this is rather overdue, but i shall just post up the pics from chris' bday dinner at giraffe

with the birthday girl!

grace, i know you are hungry again!






the birthday 'cake' which is actually just 3 brownies put together, which we stuffed ourselves silly with!! it was too much! even had to play zhongjimima to get rid of it. giraffe served fusion food...but i felt the menu was a qt limited (after eliminating pastas) and im not too crazy about fusion food lah. The reservation was slightly screwed up SO...ALL the starters we ordered were ON THE HSE!! you should have seen the drop jaws - omg expressions and followed by the plan to rip them off and ordering more than half of the starters on the menu!! i think we ate more than 50 bucks worth of starters! ( the soft shell crab was mmmm....!)

what's an a03b event without some silly pictures!


compare and contrast


yum! says eunice



this is WACKY.
when will grace and rachel stop killing each other!




thank you chris, you're legal!

sch is such a bore/drag/pain that i dun even have anything to talk about when u ask me about sch. sigh! wat am i looking fwd to now....is...pirates 2!! <3<3 captain sparrow!!. besides this, nothing else at all. really.

i watched pirates of the caribbean on channel 5 and i gotta say that i adore johnny depp and his role!! i guess he kinda has a rep for taking up quirky roles, like willy wonka in charlie and the chocolate factory, so capt jack sparrow is one of them. but he suits it sooooo well!! being that tipsy nutshell of a pirate..he's so hilarious! i read the life! report on pirates having a 3rd installment and how depp says he cant separate his role from his life anymore. he just grows into the character i think. i shall make him one of my fave actors, though he seems a little eccentric in person. he's characterises the role so well that u can't think of anyone else being that character. ok. after all that, i wanna watch dead man's chest!!

fyi, my last movie is STTILLLL memoirs of a geisha. omg. that's so long ago. rmb last time in sec 2 how i used to skip so many choir sessions and watch movie almost everytime i skip with em. that burnt my pockets but well, yeah. just as a comparison to my movie-going frequency now. ahha

just realised that aaron eckhart ( did i spell correctly?) is acting in Thank You for Smoking! He's hot! haha, watched this other show by him called Suspect Zero, a few yrs back i think and it was a nice one, psycho thriller.

was watching the england-portugal match last nite and i knew grace was gonna be up watching c ronaldo. ahha, but anyway, last nite's matches were kinda exciting huh, powerhses meeting powerhses. and brazil is out!! was qt shocked cos they're a hot favourite huh?

anyway, i simply ADORE this life of slacking around and having too much time kinda feeling. SHIOK!

cts are over but why am i not happy at all. I wonder....

anyway, was reading the STOMP blog, and they were discussing the recent courtesy survey about people holding doors for you or thanking other people who do that for you. i do agree that singapore is not a very graceful society. why? i have no idea. is it an asian culture thing? is it because singaporeans are too selfish to simply care? (because all we've been taught since young boils down to "be kiasu! dun share! if you share u cant win!" no? and that competition in sch that makes us so selfish and perhaps narrow minded in a way?) i mean isnt it like reflex action to jus hold the door a bit longer for the next person? and it doesnt take your whole dignity and pride to thank someone right?

and about the service thing, i think sometimes we should just give them a break. i mean just think about it, if you're in the service industry and u meet a damn unreasonable person, does it give her/him any reason to abuse you with words? i think that "customer is always right" thing is so wrong. i know i can never be in the service industry cos i will just black face ppl who think im a dog who has to comply to their every demand. so, seriously, they are human too right? yeah some have attitude prob but still, don't be unreasonable. it's jus like maid abuse. cant you simply treat your maid as a HUMAN BEING? like a fren? you know how the chinese saying goes "ren zhi chu, xing ben shan". it says that we, humans, start out with a pure and kind heart, which i believe in. it is because of how other things that happen to you mould you to another person, perhaps to retaliate and save yourself. say the maids, if you treat them well from the start, they're most prob gonna give you respect, but if you dont even give them the respect that human beings deserve, why should they give you that?

IMSONIA. STILL UP 6 HRS BEFORE THE MATHS PAPER.

tell ME abt it.

I HATE STUDYINGGGGGGGG.

even though i have stuck my butt to this same chair for most of the past month. i still don't think there's enough in my brain to write a flourishing 5 page essay for lit geog OR econs. i REALLY hate studying. what's the pt huh huh huh!!!! how can i save the world by doing a thousand calculations on DE or integration or AP/GP and summation??!? (ok at this pt i realise that the other subs i study are pretty relevant to real life so no complaints)

BUT

i didnt even have time to enjoy the once a year GSS KILL ME PLS. hahaha. ok, i so wanna shop after nxt wk.

i hate studying and i desperately need to burn some fats.

Janice's fault for making me do all these! hahah

You Are 32% Selfish

In general, you are a very giving person who treats others very well. But at times, you insist on getting your way - when it matters most to you.

How Selfish Are You?

one whole chunk from 3 questions. and some do have some truth

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as driven and ambitious. Overall, your true self is engaging and outgoing. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situation, you seem like you're oblivious to the stress.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

i take back my word about being housewives. cos i totally adore my mum's lifestyle

we've whizzed thru so much maths this yr that i find myself asking. how do i do DE or power series? bad sign? totally

i cut my hair and this hairdress ALWAYS cuts more than i ask her to. so 8cm chopped off :( hahah, i gre to that length in half a yr k...so now i've to wait another half a yr to get it that long. but ah well, i usu am not sad abt cutting hair cos it will grow back anyway. ok, the pt is, when i was there, i thought of my 5th weird thing (if you dunno wat i'm toking abt, go back 3, 4 entries)

5th weird thing: whenever i go to the haridresser's, there will be this sudden muscle constriction on my right back. like my kidney area. ahha. it's as if my hair fears being manhandled by hairdressers or sth. then i will jerk. i used to think maybe cos i was just a kid and scared of strangers of sth, but it still happens. and i will never know why that happens. hmm..weird huh.

after the past two days of low mental activity (class cip and prep) it's a little hard to get back the previous concentration span/level i had. yest was qt fun lah. ahha, the kids werent as havoc as expected. though we had heaps of waffles left to eat, and rachel was happily making her waffle sandwich for everyone. we also made a very special waffle sandwich for jingheng! (happy bday!) will get pics from chris to post. it had toothpicks for candles and was nicely decorated with chocolate, strawberry and sugar syrup, chocolate rice and raisins and milk. haha, im sure he had a great time.

So. i've finally watched the hard gay video that everyone's talking abt. ITS SO HILARIOUS!!!! find more of his videos ar youtube!! its soooo hilarious!!

[Bakafish] Hard Gay Ramen English Subtitles

this is something i will be doing post A's, so you're welcome to join with me if you're interested! it's basically an extension of interact in schools and a junior version of the rotary, thus the name rotaract!


