i think my classmate is sooooooo cuteeeeeee. his name is sCoooTTTyy

ok.. after the lit paper today things will start to get more intense. seriously, studying arts subs (exc. econs) are actually more therapeutic and bearable, then econs and maths. lit...i personally think it's q therapeutic lah. doesnt work your brain or strain your eyes tht much. hope my lit will turn out ok this time round. i love geog, im a tru blue geoger. i feel so happy studying geog...hahaha

my sister isl eaving in abt 7 hrs from now :( well, once again, i've gotten used to her being arnd. i think with her...its a love-hate relationship, but recently its been more love lah..haha

the thought of having to study more and more in the future totally puts me off. i wanna do sth fun, sth i like. the noise singapore launch would have been tmr..but i cant go :( :( :(

hahah! go read roland's blog..the "assuming song" is hilarious!!

hmm, well, today started off with me waking upearly!! like 7am!! haha, cos i wanted my dad to fetch me to sch, so i did a timed maths paper in the lib. i know that it's really much more efficient to wake up early, get a nice cuppa, and that will last me thru the day. but sorry...bed beckons! i will nv ever sacrifice my slp k!! except once in a while. spent abt 3 hrs at econs lesson and went for lunch and home.

AND i was on the same bus as the 156 paedo!! (yes it WAS bus 156) he is REALLY FULLTIME PSYCHO. i wonder wat's his other part time job... ok, so he was on the bus, and there were RI boys arnd, walking to j8, at the traffic lights, and he will crane his neck or lean forward to stare at those poor little boys(the way u scrutinise someone to see if hes someone noe), invading them with his sick and perverse mind.

*shudders*

because scotty chua is too lazy to get his own blogger acct, he's now using my acct. SO in any case his hand shud feel itchy and wanna blog STH FUNNY on MY blog...hmm, i guess u all can tell lah har. hahahha! but e ren xian gao zhuang, i alrdy posted on his blog..hahaha! ok, shall advertise his blog for him

www.orhkaybye.blogspot.com
(his link is under 'scotty' at the sidebar
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the footnote is still "posted by zhi xin" he shall be my split personality for now till we find sth mutually agreeable to put ( like kadcmd.HAHHAHA!!)

went ice skating with my sis yest and fell on my butt abt 5 times. i think i fell on my tailbone..still hurts a bit. her fren is a coach there! so she helped us a bit. i slacked off the whole of yest, watching 2 hrs of korean drama at nite after coming home frm ice skating and dinner.
yw mms-edme today to show me this very nice pair of earrings she made. i cant wait for exmas to be over! so much to do! so much fun! and the peak of my studying cycle is over...hai

after experiencing 9..close to 10 months of jc life, i've decided to sum it up in a few of my own ideas and thoughts abt it.

jc. a intermediate stage where we are exposed to the real world. little shelter, nobody there to push you to do work. self discipline, self preservation is needed. there are so many things happening arnd u, so many things u need to do, that sometimes its hard to find time to just be yourself, keeping the core of yourself intact.
as for friendships, i've come to a whole new level of understding about friendships this yr. it is not sth that can last forever. honestly, i dun believe in a 'friends forever' anymore. i have too many experiences on that. partly also cos i need someone who can share my thoughts and understd me deep down to call a gd friend. i've realised there is a need to constantly make the effort to reach out, to interact with old friends, who have been separated or taken out of your daily lives. i tried that, but it was only a one-off thing. and some experiences abt family love have also made me conclude that, indeed, nothing is more impt than one's family. not even friends. when u realise that the social world arnd u is peeled off, all you have left with you, or that's left supporting u thru, is ur family.

the day didnt start off so well. i had a bad dream...bad to the extent that i actually cried when i woke up... then was almost late if the bus had been slightly later.

lessons were alrite, breezed past with me not eating anth at all! hahah, so proud of myself. the MOST entertaining of all, the pinnacle of excitement, was when we carried out our well-planned ploy on some delusional girl. yes. sadly very delusional. i think i had the grtest laugh in ages! oh and uncle peanut, if you're reading this, mai ah ni beng ay sai bo?!?! *zips back to civilised tone*

ah well, spent some time at j8 and rach and yw and ooh, had a wonderful evening watching da chang jin. woohoo! damn nice!! but sth dangerous is gonna happen. oh well, feeling rather accomplished now! finally figured out my mkt str! and yeah, hopefully all goes well for printing pw tmr!

the life of a sad singaporean teenage student

wake up at 6
go school until 5
wait 2 hours for a non existent pe lesson
go home
study
dinner
a wee bit of tv
study
study
study
PW
sleep

can u believe it? my life is damn sad! hahah, the excitement of the day is actually playing along with these damn delusional girl. hahah, but it's really qt fun.
DIE PROMOS! DIE!!
(17 days to liberation)


i miss those days when i was the first to know, the first one you confide in

yay!! im so happy!! as rachel noes, i've been on a hello panda craze and today my dream came true. my family went to og orchard and they have this whole big section of nice jap and korean snacks. YUM! SOOOOO i grabbed a HUGE box of hello panda(with 10 indiv packs)! (chocolate of course!!) and im so happy with it now!!

ah well..sch's starting AGAIN. how dreadful. managed to plough thru mkt str and half of wages. i have an ominous feeling abt my econs though..hopefully maths and geog will turn out alrite.

yw rachel and i were discussing abt ways to earn money, i prob can do some writing for mags? if possible, and giving tuition (to like pri sch kids...easier..haha) and perhaps short term piano lessons. my bank acct balance is sad..really.

went for a buffet lunch at hotel phoenix with my sis's bf's family. the durian mousse cake was so yummy!!!! and the prata curry was gd too :)

today was relatively productive. finally ploughed thru mkt structure and sorted out my thots. and also pop geog. phew. a few more days to go. it's so near, yet still seems so far away (when u think abt all the grt things u wanna do after promos) i really cant wait anymore!!!

listening to : debussy's clair de lune

hmm, sometimes, i jus feel that little tinge of regret for not continuing in music. wonder how i would have turned out if i did. but, seriously lah, my music isnt that grt...but i think it was in sec 2 or 3, that i started to appreciate classical music. i feel that it is the earliest and purest form of music, and the wonders of it! ancient ppl with so much imagination to create such wonderful pieces.
i feel that this yr had been so hectic, time flying past so quickly that i didnt really have the time to indulge in the aesthetics, as much as i used to. i hardly sketched this yr, hardly went for any concerts, listening to new songs, etc. hai

back to studying. cant believe its a yr gone soon...and 1/2 of jc life too.

"Marlow is a dude who is going Africa to look for a cursed diamond, which, when he wears it, will grant him immortality"

that is rachel's take on "Heart of Darkness" which is not to be trusted. we were trying hard to read online summaries anda few pages of the book for the reading test. and thnks to the link that jy sent me, i was able to not make my paper totally empty.

hmm. spent the 2 hrs break fairly efficiently with grace. i think studying in the classrm is better than in the lib. the lib is too big, too distracting, too cold. yay managed to get my summary for econ geog done, left with a little section. and did section A of my maths tut! woohoo!! hope tht all days to come will be as productive.

there was absolutely not a soul at the pe dept/ pe area except for a trickle of us. sooo...since there was an exam going on in the hall, and there were no tchers and otehr students there, we assumed that there was no pe!

i think that quiz (look below) is rather accurate! hmm...

niwae, went thru econ geog and summed it up in a nice mindmap during tut today. well, im pretty comfortable with it, but seems like i gotta organise my notes (aka redo) according to the pts. im someone who 1) must have colourful notes. my sis's notes are all in pencil. but she's smart, period. 2) i must have the pts stated very clearly, im not those who can fish out pts among a lot of other pts. 3) even tho some ppl may think my note-making aint't effective, i just HAVE to write down the pts, tho it may seem like copying the whole txtbk.

ok let's see. i still have human geog, complex and differentiation, and term 3/4 econs to go. tht's the first round. there shall be another round the wk b4.


my sis had been pestering me to watch herbie: fully loaded with her for the past wk, so i've started calling her herbie. yes, finally she watched it today, and lo and behold! jus found out frm my dad that, herbie IS the name of that model of VW beetle. i thot it was jus tht particular one in the fully loaded movie. haha, pardon my apathy in the car genre.

