupidly) so i asked arnd to sell it. and now tht somebody needs it, i can actually go alrdy...ARGH..my dance nite....sigh...going for piano ensemb instd lah..their line up of songs quite gd

i think im quite a classic case of 'xiao shi liao liao da wei bi jia'. i guess i wasnt too bad in my studies when i was young....but sth happened along the way..and now i see ppl who might not have been as "bright" doing better than me..i feel stupid....why didnt i work hard enuf..tht kinda thing

i totally agree with rachel abt the no-life thing. i think im qt a no-lifer. i wish life was more interesting..like what i have in my mind for my future life........... i think i can be quite a loner....if u really really really know me well...u can tell that my life is only made up of a small grp of ppl, revolved arnd a few activities. and i depend on these heavily to make up what i deem as a life and what i feel i belong to. like my personality test...i really feel the need to belong to sth..and i guess now, i can only feel belonged to that grp of frens in class...yeah. outside that? nothing

Your #1 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you are very loyal. A good listener, you excel at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

Your #2 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

What's Your Personality Type?



different from the one we did in school last yr --ESTJ. but the S and J (sensing [vs intuitive], judgmental[vs perceptive]) stays. well, u tell me which one u think i suit most =)

reading "girl with a pearl earring" now...
rachel and i were talking abt job-hopping arnd the world! yes! someone who shares my sentiments! even though it may not be very practical, it is still my ultimate dream..on ah rachel?? hahah. yeah, and we have rather similar aspirations and situations...hmm...birthday twin indeed.

quite stressed out this wkend..and felt qt down in certain junctures. siiiiiiggghhhhzzzz. doesnt help that there are so many projects at hand and homewk and quizzes......

ever wondered why i named my site 'tranquility- the heart's angel' ?

angels. not seen, not heard. i think that tranquility is a hidden, transparent state of mind that everyone experiences and deep down inside of us, we feel this sense of peace, but we seldom take note of it or realise its existence. therefore, tranquility is our heart's angel -- residing in our hearts, yet not seen, not heard

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------quite tired today...went gymming with thiviya, grace, cat...and did treadmill. fun! i must say that running on treadmill is indeed nicer than running in the open/ on the tracks..how i wish that 2.4 run is on the treadmill!! (not hot 4pm suN!!) well, jas came back! so after PE, toked for a while with jas and felly. and hoho! a heavy downpour after days of humidity (check out grace's humidity indicator man!!) but i got caught in that heavy rain and got my back wet..in an attempt to protect my bag and its contents

if u havent realised, i am incorrigibly addicted to the net! i dun think i can not use the net for one day...even though the stuff i do are always the same (check blog, class blog, friendster, hotmail, occcasionally neopets) and they are not exactly essential...i still have to use the net...it's as if i need to feel a sense of assurance..i want to know if someone emailed me. i want to know if anyone tagged me, i want to know if anyone responded to the class blog entry...it's so weird. it's as if my life is wholly constituted by these stuff and there are not many other things that can preoccupy me.

there was qt a lot of hmwk for the wkend..but it went on qt well..kinda boring tho, nothing much happened this wkend except the mothers' day dinner for my grandma. yummy food!!!! cant wait for class outing to be confirmed!! miss the days when we went out for class dinner/ outing (which ends up being dinner anyway) nearly every wkend

sometimes i wonder if i should have quitted all my other ccas...cos now, i feel rather.....~floaty~ in that sense...having only one cca...no feeling of rootedness...somehow

SPIC yest was qt fun...but sadly, one home FORGOT to come..so we only had like abt 10 ppl...yeah. so after the games stalls were abandoned (which was pretty quick) the game stall masters hopped to the food stalls! yummy chwee kuay, chee cheong fan, popiah, etc. had lotsa fun rolling popiah. and the jap food ppl ran out of seaweed so they koped the popiah skin to make sushi...aww...didnt get to try. so yeah, it was all in all very fun!
but after everyone siam-ed, the comm had to stay back and do some post-mortem stuff, and suba, von n i just couldnt bear to throw away all the leftover food, which were in perfect condition..so we pigged out on leftovers, like tuna spread with crackers, and chee cheong fan, and pineapple (from the rojak stall).
enjoyed it, despite the disappointing turnout. had henna done on my hand too *beams*

i am THIS sad!!! i missed my Madam Butterfly tix (by sg lyric opera) jus becos i was contemplating whether i shud go for this or Rj dance nite (which unfortunately ran out!!) ARGH!!!! now the cheapest tix is like 68?? tell me who will sponsor me huh ? huh!!?? so never ever hesitate ok? DONT!