The Rotaract Club of Singapore CIty was officially installed on 28th May 2006 by our Guest-of-Honour Rtn. Zahidi Rahman (the incoming Chairperson of the SNG Committee). We are currently 30 members strong with about 10 more choosing to be 'Friends of Rotaract' owing to their other commitments. Our target membership is 60 official Rotaractors and your participation is crucial if we are to meet our target.

Here're the answers to some FAQ you might find useful!

"why join the rotaract club?
it's an avenue to do community service and a platform for ppl interested in community service but do not know how to go about it. infrastructure, funding, organisation is ALL IN PLACE. all you have to do is sign up and turn up. very easy :) also since it's 'service through fellowship' there's got to be some fun involved. if it's all work everyone will burn out and it's also about getting to know like-minded individuals so there is the area of self-development that rotaract hopes to pursue. professional development involves organising courses for the rotaractors like etiquette class, interview skills, personal grooming, tea session with various professionals as a form of career guidance, cooking class for rotaractors about to go abroad to study etc. many many plans in the pipelines, just waiting to see indication of interests.

what rotaract does
the rotaract club of singapore city has chosen to adopt the assisi home and hospice at thomson road. assisi is a hospice for terminally-ill cancer patients and rotaractors will be 1) volunteering in the wards on saturdays 2) helping raise funds for the home 3) organising mini-projects for the patients' benefit. the point of adopting a charity rather than concentrating solely on adhoc projects for various charities is that it allows for continuity and when you work closely with an organisation, you are better able to meet its needs. besides monetary contributions, assisi also needs volunteers' time because the nurses are already working round the clock and patients need more than medical care. assis currently has a 'teddy bank' project going on where donors buy a $10 green teddy bank designed by one of the child patients. rotaractors can help sell the bears to family and friends to raise funds. the mini-projects vary on a monthly basis. can be anything from just turning up in full-force and spending 1:1 time with the patients for an hour one evening to caroling in the wards at christmas. i've also volunteered our services to other volunteer organisations as manpower so they'll call us if they need help running their projects.

a little bit about me (lest you think it's some fly-by-night club :P)
i'm a j3 waiting to read law at NUS, starting august. will continue with my Rotaract commitments for the rest of the Rotaract year though! i was chairperson of the rjc interact club in j2 and that's how i know the rotarian advisor who asked me to take-over the rotaract club of singapore city (it's a 40yr old club but the previous leadership has been stagnant for 2yrs and they got kicked out and replaced :() personally volunteered with assisi since i was 15, helping out in the fundraising sector before moving over to the wards this yr (you need to be 18 before you can volunteer in the wards). i am also volunteering at the MINDS employment centre at margaret drive where intellectually disabled (ID) adults are employed to clean SIA headphones / do simple arts and crafts and give tuition to underprivileged children at the children's society student care centre in bukit merah."

Hope this give you a better idea about Rotaract. Again, could I please trouble you to forward this to your members and do ask them to email me if they're interested in joining Rotaract upon graduation from Interact.

Thank you!

Warmest Regards,
Joanna Joy Tan
President of the Rotaract Club of Singapore City
Immediate Past President of the RJC Interact Club

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 6 weird facts/things/habits about yourself, saying who tagged you. In the end you need to choose the 5 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs.


1) habit: im a coffee addict. big time. trying to substitute it with tehpeng. if i dun get my daily fix, i will feel really terrible at like 9am in the morning.

2) habit: if i want to get something in a day. i MUST plan. or i will probably end up whiling all the time away. that doesnt mean i will stick to it closely ahha. but at least its a guide of what i needa complete.

3) thing: i think my family is pretty dysfunctional. on the whole its jus like a normal family but when certain issues arise, can start to see the cracks. and my extended family too. i never know how it feels to play / grow up with my cousins (the other half of the cousins are in msia and small)

4) thing: i have tons of secrets or things that i hide away haha

5) i will add on when i think of one.

ok, i dunno who has interesting things to say but JANICE haha. and i will help her full in one of the 5 items!! Janice has hmm..some weird fetish/interests. haha.

sigh, so the us econs trip ppl are on their way. how fun! so, i've still never gone on a sch overseas trip before (while my p4 cousin is going China with teh sch. p4 leh!! wat was i doing in p4 man!!). but i chose to stay to study for CTs i guess, cos i really need the time, plus i've been to the exact spots in us during 03. man. sch trips must be damn fun. and the batam cip trip too.. sigh

my dad likes watching da chang jin too. he says its educational. hahha, but im sure he enjoys the drama and all! it's gonna be one of my post-A's to do - rewatching da chang jin! muhahah. speakng of k-dramas. there was this time i wacthed on CNA on tvmobile abt the bae yong jun wax figurine in some museum and aunties were CRYING over that!! mind you THEY WERE CRYING. its madness u noe!! someone pls save them! what's so great abt bae yong jun! he is such a bad choice lah, aunties!! mediocre acting, mediocre looks (some say ugly). haha, well, i personally think that guy in Full House is damn shuai hahah (not Rain!). but not like im going to kiss and hug his wax figurine if there's gonna be one right. i think they needa wake up from their delusion lah. hahha

i was watching a documentary on discovery called "End Day". it depicted 4 different scenarios that scientists predict the world will end in 1) a mega tsunami 2) a meteor hits earth 3) a flu pandemic 4) a particulate accelerator experiment that might create a black hole effect.

well, the first 3 are supposed to be "the qn is not whether it will happen, but simply when" while the last is just imagination and sci-fi stuff. i didnt like how the tsunami one only depicted the effects on US East Coast. too small a scale to be "doomsday". hahha, if sth is a doomsday, it should affect the whole world. like the earth exploding frm its core or sth. i thot 2 was what i would believe most in ( did u noe that tiny meteorites hit the earth all the time but they get burnt out while penetrating the atmosphere and thus becomes the dust that settles on your table?) and 3 is the most relevant to current situations. i dunno abt you, but if i know doomsday was coming and i prob wun be able to escape, i will just wait for my death, i wun attempt to run or hide or anth, because its not gonna be very nice being one of the survivors and seeing the bleak world arnd u huh? i guess u'd rather be dead then too.

i kinda like sci-fi hahah, and the simulations and CGI in the docu was good! haha, anyway, it just shows how unpredictable nature is huh? the tsunami one had this scientist saying that such an event had occurred throughout geological time (its supposed to happen because this volcanic island erupted and split into half, and the impact will cause giant waves), and is not gonna stop just because we exist on earth. so true. and makes us feel so very small huh. speaking of nature, i think she has been extremely unkind to Indonesia! Earthquake, tsunami, volcano, earthquake again. leave indon alone for now, there's too much tragedy there!