You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time
alone but do like other people's company
sometimes. You just need your space. You have a
few priviledged friends who saw past your
colder exterior to find the true you. You can
have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to
admit it) so you could be soft one second then
storming around the next! But over all, you're
a very pleasant person once people take the
time to get to know you. You're a good friend
for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when
it comes to creative things.(If you can't see
the pics, go to my homepage and look near the
bottom and find your result)


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today's hc's MAF. i think its qt a meaningful thing, because even my sisters who are graduates frm several generations ago still go back every yr...i guess tht's the spirit and bond that rj lacks. everybody and everything's so sian. yeah..but oh well.

rachel! im proud of you! i admire your courage and bravery and determination in achieving the feat! hahaha

hmm, have been involved in this entertainment thing, courtesy to scotty. i think we're all qt mean, but oh well...its really really funny. shan't write more.

hmm. studying was gd today, stuck to my to-do-list, and qt productive i must say! but when i was making notes for slopes, i was wondering. who on earth cares about gilbert's hypothesis of soil creep and the Carson and Kirkby model !?!?! hai...too bad i chose geog. mind you, i do love geog, but it really gets kinda boring yeah? but it sure beats physics. hahha, biased opinion.

went to sch today for some pc session with mr ng. well, it was really loooonnnnggg...frm 10.30 to nearly 2pm. he touched on the braoder themes on frost, like boundaries between 2 opposing things and how the poet creates that space of boundary, that fine line between what's in our imagination or in reality.

then i RUSHED home for my da chang jin re-run cos i missed it last night. those of you out there who says da chang jin is an auntie show!!!! MIND YOU!!! it's not!! hahaha. its genuinely nice lah, i think it beats mediacorp dramas. in fact, i havent even watched a single mediacorp drama since...last yr? it jus repeats itself over and over again. more or less. i think the last one i watched was san shi feng yu lu (30 tumultous years) with huang bi ren, that was qt nice...i like those set in the olden days. like he shui shan!!! (Bukit Ho Swee) abt 2 yrs ago, with allan wu..hahah. i rmb when silver frm superstar sang this really duper old song frm some mediacorp drama abt 10 yrs ago, i cud recognise it!! its jus gets worse lah har...over the yrs, ppl run out of ideas.

yeah, so i shud zip back to work now. i will not make today another unproductive day.

woohoo...once again, i've experienced the wonder of retail therapy. feeling contented now :)

my sis is leaving on the 29th..when she first came back. it felt so weird that she's back cos i had been so used to the solitude. but now that i realise what a big part she plays in my life, its hard to part again. but oh well, at least i've experienced it. i hate the way time passes so quickly and we grow up so quickly. growing up brings along with it a lot of problems that we have to face, that we have to go thru and learn from (the hard way). i really miss sec sch days. all the girlish company, the great memories. the fun we had is inexplicable. i wish i can always be 16.



im so bothered...i dun think i did the right thing. i think im over-reacting, i think studying is making me mad.

i think that i think too much, not good. sometimes its better to be happy go lucky, and nth comes in your way, no thoughts on certain issues, take life as it comes. i wish i could do that.

dun u think that sometimes when things stop, activities end, life jus seems so empty.


you used to make me laugh

dun u sometimes wonder how life would have been like if u had made a different choice, or events had taken a different turn? and ppl wouldnt have entered or left your life? sometimes i wonder if i would have been better off in some other way than this. but i miss the ppl that left but i also treasure the ppl that came, though sometimes i feel as if they never happened before and it was jus like before. perhaps i would have been better off some other way. destiny. i believe all this will lead to sth meant for me.

met yw and rach yest for their anna sui makeover! so fun! yw's one was a whole pkg of hair and face with a complimentary photoshoot, while rach's one was lips but she had a free gift which was some whitening trial kit and a complmentary makeover voucher! and they were entitled to sweets and chocolates. haha, i entitled myself to the chocolates too..hahah, it was on a stick, like a lollipop. yum. b4 that we went to some fren's and his dad's blues prac/jam session with his dad's frens at tanglin cc. hmm, it wasnt what we expected it to be so we excused ourselves and went off. oh well.

so. we came to a conclusion that we need cash. rach slps and dreams abt cash.

im so disappointed by the superstar results! i supported kelly! i seriously think that junyang should have been the finalist. yeah, i would be fine with either junyang and kelly or junyang and xinhui. all 3 are fine. but dun u think kelly is really very superstar? her dressing and her style and her funkiness...i think she deserves it. but oh well, i suppose in the end, she wud turn out more successful cos shes prob mroe marketable in places like taiwan, etc etc.

now i understand why shopping is dubbed retail THERAPY. well, shall start with my day first

tchers' day celebs in sch today, but the 4 of us went to say hi to our ct and ran off..hahah! we went j8 for a mac's brkfast. on the way there, we met mm and her husband! my gdness! hahahah, phew she was in a gd mood. then i proceeded to taka coffeebean to wait for steph and xinyi to call. our class is pathetic lah!! everyone's so uninterested abt going back...budden again, the tchers i really wanna se are not there anymore (tan mt went scgs!!!!) yeah, so qt sad lah. so there were only 3 of us. we went to eat lunch after that, and toked abt crappy ppl in our classes/ schools and crappy tchers. then i went home,and i slept on the bus and overshot 2 stops and had to wait very long for the bus on the opp side to get home...gar.

my sis passed her driving test!

then my mum, sis and i went out to shop at far east. far east shoes are imported frm china, cos i saw this pair that was exactly like the one my sis bought when she went there..she bought for 6 sing..yeah. so we bought a nice cool denim bag!! (the longish, rectangular type. i really like bags of this shape) and a nice matt gold woven belt, and my mum got a shirt and a pair of shoes. my family works in a unconventional way. we dun get a fixed amt of allowance monthly, so we dun really buy things using our own allowance. besides, we share all our clothes, so we buy our clothes using our parents' money. gd :)

yeah, so now, im happy, and doing my trifo 2 rem ws. :)

im eliminating the studying of hydro 1 for the promos and will bank on geomor, which fortunately id one of my fave topics in geog.