haha, emotional part over. well well...thinking back, this yr had a no. of failed ventures. council, music lessons, interact BOD, photog, piano ensemb...qt sad abt interact BOD...but oh well, i guess i jus dunno enough ppl to garner enuf votes. SPIC today was alrite..it is surely a BIG LOAD of me and yvonne's heart. sigh..the other schools' response was really....really...really...bad...that it became an intra club thing..which is gd! i know much more ppl now =)
it's really tiring to plan events..and i've spent the last few days staring at the comp, profusely emailing grp leaders, station masters, and forgetting to attach the files...



what am i good at?
this is as qn i've been thinking abt for qt sometime esp recently. music? no. studies? no. sports? no.art? no. craft?......maybe...

i really think that im not gd in any particular thing! i see so many ppl who excel in so many disciplines...or some who really are elite in a certain discipline tho they are not as gd in others...but still....

so, this is the end of ennaux. not among the nauxians, but as a grp. actually it died out quite some time ago...when there were only a few PRs like weishyuan, kaihong, zer, shuting. and after we transferred k'cove to the seminar rm after O2, it was basically surviving because of the 2nd intakers. and sadly, the SRs have been locked, and yeah, that's the end of ennaux i guess. been qt dependent on the nauxians, because i hadnt really wandered away to find frens in the morn in the canteen, but now there's no more kcove gathering, gotta find a class bench so that we can have some company in the morn.

i'm in a dilemma! shud i continue my music lessons? continue: cos i have alrdy done abt half a yr of dip and it's quite a waste to give up now!, don't continue: cos i dun intend to do it professionally and it will be waste of money if 1) i fail the exam (reg fee is sky high!!) 2) gotta redo again, waste lesson fees. im quite contented jus playing stuff i like and not playing songs because i HAVE to...yeah *shrugs*

there're 3 yes 3 !!!! birds slping on my hse tree today! there used to be one small one, abt 4-5 cm in diameter, but last wk, one that's abt 8 cm in diameter came along, and now it has brought its family!! it's really shocking to have 3!! birds in a go. click the link to find out which breed it is
http://www.naturia.per.sg/buloh/birds/Pycnonotus_goiavier.htm

today was fun! horoscope said its time for librans to have some fun niwae :) rachel brought her cam so we made glenn, weijie and jingheng do the "1-5 act cute series" video. hilarious!!!!!!!!! after school, we dropped by rachel's s'pore hse cos she wanted to collect her stuff to bring back to her m'sia home. and we did a lot of crap in her rm...uploaded the crap pics that we took in school and edited this monster boy boy pic..oh forgot to mention that we 'rescued' a blue advertisement cow!!! it was lying flat on the grass cos someone took the stick away...then we propped it up agnst a tree and took pics again...ahahahha

haha, in our sch, there's a pink cow (in LT1, says ms chen), and red cow and a blue cow! hilarious!!!!!! after doing crappy stuff in rachel's rm we went j8 to eat and took neoprints :) , yah, and walk arnd.

guess u can tell i had a gd day today!

Interact speech yest was weird..i dun like to make speeches!!! :x hope i can get BOD though. yeah..so far, SPIC's picking up, so i'm not that stressed alrdy. hmm, yeah. tmr's PE will be floorball!! rmb the days in rg where we all rush to the ball and anyhow hit even the ball had like rolled away.. hahah

glenn started singing...or rather screeching during geog lect today! the 'lonely' song..the front part is like some electronically edited type, so it's like some helium sound..hahah, then glenn tried to hit the high note! and obviously everyone looked at him lah...hahahahahhhhh so entertaining. i love mr a's GP and civics, cos we either 1) watch videos / movies (eg seinfeld) or 2) released early 3) free time 4) go canteen for ppls' bdays. so fun!

i'm damn stressed now!!! i have to prepare a 2 min speech for 'campaigning' for interact BOD. and i have absolutely nth to say! not experienced in making such speeches :x!!! argharghargh
damn stressed now and it totally doesnt help that my mum thinks i'm attitud-ing..i'm jus damn stressed HERE!!!!