went for the True Hearts cip farewell. and one of the mentees gave me this balloon :) well, i spent a very short time there but it was a pretty nice feeling knowing how they appreciate my presence. it's tuition for normal tech students and to us it's a very different kind of scenario. they are sec 3 and still learning simult. eqns. to us its lik second instincts rite, but i gues i've come to apprec that my surroundings and my friends are only a very small part of the world we live in, and that there are lots of people out there with lifestyles/environments vastly different from ours and it would be extremely narrow minded to only concentrate and dwell on our own little bubble.

finally the holidays are here. im happy because NO MORE 6AM MORNINGS!!!!!!!! (plus my mum is getting more lenient abt my wake up time ahha) that's the best of the hols. and to look on the bright side, i finally have time to sit down and study proper (provided if im well discplined and can sit still and wait for the info to enter my brain thru osmosis). but duh, who likes studying!

i not stupid too is so depressingmpared to the first one! but i guess it does portray truths about lives we cant comprehend or never experienced before.

we watched a very depressing video during physical geog today. basically, it talked about this 2 climatic phenomena - global warming and global dimming (this caused the ethiopian famine), and how pollution is the main culprit behind them. despite the decrease in pollution in certain countries, the inability for us to remove CO2 in the air (which comes from burning coal etc for energy) will worsen global warming. and it's jus a vicious cycle- the world will become hotter and hotter, the ice caps melt, plants cant grow, ppl die of famine, etc etc. you must watch the video yourself (which is very nicely filled with horror movie- worthy music) and you will come out depressed. btw, the effects will hit in by 30-4o yrs, so don't think it doesnt affect you. recycle and save electricity!

what started out to be an attempt to do my lit PC essay has turned out to be a terrible failure cos i have NO REMOTE IDEA on how to start my essay, or what im supposed to write.

Had learning journey today to the Ford Factory (at hillview there). it was not too bad, pretty interesting exhibits, but the thing is, the only photo that i took throughout the whole thing was this display of banana notes


hahah, just wasnt in the "take picture take picture" mood i guess. and there was a pathetically small no. of ppl who turned up. oh, at the end of the gallery there was this comments board, and there was this note, prob left by a kid that said "i am so proud to see my ah gong's id here!" how interesting right! OH and there was this SUPER AMUSING part about how ACS' canteen used to face these "holiday houses" where the Europeans hung out prob as resorts or sth (cant rmb) AND the women would SUN BATHE (was it in the nude!!?!- i think so!) so the teachers and prefects had to hmm...keep the order. oh, and outside the gallery there was this pretty intersting tic tac toe machine thing that would ask u qns from the info u can get from the exhibits.
then we proceeded to Al Azhar for some prata and milo dinosaur. ah well, i guess some of the food there is a bit overrated? but milo dinosaur is so nice :)

oh and i am so in love with magnum ice cream! the chocolate coating is just OUT OF THIS WORLD! oh can someone who watched lost tell me about the thing between Shannon and Sayeed? i missed abt one or two episodes and am completely lost. haha, bad pun.

went for chorale concert today and PUNCH wa SOOOOOOOO hilarious. last year was the bobbing bombay and this year is some mushroom thing. man, how can they be so funny!! ok, so everytime i go for a choir concert, its largely nostalgia and not so much of aesthetic enjoyment for me. ahah but i must say, bonkie's solo rocks!! i was like "that's nice" and trying to trace whose lips that came from.

so, i've gone for 3 concerts in the span of about 3 wks, and thanks to Dad who picked me up all the time, so willingly :). was looking fwd to learning journey but since only 10 will be turning up..(that's like half of the class alrdy) i guess it wouldnt be so fun after all. am looking fwd to the prata. ahaha.

yest when we were walking to VCH, we saw this DAAAMMMNNN CUTE kitty!! i dun often say cats are cute cos i think they look slightly scary, unless they are the persian damn fat type with round round eyes. but NIWAE, this kitty is an exception. it was alone, at the roadside!! so poor thing!! i so wanted to carry it but scared it would scratch me or sth. sigh..mum...i want a pet!!!!!

supposed to do some econs presentation thing, but im super distracted now.

audrey hepburn is really not THAT pretty see this but it's her whole image that's oh-so classy. oh and i cant wait to watch da vinci code!! kinda feel like reading the bk again, to refresh my memory. but anyway, i think ian mckellen is acting as the sir teabing right? i think he suits the role a lot..i'd have imagined him to be that character niwae. he's so flexible right! he can be both evil and nice old men. haha

yay! i survived SATs!! have a pretty good feeling abt it. ALL THANKS TO THE COFFEE!!! i really cant think properly if i cant stay awake. then came home and did nothing andthen went out for dance nite. the whole city hall was flooded by rj lah. and i crown chris the queen of city hall. ahha, cos im very unfamiliar with that area so she's the one navigating arnd. thnks!

niwae, dance nite was good! there's a reason why it gets sold out every year. and the dancers are flexible like anything, they can kick their legs up so high like nobody's business. haha

i REALLY love the fashion of the 1930s and 40s. the women in wide-brimmed hats, gloves, pipe in hand, french chic; poofy gowns with cinched waist, fur, always pearls. i think its the era when femininity was celebrated, women take comfort in being women, the idea of luxury, extravagance for women seemed to have blossomed then

this is what i mean

how exciting! polling day tmr. if there was a rally near my area, i would prob have gone. it's pretty interesting how ppl actually cheer so loudly and are so enthusiastic abt it, shud be quite fun to go lah. hope glenn got to go for one today so he can tell me all about it on monday.

sigh im taking my SATs tmr. and i've armed myself with a can of coffee (those that u can buy in sch) cos i think that amt is just right, and enough to keep me up for the desired no. of hours. gosh. i hope i do better than the previous one or it'd be just wasting my time money effort and brain cells.

all the best to me

i really should get down to doing some work. bead shopping had been really wonderful! and rach shen's display pic of strawberries and yoghurt is just making me SO hungry.

What breed of dog are you?

http://web.tickle.com/dog/

Yorkshire Terrier
No bones about it, you're a social, bustling Yorkshire Terrier. Active and enthusiastic, Yorkies like you have a ton of energy — which means you're probably always running around like a mad dog. You're never without a project to work on, an errand to run, or a party to catch. (Where do you find the time?) You're a chatty little pup, too — talking is one of your favorite pastimes. That's why all your friends and acquaintances see you as their own personal Entertainment Tonight and rely on you for the latest gossip and social bulletins. You always liven up a dinner party or cocktail gathering, and people simply adore your affectionate nature and get-up-and-go eagerness. Woof!