HAI

trigo 2 has really escaped from me!! how!! i suddenly feel so weighed down and stressed.... so much work, so much to rmb. and when u realise u dunno sth, tht scramble to unravel the truth and be enlightened. why does studying seem like such a breeze to some ppl?

i think im really losing this tchers' day thing. the only tcher i genuinely wish to see again in rg would be mrs tan yh. but she's retired. she was such a motherly figure and she really made me understd chem and even like it! i felt like i had leapt frm 0 all the way up. the other tchers were impt to me and nice too, but those who left deep impressions were mrs tan and my pri sch tchers.

im getting broke again!! i had to draw on my surplus from past leftover allowances. now there's even a deficit..DANG!

rach was inspired by a human geog video that lee showed us, so yw, her and i headed down to j8 foodcourt and had teppanyaki! which i hadnt had in ages since the last time my mum ate the mushroom one (way back when i was still living in teck whye and we went to lot 1 all the time) and had food poisoning. yeah. it was qt nice, a little too spicy but oh well! i like chao da veg (but they're carcinogenic!!)

hmm, today is a totally unproductive day cos i came home abt 8 ( and missed my da chang jin!!) and went to my ah ma's hse. and once i came back i've started using the net.


it's qt tragic how this tchers' day things dies off? i rmb we used to go back to phpps every yr! even tho we jus stone there and nth to do, we were still physically there. then this yr, i bet everyone's gg back to sec sch (tho i dun hear of many 401 ppl who are interested...) and phpps is like, almost gone lah. :(

i think i've changed a bit this year, cos i have somehow decided that sometimes life's better if we care less abt considerations and watever holds u back

watched big fish jus now. it was gd! and i noticed the oompa loompa and the mum who coordinates dressing with her daughter in charlie, in the show. thought the show may seem very fantasical, i think the greater things behind the fantasy is meaningful.

i didnt do much today cos we went for dim sum lunch in the afternoon, then my mum and i went shopping at city link and raffles city. happy with the rewards :)

rach, i guess u're right! oh well...i have u to rely on! and p and y!! hahah. oh well

had s cube tok today..which was alrite lah. i like those saf videos though, qt inspiring and man, ain't their gadgets and gizmos cool! hahha, but NO WAY am i gonna enlist myself for ns. the rest of the tok was too ns based and it really didnt have much to do with the girls...i thot it wud be on national security or wat to do during emergency? i think tht wud be more useful and meaningful. well, but no matter what, im not one of those cynics who jus shrug off all these stuff as crap or sth. cos, im proud to be a singaporean and i think that its an amzing feat for a small nation to achieve so much in 40 yrs.

end of patrotic writings.

there's still about 5 more wks to promos and i have SO MUCH that i wanna do alrdy!! so below is a to do list and a to eat list that rach and i came up with

to do list
clear up my place!!!
compile my photo album
sew (y and i wanna sew our own bags!) and finish grace's cross stitch
read lotr and others
sketch!
plan THE birthday bash..hurhurhuhr

to- eat- at list
pepper lunch
yoshinoya! (our all time fave)
subway (cold cut!)
coca


why subway u ask, cos today theres was this "al fresco" thing in sch (which really wast al fresco at all, but its fun!) where they got subway and andersen's frm denmark ice crm to come down. didnt buy the ice crm but me rach and grace got subs. and they only had tuna while we were craving for our cold cuts...AWWW...hhah, tht's why its on the list.

i'm tired of trying and hoping. and i feel like i'm losing two at once. what was may not mean that much to you but it does to me. i feel like i dun need to be there. it doesnt matter even if i am. you may not think much abt it, you may not understand. it doesnt matter what you say cos you jus cant understand and actions speak louder than words.now i feel like i should just devote my energy to work, at least i can get something tangible something more fruitful out of it. what a tragic way to see things, but im losing it

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niwae had a wonderful time the past 2 days!! more slpovers (after promos) pls!! went swimming at scotty's and now my ear's stuck :( so after having much fun, its time to settle down and work hard for the promos! can't wait to plan me and rach's bday..it's gonna be double the fun since its a double bday!!!

im zoning in and out now - suffering frm major fatigue after last night and swimming this morning. reached home at about 4 and slept frm 5 - 6.30 and am going to slp rite now.. 10.03. sleeping late is baaaddd....messes ur body clock

hohohohohoho!!! exciting day coming up tmr! ive got 2 events back to back. how exciting! hhaha, i cant say anth else but exciting!!! hahahahah

today is a memorable day. hahah, our day of adventure. well, we were initially supposed to have a PW itnerview with the NEA person, but today, they're mtg students abt the plastic bags issue. We've been invited there, so we're techinically excused. So we jumped on tht fact and made use of it and went out. AND! everything was going our way! with mr q not there for econs, there's a grter incentive to leave sch riteaway. so we did, and we had mac's brkfast..which i hadnt had for qt some time. yum. then we went to town and went to slop arnd. at the better toy store, scotty and z actually started playing chess!!! like omg!! hahah, it was this giant sized chess set, qt cute. yeah, and there were so serious k..and the girls (yw, rach,me) started playing foosball. hoho! so fun. then, we went to watch land of the dead, which was m18. long story abt how we managed to get in, cos we had 2 valid ics tho none of us look like any of them. so rach n i went in first, cos the passes were female, and (after our plotting and scheming and coming up with many plans, we found out tht a door cud be opened frm inside the theatre and letting ppl frm outside in!!!!) and we managed to get scotty and zul in. it was qt thrilling! hhahaha, and later on we got g and c in too..hmm, wat delinquency!! ahaha. the movie's kinda crappy lah. i mean...hmm...haha, too lazy to say more.

there are only a few wonderful friends that come along in one's life. i thought i had found my wonderful friend, when things happen and distances me from __ .and sometimes..jus sometimes, i feel like im back to a square one, where somr colour seems to be drained away from my life. and im so glad that there are others arnd me to fill in my life and not make me feel so bad.

on a lighter note, today at the library was an hour well spent!! we had such a grreaaattt time luffing. it was qt empty today, when we went in during one of our 2 brks for mon. then lulu came and z came up with some funny idea of plotting to kill a certain somebody. omg...lulu's luffter is so infectious that yw and i cudnt stop luffing till our stomachs ached. then the old librarian came arnd our area to say, who are the 2 girls luffing so loudly, and we walked arnd to some pillar and pretended to be looking at some bks, then we escaped to the 2nd floor. well, then up there, we planned for yw's bday and we jus kept luffing cos yw makes ppl high! hahah. THEN somebody sneezed and z had to say "Bless YOu!" loudly and i jus cudnt hold it anymore!! hahaha, we were all so amused and high and happy we jus kept luffing. hmm. and isnt it wonderful that along with those luffters, maths qns are being completed! hahahah

went for a free concert - Beautiful Sunday, which is a series of free concerts at the esplanade- with my family. today's was the youth philharmonic winds (aka symphonic band). and i jus rediscovered the beauty of wind instruments. i always had a liking for strings, but oh well, i guess winds are really awesome too. who care abt crappy boybands, angsty lyrics and trashy tunes when ture music lies in all these wonderful instruments, waiting for the masters to create great music out of it?

have i said how grateful i am to have frens arnd me who are artistically-inclined, whether performing or fine arts.

went to sch to discuss pw and after that went to town for a while since rach didnt wanna go home so soon. so we went to visit the 4th level of taka, which is all the craft shops, like the book binders, the better art store (really cute stuff!! and toys for kids) and of cos! we went to art friends. superb!! WAY better than spotlight..hahah, but spotlight has the fabrics. hmm, yes, so we loved everything we saw, stencils, beads, painter's palettes, feathers, GEL WAX!! everything i've been so wanting to get when there was one outlet at bras basah. i got this charcoal pencil thing..makes one feel so pro when drawing with it. and there, i felt so glad that i have ppl like rach and yiwei arnd me to appreciate my passion and interest, and understand why i love craft SO MUCH. yiwei and i agreed that, if life wasnt abt money to keep surviving, we would jus take up some odd job and stay at home doing craft!
if i could ever do tht. i would first buy a sewing machine. i would be cross stitching, sewing pouches/ bags and clothes, making earrings and accessories, drawing and sketching, making little gifts like gel candles.
haha, tht's why i once had the idea of opening a handmade gifts shop, where i cvan transform my interest into cash.

life is never what u want it to be rite? doing what u love beats sitting in an office 24/5 staring at figures and squiggly words. dun waste ur life away

pls pls pls, let me be able to fulfill my wishes and pursue my passion one day

today was qt a high day, cos there was no geog lect, and we went to mac's to eat. and we luffed so much!! abt the freak show, and everything!! jus simply hilarious. oh! i must say, i found my spurt of motivation today!! and i made econs notes tht i had been planning to do since....sat!!? yeah, wonderful!!