vocal exploits was wonderful!! RI choir had improved qt a bit! tht explains their gold with honours. made me miss choir all over again! i can understand how they feel before the show, how they feel on the stage, how they feel trying to sing each song with perfection, the excitement running arnd backstage and the flowers and hugs after it all...i miss choir!!! the non-chorale squigs were all nostalgic. after the concert, was hanging arnd with iris waiting for her dad to come. and we were discussing all the 'scandals' hahaha. made wonderful discoveries on couples and all..hahah...2.5 'scandals'- we concluded-



*back to stressed mode*

1. Noone is tagging my board except rachel
2. Time is running out for interact SPIC
3. Lotsa work, little time...
4. Havent watched naruto for ages
5. No time for fave hobbies/ pastimes like craft..and reading...sighz


a. Interact nominee :) interview tmr



there u go, a more succinct way to summarise my week.

today qt fun too..this is gd! sch is fun everyday! hmm, grace chris n i enslaved weijie to carry our files...hahah, then rachel is called grilled chicken foldover and chris is pang sai pang buay chu de ren....LOLOL...cudnt stop luffing...cos tht's the only 'bad' hokkine phrase rachel noes...haha.
then for PE, iris came! we went to the dance studio then the tcher i/c came in...there were this 2 hc guys inside also..then the tcher scolded everyone for like bringing in non-dance ppl and security is a problem..da da. so when she went out to answer a call, iris and I dashed out from the other door...haha yeah...ahhah. excitement of the day

today was qt funny...hahah, rachel lah, do so many retarded stuff..hahah. like the free fall thing in the lift, and her long-gang song (tht grace has in her cam) it goes "i was born in a cardboard box in a longgang south of france"....hahahah, she's damn super amusing! yeah, she's still my slave for...4 more days, 3 tmr.

then had interact, then the rg girls started complaining how unfair the hse system is, cos they only use the ri hse name, like let's say mine's bayley-waddle, they only refer to bayley, so us feminists of rg said that we will not respond to bayley unless they say 'waddle'...hahahah

then went for service at MINDS...i love this girl.so cute! in my pre-sch class...actually ppl prob dun really noe (i didnt noe b4 as well) that MINDS is not just for kids with down syndrome, but also for kids with low IQ or intellectual disability, so many of them look perfectly normal, jus that they have difficulties learning, so yea, be nice to them! dun stigmatize, because we are blessed to be who we are, all they wish for is just a normal life.

noblesse oblige ( because we are blessed, we are obliged to give back to the world)

You scored as Iruka. You’re Iruka, the Ninja Academy teacher. You, my friend, are one of the kindest people there is. Sure, you can lose you temper from time to time – who wouldn’t, teaching those kids – but you have a heart of gold. You work hard and are always there when someone needs you, but you tend to worry a bit too much about those you love. Iruka 75% Neji 56% Naruto 56% Kakashi 56% Shikamaru 56% TenTen 50% Hinata 50% Rock Lee 50% Genma 38% Sasuke 25% Which Naruto ninja are you most like? created with QuizFarm.com

. [Spell your name backwards]: nixihz
2. [Where do you live?]: Singapore.
3. [Describe yourself in 2 words]: friendly, nice?
4. [Who is your worst enemy?]: none
5. [If you could have any animal, what would it be?]: a yorkshire/silky terrier/schnauzer
6. [What is the latest you've ever stayed up]: erm, not sleeping the entire nite till 11 the nxt day
7. [Ever been to Belgium?]: nope
8. [What's your favorite coin?]: ? all money welcome