Ooh, i turned out to be one of my fave dogs, though it's not very accurate! HAHHA. really wouldnt mind being one in my next life.

have i told you i love xiumin? HAHAH. xiumin if you're reading this, you're the bomb! ahhaha. she's my very blur/naive/funny junior, who's so gullible k. yesterday i msged her before the jazz concert to ask what flower she likes, and since i got her a rose last year, this yr i'd get sth different for her. i told her im gonna get her bougainvilla (however u spell that) and later i asked rachel to help me tell her she saw me carrying bougainvilla. and this dear little (blur) girl believed it k! HEY, im not so cheapskate k!! and anyway, she's one pro pianist k, but anyway, she's my favouritest junior! i know i can talk to her anytime abt anything!

im qt sad abt letting my piano go. i mean im of course jus a microscopically-skilled pianist (haha, that's why i quit piano ensemb) but if i had continued my lessons i could have been better than now. now when im busy, practising piano is the first to go off my schedule and i've neglected it for really long. i used to think i wanted to be a musician. hahah, how bu zi liang li.

seeing rach prep for jazz concert jus makes me miss choir more and more. the hype, the anxiety, the excitement, the last rehearsal rush, the relief, the PCB (post concert blues).

sigh

was reading about the girl joan chan on today's papers and was thinking that despite all these things we do everyday, life just simply boils down to just staying alive, being able to wake up every morning. are you actually grateful for being to wake up everyday? i plan my schedule for many days or weeks but what if i cant even wake up tmr? in fact, the less you know about the world, the less smart you are, the less things you have to be unhappy about. that's what i think.

i think friendster is so retarded. i keep refreshing and refreshing and it doesnt update. sch's fine. boring as usual. im gonna bring my colour pencils on monday to keep me thru the double lit lessons with colouring! that was my favourite activity since young k. when my mum went for some english lessons, she brought me along and i coloured in a corner. oh, yest rach and i went to j8 for lunch and o our way back to sch, we passed by this pasar malam at the j8 bus terminal. really cheap and entertaining stuff! like, she bought this pink tin slide box that contains cartoon plasters, for $1.5!! they sell for much more elsewhere, like at mini toons or sth. and i bought 3 A4 size sheets of winnie the pooh stickers for ONE BUCK. ONE BUCK. how many things on earth can you buy at one dollar nowadays man. AND there was wrapping paper for 10cents a piece if you buy 5! that's like DIRT CHEAP. its no gd quality but buy for the kick right, and it will come to be of use one day (that's my motto)

hai. this wk jus flew past again, and it's abt 5 weeks or so to end of term. THAT'S BAD. VERY VERY BAD. im trying to not use the net for like one or two days a wk. but my mum is very bad. she keeps asking me to check if my sis is online and i'll jus end up netting again. i need to lock the power switch or sth. math is qt a mess. lit is a rush. i've no remote idea why they wanna put themselves (and us) thru this cos they cud have jus completed last yr's bks quicker. geog is pretty rushed too. once again, i NEED TIME to sit down and consolidate everything. it's damn scary. A's. i kinda wish i will forever be at sec3/j1 - way better than not knowing why you slog for certain things in j2

Your Birthdate: October 17

You tend to find yourself lucky - both in business and in life. And while being wealthy is nice, you enjoy sharing your abundance with others. You put your luck to good use: you are very ambitious and goal oriented. Often times, you get over excited and take on more than you can manage. Your strength: Your ability to make your own luck Your weakness: Thinking you can do it all Your power color: Bronze Your power symbol: Half Moon Your power month: August

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?


This is SOO true

i really love madonna's songs. frm her new album i mean. last dec, i was SO in love with Hung Up cos its damn catchy! and i kept humming it and my sis was SO close to pummeling me k. and her other song, Sorry is really nice too. wat genre is this? i've no idea how to classify all these.

i watch MTV pretty often now, since this nice 7pm show on cable disappeared. and i was absolutely high when they played sorry and pump it back to back hahaha. i like!

anyway, the philo presentation is over! i spent the whole wkend immersing in Plato Plato and Plato. and also, we've finished the last NAPFA in our whole life last wk!! a milestone indeed, so this wk onwards shud be games :)

sigh. i really hate jc life. only occasional bouts of happiness. why? because i feel like everything we do is for the 4As 2Ds and a flying testimonial. why? why on earth must we immerse ourselves in this? have u ever stopped and wondered what u do all the math, science, memorising, mugging for? when we do question our purpose on earth, it will jus boil down to
birth - study study study study study- work work work work work work work - retire- die. ( i mean dun ur parents ans ur "why must i go to sch" question by saying "so you can get a good job next time" -- and what abt getting a gd job? to get a lot of money to retire? yeah yeah, contribute to society and all, but it's jus such an impersonal thing...very selfish here, but that's what i think)

that's what humans do on earth.

sad isnt it? and if you do actually stop and question and see the seeming lack of direction or greater purpose (to me at least!) i think one can get pretty pessimistic. all our daily joys and endeavours are so micro as compared to ur whole life span, which is summarised by what i listed out above.

humans are sad. in my nxt life, i wanna be a pet dog- loved and taken care of, no need to think about how to ace my exam or what schools to attend or what to work as or how to get a promotion. -woof-

had a career talk in the morn, and it just sets me into that melancholic mood. its such a damn hassle to do all the apps for schs and scholarships, that sometimes i will wonder, why put myself through all this torture? but if i dun try one day i might regret. GOSH. i've said a thousand times before how im really torn right through the center when it comes to THE future. if only everyone could have what they wanted.

its scary. CT2 is coming. ok, i've lotsa things to do after A's!!
-sewing lessons!
-dance lessons
-baking with my mum
-get a job!!!
-major cleaning up
-travelling!
-learn to drive! (omg! it feels so surreal!)
-learn the violin! (if i've the financial support)
-shop! (this is a constant lah. it happens anytime, anyday, anywhere)
-join rotaract

it'd be nice to take a gap yr to jus complete everything i wanna do. and after that yr i'd have learnt how to do so many stuff and will probably be a much more satisfied and wholesome person. ah well..not very practical to my parents i guess, taking a gap yr.

shall add on to that list the moment i think of more things i wanna do

i was watching jue dui superband on channel u jus now, and i thought that ppl should be more self-aware. i mean, it's nice that they really really have the passion for sth, and that they are courageous enough, and proactive enough to try to achieve sth for themselves. but some are jus...really....... u get the idea.

i've been SUPER unproductive today. so i hope to start gearing up over this wkend, since there's the gd friday brk as well. i really really need to kick the habit of netting daily!!! niwae, jus some random things.
when i get a dog in future, it will be either a
1) yorkshire terrier
2) small breed pomeranian (last time we went to my dad's colleague's hse during cny, and he had many dogs. one was a small breed pom, and it was pretty old alrdy but stillv ery small sized. and it was OH SO CUUUTTEEE)
3) schnauzer( last wk i saw this SUPPPERRRR cute schnauzer..prob lost its way or sth, then this maid took out a broom to chase it away cos it was early morn and it kept barking at the hse-i think there were dogs in that hse. it ran away super fast, so when i reached it, i tried to offer it food..haha, hmm, the only food i had was clorets mint AHHA then it stared at me with eyes that were covered behind its long fur. OMG SO CUTE CANNNNNN)
4) welsh terrier (i like terriers! so cute!)