GRACE. ALL THE THINGS I DO FOR U.

first, i decided to go for movie as well, so i cabbed down to town. AND after i reached cine, i had to walk back to lido to meet my DEAREST GRACE. when i went up the escalotor, u ppl went down. when i came down, u ppl went up.. GRACE ALL THE THINGS I DO FOR U!! and i get this!!! hahahahahhahahhaha

well, charlie and the chocolate factory was not bad! the oompa loompas were simply amusing. but, i think the story's a bit dark and morbid for a kid's story. but oh well, johnyy depp's really psychotic, but he acts well! hahah. not too bad i wld say.

sch's starting tmr. wat a pain in the neck

i think singapore can break a world record of having the most no. of people wearing red at the same time same place.

it's amazing how this patriotism works its way into our lives unconsciously! 99.999999% of the ppl at the padang actually bothered to wear red! i'm so proud of ourselves! the parade is really not tht great. plus the formations would have looked nicer from an aerial view, which means we might as well watch from home. HOWEVER. the aero-manouvres were unbeatable k!!! i think the coolest things were the airplane stunts and the fireworks! beats anything else! and enthu me actually waved the flag or tapped the tambourine as we were instructed to! hmm, a perfect case of successful NE. but, im seriously proud to be a Singaporean! well, the boring parts were jus the guards-of-honour and the uniformed grp stuff, and the song items. i think the national day songs are deproving. i can only rmb up to quan xin quan yi (by steph sun) which was..2 yrs back? nth can beat the gd old we are singapore or stand up for s'pore.

there were this 2 cute little girls sitting behind me and my sis, and they were so cute!!! they sang the national anthem SO loudly!! and they screamed when the fireworks came out. the younger told her dad that she was scared, and the dad said that if they were scared they can scream, so they screamed. SO CUTE!!!



encore'05. adrenalinerush.applause.spotlights.music.action. rgchoir, you're the best thing that happened to me. -- tht is xiumin, my jr's msn nick. SO TRUE.
somehow, i miss the feeling of being in a performing cca. jazz club! wait for me!!

my life is such a bore i seriously can die of boredom. plus the recent saga...hmm, i feel tht i need more things to happen in my life! doesnt help when ppl are abosorbed in their own world. and i feel like im back to a sqr one, feeling lonely again, doing things that i need to do but i dun really want to do.

maybe such a life is the gateway to the fun life? i dunno!! someone tell me. rescue my life from the grasps of boredom

i jus cant find that energy that i had during the jun hols to bring myself to do work. not to mention that my brain is alrdy saturated with info. im so worried for my CTs but my mind's not following my heart. and its doesnt help that PW SUCKS BIG TIME. i rmb the tarot cards reading told me to concentrate on my goal. but i jus cant find the energy to! help!

going for NDP tmr. but somehow, when u get to this age, the anticipation is gone. even though it has been yrs since the last NDP i attended, im jus not that interested in NDP alrdy. tho i do agree that the atmosphere makes one very patriotic. haha! well well, maybe it will change my mind? hahah

no it's not me!! it's someone arnd me!! hahah, and it STILL feels weird. kad, i wud rather u continue scotty-doesnt-know-ing rather than the _____ song HAHHA!! pls leave me alone!!!!

cleo!

wy, me and jas

naf!

jas, me bel, cleo, xinyi, eve, karen, taiwan girl christina, fy

jus got back frm fran's party. hmm, qt different frm what i thot it to be. it was like a wedding dinner..haha, like some tables, and a buffet dinner. then the ambience wasnt tht gd lah..ahha, i thot it wud be a stand arnd and interact thing. but oh well, then they started playing funny games...like "honey i love u will u smile for me pls" game. which was rather boring..so some of us made an escapade to the toilet. then there was a disco thing...and some ppl didnt dance lah, so it was kinda sad too...then ppl left for clubbing and what nots, and i guess it ended earlier than expected. oh well. but it was a great time to gather with the 401 darlings!

yesterday's concert ENCORE 05 was a BLAST!!! choir u really rocked the squiggles' socks!! we were commenting on how a lot of sec3s opened up , and realised tht sec 2 is a problematic yr and how all of them became so enthu. we were also wondering if we had been a bad comp and scared them or sth. cos...we rmbed...expelling ppl who weren't up to standard + attitude problem and also! cos ms loo didnt like them AND we didnt too. we were really mean! hahahah sharon mindy and i were luffing at the though of how we gave ppl different nicknames and how we were always in cahoots to do bad stuff...
I MISS SQUIGS!!oh , the musical WAS GREAT!!! the costumes and everythign, WONDERFUL! the plot and script and choreo all done by themselves was SUPERB! beats having a choreographer!! but the choral singing could be improved on!! i liked besame mucho!! so nice. oh and they shud stop gesturing too much with their hands cos it shud only be done during pracs..doesnt look too gd on stage

oh well...had a grt time catching up with the squigs and juniors. haiz. it felt grt to be able to sing the sch song again, and i think i ve nv cheered so happily b4. hmm, vei and i agree that, in rj, its a very professional relationship with frens but in rg its a family! plus choir is a very family-like cca and its jus feels so diff when u get to jc and things change..and thts y sometimes i feel i dun belong

hey..i posted the prev post b4 miao went thru this frost poem today with the same meaning.

today was qt fun lah! went to help my sis with make up for a musical called Pagoda Street, which runs frm tmr to sat. the lead actress is Rosalind Pho, qt pretty in real life! The esplanade backstage wasnt as impressive as i thot it would be. I think NUS UCC's is way better..hahah! and more spacious changing rms. (i especially love the waiting area behind the curtains, jus bordering the stage!!) yeah. but i was qt extra lah, cos obviously i dunno anth abt stage makeup, so i jus stodd there like an idiot, well managed to blush some cheeks. but tht's all! ahahah, oh, there were some RJ ppl invovled in the production, and i knew a couple of them..hahah. the backstage of the different theatres is connected i think. or a few of them. so we walked past the dim sum dollies' changing rms. oh and i saw tan kheng hua. haha, so i went down today purely for the fun of it.

looking fwd to concert on fri and party on sat!

i don't believe in a totally happy life. a life without sadness is artificial. i guess i am a person who has rather pessimistic thoughts and may even have a tendency towards..depression? but i believe in the optimistic things in life, believing in the simple joys of life, just simply enjoying the gift of life and our sheer existence. the world can never make everyone happy.



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it's scary what men are doing to ourselves. pollution, destroying environment, cruelty to nature, animals. what will the world be like in future? will it be like...minority report? how long will the world last?