DESCRIBE YOUR
9. [Wallet]: Black, flap...=)
10. [Hamster]: N.A.
11. [Toothbrush]: white
12. [Jewelry worn daily]: bits and pieces earrings
13. [Pillow cover]: brown checked
14. [Blanket]: brown, with a house,...sth liddat
15. [Coffee cup]: Nescafe red.
16. [Sunglasses]: na
17. [Evil]: ?
18. [Shoes]: some lousy sports shoes, falling apart..haha
19. [Handbag]: dorothy perkins, black, i like
20. [Favorite Shirt]: erm....dunno
21. [Favorite pants]: none in particular
22. [Cologne/Perfume]: fave--gucci envy me and D&G light blue
23. [CD in stereo right now]: WMP playlist..madonna, frozen
24. [Tattoos]: None.
25. [Piercings]: one on each ear
26. [Wearing]: esprit tee, black shorts
27. [Hair]: long, with fringe
28. [Glasses]: aerolite, reddish-brown color, rectangular
29. [In my mouth]: my tongue?
30. [In my head]: brain!
31. [Wishing]: to be a __________ _________ (only close frens will know) hahahah
32. [After this]:pack, sleep
33. [Talking to]: nobody
34. [Eating:] air..hahah
35. [Do you like candles]: Yup
36. [Do you like hot wax]: no...ermm..haha, brings back memories of interact camp...haha
37. [Do you like incense]: no comments
38. [Do you like the taste of blood]: nope...metallic...
39. [Fetishes]: scents, lipglosses
40. [If you could murder anyone and get away with it]: i wun murder
41. [Thing you wish you could be with right now]: money money money that's too superficial...well, nothing in particular
42. [What/Who is next to you]: homewk file
43. [What do you want done with your body when you die]: cremated? hafnt thot abt it
44. [Do you believe in love]: Yes.
45. [Do you believe in soul mates]: Yes.
46. [Do you believe in love at first sight]: not really
47. [Do you believe in Heaven]: Yes.
48. [Do you believe in forgiveness]: Yes.
49. [Do you believe in God/s]: Yes.
50. [Something that you wish people would understand]: My passion for _________ _______ (same as teh wishing one)
51. [Something you wish you could understand better]: how to be more self disciplined
52. [One thing you want to make happen for tomorrow]: great day ahead, everyone's happy

hrmph, our new class is quite alrite...yeah there are guys....like finally....and i'm sure elsie misses us lor...i mean, our class is such a fun bunch...SIGH...but life is definitely totally different without peeps like guni, felly, iris!!!!! soooo sad...i wish we nv had to change class, no JAE, no O's no 2nd intake........*BRR* i wud love to do sth like what grace did, write down my impression of everyone in the class....a bit lazy..ok, nxt entry yeah...

yah, today's council interview was !#*!(#&*(&*(! bad sighz....forget it....i am not too desperate for it too niwae, not like eg melody who's very serious abt it...i guess i am more of a follower in that sense...i am not some "revolutionary", initiating changes here and there, yeah, i guess im more of a receive order and do stuff person....i think? dunnoo.....

SIGH..tmr's lit lect no more Elizabeth the movie le....sad-ed. anyone wanna crash lit lect? robert frost totally rocks man...

*sarcasm...hope u can tell!

the past 2 days had been an emotional whirlwind for many ppl. i felt the struggle inside me, the reluctance to open up the reluctance to open my heart to sth i dun wanna accept, the reluctance to open my mouth and force myself to say sth that i cant bring myself to.

i wonder what gd things i've done in my past life to deserve such luck. twice...of the same situation. i got the call at abt 11+? really happy/speechless/grateful/glad (mixed feelings) that i cried...i mean....poor science stream ppl, qt a no. cant make it..prob cos science has a serious shortage of spaces lor....really really sad for iris...wonder what im gonna do without her....=(
hope she does well in ac, or her re-appeal works out, or our petition successful, etc. And shyuan, joyce, rai, eve, fadz, chinyee, all others out there, God bless!

readin amanda's blog reminds me of my theory of the intersection of life...yes the ZX theory =) ahhaha.
humph, 3 months really flew past. it's a really cliched thing to say but it really did. 3 months...can u believe it? how can it be? u seem to be able to rmb those first days of jan, and now it's apr soon. i think much of my current class will split up...i really love my class and OG. the ppl are all nice, (i hate to use this wd) and there are no bitchy ppl...tht's y i hope for our class to stay so much. i think i've said this b4...im a person who...doesnt really like changes that much...especially when i've settled down on sth, i dun like to change it..it's my comfort zone..in that sense.

but who says life stays still? it never does

went sentosa yest, didnt really tan much tho, cos by the time we went, it wasnt as hot. we kayaked!! finally, after missing it for 2 yrs since obs. it's a lifetime skill, i mean, it's a hard to forget skill..which is gd!

hmm, hols are finishing soon...real fast!

i want to live in a condo. there're pools, tennis courts, gym..so fun!

hmm..i miss those hyped up days in choir with crazy mindy..haha, she never fails to entertain me! but i hardly see her arnd in sch nowadays. hmm, occassionally i miss choir too..but oh well. sometimes i wonder how life would have been different if i had done sth differently or made a different decision on things...