well mostly i like small dogs but i think golden retrievers are really cute too! and olde english sheepdogs! (the ici dulux dog!!!)


mum!! i want a doggie!!!

so, cat's bday dinner was at hilton, and it was pretty fun, and there were very amusing games too. the food was good but i couldnt eat much and i regret that. after that some of us went to cocco latte and took some silly shots.



jingheng, my employee, is sulking. ahha


"welcome to our second home!"

haha, this must be my favourite shot of the night! grace chris and i were bored so we went downstairs to LV ahha. no lah, it was closed.


whoar, action eh! ahah, hope grace doesnt punch me liddat for posting this.




more silly shots of grace

sigh. so the fun's over and its time to study again. damn.

It was ORA in the morning. and qt glad we're all made to participate in it, cos it'll be my last..as a student at least. i am SO SAD that we couldnt go into the haunted hse!!! the queue was how long..sigh, but since the proceeds goes to a gd cause, shall jus take it as a donation. but am pretty curious abt what they planned. the food fair was alright lah, yes it was bustling but the space allocated was jus too damn small! so rach and i filled our tummies there, and i got pestered by my interact juniors to buy their drinks hahaha. still rmb in sec 4, our stall selling popiah and kueh paiti. so fun!!

waited for Rproject to start. bought VIP tix, so we had a VIP reception ( which was really not that bad) where they served snacks like fruit tarts and other finger food. The ruggers helped out with the ushering and all and roland was like the headwaiter. hahahah. and there were other interesting roles like VIP bouncer ( hahah) and crowd control. interesting..
well, the show itself was O...K.... i think that london and milan were the best, thought there were a few crappy ones. and the tokyo one was so hilarious! but i guess it's qt an interesting concept lah huh.

Cat's bday dinner was fun, and it was one of the very few occassions our class gets together. hahah, not to forget sin yong's wonderful magic tricks ( i have the bent 50 cent coin!) and scotty's sexy dance, and the 18 roses dance. pretty amusing. will upload some pics soon. the food was good too (duh!)
so, the long awaited night finally came and went and we'd have to find solace in our pile of work.

SIGH

i guess i will end my school life without having gone for an overseas trip with the sch :( hahah, it's so fun to go on trips with frens! rmb the trip choir planned to italy or sth? ( with debbie's 40 pg proposal which squeezed in "educational" purposes to appease the school authority) that didnt work out. sec 3 geog trip to m'sia? my class only had two ppl who wanted to go so nobody frm my class was chosen. rmb last yr's shanghai trip? cant rmb why i didnt wanna go..oh, i think my mum said sth like we'll prob be going there soon for a family hol. last dec there was laos trip with interact (which i'd really love to go....) but my family was going on hol(not complaining!). AND this yr, i have to give the econs trip a miss cos i'd been to the exact same places ( except the schs, etc) 2 yrs ago. SIGH. my pri 5 cousin is going to nanjing with the sch. P 5 leh!! when i was p5...wat was i doing? oh, i was a prefect standing at the queue of the noodle stall to "maintain order". hahahha. i rmb interact bod saying sth abt some CIP trip in june this yr. i WILL go, if its not too long! and during CV elective, my grp member siang ee, who's in chorale and interact also, was talking abt all the places that chorale went to! finland! and planning to go to czech- prague, etc etc. DAMN AM I JEALOUS. and when i heard that i REALLY regretted not joining chorale. hahaha. but sometimes i enjoy the slack life i have now.

u noe its so ironic that rg choristers dun join rj chorale? i mean our junior batch has ZERO rg choir girls. but that jus shows how irreplaceable rg choir is eh :) oh, there was one time my mum was suggesting selling my choir gown to garang guni. and i was like NOOOO. i mean, my mum is a no-fuss person, she jus throws things away like noone's business, as long as she doesnt wanna see them arnd. but i like to keep stuff, cos every single one of them means sth to me! and furthermore my choir gown!?!? that's like 4 yrs (and a lifetime) of memories man.

sigh. i HAVE to complain how expensive school is! i jus busted 36 bucks the prev weeks on 2 frigging lit bks. it's an expensive sub to take i tell u...we've bought 6 bks. do the math urself. AND our THICK BOOK of geog notes. in the morn we had jus paid $10 class funds each and it was gone in an hour, all to our dear geog notes. the notes usu amt to abt 200 + for the class. ANOTHER expensive (BUT NICE) subject. sigh money money. how rach and i wish money grow on trees eh? so when i wanna buy sth, i will jus say, "oh sure, i can fetch some from my backyard!" scientists, pls do ur resrch now.

econs s is driving me nuts! im like cracking my brain trying to understd the passage. niwae, have discovered many interesting sites to browse through, like online spree sites at lj etc etc. nice things to look at and while time away.

sometimes i wish i could be less ambitious, and just be someone who's easily satisfied. like graduate, find a job. full stop. but that's not what i want out of my life. it's weird to think how ppl can go to their office/ shop watever, day in day out. that's it. and that will carry one for the nxt few decades or sth. im not a stationary person, i need to be constantly on the move, i need to find new things to do, to see, sth that injects excitement into my daily routine. such wishes bring about lots of pain, when u one day realise its all not possible. but i will strive.

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got this off waffles' blog. interesting huh

FINALLY I GET HOLD OF THE COMPUTER.

my sis has been using it THE WHOLE DAY for the past few days doing some project, while i jus aimlessly lurk arnd the room, flipping through very overdue magazines and friday weekly newspapers (which my parents still order so that i wun forget chinese). damn sian.

ok, so on fri, we went out after PC half wandering aimlessly, half looking for cat's present. then i saw my choir juniors LISSAAAAA. she's sec 3 leh, cant believe it. and she's like my ht now. fyi, she looks like this:

so incredible chubby! hahaha. and some other juniors (oops i cant rmb their names!) were there. they have some learning journey thing, in place of elearning, so they have a few excursions within that wk and no lessons.
then, we proceeded to chinatown! im SO SO SOOOOOO bored of town. i've been there for the past 3 days, consecutive!! argh. chinatown - BEAD SHOPPING haha. we found this nice little shop along pagoda street, and the uncle was so so nice. we jus chilled in there for damn damn long cos its nice and cosy, aircon-ed and lotsa mags for entertaining friends of beading aficionados. so we had a nice time there. the gd thing about wandering to this kinda places is that u nv know wat u can find and u discover parts of singapore u nv knew before. will surely be going back there!