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random passing thots. niwae, cleo is leaving on the 21st Aug, in the evening, all who noes cleo, pls do try to make it free tht evening (a Sunday) so that we can send her off!!

sch was alrite today, kinda dreary, esp during maths lect. it was intolerable!! i was feeling sooo tired and hungry. hmm, well, tennis was fun, sth to brighten up the day. i havent played tennis in ages, but it's fun cos we get to laugh at one another too..hahah.
hmm, so grace somehow became my "les partner" mind u im not les..hahaha.and a certain eviler was plotting some evil plot agnst grace by getting her drunk and then.... its too evil!

haiz..tagbd is down for several days and my right ear is losing its hearing power. haiz

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

how...my collapse free trial expired! so sad! hahah, i was playing happily..hahah, but i open and closed the windows a few time. DANG didnt noe tht counts. hahah, the thing is they dun allow anymore d/l on the same comp! hahaha

ok, i wanna make an amendment to an earlier post abt having superficial frens. they dun include those in a03b, k? hahah, i've been bugged by kad, so im changing my statement.

maybe i shouldnt have agreed to help my sister out with the makeup for this theatre production nxt wk, cos i have a few events nxt wk, namely choir concert and fran's party. i hope i can attend the party, i guess it wud be a gd time to catch up with old frens, and i guess its time for some fun before promos. hmm, toking abt promos, i seirously have never gotten back on track ever since after CTs. and tht is not positive. it doesnt help that pw sucks big time, and there's a new lit bk coming up which we have to read, so many overdue time mags to read, and so so so many things to do.

today is truly a blessing!! i met eve (whom i havent seen since mar) and jas and weishyuan (since mar too) in town after i went back to rg to see my beloved juniors!! the musical is qt gd and surely funny! i realise how much creative capacity we were given back then. ok, partly cos im not in a performing cca now. well, but i rmb those days when i was bored like them sitting there, waiting for instructions, wishing that things will end soon... oh well. u nv noe what u got till it's gone. but i think i miss choral music the most.
oh then just now, steph rang me to chat. oh man!! thnks so much for calling preethi!!it makes me feel so much better and it jus brings back memories of gd old 401 days.... we both agreed tht rgs was the best place ever and 401 was the most memorable thing ever. well, maybe im not alone abt the having few close frens in jc, and even then, are they jus superficial frens?

seem to have lost zhao ...dunno wat happened to her, but well, shall write to her soon niwae. time to catch up with old frens.

ok, i've been asked by kad to blog abt him cos its his bday. fine! happy bday kad, and u better be ncie to me from now on cos of all the privileges u enjoyed today frm me tolerating everything today!!! and u owe me my one yr's supply of godiva's chocolate!!!

i've been qt tired these few days, frm sleeping late and frm a bit of stress lah..hahah, cos work is building up and ive totally lost my studying momentum and im so scared abt my promos.... but nevertheless, there's always time for fun and play. i prob maxed my allowance this month ....argh!!

was listening to "I'll Hear Your Voice" and am missing squigs ALL OVER AGAIN. i cant even rmb my part for the song! maybe MAYBE, if squigs ever reunite to SING again, we really should hear our voices again! *breaks down*

school was qt fun today.
1) NO AFTERNOON PE!!! those pe slots after 3om were cancelled..i wonder why, but i dun really care!!

2)we threw jingheng's pencil box out of the window (onto the corridor) during PW. it was pretty darn funny! yiwei and i luffed till our stomachs ached. The funny thing was how the ppl gave us weird looks when the pencil box ended up i front of them!!

3)went out to j8 after sch and rach, chris and i betted on yiwei and dared her to do funny stuff at mac's. and she chose frm a range of acts, including, walking past a table and jus taking a fry frm someone's tray. hahah, the perfect chance came when a grp of lower sec ri boys walked in, with a bottle of root beer and rabbit swts (dun ask me why they have it). so we dared her to go and tell the boys "can i have some (root beer) and some sweets too?" HILARIOUS!!! omg...hahah, amazingly the boys let her take the drinks without much resistance but they said the swts were not meant for her.. hahahah. we cldnt stop luffing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

haha, after lessons we went to lib to study actually..how hardwking rite?? then we went to thai express for soft shell crab!! after deciding that it is very nice when grace ate it the last time. but the body was bitter and only the legs were nice and crispy. how disappointing..

haha, suddenly rmbed an incident. me zul and rach were walking behind this couple whom we know, then zul went AHEM very loudly and squeeezed thru them..hahah! hilraious!!!

wow, this is my 169th post, ever since i started blogging...hmm.

i have been relatively efficient today! accomplishing more than the past 2 wks. i've gotten back my lit paper, got a C for the whole sub. an A for robert frost (AMAZING RITE!!!), C for shakespeare, and E for pratical criticism. hmm, things look bright for frost..but i agree that it is not that hard to identify the theme and all, its all the writing. do you know how much i wished that AO chi is a core A level subject?? i will surely take A chi instd of lit. FOR SURE! i feel much more comfortable with chi and im sure it has a brighter future than my lit.. :(

oh well, my accomplishments for today-- econs essay part a) and maths remedial wksht. hey, provided that i came home at 4 + and slacked qt a bit, this is qt a feat. hahahha!

today in sch...hmm. mm took over gp so we had our last block off! woohoo~~ the happiest day ever. and amazingly mm is in a pretty gd mood today...hmmm

my song of the moment is sooo The Way You Look Tonight. Not long ago, it was Smooth Operator..hahah

i forgot to mention my thots abt the movie 8 women. hmm, grace and i both concluded that french women are very beautiful. not necessarily pretty, but they just exude a type of elegance. plus the nuances of their language...its just wonderful! and most of the time, they are just picture perfect, a black gown, a fur stole, curls, red lips, pearls, glass of wine in one hand, pipe in the other, deep intense eyes.

hmm, my pace of work can never be recovered ever since the CT's ended. i jus find myself being so extremely inefficient everyday, accomplishing so little everyday. and now, the wkends are voer AGAIN!!! why so fast!! why cant there be wkends that are 4 days long?

*to kad, yes, ur 4am wake up calls are GREATLY APPRECIATED! ahahahha!!!

went to collect my yrbk yest and wanted to go visit choir! but they had an ext conductor, so i didnt wanna disturb. how i miss hearing choral music!!!!!! its been ages since i;ve come into contact with choral music and singing classically :'( i miss it sooooo much.
then went to town and met up with grace, walked arnd a bit and then met my mum and sis.

today, had interact installation, reached there at 10 to help blow balloons and do a bit of decor...haiz, was bored stiff. i think majority of the interactors dun give a damn abt installation ...hahah, tho its meant to be sth very impt etc...its jus so different frm say....choir farewel party and handover. the size is comparable, but not that spirit and bond among one another.

nwiae, college day was in the morn, then jazz club was playing at the reception. was so nice!! inspires me to try for jazz nxt yr. hmm...

with mr ali in his china man costume, complete with a fan

class!

look wat evilers weijie and grace are doing to me!! :(

tada! costume change! this nice pink sari looks suspiciously like what i wore last yr...jus tht it was green...hmmm

me in tv's punjabi suit

weijie, me, grace, chris and rachel

photos galore!! coming up real soon, of rachila harmony day. well, i guess today was really qt fun and we won the best dressed thing cos ali asked our whole class to wear, so oh well, even tho we embarassed ourselves..having to go onstage, but its qt fun! but i think rhd in rg is MUCH better! the atmosphere is so much better.
hmm, so today was qt relaxed and lessons passed REALLY fast! hahah, and we watched a french movie for GP, called 8 women. its a very special plot, but with some issues of homosexuality and incest...HMM...oh well, today was fun!