today was a gd day :), well, besides civics...well, but all in all good. sam crashed, he looked much happier. gd for him! and, maths was good too. had quite a few laughs with iris..haha. and the Brunei princess came to tour our sch, there were ppl saying that maybe she wants to study here..since she's only 17....
oh, and we found out that 2...maybe 3 guys want to take geog..hahah, then we can finally be free of the reputation of having only one guy...AND, that elsie...sth wrong lor, dunno throw wat tantrum....
then GP was gd, watched 15. and released half an hour early! woo! that's y i say it's a happy day! there's a farewell dinner for jas tmr...sigh, life is all about arriving and departing...(sound like airport terminal...but niwae....)
hmm, last day of the term tmr...it's mar hol! can u believe it? the prev mar hols were nv so soon!! time flies by....

it's amazing how u get to know someone more and more isnt it? it's like...an exfoliating onion...u expose every layer, every facade of yourself to ppl around you, slowly showing the true you. it's amazing isnt it?? just that we nv really realise these things happening

Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

today was soooooooo amusing...*looks at iris* hahahhah. i think he will be very bothered..muahahah.

sighz, results coming out ...i hope its __ hahah =) secret thots

was jo's bday yest, and she scared me my pulling my leg, saying it was her bday that day, when i msged her at nite to tell her to come to kcove...phew....i thot it's real!! hahha, and i stupidly wrote happy 17 on her card...OOPS....hahah

quite a lot of loose ends to tie up for work this wkend. and i think there will be a last gathering for 1A03B, Jan- Feb 2005

everybody feels the jitters. as the speculated DATE draws near.

really love RJ...cant imagine life outside it. it has become my comfort zone. so is felly! she's my comfort zone too. if she changed class, i dunno...cant imagine who i can share my secrets with...till now, hafnt really found a person to truly deeply share my thots.
like eve said...she crashed vj, and she saw steph and xinyi......mentioned sth abt their back view. i miss the good old days! crap and craziness, noise, and childish games, pulling at the door not letting anyone in....shopping at popular,karen and her boisterous luffter. everything..

nothing can replace that ever, it retains its special place in my heart. cant quite say what it is...jus a special connection.

or am i the only one dwelling in the past, unable to get away while others move on?

the interact camp was quite fun! well, today was a bit boring..the talk part but all in all it was gd! the seniors showed us Shutter before the night walk. i must say the night walk is very well planned! but i guess we are all so used to stuff like that, so i wasnt that scared. yeah, then at nite, the fire alarm rang cos of short circuit but i never heard it at all!! i think i'm incredible manz...hahahha.

yeah, my grp had lotsa nice ppl, funny and not bad, quite on for all the stuff. and zi kai and his gay acts...hahaha. i think the skit really ended it off with a bang, esp our grp's one. poor bryan had to xi shen se xiang...hahahha, but he got a best actor award for that! (and nominated for best actress) it's damn fun ...and funny! cant help but keep luffing when i think abt it...and the zi kai and lloyd's luffter...wah.....i think it's prob the best skit ever...provided we came up with it in like abt 10 min or so.

haiz...fond memories man....
results coming out soon...depressing thing of the week..and next week...

but anyway, i am eagerly waiting for felly to be online...on tenterhooks now...we've got lotsa exciting secrets to share......muahahahh

kenneth left on tue, leaving our class with the sole male species, now converted into our dearest Elsie...hahah

well, makes me think about the 'intersection pt of life'. as we grow up, we meet many ppl. but how many continue to be part of ur life? how many of the hundreds of classmates u've had in your life continue to be frens? that's what i call the intersection of life. u meet someone, and it's like a touch and go. your lives lead u on to very different paths. never to meet or hear of each other again.

sigh. had to part with my piano tcher becos we cudnt see eye to eye on some issues. perhaps it was a bit rash. and it didnt end in an exactly amiable way. it's quite sad cos she's been teaching me for ten yrs and i really hate it to end like that.

thank you for your guidance these 10 yrs.

isnt it amazing how a word and a minute could change ur life? (and probably someone else's) a lot of what if-s. i suppose we all grow to a stage where we start to realise the importance of our every decision and we start seeing things differently as we did before. why must we have so many identities? one for school, one for home, one inside everyone of us.

sigh. now, it's abt another decision. what happens to my piano?

i wish we didn't have to make decisions. it hurts.