niwae, vera wang is my new idol. her life story is jus like the one that i had dreamed of going thru to achieve my ultimate aim. "I would have done anything. I would have swept floors. I would have licked envelopes. I just want to be part of it." i guess that's the same for me. for the 4th yr now, there's nothing i've ever wanted more than this. im still pretty indignant about the SFF being so elitist and all, i mean, if u are talking abt being a regional fashion hub, it's time to involve ur "civilians" in this kinda events and instill some sense of style in them. BUT i tell u, one day, i WILL work my way up to get my rightful invitation to all these by invitation events. i will i will.

woohoo. cts ended (kinda) today. cos PC is a no-study paper. BUT THIS IS ULTIMATE SADNESS. everybody dispersed for various reasons and only rach and i were hanging out and shopping, and joined by eunice and zhiyi later. this is sadness man! i really envy other ppl who have damn united classes, they do everything together, everyone sticks together and all.

u noe, actually the only thing i wanna do is jus shop and buy pretty things for my shole life, and go for aimless shopping trips (and the money jus comes flowing in) and not do anything at all! who cares abt desert piedmont and crap like that. why sit for the A's? its jus damn irritating to grow up. i wanna be jobless man. its really like smoking through your whole life doing sian stuff.

but anyway, happier things, this is my want(but impossible)-list:



say yes to blahnik


give BV some respect. its the ultimate original of all ur cheap far east weaved hobos and watever bags.

(but i like far east! its a nice place to look for cheap substitutes for everything!! hahhaha)

im always dreaming abt weird things on the night before some exams.

like last night, i dreamt that all the clocks in my home were showing different times! i was so worried, cos my dad was sending me to sch and i couldnt tell him if we were late or on time. then, he sped me to sch via this expressway behind our hse, which is non existent btw.

and im SO PROUD OF MYSELF. i stayed wide awake thru the paper! another super concentrated cup of coffee tmr morning for me. and another one for the afternoon paper.

kiss my econs gdbye. totally.

how am i supposed to remember 10+ freaking topics jus to do 20 freaking mcqs!!! which are 20 security marks!!

really. gone with the wind man.

gosh. if i were to sit for a paper now, i think i'd blank out. i mean, i feel like all this cramming is jus swallowing whole and not understanding. the only thing i feel like i noe and can see myself putting my pen to it is maths. the rest are jus fluff. jus vague passing ideas, like,' i noe that, but i cant write an essay' kinda thing. SIGH

and i was jus thinking. we are 18 this yr! that's like the last second yr of teenage!! where have all the yrs gone! (all to your books baby) i think being a STUDENT in SINGAPORE sucks. double the agony. but then again, nah, i dun wanna work either.

yay, i changed my blog pic, and rigged the border colour for the boxes to match the pic :) hope u guys can see the pic too!

haha, i kinda like the result of that quiz! cos gucci is indeed one of my all-time fave brands, although i kinda miss tom ford's designs.

niwae, today was spic! it was pretty fun, ahhaha, i got to go to the underwater world (BUT I MISSED THE TOUCH POOL cos the tcher so kanchiong to get us out!!) and the dolphin lagoon for free!! the kids were real cute too, but i cant post their pics due to some parents' consent issue. and i guess i didnt really do a lot as a leader lah, maybe cos my group was overstaffed, so it was qt relac. and we surely had fun burying zikai! hahah.

the pink dolphins were SO SO cute. ahhah, i wanna be a dolphin lagoon trainer!! and i wanna live at Sentosa Cove too! it'd be SOOO nice to jus open ur door to a beach. DAMN NICE. my dream residence.



sentosa, oh sentosa, sunny island, set in the sea


some random big shark lying across the whole glass hemisphere


THAT's a dugong!!!!


very cute jellyfish!


guang hao, very happy that he got a super subsidised rate to enter underwater world AND dolphin lagoon



this is the thing guang hao's pointing to! starfish stuck to the glass!!


hey, how many times in ur life can u take such a perfect dolphin jump picture! (with a super lousy camera)


we had great fun creating this masterpiece.hahah. this is called cong ming fan bei cong ming wu. cos he was the one who suggested we bury someone's legs.

niwae, if i were to take home one thing from today, it would be that feeling of witnessing immense love frm parents. often we would imagine our children to be normal and all, but these children from minds, they have perfectly normal parents and siblings. and i often wonder how their parents must feel, that occasional disappointment,perhaps, because of all that they would have expected of their child, etc etc, but their love nv ends. it's really touching to see that.

haha, and there was a moment dunno why jilyn started saying how she wanted 3 kids etc, and they was this debate on whether wives should still work when there're kids etcetc. and jilyn said that her aspiration in life is to be a good wife and good mother.from nanyang lah. haahha. since im on this, shall jus do the real one of that tagging thingy.


Rules: Tagged person must come up with 8 points about their perfect lurver. must include the sex of ur lurver.

Sex of my perfect lover: FEMALE. HAHA

1) physical qualities - taller than me and fit. jus normal masculine features.

2) patient and mild tempered - being mild tempered is of utmost importance cos i have an extremely short one.

3) a gentleman and not a chauvinist- cos im partially feminist. dun ever for one sec of his life think of asking me to give up 18 yrs of slogging my life away jus to be a hsewife, unless there's a perfectly good reason.

4) understand my passion for the aesthetics

5) good heart - appreciate the fact that there are less fortunate ppl arnd us.

6)noe when to have fun but keeps his life in check.

7)Filial but not a mama's boy

8)nice to me of cos! ahahha

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went to Raffles Asia Programe in place of Geog S today. and haha, OBVIOUSLY we were waiting for the food. so, the reception which was prob meant only for the humans ppl who were involved in the prog, was invaded by a bunch of geog-ers, with mr lee's approval. HAHA. but the food was nice! so the thick-skinness was worth it k!! hahah, well, basically we were a bunch of cheapskates lah.

there's SPIC tmr for interact (svc project inter club) well this yr's intra-club. and we are bringing MINDS kids to Sentosa!! and being a grp leader, i can go to the underwater world for free!! yay! hahaha, will take some pics :) hope it will be fun and worth the one day of mugging-time. will probably be dead beat by the end.

and. im so pissed by SFF ppl lah!! the 8pm shows (which are obviously all the gd ones like Ashley Isham, JPG etc) are by invitation only. blatant discrimination man!

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hahah, the prev post was sooooo funny. but of cos im not so mean lor! eddy u may sue him for defamation. ahhahaha. AND that post contains many implicit assumptions that are false - please refer to my edits.

ah well, monday's a bleagh day, after thursdays. and i really cant do integration for nuts!