i dun like this....argh.....sth is disturbing me and its not a solvable problem in the foresee-able future... :(

ah, well otherwise today was qt alrite. went out with grace to walk arnd and had NSW eng after tht. not very positive. my vocab and english terminology sucks big time. i seriously dunno all the preposition, nouns, pronouns, yada yada and half of the time i was guessing for the vocab qns. would rather have gone for badminton actually....

my hair has grown out so quickly! in jus 2 / 3 wks time. when it grows to a certain length, it starts to lose shape. hmm..

today has been a gd day! hahaha, well, the sch was flooded, and the amphi was almost turning into a lake. at the climax, the water was coming in in ripples and we attempted to create an isolated island of dry floor amidst the water. qt funny! i've nv ever seen a sch flood that badly. besides, there was also those potholes bobbing and spurting water and the steps frm the parade sq that formed a wonderful waterfall. time to think abt the sch's drainage!

went for vege talk after that. it was rather compelling! grace and i are affected to start a semi vege diet. there were 3 aspects-health, ethics and economics. health, well, we all noe that meat contains toxins and etc etc. then ethics. this was the most..compelling part. we watched a video on the slaughtering of the animals. VERY SAD. anyone who felt indifferent to that video is not human. for example, cows (even diary cows) are abused and used till they are old and dry and then they are hung upside down, their throats slit, and the blood left to flow till they die. this is cos if the blood remains in the body, the meat will turn bad. it is damn sad and gross. so well....since im not a big fan of meat...i guess i can maintain a fairly vegetarian diet. but i cant take it out of my life totally. hmm, and the economics part - 3 kilos of grain is used to feed 1 kilo of chicken , etc etc and it is very inefficient, esp if the grain and wheats etc can be used to feed many hungry ppl (forgot the figs) with a vege diet. so if we maintain a vege diet, even for a short period, we cut down the consumption of meat and we can save lives and prevent deaths from starvation!

photos make blogs interesting. i think my blog is qt a bore..hmm...but i have no nice pics..oh well

there was this random link at the msn messenger page, so i went to click it www2.meegos.com

it's so fun! but u've to pay to download the characters. u can go there and create a character with diff hairstyles, diff accessories, etc. its qt fun! hahah

i attempted to change my frenster pics but sadly, ive realised that my reserve of photos is qt pathetically small... hmm....shall aim to take more pics

my mum is going for a surgery to remove a foreign object in her uterus tmr. i guess it's times like that which really make ppl stop and think about love. parent-child love is invisible, and im not one who expresses such emotions often, so it takes events like this to really think thru it and realise how much love our parents have showered upon us. I can never give back the magnitude of love that my mum shows me. so what i..and we can do is to just show that little appreciation for all the little things that our parents do for us, give them more patience, throw less tantrums. mum, i love you.

argh..damn stressed abt EOM which is due tmr. i hate pw to the bones k....
hmm, service today was alrite, had to sort out some schedule stuff with the principal. so we will be embarking on a project to make use of old flower pots to decorate the school's old flower beds (empty now) so we will be painting them for the many many many sessions to come. i guess its quite fun too! but less interaction with the kids.

my sis is an absolute smarty pants. arghhhhh. studying seems like such a breeze to her!! i dun understand why!!!! so today, the svc grp were freaking out abt how near promos are, and how its gonna decide our fates for THE REST OF OUR LIVES. face it.

promos = S paper = Scholarship= overseas study =EVERYTHING

ZHI XIN IS GONNA MUG FOR HER PROMOS.
tht is it. my goal. so dun say im a mugger or a doot kia or ANTH! cos to achieve my goal, i have to sacrifice things. and i badly badly want to achieve my goal

hmm...got back most of our papers today. im fine with mine...within expectation, but (as always) there's rm for improvement. i hate getting back my maths papers cos there's SURELY sth that u cud have done or done better. tht kinda thing...oh well. everyone!! work hard for promos!!

went to town with grace cat and tv during our 2 hrs brk, and got back to pe late..but the tcher didnt seem to notice..hahah. nth significant today..jus tht our class starts to realise that we're hugely............problematic? i dunno wats the word for it lah..but i do agree. hmm. i think the most impt thing is to keep one's individuality amidst all other influences. can be really hard. but i guess, everyone needs to set out their goals clearly and not be wavered easily ( i cant promise i can do tht...but i do try to..) and things will turn out better :)

if i had the choice and if a career is not just abt money for survival, there would a gazillion things i would love to do. fashion design, jewelry design, costume design, cross stitch, handmaking cards, designing notebks (haha!), candle making, yadayada..the list goes on. as you can see, they are totally unrelated to calculations, theories and all other undesirable stuff (sadly those tht earn you the money). oh how i wish i can do those for all my life. can you imagine wasting your life away in an office? doing things you don't like? i hope you don't hear me complain about dreading to go to work, cos i dun wanna fall into the line where ppl jus do what they have to do. i wanna do what i LOVE TO do.

i think i seriously need some artistic indulgence. the one and only concert i've been to this yr is the rj chorale concert...which was like march???? and there was this burst of all the concerts in apr and may, and the times werent too convenient. and...nobody really informed me of other schs one...like the vj tsd one...argh! so the nxt concert im going will be rg choir.

my dad changed his phone to a nokia 7260! finally a camera phone in the hse!! hahah, we took funny pics of ourselves. cant wait for my 2 yr plan to be up so tht i can change to a phone with camera!

had install rehearse yest and the side gates fo rj AND ri were closed. its qt dumb cos sometimes the ri one is open lorr....and i think its not a very practical thing to do cos im sure there's a substantial no. of students who come by the backgate. perhaps they shud allocate opening times in the morn when ppl come for ccas. yeah, so 4 interact ppl were there and we decided to climb over the gate. after celebrating our success, a security guard came to reprimand us and threaten to show the principal the video frm the surveillance camera. then we jus walked for a while (supposedly follow him to see the principal) then he stopped and asked us why we did tht, who's our cca tcher etc etc. and he let us off in the end. we pretty much geussed it cos it was too much trouble. but oh well!!! but yeah lah, its a bad thing to do!

hmm...cant believe wkends pass so quickly. why why why why why? results shud be coming in this wk...so all the best to all.

whoo~ today was a rather nice day! except for sth/ somebody and this thing tht really disturbs me and i cant stop thinking abt it...hmmm

nwiae, PE today was supposed to be the IOC tok thing, which we alrdy had on tue, so our class joined a j2 class to play handball. alrite lah, qt fun. and i did sth damn silly! ahha, the ball was aiming for me and i stupidly dodged it! i must have been out of my mind for that one sec...hahahh!! so amused by myself! hmm, then priya, yiwei, lulu rach and i hung out at the canteen to cheng tng together! hahaha, and wj did this damn funny thing to lulu!!! the rest of us noe and we were luffing like mad, while lulu is still in the dark.................hahahha!!!! ok, so after cheng tng-ing, we spotted my magic fren sinyong (eh, sinyong! everybody claims to be ur best fren know...hahahha!!!!) and he did this super cool trick.

its called 3 card sth. so there are 2 black and 1 red cards. and for the finale, he folded the edge of the red card to let us see where the read card is moving, while he constantly changes the positions of the cards. THEN. LO AND BEHOLD! the red card (which we can see clearly from the folded edge) changed into a black card!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah, priya and yiwei were so traumatised tht they screamed!! hahah... well, it's qt impactful cos u really see it with ur own eyes so clearly....hahah, but oh well, magic is abt illusion and speed, so i guess the speed part really requires lots of practice. jia you sinyong!

today is qt a slack day in sch, witho no GP and no geog lect.