Sex of my perfect partner : Male
Height: taller than me
Must be as cool as isaac (implicit assumption: isaac is cool - FALLACY)
Must be as cute as isaac (implicit assumption :isaac is cute - FALLACY)
Must be as smart as isaac (implicit assumption: isaac is smart - FALLACY)
Must be as hardworking as isaac (implicit assumption :isaac is HARDWORKING (my foot) - FALLACY)
Must not have a stupid name like Eddy (so isaac is a very smart name? ahha)
Must be as good in bowling as isaac and not Eddy
Must not look like Eddy
Must be faithful like isaac, and not Eddy who has 7 wives (raewen raehui cherie cindy kenny steffi jaiwanti)

HAHAHAHAHAHA THATS RIGHT MAN!

there my mum goes again, telling me who and who's duaghter regrets studying fashion design because she cant sew and yada yada yada.

yes i get the point. ah well, maybe one day when i grow older i'll look back and think ' wat a silly ambition'. maybe.
people limit themselves u noe.

but heck all these first. A's A's A's A's A's A's A's

being j2 sucks. i cant emphasize that enough.

integration sucks too.

its the gravity of having to decide for sth that will change ur life, like rach says j2 really marks the switch frm teen to adult. and im so envious of those ppl who have their overseas uni education guaranteed. so they have one less thing to tackle- scholarships. why do i sound so desperate to go overseas? cos im kinda sick of sg, and sometimes when i quarrel with my mum, i jus really think that we should both give each other some space. absence makes the heart fonder, and maybe then we'll appreciate each other better. its jus a desire to escape. some ppl do not know what they want out of life yet, but their path has been laid out before them. i know what i want, but i have to carve out my own path, which is not something that i can guarantee to tahan till then end. i need some divine intervention here.

im not someone who jus blindly accepts sth given to me- a right thing to do, the right way to go, the path with a bright future. yes i know i needa do that to get my dough and watever i'd want, but i jus cant do sth that i dun like. that makes it doubly hard for me.
you cant survive on passion.
u cant survive without money.

u cant waste ur life away.

today was a pretty packed day. ended sch at 12, and went to the shiseido thing with rach (free make up sample man!) and wishing that sch lessons were as interesting/lighthearted as that make up talk, then had interact duty from 2-4, which i qt enjoy cos interacters are nice, then had geog s, which passed really quickly, then went to j8 with melo to grab some presents for ppl, and then met jo. happy bday! didnt really spend much time with jo and ppl cos of dramafeste.

ah well, sch still sucks. lots of things to accomplish over the wkend. and common test's hot at our heels. damn.

interact induction camp was SWELL! i havent had post-something-blues ever since choir concerts, but i find myself thinking about the camp after it. the j1s were swell! so on! so sporting!! station games were ok, dragged on a little too much, so we had to cancel talentime. i think the highlight was NIGHT WALK. so fun k!! but my station with ee jean at the chat rms werent too scary, we figured , cos there were 2 or 3 scares along that stretch, and we were making noises, that were obviously artificial, so we abandoned our station, and joined the walk with the j1s! it was so fun too!!! by that time i wasnt really spooked, cos walking arnd places in the dark got me used to it, so i found myself smiling most of the time cos i know wat's coming up and i know who's behind that scare. an applause to lynn!!! our ever so dramatic sadako!! so engrossed in her acting. she was so great k! and everyone else lah, like huibin, who had to crawl on her knees to grab ppl's legs. hahah, it was so fun. niwae, some parts of the school were really dark!! like the classrms from 4th floor up were so so so dark, except for the staircases at the far far ends. so creepy.

by the time the j1s went to slp, it was abt 2am alrdy. so, the poor j2s, stinky and sweaty since the afternoon had no time to bathe cos we had to set up the night walk, so we had to bath in the wee hours of the morning. haha, some played mahjong and bridge thru the night..hmm, morning. then we woke up at abt 6, and watched the BEAUTIFUL sunrise. there's this extension behind the classrm B44. so we sat there for prob half an hr, jus watching the clouds move and the colours change.



nice eh? the morning was pretty fun too! we had a game called the paradox. like we ask for the biggest guy frm each grp and make them do some marie france bodyline ad, or we ask the geekist guys to do a rap. i have a picture, but i need to picasa it first! (there's a pic of guanghao doing his sin sin cos sin , sth sth, cosec cot, sth sth rap, but i shall not post it. there's a sadako pic too, but i think lynn might kill me! haha)


im glad i went for the camp! made some frens with both j2s and j1s. :) happy

went to dinner with my parents jus now at some viet cuisine restaurant in holland v. hmm, pretty interesting! its supposed to be healthy. and i guess it is! there was vermicelli with tons of veg like lettuce and carrot and cabbage and raw towkay. its prob veggie hell for carnivores but veggie heaven for herbivores ( lulu!) but there was grilled chicken too. qt nice lah, interesting thing to try. my mum made my dad brkfast with all things heart shaped like sandwiches and fruits ahahha, and my dad bought a card for my mum and he tried to hide it in his briefcase, and giving my mum sideway glances to make sure she didnt see. hahah, i think my parents are pretty adorable in this sense.

yay, im so proud of the windmills i gave out! gives satisfaction to see so many spinning when there's wind :) and it was fun to make too lah. dun squash ur windmills k!!

sigh. im suddenly feeling the burden of growing up. decisions, commitments, decisions. now im beginning to appreciate why adults say that being a student is the best. no need to care abt the things going around the world, no need to make major, life-changing decisions, no need to think so deeply about why, what, how. the thought of growing up and working...really makes me dread growing up. and by working, i foresee some sad deskjob life, which is not me at all. i will try with ALL THE CELLS AND BLOOD AND CHI in my body to find a nice interesting job.

meanwhile, school is boring as ever. i think sec sch was the best. the besto!!!

finally a productive weekend!! so proud of myself. but there's still more to go! niwae, janice's blog is so frigging funny!!!!! janice, u have such entertaining talents. stop bullying feli can!! hahaha. sch starts again tmr. i cant differentiate between the different days and week, they are jus lumped together in my brain under one sub topic of SCHOOL. BORING SCHOOL. and very soon, it will be A's and zoom - graduation. i dread the nearing of that day.

niwae, my SATs results are coming out tmr....pretty scared cos i seriously jus bleah-ed thru the last few sections cos i was so freaking tired even after downing one cup of coffee in the morning. its so draining lah. wish me luck :S

i figured i need more discipline cos there's really a lot of work piled up by now. TONS OF READINGS. so, i started my week going for SV on tue. havent been there for really long cos i always cant catch the early bus or it'd be super crowded. so hopefully, i will wake up earlier and go every tue.

lots of work. actually readings!! human geog, phy geog, human geog s, phy geog s, econs (that income determination notes which are totally.. GROSS and the lectures are so DAMN USELESS), econs S. and nv ending maths tutorials!! but somehow i think maths hw are the most enjoyable to do. jus keep doing, apply formula can alrdy.more or less. and this yr's geog's so rushed!! there are so many things that we're expected to resrch ourselves, and i cant really grasp wat's the impt points. hope the tchers do a summary. really glad mr quek is our econs tutor or i think my macro wud DIE. this current lecturer is so...FRUSTRATING!! 1) i dunno wat's he talking abt what keynes wat milton friedman and wat they believe. 2) the basics are not even in! like AS AD etc etc 3) the notes are in such a freaking mess!!! me and eunice complaint so much to mr quek ahhaha.

so, after all that's said, a lot of time will need to be devoted to reading the notes myself AGAIN cos they dun make a single sense to me now. and making geog notes. UGGGHHHH. school is so sian!!! I HATE THURSDAYS!!! its my most most most most dreaded day. its bad enuf to have pe frm 3-4 and ON TOP OF THAT MISERY, econs s from 4-5!! :( the only thing that salvages the late late day is some jokes by the expat tchers. fri wud be perfect if not for the 4hr break. so rach and i bummed arnd and idled in j8 and the lib. and i had a nice nap in the sofa section. ahahha

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The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry. -yes
You are a person who thinks before acting, intelligent and thorough. -i guess?
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others. -yes!

went to chingay 06 with iris! it was pretty fun! except for the LONG LONG LONG wait. there was a rj /rj dance club troupe! with 3 floats! hahah, how cool is that. pictures! some random shots of the parade, and YES that's jy. ahahha. so iris was busy waving to all her frens! haha, and each troupe had their own coordinators, so the coordinators were rj ppl too. pretty interesting. ahhah.






these are rj dancers!

(sidenote: picasa is SO COOL LAH. my pics were super dark cos my cam's lousy. so i jus click "fill light" and voila! u can actually see the faces in the pics!)

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ok. so after the parade ended at close to 10, iris had to eat cos shehadnt had her dinner, so we went centrepoint, which was behind where we were seating and it was freaking full! so we went over to taka, which is SUPER chingay unfriendly. not a single shop was open AND THERE WAS ONLY ONE FREAKING DOOR OPEN IN THE WHOLE BUILDING. and i meant ONE PANEL of a glass door. does it hurt them a wee bit to open jus the other panel!>?!?!? and the disco thing was jus outside taka, so it was pretty crowded. so we went over to paragon coffeebean.

that's our reflection off the ceiling at coffeebean. haha.

AND AND AND I CONCLUDE THAT NIGHT TAXI DRIVERS ARE EVIL!!!!!! we couldnt get one at abt 11.30 when we were done. cos they were
1) waiting for midnight surcharge
2) waiting for on-calls

DAMN EVIL.

so we had to wait for my dad till nearly 1...yes and so im suffering frm lack of sleep now.

met the 401-ers yest, 12 of us altogether, mostly rj ppl, ahhaha, but its still good cos i hardly get to talk to them much in school. everyone's still the same, gd old gullible felly! bullied by janice! and dearest wanying (has grown smarter!) hahaha. had dinner at nydc and walked arnd. didnt do much, but it was nice to jus be together again.

im listening to phantom of the opera now. as brilliant as ever.

i FINALLY got to swim today. but it still rained, so i swam for a short while. i enjoy swimming cos its so relaxing but u can be comforted that u're working off some of ur cny guilt. school was boring as usual haha, except when rachel stays in the disillusion that she is sayuri in memoirs. yes yes, u want a life of ur own. ahhaha. the movie is nice i must say! but i checked the book's ending - sooo ooo much longer- and ppl are saying that chairman's a paedo. HAHA. true. but still..aww, ken watanabe. ahhaha

Little Wing

Well she’s walking through the clouds
With a circus mind that’s running round
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairy tales
That’s all she ever thinks about
Riding with the wind.

When I’m sad, she comes to me
With a thousand smiles, she gives to me free
It’s alright she says it’s alright
Take anything you want from me, anything
Anything.

Fly on little wing,
Yeah yeah, yeah, little wing

how do you celebrate ur cny? i dunno, but this yr i dun really feel like its the cny alrdy and partly also cos im not that close to my cousins, so cny its a very routine-y thing. but the food makes up for things of cos. but this yr kinda sucks cos there's tons of hmwk, and obviously im not in the mood to do them. argh. why do we have to grow up! have u ever wondered why u do all these work for? what for? why?

watched memoirs yest. nice nice nice. so nice. i think ancient japanese culture is so intriguing. and i think its so sad that the geisha trade died off, i mean, its a really beautiful art and their every movement is an art. i especially love the ending, ahha, but i think the ending was much sadder in the book. and i think ken watanabe suits the role of Chairman.

ITS A SIGN MAN. hahaha, there's project runway, sharon, and now ashley isham's success story on the papers. its surely a sign. and when i pointed out ashley isham to my mum, she gave that "oh no" expression and she must be thinking, this kid is getting off track, lead her back to the path of light. ah well. seems like i have to do things in the dark then. apply for all necessary things and when its done i shall tell her. more impactful. i know my chances are slim but im taking the chance. and i would really love to convince my mum that fashion is indeed a viable career option (how do you say viable in chinese?), not in singapore obviously. but start somewhere else. fashion is viable because it can never go extinct. why do so many ppl yearn for their gucci chanel lv and raid zara mango and topshop? cos fashion lives. of cos, that would be my ultimate dream. but otherwise, if im to follow the path of light and study something...conventional, i would still hope to find a job related to the fashion industry. ah well, life.

sharon, thnks for coming along to inject that passion into me again. im so blessed to have frens arnd me who appreciate my passion and interest and encourage me along the way. that's really precious.

it's 3 wks into sch and i alrdy feel the heat. i hate thursdays. long and draggy and not a wee bit enjoyable. sitting among science and humans ppl bursting with brain juices on which economist said what aint boosting my self esteem. yes. so thursdays suck. not to mention the huge pile of readings which jus beat arnd the bush and i cant qt get what they are trying to say. and also heaps of assignments.

project runway was..inspiring. debuting at NY Fashion Week is jus so drop jaw. that is what i really wanna do. fashion is my calling man. no matter how much my mum tries to discourage me by saying "eeyer, u have to sew all day and night" (i dun care mama!) and thinking that "if you wanna stike it rich u gotta find a nice 9-5 job" (not true mama!) i really dun care. i dun wanna look back when im old and regret not doing something that i've wanted to

im inclined to believe that my belongings are involved in some conspiracy to escape from me. its my calculator this time!! it must have eloped with my geog notes or SOMETHING. urgh. i hate losing things cos it jus makes me very disorganised