hmm, some ppl said some stuff tht hurt a little. not intentional i know, but it just did...but it set me thinking as well. abt who i am and what i want. do i want approval frm myself? frm my parents? my siblings? my friends? or am i someone who's jus simply living for myself?

i am grateful to be born into my family, a wonderful family (tho sometimes i think it is a little dysfunctional, our relationship with our relatives, and the silence and lack of communication bet me and my parents at times...), privileged and leading a comfortable life. But living in this family comes with loads of considerations and obligations. my sisters are ace students and there are things expected from me, academically. and I, being someone who understands the need to be elite ( in this elitist world) is inclined to conform to these expectations, not wanting to disappoint my parents or get into trouble with them. but i want to do so much more!! i want to have fun, i want to do all tht i've dreamt of doing. im qt a half-half person. half half in faith, in studies, in passion, in having and being fun. WHO AM I??? REALLY??

seriously i would rather be a person complete in one aspect than be myself, half half at everything and not complete at anything at all. that is a very pessimistic view of myself, but i think its true. im just hoping that sth gd will happen to me and i will not have to be so weighed down by considerations expectation obilgations and really be carefree, and do what i want.


tht sounds so out of reach

whoo..sch was alrite today. but having to go back for lit 2 hrs after the other lessons is just such a spoiler...and its not as if lit is sth so looked forward to. but mm was in qt a gd mood today. had a new tcher for PC and i guess he is equally nice as the prev one....yeah, and he actually he said he doesnt ppl not going for his lessons. hahah.
oh well, so yiwei, jy, chris, grace, rach and i went to j8 in an attempt to use up our 2 hrs quickly. i had $2 nuggets!! yum yummmm..hahhaha!! then we got back rather early, so we went to the lib and i borrowed les miserables. i rmbed i tried to read it once but failed. so i got the abridged version, hopefully, lighter too. :)

sch was tolerable.
grace and i had to wander arnd in the morn cos lt 2 was locked.
lit lect was fine, but she jus keeps repeating her pt.
i was pretty happy with the day, and qt slack at the start of PW. THEN that FRIGGING O.A had to be so duper nasty. HEELLOOO...we handed up our GPP to her and she didnt receive. AND HEEELLOOOO... i emailed her ages ago and she "didnt receive" i mean yah, of cos she wun lie abt not receiving but u shud hear the tone she was speaking in "u despicable typical students, trying to push the blame to technology, to email, the www and anyhooo". it was as if it was OUR fault she didnt receive. HELLOOOOOOO!!!! i am duper angry with her lah, cos NO, she hadnt returned us the GPP as she claimed she did. GRRRR


jus had to let some steam off.

the rest of the day was fine. went out to PS with tv, cat and grace and shopped a bit. and we ate mark's and spencer's dutch shortcake! 50cents for a piece of heaven baby! AND i have a new item on my bday wish list! i saw this roxy brown bag with some flower motifs. and i hinted to grace openly! ahahahah. yes, so tht goes rite to my wish list!!
PE was jus a slideshow on Olympics and its past & present. and it is indeed a very significant PE lesson cos it was zul and wj's FIRST EVER pe lesson..qt amusing...

qt stressed now actually. PW PW PW PW PW. and qing's not replying me abt the choir concert tiX tix tix tix. AND my hp bill is gonna shooooootttt like mad this month. AND AND AND my CTs are heading towards the deep ocean. AND AND AND AND AND im sleep deprived.

it's back to sch tmr....SIGHZ
chris and grace came over to my place for lunch and earrings making, qt fun! and we webcam-ed lulu..she's really damn funny! then chris had to meet up with her frens, so grace and i went on a date..hahhaha! we watched war of the worlds. hmm, i think its not bad lah! if u are not the type to be skeptical abt how fake and unrealistic the machines are. but i guess it makes us reflect if we're taking our existence on earth too much for granted. hmm...im rather freaked out by supernatural stuff, including these...yeah, so grace and i came out rather paranoid-ish..hahha, when we hear loud noises we will like...link it to those we hear in the movie..hahah. hmm, the part when the tentacle eye stretched into the basement...was qt scary lah. yep...and some parts were qt unrealistic as they always seem to be very super lucky. i mean they can afford to put in a few extras who manage to escape to safety also riiteee...

ok time to slp...oh i hate tuesdays in school!!!! argh..hope PE tmr is endurable...hope we do sth fun! like netball! tennis!

i cut my hair!! qt happy with it! it's much much much shorter..i think my previous ponytail was at least 5 times longer than now. but it's a refreshing change! and its nice to feel the breeze in your hair! haha, long heavy hair cant give that effect. shall be shocking many ppl in sch on tue..hahah
i lvoe life now! so carefree, can do anth i want without getting nagged at. hmm...im looking forward to...2 events. hurhur..shall not say it here :) hmm, cant wait to see my choir juniors!! (LISA!!! XIUMIN!! GEET!! JACQ!!) hahah, sorry a bit biased..but really these are my fave jrs. hmm, like my previous post...i really miss choir sometimes....aww :'(

CTs didnt end on a very positive note....my PC paper kinda sucked..but oh well, time to play to our hearts' content! walked orchard rd up and down in search of grt bargains...hahah, and affected grace and chris to make earrings too..they're coming to my hse on monday for an earring making session!

niwae, if u're interested in haute couture, pls go to www.dior.com and click fashion - women - channels- live and check out their ready to wear fall/ winter, AND check out their evening wear... GORGEOUS!!!! and their denim series is soooooooo niiiiicccceeeeeee

am listening to "i'll hear your voice" and am MISSING SQUIGS!!!!!!!! and im losing this whole choir thingyy.....and squigs oh squigs...how i miss our time together! we're really slack huh..hahah, we dun even care abt preparing the alumni item like we wanted last time...qt sad, and also cos we're really busy lah, and separated :( i think we should prepare a comeback and sing our "i'll hear your voice again"

yay, CTs are almost over..tmr is Lit paper 8, which is unseen, so there's nth to study actually... IM SO SAD abt my maths!! im sure i cud have done better, but its jus the there and then situation ya noe.....oh weellll....overall i have very bad vibes abt CTs, and GOSH!! i need help in finding back my motivation and self discipline!!!!!!!!!! and i must have less distractions (tht's hard) ...

oh oh oh!! grace jus told me that she and rachel splurged at the zara sale!! arrghhh!! here i come!! zara and mango sales are apparently qt lovely! hahah

i noe..i am not supposed to be here rite now...but i will get back to geog in a while.

first, complain abt econs. the DRQ is really hard. totally diff frm wat u see in TYS lah.....sighz..i calculated that i prob will jus pass only. but i guess im prepared to not do well for overall CTs. haiz...really wonder why studying seems to be such a breeze for some ppl...i wanna study overseas leh..but i dunno..there's jus sth wrong with the way i study i suppose..

second, m'sia!!! my cute lil cousin is finally talking more, but we think that his tongue's too short, so his pronunciation kinda warped. and next, shopping was helluva grt time!! much more productive than shopping in Sg, always comforting to noe ure spending in RM! u noe my msn nick? haha, im serious. my sis and i both concluded that our shopping (digging thru piles) at the mango sale was crazy..hahahh!!!

as you can tell, i was qt bored in the afternoon, so went to do a lot of quizzes...those 2 are qt accurate lah..hahha. hmm, they've got nice picturesssss!!!

about an hr ago, i jus realised how little time i have to study econs, cos i'll be going msia frm fri-sun = no time for last min. chionging of econs. so, i finished revising a few topics. *phew* proud of myself man!! i cant believe sch's starting...budden, looking at the terrible life of' wanna play cannot play, mus study' mode of this hols....i think going to sch also seems more fun. hmm...i have no comments abt my CTs..i think everybody xin li you shu abt how they will fare for it lah...and i know mine too....SIGH...

Your element is Water. You have a calm aura around
you and are in tune with the world around. You
observe it but rarely interfere. Because of
your shy and timid nature you will not have so
many friends in your life. But then again,
large crowds aren't your thing anyway. You are
comfortable on your own and are reserved to
others who you don't know or know very little
of. You know everyone out there does not want
to be your friend, and knowing that is good.
However, people who don't know you that well
thinks that you are cold and distant since you
don't want to talk to them. Although you mean
no harm, you can't always be perfectly
understood in the world. No one can. Life in
general are you quite serene with even if there
are some things you don't like. Your love-life
is not so full of boys/girls, but if you
flirted more with the ones you were interested
in I'm sure something would happen. The hobbies
you choose are calmer ones, you are no party
girl that likes to drink and make-out with
three or more guys/girls in one night. Reading
a book or swimming is more your thing. Rate and
message!


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The Goddess of Ice and Hope. You are a creative
wonder. Always calm and collected, you hold the
awe of many people and you are exceptionally
logical. You are an inspirational beauty.


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finally i've been able to get back all my songs frm my sis' laptop...the netwk was problematic when she was overseas. can u imagine living one yr withour ur dearest playlist??? but sadly, i cant find the very exotic songs tht cant be found easily on the net....SIGH....AND AND!! do u rmb the nice DBS ad, the wedding and all, with the nice song "life is beautiful" and amazingly, windows media player identified the song frm this album by Tony Bennett. for those ppl who know what im blabbering abt, pls do check that guy out....it took me so long to find tht song!!

well well, but im not someone who has to survive by music lah. my radio is nv on...so...yeah

im so grateful to xiumin for letting me bleargh out all my thots on my frenships and jc life..which is kinda pessimistic. hmm, had a funny dream last nite...sth like i was shopping in topshop/ mango..cant rmb, then they were extremely over-staffed tht day, and when i was on my way to the fitting rm, i saw this big grp of staff wearing white top and black bottom, and i saw xinyi and steph!! haha, its really weird~~~ haha, then they had some sale for tht speciifc time sth liddat, so a lot of ppl flooded in....qt a weird drm..

sometimes, life is happier if we are not held down by considerations. i guess i am someone who is very concerned abt consequences and how ppl or things will react if i do sth. but i realised frm ppl arnd me, that, really, sometimes life is much better if there werent so much to care abt.

haiz.......it's so weird to have my sister back at home again. it's like familiar..cos she's been arnd for the past 16 yrs, yet unfamiliar, cos i'm so used to life without her ( and so very used to and enjoy! the solitude). well well, gd thing is, she brought home nice clothes, shoes, stuff, belgian choc!!!!!. but also her old bad habits..hahah. well, i guess she misses the freedom she enjoys there as well.

was cleo's bday yest, so we had a dinner party for her. and actually it was just her ac frens, so the rg frens were the 'surprise'. qt little ppl turn up frm the rg side...but well, gd enough to immerse in the much missed 401-atmosphere. everyone misses 401 and rg soooo soooo soooo sooo badly~ haha, steph, karen and xinyi's much missed craziness..and there was talk abt having a beach (or is it bitch!) party (pts to steph and steph alone!!) for the 401 ppl!!!

Your IQ Is 115

Your Logical Intelligence is Above Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Exceptional Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional Your General Knowledge is Exceptional

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hahahahaha! im flattered!

haha, i did a lot of the blogthings tht i found on steph's blogs. the bday date one is really qt true!!! :S haahah. had interact bbq today, well, i mus frankly say that....i dun have much close frens in interact, and most frenships...acquaintanceship are extremely shallow. tht's also why i wanted to go down today, to know more ppl ya noe. i really feel qt left out cos the ppl im close to are 1) not there today 2) have their own grp of closer frens
and i seriously feel tht i dun belong when there were times tht i had to jus walk abt, or try to occupy myself with rich's mum's babysit-ees...so cute!! well, yeah. these days i am really pushed into the state of thinking abt my friendships, past and present..which is qt pessimistic. present ones are qt alrite, but tht's becos of a common environment- sch, stuff and ppl. but once tht changes, things are diff! i have a perfect eg. for tht, but im not saying names :( haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Your Expression Number is 6

You have an outstanding sense of responsibility, love, and balance. You are helpful and inclined to comfort those in need. You have many artistic and creative talents, but you only use them to better others. You are loving, friendly, and appreciative of others. You have a depth of understanding that produces much kindness and generosity. Openness and honesty are apparent in your approach to all relationships. Sometimes, you can be too demanding of yourself. At times, you tend to sacrifice yourself for the welfare of others. At other times, you have trouble distinguishing between helping and interfering.

What's Your Expression Number?

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen Or lend a shoulder to cry on You're there through thick and thin Many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

Your Birthdate: October 17

Your birth on the 17th day of the month suggests that you are very lucky financially, because this date indicates a solid business sense. Although you are probably very honest and ethical, this birthday enables you to be shrewd and successful in the world of business and commercial enterprise. You have excellent organizational, managerial, and administrative capabilities enabling you to handle large projects and significant amounts of money with relative ease. You are ambitious and highly goal-oriented, although you may be better at starting projects than you are at finishing them. A sensitivity in your nature, often repressed below the surface of awareness, makes it hard to give or receive affection.

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( the last 2 paragraphs are so SUPER DUPER TRUE!!!!!!!!!)

i think im drifting from old friends. its sad to know that you are still clinging on to memories when u see that others have moved on. and i jus keep qning myself, who really, are those true friends (cos there seem to be none..except one..) and i cant help but think abt what will happen to my friends now.

just watched 'eternal sunshine' on scv...yeah, its nice. its a very special movie, as in the techniques, the way the story is told, in a very weird chronology. but yeah. the title comes from a quote by Alexander Pope:

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;

it's abt innocence, which i do greatly miss. wouldnt it be nice (cadbury!) if we were back to innocent childhood days? no worries~

haiz, trying to get down to serious studying today..yep. on tue, we had an interact day camp for children frm whispering hearts day care centre. oh gdness!! how noisy can they get!! and i bet all interacters have hailed lynn to be the mother of interact, while rich is the father!! just look at how they handle those kids!!! making them enthu (well, it's ncie to hear them cheering so loudly! it's been long since we've heard or done sth like tht) , and making them obey instructions. i take my hats off to them! weren't we relieved when they all were finally packed off in a bus! and someone said "well, at least i learnt sth. i'll never open a childcare centre!!!!" hahahah

yest was my mum's bday. had econs lesson in the morning in a freezing seminar rm..till abt 1 pm..yeah, then came home to watch a movie on HBO, and then went out with my mum to meet my sis and dad for her bday dinner. ate A LOT! had buffet at hotel inter-continental (bugis) and...well, just ate a lot. but it was qt yummy!

niwae, spking of HBO, those of u who have it at home, pls do watch 'the last samurai' its niiiccceee...and there's 'eternal sunshine on the spotless mind' too! how gd can cable tv get!


oh yeah, rachel and i made a pact to create nice long wish lists for our bday, and also a bday bash plan! hahah . here goes my wish list
-Bond's first CD (Born) or Third (Classified)
-Phantom of the Opera music score..perhaps? ahhah
(a violiN!! haha, qt impossible )